Chapter||17

Publishing this because it's my birthday today🍾

December 1st baby

I love you but I won't be a fool for you

That is just somethin' that I wouldn't do, babe

I mean I'mma stay if you could tell the truth

But you can't, no matter how much time I ask

So you can keep that bitch ova there givin' me the ugly stare

The one with the silicone ass, and the Brazilian hair?

You ain't gon' respect me no no no till I'm not there

See, I got you comfortable, now you ain't really scared

1 am

Deshawn looked around nervously as he knocked on Asia's door. He waited a few minutes before he finally heard the door unlock.

"Do you know what time it is," She harshly spat at Deshawn once she opened the door.

"Yeah, it's 1, why," he grinned at her while she held a mug on her face.

"Don't play with me, what do you want," she was becoming irritated with just his presence being her and wanted to so badly slam the door in his face and go back to bed.

"I need you to hold this for me real quick," he quickly spoke before slightly taking the object out of his pocket.

Asia squinted her eyes trying to see what it was he was showing but because of the deal, it was hard for her to see.

"What is it," She curiously asked with a hand on her hip.

"You gone hold it," he ignored her question.

"Deshawn," she sternly spoke causing him to sigh. He finally took the object out of his pocket showing it to Asia.

"I'm not holding that shit for you, Deshawn,"

"Asia it's only for a few days," he replied but Asia shook her head.

"Deshawn I can't, we got fucking kids, I can't be keeping that," she didn't want any parts of Deshawn's life brought into hers, especially now since they weren't together anymore.

"They not here right now, I'll come collect tomorrow, I'm just in some deep shit right now,"

"De-," she began to protest but he grabbed her hand and swiftly placed the gun in her hand.

"Take it back, I'm not playing," she tried to give it back but he started to back away from her with his hands up.

"Make sure you wipe it clean," He got in his car and drove off while Asia still stood in the doorway feeling defeated as she stared at the gun placed in her hand.

Asia turned around to shut the door before making her way to the back room. She wiped the gun with a cloth before placing the gun underneath the dresser.

She sighed as she made her back to her room trying to go back to sleep.

It had been 2 hours since she was woken up and Asia still couldn't go to sleep. She had been crying since seeing Deshawn's face. Him popping up made her miss him and all the memories came rushing back to her.

She grabbed her pillow holding it while she laid in a cradle position crying about the day she first found out Deshawn was cheating on her.

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Flashback

"I'm going to miss you," Odell held a pout on his lips as he watched Robyn pack her bags ready to go to New York.

"I'm going to miss you too baby," She replied as she stopped packing and went over to him where he sat on the bed wrapping her arms around his neck giving him light pecks.

"Just hurry up and come back," he spoke after their little make out session gripping her ass as well.

She had now finished packing and Quinn,her friend was outside in the car waiting on her while she said her goodbye to Odell.

"I love you," he spoke in between each kiss.

"I love you too baby," she wiped the corner of his mouth where her lipgloss was.

"Gimme anotha kiss," he he puckered his lips to her, she obeyed and gave him another kiss but before she could pull back Odell turned it into something else and now his tongue was in her mouth with her sucking on it.

His hands travelled to her ass squeezing it while her hands cupped his face. Being interrupted by a car honking they pulled apart with laughter.

"Looks like someone's impatient," Odell said chuckling as she opened the front door for Robyn.

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Odell took her luggage and placed them in the boot of Quinn's car.

"Love you, bye," Robyn said as she gave him another quick peck in the lips before opening the passenger side door and getting in.

Odell waited until he couldn't see them anymore before heading back inside.

"This the nigga you moved in with" Quinn asked after a while of silence.

"Soon, why you don't like him," she wondered.

"I mean I don't even know the nigga but he could've had a lil respect to come and say hi to me or somethin'," Quinnexpressed not liking this Odell dude.

"He's not a people person," she covered for him.

"If you say so, why you even going to Oklahoma," he asked while Robyn simply shrugged her shoulders lying.

"You going by yourself," he continued to pester her with questions.

"Nah, I'm going with Kam, she finna meet me at the airport," she replied.

"Thanks for the ride," Robyn thanked him giving him a hug as she stood outside of the area to board.

"No problem Rob," he spoke as they released from each other.

"You gone wait for Kam with me," She batted her eyes at him.

"Whatever you want ma," he replied licking his lips at her but she didn't seem to notice it.

10 minutes late Kam was pulling up in a taxi. Once Robyn saw her she hopped out the car after saying her goodbyes and went to greet her.

Quinn watched until she handed her ticket for the lady to see and disappear into the crowd of people.

Here we go, she thought with an unsure smile as she stepped onto the plane.

"You alright," Kam asked seeing Robyn uneasy.

"Yeah just nervous," she replied giving Kam a small smile.

"I'm here if you need me," She grabbed at her hands.

It took nearly 3 hours for them to reach to their destination and by then Robyn was flat out nervous.

She wasn't sure if she was making the right decision or not.

"My appointment is tomorrow at 10:15," She stayed once they got accustomed in their hotel room.

"Well we should go out then," Kam suggested showing Robyn a hopeful smile.

Robyn raised her eyebrow before answering.

"You want my pregnant ass to go somewhere,"

"Girl you don't have to drink," she replied.

"It's gone be boring then," she huffed with a pout.

"Girl, you so dramatic, if it makes you feel any better then I won't drink as well," she stated causing Robyn to smile widely and hug Kam.

"You such a good friend," she spoke after their hug.

"I know," she playfully responded, Robyn slightly pushed her while laughing.

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"Gooo best friend," Kam shouted as Robyn shook her ass to the beat of the song.

"Fuck it up sis," she continued to hype up Robyn once she saw her throw her ass back even more.

"Alright, I'm tired now," Robyn spoke laughing after a while of her dancing.

"Girl, your lazy ass," They made their way to an empty booth in the back of the club, taking a seat on opposite sides.

"I'm hungry as hell," Robyn expressed while looking through the me h that was on the table.

"You always hungry," Kam laughed causing Robyn to stale face her.

"What would you guys like to order," the waitress asked as she took out her iPad to place their order.

"Can I have a lobster with some prawns and can I also have potatoes and corn please," Robyn replied causing Kam and the waitress to laugh a bit because of how much she's ordering.

"Damn, you finna eat everything," Kam said causing Robyn to slightly giggle and wave her off.

"Can I please get some spicy king prawns and sweet potato fries with melted cheese on top," Kam ordered her food before giving the menus back to the waitress.

"Yall want any drinks,"

"Can I get a water please and she wants a sprite as usual," Robyn ordered for the both of them. The waitress nodded her head before placing everything on the iPad and walking to the another table.

"So what's up with you and Odell," Kam asked putting a prawn in her mouth.

"We good, I haven't fully put my trust into him but we're working on that," She replied before sucking on the lobster juice then snapping it.

"I just think that I may be rushing into the relationship because I love him and want to be with him," she confessed to Kam.

"Do you love yourself," Kam inquired staring deeply at Robyn.

Robyn shifted her eyes elsewhere avoiding Kam's gaze.

"I want to say I do but I'm probably lying," she honestly replied putting her head down.

"I want to so bad but I rely so much on Odell to tell me he loves me and that I'm beautiful," she started to tear up so Kam went to the other side to hug and console her friend.

"Your beautiful whether a man tells you so or not,"

"You think so," Robyn was always skeptical about whether she was beautiful or not because she depended on Odell. She thought if she was so beautiful why did Odell cheat on her, why did Odell continue to lie to her about Nahlia.

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Next morning

"You sure you want to do this," Kam asked Robyn for the hundredth time today.

"How many times you gone ask the same question Kam," Robyn was becoming annoyed with Kam asking questions.

"I'm just trying to make sure that you are confident in doing this, it's a really big deal." Kam responded.

"I'm sure," she lied giving a small smile, Kam saw straight through the smile but decided to ignore at order the Taxi.

"The Uber's coming in 5 minutes, so let's head down now,"

15 mi utes later and they were exiting out the Uber heading towards the clinic. As soon as Robyn stepped in her stomach made a knot.

"You okay," Kam noticed Robyn become uneasy as they made their way yo the receptionist.

"How may I help you," the receptionist asked once they got to the front.

"Robyn for an appointment with Dr.Quasi," She replied with a small smile.

"If you could sign this sheet and wait in the waiting room then the Dr will be right with you,"

"Thanks," she replied going to the waiting room.

"Robyn," Dr.Quasi announced making Kam looked over to Robyn but she noticed she was in a trace rocking back and forth she didn't even notice her name being called.

"Robyn," Kam gave her a slight tap on the shoulder causing her to jump in fright before calming down noticing it was only Kam.

"Yeah," she replied

"The Dr," she looked towards him as he still stood there waiting for her.

"Sorry," she apologised to them both before standing up and following behind him. Kam decided to stay in the waiting room for Robyn not wanting to see anything.

"You want and ultrasound," Dr.Quasi asked her. Robyn went against her better judgement and nodded her head in approval.

Dr.Quasi got the equipment ready, then told her it would be a little cold before placing the gel onto her belly.

"You're about 3 months and 2 weeks pregnant, just in time to get the abortion,"

Robyn gave a smile small at the Dr.Quasi starting to tear up. But what made her to start sobbing was when Dr.Quasi turned on the sound and Robyn heard her child's heartbeat for the first time.

"I'm s-so sorry b-but I can't d-do this," Robyn whimpered before lifting herself up off the bed.

"That's okay," Dr.Quasi smile glad that she didn't want to go through with the abortion. That was Dr.Quasi tactics to try and stop women from having abortions, she would make them listen to the heart and say wonderful things about how the baby is growing healthy, 6 times out of 10 the women would no longer want to have an abortion anymore.

"Sorry f-for wasting your time," Robyn grabbed her stuff before exiting out the room and out of the hospital.

Kam saw Robyn rush out of the hospital so she ran after her.

"I can't do it Kam, I just can't," she vigorously shook her head at Kam.

"It's okay, calm down everything's fine, you can take care of this baby, we will take care of this baby," she brought Robyn into a hug and let her cry on her shoulder.

"I'm scared," she admitted to Kam.

"You're going to be the best mother," She reassured her.

"You think," she raised her head to look at Kam.

"I know so," she replied giving Robyn a wide smile bringing her into a hug.

"I guess I'm having a baby," She slightly laughed before touching her stomach.

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"Armani please when you get this message call me, love you," Armani listened to the voicemail that Ryan had left for the 4th time now.

Truth was that she missed his voice but she was afraid to miss it. She was doubtful about if she should trust Ryan again, considering he was the reason she was kidnapped.

"Please Armani, I just need to hear your voice," She listened to Ryan beg. Hearing him beg caused a smile to creep upon her face because that meant that he was trying and really cared for her.

Reluctantly she went to her call log and her fingers hovered over Ryan's name. It took her a few seconds to actually press his name, she placed the phone to her hear waiting for it to ring through.

It took one ring for Ryan to answer the phone, when he saw Armani's name he couldn't help but smile wide. For weeks he had been waiting on her call and nw was the time so he wasn't passing up on probably the only opportunity to talk to Armani.

"Mani," Ryan spoke first as soon as he answered the call.

It took Armani a couple of seconds to formulate her words once she heard Ryan's voice.

"Uhh, hey," she softly uttered, her sound alone made Ryan's heart flutter.

"I'm sorry, I knew what their operation was and I didn't try my best to stop them from taking you, I should've just left with you once I saw them enter the restaurant," he rambled I'm trying to justify himself.

"Ry-," she tried to stop him but he still carried on explaining.

"I-I could've helped your family sooner on finding y-you but I was so afraid," he took a breather before carrying on.

"I was so afraid that Nick would come after me again and I panicked, I'm so s-sorry,"

"Ryan you've got to breathe," She coached.

"I swear I'm sorry," he dismissed her and proceeded to apologise.

"Ryan you've got to breathe or you're going to have a panic attack please,"

"Please forgive me, I can't live without you Armani, I f-feel so g-guilty," Ryan was now crying to Armani as he stood against his bedroom wall.

"I forgive your Ryan please breathe," she honestly replied.

For the past few weeks Armani has been going to therapy 3 times a week. Armani confided in her therapist about everything she was feeling, getting everything off her chest.

Her therapist encouraged her to forgive everyone that had hurt Armani, not because they had apologised but because Armani would never be able to move on with life if she never forgave the people who hurt her.

"No, I know your only saying that to help em calm down, stop lying Armani please," By now Ryan was starting to hyperventilate and Armani could bear it in her voice.

"Ryan where are you," she asked standing up from her bed she started to find clothes to put on to visit where Ryan was.

"Home,"

"Armani I'm so sorry," he spoke again in between him trying to take deep breathes, but it wasn't working.

"Ryan breathe," she coached again doing with him. This didn't help Ryan at all especially since he had just received a text from Gunna threatening him.

"No no no no," Ryan shook his head vigorously started to hyperventilate again.

By now Ryan was indeed having a panic attack.

"Ryaaan," Armani cried into the phone once she heard Ryan drop his phone as start to have a panic attack.