To Take The Out Or Not

Chapter Thirty-Two

Ariana Belle

Silence.

It surrounded us like smoke. Suffocating me

I hugged him tighter hoping that he would respond but I got nothing, nothing but the suffocating silence.

"Caleb ..."

"Please tell me you rejected him."

Squeezing my eyes shut I clung tighter onto him. Praying to the moon goddess that he wouldn't hate me.

"Fuck! No... no ... this isn't happening." He hissed unwrapping my hold on him. Turning his back to me he pulled on his locks and let out a yell.

"I'm sorry ... please stop ... I'm sorry!" I cried as his fists began to plummet the bookshelf causing all the books to tumble down.

Rushing over to him I pulled his fist down and stood in front of him. Squirming with fear as his black eyes glared down into my own.

"Please Caleb..." I whimpered keeping his gaze locked as I cautiously edged closer to him.

I had no idea what I was begging for.

For him to calm down, not to hurt himself.

To forgive me.

To forgive Jacob.

Not to reject me.

That he wouldn't hate me for having these feelings.

Taking his fist into my hand I raised them to my lips and laid a small kiss on his healing cuts.

Tears of guilt began to haze my vision as he continued to stare at me.

How could I have these feelings for Jacob when I was blessed with my mate.

"Do you love him?" His hoarse voice cut through the silence making me wish for silence this time.

"I love you, Caleb you are my mate, my love, my everything." I cried cupping his cheeks with the palm of my hands.

Standing on the tips of my toes I gave him a tear filled kiss, one which was not returned. Making a small sob echo through the trashed office.

"That wasn't what I asked Ariana." Looking up I met his gaze. His eyes lost their anger and was instead replaced with dread and hurt.

Biting down on his lip he caressed my cheek giving me a small kiss before storming out of the office.

Snapping out of my daze I ran after him only to stop as someone wrapped their arms around my waist and held me back.

"What the hell, let me go!" I screamed thrashing against their hold only to be held tighter.

Turning around I faced Vince. Shaking his head he pulled me into his chest and held me as hiccups of tears coursed through my body.

"He's going to leave me." I mumbled into his chest.

"He wouldn't. He'd be an idiot to leave you Rosita." He chuckled kissing the top of my head.

Shaking my head I pulled away from his embrace. "I hurt him."

"He hurt you." He scoffed crossing his arms as he glared at his feet.

"We aren't children Vincent. We are adults! He and I have beautiful twins and a pack we have to look after. But how can we do that when we keep messing up and acting like stupid immature teens?" I shouted pulling on the ends of my hair.

"Hey stop doing that," he ordered uncurling my fingers and holding my hand in his, "listen maybe you and Caleb aren't meant to be."

Anger coursed through my body and my wolf howled in anger and pain at having someone even dare say that to us.

"Wait listen to me before you behead me Ariana!" He hissed silencing me before I could say anything.

"Ever since you've met this guy. He has not done anything but hurt you! He has rejected you, he caused you to move away from your family, he caused tension between you and this Jacob guy, he's hurt you one too many times with this Sarah chick, and his anger. Ariana I'm sorry but I hate seeing you with him. He isn't good for you and I know I am not a close relative and I may not know you as well as your sister or your father or your friends but I care for you. You are my family."

His chest rose and fell quickly as he tried to calm himself. I, on the other hand felt like I couldn't get a single breath in.

I was frozen in shock. As well as my wolf. We both knew he had hurt us plenty of times. But he was our mate. The moon goddess was never wrong.

But what about my father and my mother. Where had the moon goddess played in that?

"He's my mate..." I breathed out.

"But would you love him if he wasn't?"

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"Mommy why are we leaving daddy's house? I thought we were going to stay?" Joey pouted as he hauled his backpack into the car.

Sighing I hoisted him onto his car seat making sure to securely tie him in before kissing his forehead.

"I missed our house, don't you? All your toys and games are there?" I smiled running my fingers through his hair that was beginning to curl.

Pursing his lips he shook his head.

"No mommy I like it here. So does Zoey! We have Auntie Quinn, Auntie Marina, Uncle Adrian, Maggie, Papa Jackson, and so many more friends. We love it here. We are coming back tomorrow right mommy?" He smiled up at me his face bright with joy.

"Yes baby we will." I smiled before nodding to one of the pack members to watch over him as I walked back in and walked over to where Zoey was sleeping.

"So you're leaving?" Jumping at the scare I turned and faced Adrian.

His arms were crossed and his eyes wouldn't meet my own.

I could tell he was hurt. The way he tucked into himself. But I couldn't tell anybody I had to get out of here.

"Only for tonight." I shrugged grabbing Zoey's bag of toys and putting it over my shoulder.

"Caleb isn't going to like this. You and the twins going off by yourself. It isn't safe."

"Caleb has been gone for three days, he has not once checked in with me about his well being. And we are not going alone Adrian. I am taking a group of pack members. They will stay the night with us and watch over the territory." I assured him. Walking over to him I wrapped my arms around him and gave him a hug.

"Tell him that wherever he is I'm sorry for the other night. We just want him back." Pulling back I have him a smile before walking around the large couch to grab my baby. Only for Adrian to step in and grab her.

"I'll carry her." Nodding I lead us back to the car where Joey was talking to one of the youngest pack guards. Both were talking fast with wild hand gestures and a shimmer in their eyes.

A small laugh escaped my lips as the guard blushed and straightened up as he saw us.

"Luna"

"Hello ..."

"Peter." He cleared his throat, his blush darkening even more making me laugh.

"Now I know why everybody finds it funny." I mumbled making him raise his brows in question. Shrugging it off I turned back to Joey who was trying to wake Zoey.

"Well Peter, I hope he didn't bother you."

"Oh no Luna. He's wasn't a bother at all. I apologize that I got so entertained. It was completely unprofessional." He stood straighter as he spoke.

Shaking my head I laid my hand on his shoulder. "Don't be sorry. I know how my Joey is. He can pull anyone into a conversation ... or an argument, " I stressed staring at Joey who kept trying to wake Zoey. Feeling my gaze on him he froze and laid his hands on his lap. "Never feel like you can't talk to them or me." Smiling at him I walked to the drivers seat of my car.

Adrian stood by the door with a far away look on his face. Right away I knew who he was mind linking by the way he grimaced.

"Tell him that if he hates it so much to meet me there." I frowned.

Once more he grimaced before turning back to me.

"You two really need to get the marking done or you need to rejoin our pack. I swear the council is going to kill Caleb when they find out he's had you a rogue title for so long." He mumbled before hugging me tightly to his chest.

Hugging him back I smiled into his chest. "You aren't going to tell me what he said are you?"

"Nope!" He breathed out letting me go with his own crooked smile.

"See you tomorrow."

"Tomorrow"

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Walking back into my apartment I couldn't help but feel lonely. Even with my twins by my side I didn't have my mate my sisters my dads my cousin, my family.

This wasn't home, it stopped being my home when I stepped foot back into the pack house with Caleb and our kids.

"Mommy it smells weird in here." Zoey spoke up covering her nose.

"That's because we've had it closed up." I replied walking out to our living room window that looked out into the woods and opened it up. Welcoming the familiar scent.

"Why don't we ever walk out there mommy?" Joey asked stopping at the entry of the back door.

"Because it has things you should not see yet Joe." Snapping my head back I froze as Jake stood in the doorway with a smirk.

"Jake!" The twins squealed running into his arms as I stayed frozen.

"Whoa you two have gotten so much bigger!" He grinned his dark eyes brightening as the twins began to talk his ear off.

But his eyes continued to trial back to my frozen state.

I couldn't believe he was here. How did he get pass the guards. If he got passed the guards, it would be like a piece of cake for Heath.

"Guys, why don't you go take a bath and give me and Jake a couple minutes."

"Okay mommy." They replied running off one into my bathroom the other into the hall bathroom.

"How did you get here?" I muttered shutting the window closed.

"Well you see I have this thing where I can turn into this cool wolf. Well it's bigger than a wolf love but you already know that." He teased winking my way making me blush.

"No Jake how did you get passed the guards. I know Caleb gave them orders to drag you back to him if they catch you."

Grinning he bit his lip as he began to walk to me. Stumbling back I hit the back door.

"I got some connections." He smirked his eyes running down my face to my neck and back up with a glimmer in his eyes.

"Jake what did you do?" I breathed out. My body practically becoming one with the door as I tried to back away from him as much as I could.

"Gave us an out."

My eyes widened and I shook my head trying to push him away only for him to hold my to him.

"I can't Jacob. I won't." I pleaded for him to understand but his eyes flashed and his hold tightened.

"No you can Ariana. You can because I can see it in your eyes. You want an out. You want to run away from here. To be with me. For us to be a family." He whispered lowering his face so that he could stare straight into my eyes.

"I can see in those beautiful green eyes that you love me. Just as much as I love you Ariana Belle."

Tears spilled down my cheeks as his lips connected with my dried lips. Shaking my head I pushed him back sending him crashing onto my coffee table.

"What the fuck Ariana!"

"I don't! I don't want an out Jake! I want to stay here where I belong!" I shouted pulling at the root of my hair. "With my family ... my mate. I love him Jake. As much as he has put me through so much shit and acts like an idiot I still love him. Even if he hadn't been my mate I would have still ended up with him." His eyes flashed in anger and his body began to shake but I kept talking.

"But you aren't wrong about one thing. I do love you. Hell Jake you are my best friend and you are the very half of me. And nobody could ever replace that love but Jake.... you are not my mate."

Once more I felt like I was drowning in silence. Staring at someone I loved and praying that they would not hate me for my feeling of them.

And just as he opened his lips to say anything the twins cautiously walked out into the living room staring wide eyed at the two of us.

"Mommy are you okay?" Zoey frowned rushing to my side.

"I'm fine sweetie." I assured her smoothing down her wet hair.

"Joey I'm sorry bud." Jake apologized rubbing the slightly longer hair on his head.

"Leave." Joey frowned walking around him to wrap his arm around my waist as much as he could.

Jake stared at us before standing to his feet. "I'm sorry Ariana." He mumbled before storming out leaving me confused.

Why would he be sorry.

I'm the one that's sorry I wanted to shout. I never wanted him to feel like we pushed him out of our family because we loved him. But he was trying to replace someone who would ever be replaced.

But seconds later my answer came.

Because the next person who walked through that door was the last person I would ever expect to have helped jacob.

Heath.

Authors Note: Dunn Dunn Dunn! And finally the man of doom is here Heath embers the psychotic crazed alpha. Lol too far?

Three more chapters! Yay! And then I will begin rewriting this story and writing the twins story! I can't wait for that! I mean I'm sad to kinda be leaving this version of Ariana and Caleb but I'm happy to write things the way I wish I had years back ...

Anywho please let me know what you think so far! How do you think it's going to end? Anymore surprises? Any new people, any new old people. Wink wink lol

Btw if anybody watched the finale of the voice, was anybody else completely pissed the eff off!?!? I thought for sure Matt was going to win! I hate that he didn't! Grrrrrrr

But I hope you all had a very very Happy New Year!