chapter 39

"Jeena azaab kar rakha hai meri in aankhon ne!!

Khuli ho to talash Teri , band ho to khwab tere"

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Abeer pov-

I came straight from her room to my room, slammed the door behind and started pacing in the room one and fourth.

After some time, i went towards the bed and sits near edge of bed and rubs his both hand on his face while his breathing was still fast.

Relax Rathore..............., i said to myself and tried to calm myself.

I placed my hand on my heart and realized that my breathing was very fast, and i don't know what i am feeling like lonely,restless,strange, hurt or should I say that for the first time I am feeling like rejected ,thinking all this, i took a deep breath to control my mind and emotions.

That's what she must have felt whenever i didn't accepted our marriage and her as my wife..........,

I thought and run my hands through my hair's then removed my watch' from the wrist then placed it on the bed.

that's when my attention was taken by the bag which was lying on bed beside me i picked that bag and placed it on my lap.

I opened that bag, took out the toe ring and looked at it carefully.

This toe rings.........., i murmured looking at that and sighed.

I wanted to make you wear this toe rings...........i wanted make you wear all the symbols of our marriage............ and complete the Last ritual of our marriage.........., i thought looking at that toe rings and smiled little, while tracing those toe rings.

I thought their will no more hide and seek............you will no longer need to hide your mangalsutra and vermillion...............you will no longer to live here with a nameless relation............. Today i wanted to accept you as my WIFE in front of my own family , infront of everyone...................., i thought and closed it in a my fist and brought both my hands forward and rested my forehead on it.

I opened my fist after some time and looked at that toe rings and then stood up from the bed then and went to my walking closet.

I opened my wardrobe and then opens my first drawer , takes out a brown coloured wooden box from inside then goes back to my room and sits on the bed.

I open the wooden box and looked at all the belongings of her which were lost by her and which i found accidentally.

Her anklets, her earrings which she had lost on the night of Karva Chauth, her red bangles and pearl earrings.

I takes out her anklets from the box and looks at it carefully and traces it and at the same time i remember the day when we got married accidentally and our first meet as a husband and wife.

I still remember her wearing red colour suit with her head covered with net Red colour dupatta, her long black beautiful hair were open while her hands adorned with red bangles.

she stood stiff, scared and how she clutched her dupatta in her hands tightly when those ladies left us alone in that room.

Her face was covered with tears while her tip of her nose was red and her cheeks that were turned red.

While looking at her face anyone could have said that she was a mere teenager at that time and even knowing this, I just left her there ..... without caring for her.

I was jerk!!

I no that i did wrong but at that time, my anger was the strongest among all my emotions and i left her in that room...........,

I thought and closed my eyes in regret.

But now i have to make everything right..........but how?......, i thought looking at her anklets which are currently in my hand.

Your owner is very angry with me............, i said to her ankelts.

She doesn't even let me come near herself forget this........she is not even ready to talk to me and always runs away from me whenever i tried to talk with her......., i said looking at her anklets and shake those anklets lightly due to which jingling sounds started coming from the anklet and as soon as i heard this sound, i calmed down and smiled slightly.

I then looked at those toe rings which was still in my hands and kept them in that wooden box along with the anklets.

I will give her these toe rings when everything is alright between us.........., i thought and again put the box where it was and also kept that bag with it which contain her gifts which I brought today for her and then went to sleep.

Morning -

After doing his work out in Gym, abeer goes to his room to freshen up and gets ready in his office attire.

After getting ready for office, Abeer leaves his room to go downstairs when his steps stop in front of Chandni's room door and he thought of checking her.

Without thinking he stood near the door of her room and touch the door to knock, when the door slightly opens automatically and he saw that she was talking to someone on the phone while supporting the phone with her right shoulder and pinning her black dupatta on her left shoulder.

I will be back in a few days' ....., chandni said on the phone to adarsh while abeer also heard her.

Abeer opened the door and went into her room then closed the door behind while listening door closing sound chandni takes her phone in her hand and then turned towards that side  and found Abeer who's coming towards her.

Chandni becomes frozen stiff in her place while abeer takes the phone from her hand and put the call on speaker.

Have your train tickets been cancelled?.........., adarsh asks on call while listening him abeer just wanted him to clear that now she won't come back.

You sister' is not coming ..........Not tomorrow ,not the day after, not the week after, not even the month af............., abeer was saying this while looking into Chandni's eyes dangerously, when chandni took the phone from Abeer's hands so that Abeer should not say anything else.

Who are you?.........they heard adarsh ​​asking on the call.

I hope your sister herself will give you the answer ........., Abeer said and raised his one eyebrow looking at Chandni.

Chandni gets shocked after listening to abeer and adarsh ​​and her heart starts beating fast.

Chandni ...........,

Chandni again hears Adarsh's voice and realizes that he is waiting for the answer.

Chandni looks at Abeer who is waiting for her to answer that what she is going to say.

Uh.....he is ...uhm ...he is....Suhana Aunty's son........, chandni said without making eye contact with Abeer.

I'll talk to you later Bhai........, she said and immediately disconnected the call.

Am I just your Suhana Aunty's son?.........., abeer asked in deep voice to the one who was not ready to make eye contact with him and not even answering him seeing her behaving like this he took a step towards her.

When abeer saw she was not making eye contact with him, he removed his hand from his pant pocket and moved  forward to touch her chin when Chandni's voice stopped him.

You agreed with my condition that you will not touch me........., chandni said and immediately took a step back away from him.

Hmm.........., abeer just hummed in respond and immediately took his hand back and looked the other way.

He just closed his eyes and took a deep breath and then looked back at her.

You said that if I don't tell anyone at home about our marriage then you won't insist on leaving from here.........then this............, abeer asked her who's just silently standing there.

if you feel like visiting to your grandmother's house that much then let us go together................but before that we will go downstairs and tell everyone that we are married............, abeer said in serious tone and on hearing this, chandni immediately looks towards Abeer for second.

I don't want to tell anyone anything ..........., she said meekly without making eye contact with me.

Why?..........why are you stopping me from telling everyone that we are husband and wife.........tell me......, abeer could do anything just asked her who's not at all ready to answer me.

If you are angry because of my past behavior.......... then i am sorry please forgive me, I know I did wrong.........., Abeer said softly but chandni didn't said anything just looked other way and closed her eyes.

Or has something else happened? ..........., abeer asked her but she again didn't answered back.

Tell me?............., abeer again asked her and this she looked at him.

Beacuse .....now i don't want to be bound in this marriage anymore................,chandni said while clutching her side of suit tightly in her hands, took a deep breath and continued.

You can marry someone else ............, Chandni said while listening her abeer closed his eyes for second and  took breath to control himself.

If you have thought that you should not go through with this marriage then why are you wearing this Mangalsutra? ..............., Abeer said first looking at her face then her neck where she is wearing it while listening him she felt frozen at her place.

It will be ........lik_e a hab_it..........it will go away gradu_ally in few da_ys.........., chandni said slowly while listening her abeer looked at her for second then immediately leave her room.

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Chandni sees Abeer going out of her room while tears start flowing from her eyes.

After few seconds later she just took a deep breath to control herself then wiped her tears with back of her hands.

She goes towards the mirror and hides her mangalsutra then pinned her dupatta on the right side and after checking herself in the mirror whether she is right or not, she leaves her room to go downstairs towards the dining table.

When Chandni reached the dining room and then sits on her chair, and after some minute she courageously looked around the dining room to find abeer but could not find him anywhere.

Where did he go........

She thought and at that time she heard Abeer's mother and grandmother and came to know that he had gone to office.

As soon as she heard this, she lost her appetite and played with the food which kept in her plate for some time and then made an excuse and went away without eating anything and her all day went and then her whole day went thinking about Abeer.

Abeer office -

Abeer who's from morning, just kept firing his employes from their job and yelling at them for their smallest mistakes and also makes them the target of his anger.

He was sitting on his chair and checking his file when he heard his office door opening sound.

He was all ready again to pounce on the person who tried to enter his cabin without his permission but he touched his tip of nose and immediately tried to calm himself.

when he saw his best friend with vikrant following them behind and they all coming towards his desk, holding their phone in their respective hand and smiling cheekily while still keeping there full attention on their phone screen.

How many times have I told you both that' first knock and then if I give permission..........., then come inside my office.........., abeer said irritatingly looking at his best friends.

Sir i did not on my own......Abhi and Ruhaan sir dragged me with themselves forcefully........., vikrant said to save himself from his anger as he had an idea of ​​his anger since morning.

Look i am not in good mood and........ now both of you don't do anything that will take out my anger on you guy's.........., abeer said in serious tone while looking at his best friend.

While his best' friend just ignored his words like always and then they first looking at each first then again looked back at abeer and smiled.

#Abeersinghrathor .......

#Abeersinghrathoreinlove

With

#secretgirl #dreamgirl.........,

Trending in India at first position  ........., ruhan said looking at his phone screen and then abeer smiling.

#MostEligibleBachelorinlove

#Love'sintheair

With

#businessmanabeersinghrathore

Trending in the world at third position on twitter........, abhi said also looking at his own phone screen and blinked his eyelids several times looking at abeer.

#WorldNo1BUSINESSMANINLOVE

With

#hotabeersinghrathore #handsome

Trending in India at second position on twitter ..............., ruhan said and then both of them go and sit on the chair that kept in front of Abeer's desk and they both raised their eyebrows.

What nonsense you guys are saying?............., Abeer said loudly while irritation and anger was visible in his voice and stood up from his chair.

Seeing Abeer standing up from the chair, abhi played the last night's video in which he is singing a song.

How were these recorded?.........and how did you guys get this video?.............., abeer aasked and immediately took the phone from abhi hand and saw that video on Twitter.

But few seconds later Abeer finds out who might have done this.

Adi ...this brat........today I am not gonna leave him.........., abeer shouted and immediately puts Abhi's phone on the desk and without saying anything he takes his phone and coat and immediately leaves his cabin.

Hey first answer our questions.........., ruhan and abhi shouted together but by then Abeer has left the cabin while Vikrant follows him.

When abeer was going towards his private lift he would feel that everyone was looking at him strangely but as soon as he looked at everyone and glared at them, they all went back to their work.

And when he reaches down, he sees that there is a lot of media reports were present there for his interview.

Abir was aware that why the media reports had come and what related questions they were going to ask.

Abeer told Vikrant to got this situation under control while Abeer's bodyguard surrounded him from all sides until he sit inside in his car and his car drove away from there.

Home -

My sisters .........my dear sisters, please help me....... I know Bhai will definitely not leave me today.........Not even any elders present so that they can protect me from bhai...... and i don't why everyone in our house had to go out today..........., adi said while complaining about the elders who have gone out today to aditi Ahana and chandni who are trying to make something delicious for dinner.

You should have thought before making a mistake, now bhai won't leave you .........., ahana said to make him more afraid and laughed with aditi looking at his reaction while also the house staff which were present there also smiled looking at adi scared face.

Chandni dii , please aap to Vishwas karein.......I did not do this intentionally .......I made that video only so that I could listen later........., Abeer said and went towards her.

i believed you ............., chandni said and then picked up the packet of chips from the counter and placed it in Adi's hands so that he stay quiet for a while.

We also belive you adi ........., ahana aditi said together looking at him.

Then you three will save me bhai ?........, he just asked them with hope and while looking at his puppy eye's they all three Just nodded in response.

When Adi is completely sure that these three will save him, he walks out of the kitchen silently with the packet of chips.

Adi sitting on the sofa in the living room and eating chips in not so worry State when Abeer's loud voice echoed in his direction and he jumped from the couch.

ADI ......, Abeer takes adi's name loudly when he saw him sitting comfortably on the living room couch.

Bhai aa gaye..........., adi murmured without looking at his direction and immediately started running to find his saviours.

Wait there, otherwise I'm going to beat you if i caught you ........, abeer said and chases adi.

Listening abeer loud voice ahana aditi  went inside the living room and seeing ahana aditi there adi went towards them and hides behind them.

Meri pyari behno....... please save me from bhai ........., adi said standing behind them and saw him standing infront them.

stand aside, both of you ........, Abeer said in strict tone while hearing him they both immediately stood aside.

Dii?....., adi said looking at them and felt betrayed but without waiting for second he again runs away and when he finds nowhere to run, he goes to the kitchen and sees the Chandni in the kitchen.

Chandni dii .......... bacha le mujhe Bhai se........., adi said scared and hid behind her while all the house staff who were just present looked at them silently.

before Chandni could react anything, she heard Abeer's voice.

Adi ......I am going to treat you well today ........, Abeer angrily while coming inside the kitchen.

Abeer comes inside the kitchen and sees Adi hiding behind Chandni.

Diii..........., Adi said looking at his own brother while standing behind chandni he looked at his angry brother while still holding Chandni's arm from behind.

Hmm.....step aside Chandni.........,  abeer said while chandni looks at him whose hair is completely messed up , the three buttons of his black shirt were open and his coat was in his hand with a tie.

And from his face expression anyone can tell that at this time he is a little angry but also looking handsome as always.

Step aside..........Ms Sharma........., abeer said while listening him chandni regained his senses back and immediately started looking in the other direction.

On hearing Abeer's words, all the staff present there looked at Chandni in concern as they knew the consequences of that, they all knew that abeer didn't like any outsider to intrude in the family matter,especially a girl.

Dii nahi please........., adi while making puppy faces and held Chandni hand's tightly while chandni turns her face slightly to look at Adi then looked back at Abeer.

Adi .......he did not do it to intention_ally.....it just happ_ened..... by mistake......., chandni said with great courage and then looked at him.

Do you even know what he did?..........., abeer said while glaring at him who's hiding behind her and then looked carefully at his hands which were holding the her arms at this time while she's just nodded in response.

Adi moves his face away from Chandni's back and then looks at Abeer over her shoulder.

Bhai ........you also see the profit .....You are trending all over Twitter because of that video of mine.......... and now your brand value will increase......... Hain na di?..............., adi said and started laughing a little.

Just look at him and you're saying he didn't do it intentionally............ , Abeer said looking at Chandni.

Did you know because of this in my office my staffs were looking at me strangely......and i don't know how many media people were standing in front of the office today..............., Abeer said irritatingly and then he extended his hand to hold Adi while seeing this action of Abeer, he dragged Chandni with himself back and unknowingly put his one' hand on her waist.

Abeer saw that and he first looks towards Chandni and then at Adi's hand which is currently on Chandni's waist.

Adi ....... first remove your hands from her waist...........and stand straight......., abeer said irritatingly and adi removed his hand from her waist.

On hearing this, Chandni looks towards Abeer who is looking at her dangerously and for a moment they all fell silent.

Maaf kar dein......., chandni said slowly without making eye contact with him.

Aap bhi ........., abeer said and at that time adi tries to run away from there and accidentally pushed Chandni who's got collides with abeer chest and to balance himself she put her hands on his chest while all the staff who were present there gasped seeing this scene.

Abeer like always does not forward his hands to help her just stood frozen at his place so that he can't accidentally touch her with his hands as he remembers that Chandni had forbidden him to touch her.

Chandni, whose hand was on Abeer's chest, feels that Abeer's heart is very fast.

Chandni removes her face from Abeer's chest and looks at his face, she slowly balances herself on her feet and immediately takes her steps back.

Without saying anything, Abeer immediately went out from the kitchen while chandni just frozen at her place.

How fast was his heartbeat...........,

Chandni thought and then slowly look at everyone who were present there.

Seeing them looking at her in shock she just nodded tugged her strands behind her ear nervously and then slightly smiled at them and also walks out of the kitchen without saying a word.

Night

By dinner time everything was went fine between Abeer and adi.

After having dinner silently everyone goes to their respective rooms, chandni also went to her room and takes a few steps towards her vanity when she remembers something.

He will again come inside ...........,, chandni thought and immediately went to close the door of the room.

After this, Chandni takes her night clothes, white palazzo, kurti and her dupatta from the wardrobe and goes to the bathroom to freshen up.

Abeer who stands near the door of Chandni's room and knocks on her door a couple of times and tries to open the door but gets no response from inside and got to know that the door was closed from inside Abeer goes back to his room.

Abeer keeps pacing in his room to and fro, and thinking about how to go inside her room, and at that same moment he gets an idea.

Balcony..........Her room balcony is attached to my office room balcony............, abeer said to himself and immediately takes his laptop and phone and goes towards the balcony of his meeting and from there directly enters the chandni balcony and stands infront of her balcony door.

I wish this door was open .........., abeer said to himself and prayed all the god that the door should be open and then he places his hand on the handle of that door and turns it and the door gets opened seeing this, Abeer smiles slightly.

Abeer enters in Chandni's room and then closes the balcony door behind.

Abeer roams his eyes all around the room to see Chandni but cannot find her in the room and then heard the sound of water which was coming from the bathroom.

She is inside...........

He thought and then sits on her bed and waits for chandni sitting there but when chandni does not come in few minutes, Abeer opens his laptop and starts checking his office mails.

And at that moment the opening and closing was heard by abeer he looked at Chandini who's comes out of the bathroom wearing white suit, her hair was open and still she was wearing bangles and anklets.

Chandni looks at Abeer who's sitting on her bed and seeing him there she gets shocked.

I closed the door right?....... then how?

Chandni thought and then she looks towards the door to check and finds the door was still locked while just kept looking at her blankly without blinking his eyes.

Aap yahan kya ker rahe h? .............. leave this aside first tell me how did you get inside?................, chandni said while coming towards him who's just sitting on her bed.

Seeing her coming towards his side Abeer shifts more comfortably on the bed with laptop on his lap and supported his back on the headrest then looked at her.

Aap ........aap Ander kaise aaye ? ............, chandni asked him while just standing two' steps away from him.

Balcony.........., he said looking at his confused wife while pointing his fingers towards the balcony door.

Aap yahan kyu aaye h ?.........., chandni asked him while abeer placed his laptop on the bed then stood up from the bed just to tease her.

Chandni immediately takes a step back after seeing Abeer standing up from the bed.

Aapko kya lagta h kyu aaya hu ?..............,. Abeer said while taking steps towards her and looking at her with intensity who is taking her steps back away from him whenever Abeer takes steps towards her and at her back get's collided with wall.

Answer me ........ kya lagta h ? .......kyu aaya hu ........., abeer said looking at her who's breathing was fast finding he can tell that by looking at her.

Mujhe nshi pata.........aur aap jaaye yahan se....., chandni said meekly while listening her abeer could not hold himself just smiled.

while Chandni just passes by him from side and she just took a one step from there when Abeer held her dupatta to stop her.

I'm not going anywhere........ from now on I'm going to sleep here .........., Abeer said while still holding her dupatta.

If you want to sleep here ........then i am going to Aditi and ahana room........., chandni said without looking at him and tried to remove her dupatta from his grip.

Then let's get go together ..........Because from now on I will sleep wherever you sleep........., Abeer said and leaves her dupatta and again he goes to the bed and sits comfortably there while listening him chandni gets shocked.

Chandni does not take Abeer's words seriously and moves towards the door, but Abeer's voice stops her steps.

Mrs rathore.......i mean it what I said ......... believe me you will find me there in the next minute If you go there beside yourself............aur phir sabke questions ka jawab aapko Dena hoga.........., Abeer said looking at her who's frozen at her place.

Chandni turns towards him after few seconds and then starts looking for a place to sleep.

Abeer who looks at her and has an idea what she is thinking.

Sleep on the bed ........this bed is enough for both of us.............., abeer said while chandni just Shake her head in no.

Believe me I will not do anything......itna to vishwas ker hi Sakti h ?.............., Abeer said slowly and after listening to him, Chandni slowly moves her steps to the other side of the bed as she does not wanted to hurt him again like morning.

Chandni lies down on the bed facing other side of Abeer and covered herself completely with the comforter with her trembling hands.

Seeing her laying on the bed, abeer got up from the bed with the laptop and places it on the table and switches off the lights of the room and then goes back towards the bed and sit.

Abeer turns to look at Chandni for second and then switches off the lamp on his side and layed down on the bed.

Chandni's breathing becomes heavy when she feels Abeer laying down on the bed and immediately clutches the comforter closer to her chest and her toes curled.

Because of which her bangles and anklets start making noise.

Chandni tries to sleep for a long time but she can't able to sleep, she keeps shifting in the same place due to which her anklets and bangles keep making noise.

Sunein...........,Abeer called her but Chandni does not reply to Abeer even after waking up just clutched the comforter more tightly on her chest.

Red .........., Abeer again called and like first time chandni again didn't answered him.

Abeer tries to call Chandni for a several time but she does not answer him back and at last he just sighed.

Chandni's breath stops in her throat when she feels Abeer shifting towards her and before she could react.

Abeer covered Chandni well with the blanket and then made her lay her on her back and then hovers over her.

You .......you said ......you will not tou_ch me........., Chandni said with great effort while taking long breaths, looking at him who's face was just Little distance away from her.

I am not touching you ............, Abeer said looking at her face features carefully.

Par........., Chandni tries to say something with her trembling lips and quivering eyelashes when abeer stops her in between.

Shhhh..........i have been calling you ever since why weren't you answering my question? ............., Abeer said looking deeply in her eyes.

I fell asleep ........, chandni lied and looked other side.

Hmm ......par ab jab jaag gayi h aap to kya MERi baat sunegi ?..........., abeer asked her while chandni just nodded cutely in response looking at other side.

Remove your anklets and bangles............, Abeer said in a husky voice while chandni looked at him with her quivering eyelashes.

Why? ........, chandni softly asked in a whisper without meeting his gaze.

Because......... the jingling sound of your bangles and anklets is seducing me............. believe me, it doesn't fit with my condition at all................., Abeer said slowly first looking at her eyes and then looking at her lips.

Chandni's ears and cheeks turn red after hearing this while she just saw him gulping.

"Ker sitam jitne bhi magar,

Is Dil mein dhadkan tere naam ki hogi,

Adhuri khwaish toh bahut si hai magar,

Aakhri khwaish tere didar ki hogi"

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