Chapter||33

hope you know what you did to me

I'm grateful for what you did for me

You showed me that you ain't shit, and these bitches is dangerous

Now I do 'em just how you did to me

And I know you see the pain in my eyes, every secret and lie

Got a reason to cry 'fore I sleep at night

I need my peace of mind, I see you fine

But I'm far from that, so

Now, I'ma be savage

And you made it happen

Saturday 22nd December

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"Where the fuck you been at Renee you said you were coming home but that was damn near two hours ago," Was the first thing that Tajay bitched about when Renee entered through the front door of his apartment. His voice boomed of the walls of the small apartment scaring Renee as she thought Tajay would either be sleeping by this time or out with his friends like he usually was on a Saturday night.

Renee had just come from being with Kain but of course she couldn't tell him that, she simply lied as told him that she was over at Armani's house, but with Tajay being Tajay he called damn near every hour to make sure she was still there and asked continuously for picture of Armani doing something. Kain laughed at how insecure Tajay was being when he found out all the things he asked Renee to do, but they had no choice but to actually go over to Armani's house and just stay in the guest room they frequently shared when they went over there. This was how some of their nights were spent if Renee never had college that day and if Kain wasn't so busy doing work with his father.

Even though Renee wanted to have sex with Kain, he couldn't help but to feel like the side nigga to her, though technically he was. Kain for once in his 20 years of life he wanted to settle down with a female, he didn't want to come home and find it empty with no one to tell about his day, he wanted someone who he could be a softy to, Kain was hoping it would be Renee that she would be the one to listen to his problems about his dysfunctional family and vice versa.

Tonight no sex happened, Renee and Kain simply talked and talked until it was time for Renee to go to Tajay's house. Renee finally opened up to Kain and her parents and how they unknowingly treated her compared to her siblings, which Kain was all to familiar with until he finally spoke to his parents about it, unfortunately it had to be after Omar and Saniya has lost their daughter, Kiyanne, and Omar also losing his sister.

Kiyanne was the eldest child of Omar and Saniya, but sadly her life span was cut short when she along with Omar's sister, her aunt, were involved in a car accident resulting in them both losing their life. That day was the hardest day for all of the White family, especially Omar, his sister was everything to him, she was the one he went to for relationship advice pertaining to what woman wanted from a man. He had to take on the role of being a father to both Armani and Jakari, while grieving both of his loses.

Then there was his precious daughter, Kiyanne, his world changed as soon as he heard the news, that following week all he did was cry and hoped it was a dream, Saniya stayed by his side throughout even though she was grieving herself. Everyday Omar wished that it was him in that car instead of them, that his life had been taken, he asked God many times why it had to been them, they were innocent in this life whereas Omar knew he had done some foul things in his life and wondered why God would take away two innocent souls instead of his devilish one.

"I told you I was at Armani's house then when I was leaving I got sidetracked and lost track of time," Renee reiterated the speech that she had said several times on the way to the house. She waved him off and turned to walk away but Tajay wasn't having it so he tightly grabbed her wrist and dragged her back so she was now facing directly in front of chest.

Renees heart rate sped up as she anticipated on what his next move was, she wondered if her was going to choke and yank her hair or was he really not in the mood resulting in him flinging her about anywhere in the apartment letting his anger out. This was a routine she knew all to well so she cursed herself in her head for waving him off and walking away from him knowing what he would do to her.

"Don't walk away from me, the conversation is not done till I say it's done," He pilled at her hair so her head was tilted and she was looking directly into his eyes so he knew that she knew he was serious

"Now when I say I want your ass home in 30 minutes yo ass   home better be there in 30 minutes," Renee would do anything but a whisper of the word yes as his grip on her hair had gotten tighter.

"Now go and clean yourself up because I want some tonight, I put some clothes on the bed for you," He demanded before flinging her onto the floor in which she hit her head on the wall.

She winced at the pain but didn't let it faze her too much as she knew if she stayed on the ground for too long Tajay would do even more damage to her than he had already done.

Renee stayed in the shower for as long as she knew Tajay would let her before he got mad. She wrapped her towel around her waist before exiting out the bathroom to see the clothes that he said he would leave on his bed, she sighed before grabbing the lotion to apply to her body. She hurriedly put on the lingerie and made her way to the living the room where she knew Tajay would be.

At the sound of her footsteps Tajay turned around with a big grin on his face as he saw the sight of Renee, he stood to his feet going towards her, when he reached her he put his head in the crook of her neck while gripping her ass. Renee flinched at his touch at first because of how gentle he was but soon began to loosen up to him. Tajay lifted Renee up causing her to squeal as he ran up the stars to his bedroom.

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Kamiya browsed through the isle while pushing the cart which Aaliyah angrily sat in since she wanted to walk freely but Kamiya knew she only want to do that so she could touch everything that she saw in sight. However Kamiya never had the time nor patience today to be putting back everything that Aaliyah touched in the store.

Kamiya was currently in Target doing grocery shopping for her new apartment she recently purchased, she had been living there for approximately 3 months but rarely stayed there considering she still had the house her and Kairo shared but now that he was out of rehab she decided to permanently move into her apartment, away from him.

As Kamiya looked through the different types of cereal she wanted, a lady who had sneaked her away into Target considering the security guards didn't like when crackheads came into their shop since they knew they had no money and were more than likely going to steal.

The lady who had just come into the same isle as Kamiya had to take a double take once she saw her, she rubbed her eyes vigorously and cursed the line of coke she had just done not even an hour ago for making her think she was hallucinating as she saw Kamiya stare at all the cereals with a concentrated face.

The same face she knew all to well because a person who she loved made the same face when he was concentrating on something.

The lady stayed in the same place just admiring Kamiya and the beautiful grown woman she had become to be. She stared at the birthmark that kamiya had on the side of her left ear the same as the man she loved but he had it on the right side of his face. Her eyes diverted to Kamiya's hair where she sported her natural hair, it was in a ponytail right now considering Kamiya wasn't in the mood to feel cute or simply do anything but be with Aaliyah.

The lady touched her own hair reminiscing on how hair used to be just as thick and long as Kamiya's but now as she touched it she could damn near feel her scalp considering the patchiness and shedding led her to cut her hair in a short style.

Even though she was a crack addict she still wanted to keep her appearance up but that was only because she could finesse the men into giving her cocaine for free or even a cheap price.

She didn't even notice she had a little girl until Aaliyah had shouted and pointed to the cereal she wanted. The lady diverted her attention to the little girl admiring her features the same she had to Kamiya. She stared at Aaliyah in awe as Aaliyah spoke to Kamiya, she could tell straight away that the little girl was Kamiya's daughter because Kamiya looked exactly like that when she was younger the same way the love of her life looked when he was younger.

The lady laughed as Aaliyah made the same exact face as Kamiya when concentrated, Kamiya had just told her to pick one cereal out of the two so Aaliyah sat in the trolley determined to pick the best cereal for herself.

"You've been staring at them for damn near 5 minutes do we have a problem here ma'am," Kamiya's bodyguard who Kairo insisted that she had at all times, Luca, spoke as he stood right behind the lady who had been caught staring.

The sound of Lucas voice made Kamiya whip her head in their direction wanting to see who he was talking to. She stared at the lady for not even 2 seconds before looking to Luca to see what the problem was.

"Everything okay," Kamiya pushed the shopping cart forward walking towards Luca who had now grabbed onto the lady's arm.

"I caught this lady staring at you for nearly 5 minutes do you know who she is," Luca asked with a raised brow at Kamiya.

She had finally decided to pay attention to the lady and the longer she stared at the lady and did a quick study of her features realisation started to kick in. Kamiya noticed the same nose that she stared at in the mirror each mirror copied into the lady's nose as well. The same long curly eyelashes Kamiya sported the lady also sprayed, Kamiya held a disgusted look on her face as she stared at the lady.

She gave Aaliyah her iPad from out of her bag also with the headphones she had, in which Aaliyah happily took them, not even giving the lady a glance, then went straight to the YouTube app and put on her favourite thing to watch, paw patrol.

"Hi baby," The lady softly found the courage to speak, she tried to step to her but Luca still had a firm grip on her arm restraining her from doing so. Kamiya didn't say anything in return but simply continued to stare at the lady.

"I've missed you so much, you've gotten so big and now you have a little girl, I can't imagine what Deshawn and Destiny look like," The lady started to tear up just thinking about them and how grown they must be and how beautiful they look and handsome Deshawn was.

"Unfortunately they look similar to you," Kamiya finally answered taking a step back so she wasn't near the lady.

"So how have you been,"

"We've been doing good ever since you left, thanks for caring about your children Sabrina," Kamiya sarcastically answered her mother's question as she rolled her eyes at how pathetic her mother, who she calls her egg donor, was being.

This is what Kamiya was longing for ever since the day her mother left even if she didn't act like it but now that she was faced with that reality she didn't exactly know what to do. She wanted to hug her mother and tell her she loved her but on the other hand she wanted to fight Sabrina for leaving her and her siblings to defend for herself. She blamed Sabrina for everything that happened to them since the day she left, she blamed her for the reason why she lived with Nick and the things she done for him, blamed her for the abuse her and her siblings got when in the care homes they stayed in.

"I'm sorry for leaving you and your siblings, everyday I regret that decision but it was what I had to do to protect you and your siblings,"

Don't believe her Kamiya, all she's good for is lying

Shut up, that's her mother, you've been wanting this for a long time don't throw it away

Remember you hate her

"Protect, you didn't protect us, in fact you made our lives a more of a living hell than anything so don't you stand there and say you were protecting us," Kamiya's nose flared as she pointed to Sabrina who stood there watching her daughter lose her cool.

"Baby it was for the best, the things I did came back to haunt me and I didn't want y'all to be apart of that," She tried to reason with Kamiya on why she did what she did but all Kamiya was focused on was that her mother left her and her siblings to defend for herself.

"Don't give me that bullshit, the shit I had to go through because of you would never make me forgive you, dad would be so ashamed of you right now," She looked at Sabrina with her face turned up then turned to look back at Aaliyah to see if she was okay.

The mention of her children's father brought Sabrina back to her happy memories, where she felt like life was great.

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