Chapter 63
The Tyrant's Beloved Doll
âBrother, good morningâ¦â Sezh, who was not having a âgoodâ morning at all, greeted him with a heavy heart.
Having arrived first, Raytan was sitting in a chair and staring at Sezh. Already on the desk was a cake topped with large strawberries and a glass of steaming milk, as always.
âWho was it this time?â
âWhat?â
âWho made you like that? Bern? Lillian?â
Every time Raytan noticed that Sezh was in low spirits, he would always ask that question.
Whether it was because the aura Raytan radiated became much sharper than when he was younger or maybe because he was worried that Lady Lize would intervene if a fight broke out again, but Bern did not pick a fight with Raytan anymore.
Lillian was also the same. Every time she harassed the innocent Sezh, Raytan would appear. After that, she would throw a few words of insult and then leave the scene.
âNo, no. Nothing happened.â
It looked like Raytan wanted to say something more, but in the end, he just shut his mouth. Suddenly, what his mother had said ran through his mind.
Last night, after taking Sezh back to her palace, Raytan came to Lize. When she heard what happened with Carolyn Regent at the debutante ball, her face was full of happiness. It was truly different from her face that always stared at empty air with a pair of dull eyes.
She spoke in a cold voice, âEverything was well done. Let the rest be taken care of in its own way.â
âThe act of a good brother will soon end. You know what I mean, right Raytan?â
Now, they have to keep their distance. So, Raytan shouldnât have to pay attention to whether Sezh dies or cries.
And it wasnât just because of Lizeâs orders. Raytan wasnât confident. He wasnât sure that he could get rid of this idiot who is always calling âBrother! Brother!â while chasing him around.
So there was nothing good about maintaining a close relationship with her like right now.
âDid something happen to you, Brother? Your expression does not look good.â
âWhatâs wrong with my expression?â
âBecause the âVâ of your eyebrows seems sharper than usual.â
Just as Raytan noticed the changes in Sezhâs emotions today, Sezh also noticed his. Of course, itâs Raytan. He furrows his brows even if he feels happy. He will also do so when heâs annoyed. However, when Sezh looked at him closely, she felt something was slightly different today.
âBrother?â
âNo matter what happens to me, itâs not your business,â Raytan finally spoke and spat out those barbed words. âDonât look at me. Focus and do your questions.â
âAh, those bitter words again!â
â¦In truth, those words no longer affect her. At first, Sezh couldnât get used to it and was quietly hurt. But now, itâs all familiar, so she didnât mind.
âHow can I not care? Itâs not someone else, itâs you.â
ââ¦â
âSo please tell me first. Who knows? It could be something I can help you with?â
ââ¦What kind of help can you give me?â
Nothing has changed. It had been like this since they were young. Sezh was worried about his hand, which had only a little blood on it while she had a bleeding nose. Back then, when he asked why she was in a fight with Lillian, sheâd answered it was because Lillian insulted him with those nasty rumors.
Sezh always cared about his problems as if they were hers as well.
â¦Stupid kid. Raytan struggled to keep those words inside his mouth.
âOr perhaps⦠Did Brother Bern or Sister Lillian say something weird again? But I thought they were quieter now⦠However, please donât worry too much. Like the fight that happened last time, I can help you to some extent.â
Thatâs the thing, what kind of help did she mean? Raytan really couldnât understand her. That idea was ridiculous, but a burst of laughter came out of his mouth without him realizing it. She was acting seriously by herself and constantly talking about helping⦠Itâs cute.
âIâm serious.â
âAre you going to bite and get knocked out like a dog again? So stupid.â
âIf you need it⦠That too⦠Iâm willing to do it,â Sezh said with a determined look.
Raytan stared at Sezh and suddenly got up from his seat.
âLetâs have a different class today.â
âYes? What class?â
âWell, what to call it⦠Martial arts training?â
â⦠Me?â
âWhat kind of crazy things are you sayingâ was written all over her face.
âItâs not going to be that hard. Of course, your skills are terrible, but you donât have to worry about it since you have a talented teacher,â Raytan shamelessly said without changing the expression on his face.
Well, Sezh roughly knows that he is good at martial arts. Even before her return, he started a coup.
But Sezh wasnât sure she could do this. Besides, although the library was quite spacious, it wasnât a suitable place to learn martial arts.
âWhat are you doing? Get up.â
Sezh got up from her seat. Raytan roughly pushed the table and chairs into one corner of the room. Then he beckoned for her to approach him.
ââ¦Youâre not just trying to hit me, right?â
âWhy would I?â
âNo, I just asked to confirm.â
âHe isnât going to hit me,â Sezh nodded.
âYou canât strain your ankles, so today Iâm only going to show you basic moves.â
âAnd what is thatâ¦â
âJust remember one thing. The vital spots.â
âVital-⦠What?â
âKicking the pit of the stomach, philtrum, and crotch⤠Especially if your opponent is a man, kick the crotch first. It will work better.â
âCro-â¦What?â
âIâll teach you how to kick it later, so just listen for now.â
âIf you kick the wrong way, your foot might break, so kick like this,â Raytan explained by showing her a demonstration.
Sezh listened to him eagerly. It was because Raytan looked so serious. After explaining for a while, Raytan looked at Sezhâs hand.
âClench your fist.â
âAnd what is this againâ¦â Sezh asked in her mind.
But now she has to do what he told her to do first. Sezh clenched her fists.
âOpen it again.â
Raytan didnât seem to like something. But arenât all fists the same? Sezh tilted her head.
âExclude your thumb from the other four fingers. Fold the rest inward and hold it. Then place your thumb tightly over your index finger.â
âThis⦠Like this?â
Although she was working hard to shape her fist to be like what Raytan instructed, it still didnât satisfy her at all. Sezh had no idea why it looked so awkward.
Raytan grabbed Sezhâs fingers one by one and guided her on how to clench her fist correctly.
âSwing it in a straight line. Fast and strong. Like this.â
Swish
When Raytan punched his fist into the air, she could hear the sound of the wind it created. If Sezh did that instead, she would only break her own bones. His fist seemed to be twice as large as hers.
That must be why Bern didnât pick a fight with him again. Sezh was thinking useless thoughts in the meantime.
âNow, you try it.â
Sezh straightened her fist and swung it out as hard as she could, but it wasnât even a bit like what Raytan did.
ââ¦Are you kidding me?â
âNo, Iâm not. Iâm working hard to do it.â
Raytan only stared at Sezh with an expression that looked like he was saying she was pathetic. Sezh didnât have any bad thoughts before. But when things became like this, itâs somehow starting to upset her.
Honestly, Sezh thought she was good at fighting. That strange self-confidence began to be amplified after the âDog Fightâ incident in the library several years ago and peaked in the âDog Fight 2â² incident, where she and Lillian were fighting against each other by snatching and grabbing each otherâs hair.
âI also have pride, but he ignores my effort like that!â Sezh swung her fist as if she wanted to break something.
â¦The problem is, Raytan was trying to help correct her posture. So his face was accurately punched by her fist.
Silence descended on the library.
âWhat have I just done,â Sezh looked at Raytan with a confused face.
If Sezh was perplexed, Raytan instead looked strange. He made a vague expression for a moment, then parted his lips as if he was just pulled back to reality.
ââ¦Did you hit me just now?â
âI- I wasnât trying to do thatâ¦â
âYou hit me.â
âAh, no⦠I just wanted to show you that I really put some effort⦠â
ââ¦â
âI wasnât reallyâ¦â
ââ¦Ha,â Raytan laughed.
She was embarrassed because of the burst of laughter but⦠Well, that means Raytan wasnât in a bad mood now.
âBrotherâ¦?â
Sezh glanced at Raytan. She swung her fist as hard as she could, so Sezh was worried that he would be hurt. She felt guilty too.
Nevertheless, Raytan continued to laugh. She was pretty sure she hit his face, not his head. Sezh put up a serious expression.
âIs Brother like this because it hurts? But I think itâs not⦠â
Raytan stared at the worrying Sezh and replied while holding back his laughter.
âIt hurts.â
ââ¦â
âIt hurts so much I think Iâm going to die.â
Itâs a complete lie, of course. Far from painful, it was rather tickling. Even if heâs punched by that cotton bud-like fist a hundred times, he wonât feel anything.
But Sezhâs reaction was interesting, so Raytan lied.
âI should have realized it when you snatched Lillianâs hair. That time was a hint for me to believe.â
âT-Thatâs notâ¦.â
âI canât stand straight because itâs so painful. I think I need to sit down and rest.â
âIâm screwed,â Sezh, who had fallen for the lie, continued to observe him.
On the other side, Raytan comfortably down by the window alone.
As their eyes met, Raytan still pretended and touched his cheek. Then he kept mumbling something.
âReally, it hurts more than I thought.â
âIâ¦â Sezh, who was restless, approached him carefully.
She sat down by the wide window next to Raytan and muttered a little.
âIf I knew it would be like this⦠That⦠I think this is because Iâm good at fighting. It seems like my fists are getting stronger⦠Still, I didnât know it was this much⦠Iâll be careful next time.â
He knew it was a sincere apology, but his strongly repressed laughter still came out of his mouth. But if he keeps laughing, he wonât be able to tease Sezh anymore. So Raytan held back his laughter with all his might.
âThatâs right. If I get hit by you once more, I think I will die.â
âIâm really sorry. In the future, I will continue lessons while adjusting my strength.â
âThat⦠Ughâ¦â¦ Okay,â Raytanâs mouth trembled. âMake sure you check the right place.â
Sezh slowly reached out her hand. Her white and thin hand touched his pointed cheeks as if he was a statue. Her face came closer until it looked like she was about to touch his nose.
Raytan reflexively flinched. The sun-drenched wall was dazzling, and the only things his eyes caught were her rosy cheeks and lips.
âI donât think it is swellingâ¦.â
ââ¦â
âIt doesnât hurt a lot, does it?â
ââ¦â
ââ¦. Brother?â
There was no answer, so Sezh looked into Raytanâs eyes. Their gazes clashed and fixed onto one another.
A pair of crimson eyes staring down at her seemed to shake slightly for a moment. Sezhâs finger, which had touched his pointed cheeks, also trembled a little.
An unprecedented stillness hovered in the library, and an unfamiliar atmosphere descended.