Chapter 39

Nothing could stop Gerard’s impulse to throw himself on Luz’s lips, who ended up crying and laughing in equal measure.

-You’re crazy, not even… – “I know who the father is”, is what he was about to say, but he just kept silent, he stood up with Gerard’s help and went to change –

While he stayed with that image that warmed his heart as much as when he saw the first images of Charlize. That feeling was strange, but he felt good, so he wasn’t going to analyze too much because the good thing he had to enjoy, period.

When Luz appears, they hold hands, someone knocks on the door and seconds later the doctor appears. After several recommendations and ensuring that everything is going well, both leave with hearts swollen with happiness.

– Please, let me come to the other checkpoints with you… – she asks almost jumping -, that was… I don’t know how to describe it.

-At least not with words, because your face tells me how you feel – she smiles and walks towards the car, but Gerard pulls her, hugs her and looks into her eyes -.

-Since you feel better, do you think you can come back with us?

-I don’t know, Gerard… your mother and your cousin. I do not know.

– Do n’t worry about my mother, she went on a cruise for three months and about Darcy … I’ll take care of her. I will not let anything happen to you, besides, at home you will be accompanied at all times and I will be calmer.

-Let me think about it later, now we’re hungry.

-I’ll take you to a place you’ll love.

From Brooklyn, they move to the island of Manhattan, a moment that Gerard takes the opportunity to learn a little more about Luz.

Do you have more family?

-A brother, as well as cousins, uncles and grandparents, but they don’t count.

-And your brother, does he know about your pregnancy?

THEIR -Yes, I stood up and yelled at all his colleagues that he would be an uncle. -Where is the?

-He’s a policeman, in New Jersey, but we see very little of him.

-You speak of him as if he were the best of all – Gerard tells him smiling -.

-It is, he didn’t judge me for anything, not even when he asked me about the father of my son and I told him I didn’t know who he was – Luz felt so comfortable talking, that she doesn’t realize what she said, until she or said –

Silence settles in the car and Luz looks out the window, silent tears come out of her eyes, she can’t stand it anymore that Gerard doesn’t talk to her, she sighs and decides to break the silence.

– Gerard -Do you like macaroons? – he tells her in a cheerful tone -. Where we go they make some very delicious.

Gerard, don’t pretend you didn’t hear what I said.

He sighs, looks for a place to stop and pulls over to the side of the road, undoes his seatbelt and turns to meet her eyes, realizing that his shock was misunderstood by the young woman. He wipes away her tears and smiles at her.

– Light, I am nobody to judge you. I… I really feel things for you, how this precious baby was conceived –

she says putting her hand on her belly, causing Luz’s hormones and butterflies to riot -, it’s not my problem, but if her growth, his birth, his whole life… if you let me, I can be all you need, not just friend.

“Everyone knows me for being a ruthless lawyer, but deep down I’m just a sensitive man who fell in love with the most wonderful young woman in this world. – Are you in love… with me? – Luz feels that her whole body is of gelatin – You can not, you know me very recently.

-Yes I can, I already did it, I fell in love. And if I’m even more honest with you, I’m dying of jealousy, because you’re living with a man who obviously feels the same as me .

-Gerard, I… I don’t know what to say.

-Don’t say anything, we’re just going to eat macaroni carbonara at Ernesto’s and then we’ll go Charlize.

Nothing was simple at that point in Luz’s life, but now everything has become even more complex, because Gerard’s statement is clear.

He has fallen in love with her.

He doesn’t give a damn who his son is or if he doesn’t know.

He loves her with the full package and is jealous of Rafael. That makes her smile and she looks at the man with more confidence.

-Yes I like macaroni, it sounds delicious.

She wants to tell him that she fell in love too, but she can’t expose herself like that. She has to be sure of what she feels.

Especially since he is a man who has been alone for a long time, the time he stayed in the mansion never gave any indication that he had any relationship with anyone.

For this reason, one day he is going to want intimacy and she does not know if she will be able to do it, reach that step. But she does know that love can conquer everything and that, for the first time in all this time, she knows that only a therapist can help her.

Before Gerard turns to go back to the path, she grabs his tie, pulls the fabric, and kisses him.

She dared for all those things that she is willing to save in her life. That kiss is soft, innocent, one that doesn’t quite know how to be, but Gerard loves it. When they separate, they touch her forehead and she tells him.

I’ll try, I swear I will.

-I want you to do it… I love you, Luz, and I want you to stay.

-I… I’m scared, but… I…

And before Luz tells him that she loves him, her phone rings, on whose screen the name “Rafael”

appears.