Chapter 36

Sezh couldn’t keep her focus on the tutoring. Accurately, there’s thing that keep living freely in her head. Of course Raytan noticed it.

“Hey, stupid.”

“Yes. Yes?”

“How can you really daydreaming?”

Raytan looked at her answer on the given questions. That was a terrible number.

“If you don’t want to study, just leave. You know that you wasted other people’s time?”

“No! It’s not like that”

Sezh who just pulled back to reality waved her hands. Watching Sezh, Raytan set a face and asked.

“What is it.”

“…”

“Who beat you.”

“Huh?”

“It must be that Lillian girl again.”

Raytan showed up an annoyed expression on his face.

“I don’t even got to encounter her today.”

With her pitiful face, Sezh lifted her sight on Raytan. Absolutely the first thing that she saw was that blood-like color of his iris. The same color as what Eton has. Sezh felt hesitant at first but still finally asked Raytan with a very careful manner.

“Um, Brother… I have something that I’m so curious about.”

“What?”

“Perhaps at the Imperial Palace…Is there a person who shares the same eye color… red… like you?”

As soon as he heard the question, Raytan frowned. It’s because he of course never confronts anyone with such a description. That’s the obvious truth that Sezh already knew.

“T-there is no such person with beautiful eyes like brother?”

“…”

“I k-keep thinking about it since earlier. Brother’s eye color is… really pretty.”

“…”

“It’s definitely similar to a ruby!”

Sezh finally spilled all of things that she’s been thinking. Raytan showed no reactions. Indeed, she knew this question would make him feel annoyed. But contrary to that, Raytan didn’t make an irritated face at all. He just kept looking at her.

“What did you just say about my eyes?”

“T-that it’s red?”

“After that.”

“It’s pretty?”

Raytan squinted both of his eyes.

“Don’t blurt any bullshit.”

Sezh frowned.

“Um, but, it’s not a lie though”

She really said it genuinely. Of course he will think differently because other people keep talking it is a curse. At first, Sezh was afraid of Raytan too. But it’s just in the past. She is no longer scared of him now. He didn’t seem like a monster in front of her eyes. Beside that, Raytan’s red colored eyes really resemble a ruby. It’s not a lie, but it looks like Raytan never heard of this compliment before.

“If brother felt bad after hearing it. I’m sorry.”

“There’s no such a person.”

“Yes?”

“There’s no person who shares the same eye color with me.”

“… I see”

Then, how about Eton? Eton’s eyes are completely the same color as Raytan. In conclusion, Raytan didn’t have any clue about Eton’s existence. Sezh tilted her head.

“People in this damn Palace just have one color of eyes. It’s just to the point that I’m disgusted to see it.”

Suddenly, Sezh recalled back her memory about what Raytan had said a few days ago.

“…”

Does he think the same thing about her? He hates other people at this Imperial Palace. Does he think she’s disgusting too? Sezh opened her mouth.

“So, I too…”

“What?”

“Does brother hate me too?”

“But, I like brother!”

Raytan ceased.

“I don’t know about other people. I like brother Raytan. I don’t think brother’s red eyes are something that what the legend said. I never think it’s like a monster.”

Raytan didn’t say even a word for the time being. Sezh who brought down her head, raised it and took her glance at Raytan. His face looks like someone who was just hit by something unpleasant. Did he not believe what she said? Sezh, who was worrying about that, soon continued her speech.

“In this Imperial Palace. Brother is the person that I like the most. Beside Luna”

“Luna?”

“The maid who is responsible for me.”

“Now you treat me like a maid?”

“No, no? It’s not like that.”

Sezh shaked her head fast. Is she crazy to even think about treating him like a maid?

“However it’s only brother and Luna who treat me nicely in the Imperial Palace. Because of that, I like brother and Luna. I don’t like anybody else.”

It was a proper speech to buy his heart. Clearly half of them are exaggerations but half of them are also her true feelings. Then what, he was the one who slaughtered her throat at the previous time. However, after returning to the past, Raytan was treating her quite nicely. Eventhought, he kept calling her stupid kid, lacking bitch, and so on. She really can tell it.

“Your mother”

“Yes?”

“How do you see your mother?”

At the unexpected question, Sezh’s eyes widened. It’s already a public secret that Yerena treats Sezh like garbage. Why did Raytan suddenly ask that. Sezh just gave her answer honestly.

“I… don’t really like my mother. On the other hand, my mother doesn’t really like me either.”

“… “

“I can’t do it now, but when I reach my adult age. I will leave the Imperial Palace.”

“… You will leave the Imperial Palace?”

Raytan asked.

“Yes. When I reach my adulthood I will ask for permission to leave the Palace. The prince and princess who have already reached their adulthood usually have no obligation to stay at the Imperial Palace. So If I’m also ask-”

“Idiotic plan.”

“…. Brother?”

“It looks like you still don’t know what kind of person your mother is. When you reach your adult age, you think she will let you go like that quitely? Which rich nobles family would do that stupid thing.”

It was an excruciating remark. After all, it’s not about that. Seventeen years old Sezh who couldn’t expect the coup d’etat was found by Raytan.

Well, there is one thing that Sezh didn’t let Raytan know. That is one of the reasons why she wants to leave the Imperial Palace is him. She still feels it. When Raytan sliced her throat until her head separated from her body. She woke up in this body not a long time after that accident happened.

Sezh already had a plan. First, she will postulate when Raytan performs his coup d’etat. She doesn’t know how to change the future but she thought it would be better to anticipate the worst scenario.

Raytan will do a coup d’etat. When? subsequently after the time Sezh reached her adulthood. Sezh? Successfully escaped. So she should do it right before the coup d’etat happens. Then there will be no problem for her.

“If so, I will search for another method. One way or another. I still have 5 years.”

“…”

“If I can’t find it. I will just run away from here!”

Sezh stated with her high spirit up. So what, when there’s no way she will just do it. Anyway when Sezh tried to get away from the Imperial Palace, no one came to hold her back.  It’s because back in time when Sezh tried to escape the Imperial Palace, it was the same day with Raytan’s putschist.

What’s gonna happen to the people in the Imperial Palace is not her business. She just wants to flee from this place.

“…”

Raytan just laughed mockingly with his straight face while peering his glance at Sezh. He opened his lips and spoke in his low voice.

“The annoying bitch will be gone. I think I will live comfortably.”

When Sezh disappeared, he wouldn’t be irritated anymore. Without her, he will still live peacefully. That’s how Raytan thinks about her. She doesn’t know but she is kind of wounded by that.

“Brother, are you sick? Your face is not good.”

“Don’t bother.”

“It is in front of my eyes. How can I not?”

Raytan without saying a word grabbed his cup of coffee and after that drank it hastily

“Brother, are you that thirsty?”

If you are thirsty just drink water. Why do drank coffee like that? Sezh turned up her head.

“Why suddenly asking me that.”

Raytan put back his cup on top of the table while questioning.

“Ask what?”

“Is there anyone who shares the same eye color with me.”

“Uh, that…”

Worry was written boldly on her face right now. Should she just talk about it? Should her? But Eton said otherwise. He wanted Sezh to make it a secret that she met him. Endless confusion appeared in her head.

Anyway, isn’t he really a suspicious person? His existence could be a danger to Lady Lize’s safety. Then she doesn’t have any reason to keep her promise to that kind of person. Sure thing, the fact that he can use magic is interesting. He even wants to teach her but she’s not invested in that idea.

“Honestly… This morning.”

“Hm?”

“There is a weird person.”

“Weird person?”

“… “

“You won’t tell me?”

Raytan rushed her, but Sezh still didn’t give her answer. To be exact, she can’t do that. Let alone answering, her mouth could not be opened.

“Eub- eub!”

“What.”

Raytan narrowed his brows. Sezh’s made a desolated face. Her lips, her lips she can’t open it!

It feels like someone holds them together tightly. Panicked, Sezh tried to part her lips by her own hands.

“What are you doing now.”

Raytan looked at Sezh like she was an idiot.

“Ub. Eu ub! Eub!”

Sezh keeps muttering an ‘eub eub’ sound.

Sensing that something didn’t right, Raytan quickly got up from his seat. He put her face closer to his.

“You, what happened?”

“Eub! Ub!

I can’t say anything! My lips can’t be open!

“If you want to vomit, just go there vomit.”

It is not that! This stupid brother!

“… “

Raytan scanned Sezh thoroughly. It looks like he finally realized it’s not about Sezh wanting to vomit. He tried to figure out what the problem was.

“Kkeub… keub.”

“Hey!”

“Kkeub- kkeub!”

“….”

“… Eub.”

Sezh kept trying to open her lips but still her efforts were in vain, she started sobbing. Translucent tears flowing down fast under her blue marine eyes. She was crying a river and the flow of tears were going non-stop. Raytan’s red eyes were shaken off hard.

“Eub- ub!”

In a flash, Sezh howled behind her closed mouth. Doesn’t understand what is happening to Sezh. Raytan reached that petite figure to his embrace and ran to the outside.