Chapter Thirty-One

NARI

“Don’t stop, doll,” Kai groaned from beneath me as I rode him in the front seat of his car. We were both on high alert, making sure no one could see us. But even if someone did, I wasn’t sure I could stop. My hips seemed to have a mind of their own.

We hadn’t even made it out of the school parking lot before Kai was pulling my panties off. By the time he pushed me into the car, I was bare from the waist down.

He quickly drove the car to a secluded corner of the lot before pulling me onto his lap.

“I need more. Please. Harder,” I moaned, trying to push myself down harder on him. I tightened around him as I came down. Kai reached down and started to rub my clit roughly.

The sensation made my eyes roll back in my head. Ever since the break-up, Kai had been fucking me with a savage intensity, anywhere and anytime he could. It was as if we were channeling our emotions into the act.

“Yes!” I screamed, feeling an earth-shattering orgasm approaching. I clenched around him harder, determined to make him come.

“Come for me, baby. Now,” Kai growled, pulling me close and holding me tight as he came deep inside me.

I could feel his cum mixing with mine. His orgasm triggered mine and I came hard, my hips moving rhythmically as I rode out the waves of pleasure.

“I needed that,” Kai said as I moved back into my seat. His cum dripped onto the leather seat beneath me.

I grabbed one of his T-shirts from the backseat and cleaned up as best I could. I made a mental note to start carrying wipes if we were going to keep doing this in the car.

Ever since that night, we’d been at it like this. We knew it wasn’t healthy, but we were trying to fuck away the pain.

It had been two weeks since Roxie broke up with us and a week since we last saw her. Apart from a text message that night, she hadn’t tried to reach out again.

The school rumor mill said she was skipping prom and graduation to get a head start on college.

Could she really leave without saying goodbye? I didn’t want to believe she would do that to us.

Roxie had come to school for finals week. She did her best to avoid Kai and me, no matter how hard I tried to bump into her.

I missed her and just wanted to see her, even if I couldn’t touch or talk to her. Kai was still pretty upset, so her avoiding him wasn’t a problem.

I think what hurt him the most was that she gave up so easily. She didn’t even try to make things work, even if it meant a long-distance relationship. Kai would have done anything for her, and so would I.

I was hurt too, and I knew we couldn’t change her mind, but I still hoped we’d get the chance to try. She didn’t give us a choice.

She wouldn’t even look at us during finals week, and after that, she hadn’t been back to school. I thought about going to her house that first week, but I promised Kai I would try to accept her decision.

So I gave her space, hoping that she would come to her senses and come back to us.

“Hey,” Kai said, pulling me out of my thoughts. “I know it’s hard, doll, but you have to stop thinking about her. If she wanted this, she would be here.

“We need to move on and focus on us.”

“So you never think about her? Not once in the last two weeks?” I asked, unable to believe he could forget her so easily. I thought about her all the time.

“Of course I do, but I try not to. I need to focus on my woman who does want me,” he said, starting the car and driving towards my house.

“I think we should have told her, Kai. She needed to know we loved her,” I said, trying to reason with him.

“What difference would it have made, doll? She was still planning to leave for London.

“She spent months with us and never mentioned that. And when she decided to end things, she didn’t even ask what we wanted.

“We loved her and that’s all we got,” he said, gripping the steering wheel tightly, clearly still angry.

He was right about London. The thought of her packing up and leaving the country had made me cry for days. She had made her decision without considering us and it was heartbreaking.

And if she really had left, she hadn’t even said goodbye. Sometimes I thought it was just sex for her, but my heart told me it was more.

We drove the rest of the way in silence, lost in our thoughts. When we arrived at my house, Kai parked in the driveway and turned off the car.

He reached over and intertwined his fingers with mine, bringing them to his lips. He kissed each of my fingers gently.

“I don’t want this pain to consume us. We need to move on,” he said, his voice shaky. “I’ll always love Roxie and I know you will too, but we need to get back to us.

“We can’t keep hoping she’ll come back. What if she doesn’t? We need to focus on us and our future. She planned her future and we need to plan ours.”

He kissed my fingers again. “I can’t wait to move in with you and start our lives together. That’s all I want to focus on right now,” he said, kissing my fingers once more.

Kai was right. We had tried and failed. We wanted her and she didn’t want us. Roxie had planned her future and left, and we needed to do the same.

As much as I didn’t want to, I knew I had to try to let her go. Kai was only trying to protect me. I needed to be grateful that I still had him by my side.

“You’re right, sweetheart. I’ll concentrate on our move and on us. I love you,” I told him, leaning over to plant a soft kiss on his lips. “Let’s head inside. I’m up for round two,” I added, a playful smirk on my face.

Kai and I had plans to move into our new apartment by the end of the summer.

Both our fathers had generously offered to cover the cost and even pay the rent, but they had conditions. We had to finish school and they didn’t want to become grandparents before we graduated. Kai and I had no problem agreeing to those terms.

We were both accepted into the same college and planned to commute from our new apartment.

As I raced Kai inside, I found myself hoping that wherever Roxie ended up, she would be happy. I knew I would be, as long as I had Kai.

—The End—