Chapter||20

Maybe that's the reason I can never find a rider,

Rider, you got a license heartbreak surviver,

Told me that it's my turn babyyy,

Girl I'm really tryna keep my cool,

yeahhh

You saying sorry but that shit is overdue

Friday 19th October

"So when's the wedding," a clueless Saniya asked after greeting Kairo once he entered her house with a bouquet of flowers, of course.

"Weddings off mama," He replied shrugging as if it didn't bother him, which it did.

"Hell you mean weddings off," she shrieked causing Kairo to cover his year as he looked at his mother as if she was crazy.

"Ma, do you have to shout,"

"Boy shut up, what you mean the wedding off," she slapped the back of his head, wincing from the hard slap because Samira was heavy-handed, he rubbed the part she had hit.

"I mean the weddings off," he laughed at the reaction she gave to his senseless answer.

"Don't make me slap you again boy, what happened," she seriously inquired as they now walked to the kitchen, where she was previously before Kairo interrupted.

"I may have or may not broken up with her," he beat around the bush because he knew how much his mother loved Kamiya.

Kamiya considered Saniya to be the mother she never had. Saniya taught Kamiya things her own mother never such as cooking and teaching her how a man should treat her.

Unfortunately once Kamiya fell in love it was as if all that she had learnt from Saniya had disappeared.

"What," She exclaimed with her mouth open in shock.

"Wh-What happened, why, did you break up with her or did sh-," She rambled on, firing questions left and right.

"Ma slows down, it was just complicated, I think we better off as friends," he lied straight through his teeth at his mother.

"Don't tell me no bullshit like that, I know you and I know Kam," she emphasised giving him look that she knew he was lying.

"I'm serious ma," he lied, again with a shrug as he looked down at the ground.

"You can't lie to me, I'm your mother, come have a seat," she guided him out of the kitchen and into her office.

Saniya was a retired therapist, so she knew all the signs there was to know in a person. She could read a person just by looking in their eyes and that's why both Kamiya and Kairo tried to avoid eye contact with Saniya as much as possible.

"What's on your mind," she sat in front of Kairo in a plush white chair as he sat on the grey couch with the matching fur grey pillows that Kairo loved to hold when sitting down.

"I feel lost ma, I feel like I don't even know anyone anymore," He revealed.

"What makes you feel this way,"

"The woman I'm in love with has kept one of the biggest secrets from me, if I can't trust her then who can I trust ma,"

"What was the reason why she kept the secret from you," She urged him to express his feelings more. Out of all her children, Kairo had been the most closed off to not only her to everyone else, even in high school Kairo kept to himself while Kain had all the friends.

"She said she was scared of me shutting her out, which is a bullshit excuse,"

"It's not a bullshit excuse, it's just an excuse, an excuse to hide the real reason why she's hiding it from you, yes she's scared of you shutting her out, but you have already done that, you probably don't even communicate with her anymore, so why won't she just let it all out," She began to voice her thoughts which Kairo carefully listened to, for once.

"I don't even want to know anything about it anymore ma, I'm officially done with her,"

"Don't say that, no your not, that's the love of your life, the mother of your child, you are not done with her, she hasn't told you the whole truth because she's probably traumatised, she probably hasn't spoken about it to anyone so she doesn't know how to voice it, she doesn't know what to say and how to say it, she feels as though once she tells you everything you're going to look at her differently when you shouldn't, you should love her even more because you know she's evolved into a better person than who she used to be, but instead you are shutting her out, your telling her that she's wrong and your right because you haven't heard it all, you've only heard what you have wanted to hear," she lectured to him with everything coming from her heart.

"I gave her many opportunities for her to explain ma but she didn't, she gave me attitude," He replied taking everything his mother said into consideration but dismissing it at the same time.

"Because you gave her attitude," Saniya retorted back to him.

"Yes because she kept it from me, she knew Nick ma, my enemy, your enemy, the whole damn families enemy, how can I come back from that,"

"So when Y'all first met did she know about you and Nick,"

"No,"

"So she's not plotting on you, she's not just pretending to love you, yes she knew Nick but it was a coincidence,"

"Ma, she knew Nick and I were enemies after a while why didn't she say anything then,"

"You are not getting it son-," She began but Kairo interrupted her by standing up from the couch he was sat on.

"Your right ma, I'm not getting it, I'm not getting how the love of my life betrayed me, lied to me," He began to head towards the door making Saniya sigh. Kairo just wasn't getting it and at this point, she thought he was never going to.

Just as his hand hit the doornail Saniya spoke.

"Your dad killed my parents," She confessed with a blank stare, her saying that brought back memories that she didn't want but for the sake of her son to learn, she did.

"Pardon," he turned around to face his mother.

"Yep your father killed my parents, he didn't know they were my parents at first and when he did find out, he still didn't tell me," The more she spoke the more memories flooded back in, when she had found out the truth about her parents she was so distraught, for days she wouldn't eat or sleep.

Omar's heart ached seeing her like this because of her parents death but once he found out that he was the one who killed them he couldn't even bare to look Saniya in the face knowing he was the cause to all her misery.

"So how did you find out," Kairo asked intrigued with this newfound information. He walked back over to the couch to take a seat knowing this conversation hasn't ended and wouldn't end soon.

"I heard him over the phone talking about it, I confronted him about it on why he shot them and why he didn't tell me, he said he didn't know it was my parents at the time and when he found out he was to scared to tell me because he knew how much they meant to me,"

"So why did you stay with him," He asked, he knew that if that was him he would have left and never returned.

"Because I love him, at first I was angry, I left him for a bit but then I realised he meant no harm to me intentionally, we talked it out, now here we are, still deeply in love with each other," She smiled at the thought of her husband and how is she would've left him she wouldn't be where she is now, she wouldn't of had her children and probably even her career path. Yeah she was an independent woman who made her own money but it was Omar who pushed her to strive for the best and to be the best.

For that she was forever grateful.

"I just don't know ma, this whole situation been fu-messing with my head," He reframed from cussing in front of his mother.

"It's because your thinking to deep about it, in the back of your mind you're still thinking if she has any relationship with Nick, you're thinking if she was in Nick's plan all along, she told you she isn't so believe her, your mind is telling you not to but your heart is telling you to trust her, so trust her,"

"Of course I still trust her but not as much as I used to, I trust her with my daughter but relationship wise not that much anymore, I feel like she broke that trust," He truly expressed, yes Kairo still loved Kamiya because feelings don't just go away easily but trust for Kairo goes quick and it's nearly impossible to gain his trust back.

With Kamiya he felt portrayed, he thought Kamiya would truly be the only person who was down with him apart from his family, he thought he could trust Kamiya with his life and vice versa but know he was second guessing.

"Talk with her, not shouting and arguing I mean talk, have a conversation, talk about where both you and her have gone wrong in your relationship, talk about what you and her need to improve on it to make it better,"

"I'm cool off of her for now ma, I just need space and with how I'm feeling I ain't gone be talking to her for a while,"

"That's fine take as long as you need but the day is going to come sooner or later, now come let's get out of here so I can start on dinner," Kairo stood up and held his hand out to help her off her seat.

"Thank you baby,"

"No thank you mama," he smiled at her and gave her a kiss on the check as they proceeded to make their way back to the kitchen, where Omar stood with a glass of orange juice in his hand.

"There's my beautiful wife," he cheeses at the site of her putting his glass down and making his way towards Saniya, who stood there with a wide smile on her face.

"And there's my sexy husband," she replied as she wrapped his arms around his neck placing kisses on his lips making Kairo gag at the sight.

"What's wrong baby," he whispered in her ear after they kissed.

"Nothing I'm fine," she lied looking down as Omar continued to stare at her knowing she was lying.

"Do you guys mind," He interrupted their moment causing his father to kiss his teeth.

"Nigga this my house and my wife, don't be salty because you don't have this anymore," he shot back with a smirk on his face, Kairo ignored his fathers smart remark grabbing a water bottle out the fridge.

"You know about him and Kam breaking up," Saniya tilted her head back up to look up at him.

"Yeah,"

"So why wasn't I informed," She pouted at him a little hurt that everyone knew about her sons relationship except her.

"Girl it ain't my business," He shrugged placing a quick kiss on her lips indicating for her to stop talking but she didn't.

"I'm offended," she put her hand to her heart to exaggerate her comment causing both men to roll their eyes at her dramatic antics.

"Ma please just let it go,"

"Woman hush,"

They both said at the same time.

"Nigga I know you ain't talking to me," Saniya pointed her freshly painted white nails in Omar's face. Omar simply sucked Saniya's finger seductively, this was Kairos queue you get out of there before it was too late.

Kairo hopped in his car heading to the condo he had purchased for him to stay in after his breakup. It only took him 20 minutes to get there since it was 2pm and nearly everyone was at work or school.

The ringing of Kairos phone disrupted him from watching his show, S.W.A.T, he looked at the caller ID and confusion plastered on his face.

It was Deshawn.

Ever since Kairo and Kamiya broke up their friendship had been rocky. Kamiya has went to Deshawn crying about Kairo the night she had given him her ring.

Kamiya couldn't hold it in and told Deshawn everything the best she could while crying. Deshawn couldn't believe that Kairo had put his hands on Kamiya, while she was pregnant at that, and it angered him even more that neither him nor Kamiya had told him about until years later.

Since then he had kinda distanced himself from Kairo, so he could calm down before lashing out and destroying their relationship even further.

"Wassup," Deshawn said once Kairo accepted the call.

"Wassup, how you been," Kairo asked, it felt weird to hear Deshawn's voice to Kairo since before Deshawn distanced himself they would speak to each other every single day so for Kairo not hearing his voice for nearly a month then hearing it again felt weird to him.

"I been doing good, trying this single life and just being there for my children," He replied, Asia was completely done with Deshawn until further notice because she knew that she deserved better from either him or another man.

"Yeah I heard you on that, I'm sorry for one putting my hands on your sister and for two not coming to you as a man and telling you about it,"

"Finally nigga damn, I been waiting on your ass to apologise," He lightened the situation making them both laugh.

"I was just giving you space because I didn't wanna have to beat your ass if you got disrespectful," He joked, it felt good to Kairo to finally joke and laugh with Deshawn after weeks of not.

"Beat my ass, nigga you know I got the fist, but fo' real I don't need my sister gettin batten I'm by no nigga especially a nigga who I consider one of my brothers,"

"I understand and that time in my life is something I don't want to ever happen again,"

"Yeah I hear you, but lemme ask you something,"

"Go head," He shrugged thinking nothing of the question he was going to ask.

"You still taking drugs," Deshawn straight out asked Kairo surprising him a bit.

"How you know I'm taking," he challenged back.

"Nigga I ain't stupid and plus Kam told me when you laid hands on her you were on and she knows a good chance that you on it again, so once again you on drugs,"

"Not heavy heavy nigga, just when I been stressed," He revealed with a shrug, Kairo thought he knew what he was doing by taking the drugs and thought he wasn't addicted just because he didn't need it 24/7, Kairo is what you would call a healthy addict.

Kairo sniffed attests once a day, but to him it wasn't that serious since he's seen worse.

"And how many times is that,"

"Just once a day,"

"Just once a day," Deshawn exclaimed, never would he have thought that Kairo White would be doing drugs, especially since he knew what it could do to people when they were on it.

"You my brother so I'm gone keep it real with you, you need to stop this shit now,"

"I just been going through it last couple of months, I'm fine I know how to control myself," He tried to reassure Deshawn but he knew sooner or later what's going to happen if Kairo continues.

"I'm serious Kairo, before I tell pops," Deshawn knew the only way Kairo would actually stop was if he told Omar.

Omar is literally the only person who Kairo genuinely will listen to because that is his father, the person other than his mother to help him be the man he is today, well who they hoped he will become.

"Mann, you ain't gotta do all that,"

"Yes I do, you need to stop, and that's all I'm going to say on the situation, "

"Ight hear you, you talk to Kam," Kairo inquired, knowing that Deshawn did talk to Kamiya considering they are brothers and sister.

"Nigga of course I talk to her, she my damn sister, why wassup,"

"Just wondering, seeing how she doing and shit," He shrugged his shoulders.

"You miss her don't you," After that statement he started laughing knowing Kairo did miss Kamiya.

"Nigga no I don't miss her, shut up," he sucked his teeth.

"Ight, if you say so but I gotta go Asia finna drop the kids off soon,"

"Ight One,"

"One," Deshawn ended the call leaving Kairo once again alone.

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This is a short chapter sorry X

Exams been kicking me in the ass!

If school close down a next chapter will be very soon but I need 40 votes!

Stay safe Lovesss!!