Chapter||13

Wish I could forget 'bout you 'bout you

Playing with my feelings I ain't think that shit was cool

Niggas told me things about you,

i ain't think that shit was cool

They be callin' you a thot but I had a different view

Saturday 11th August

"How you and Lil man doing," Rakeem Sr asked his girlfriend Miracle through the correctional phone.

"We're doing great, he had a game yesterday and he scored the winning goal," Miracle answered smiling thinking about their son.

"That's my boy," after that the line went dead for a while and the only thing that could be heard were their breathing.

"I miss y'all," he softly spoke after a while of silence.

Rakeem was currently doing 5 years in jail for possession of an illegal weapon, he had been in jail for 3 years now.

"We miss you too, I wish you were here," she stated as she frowned.

"So do I but I can't, I got 18 more months left then I can beat up that pussy for you," he smirked knowing that will turn her on.

"Babyyy," she whined while blushing.

"You keeping it tight for me," he questioned licking his lips as he placed his head on the wall.

"Of course," she blushed, again.

"Better be"

"I'm coming on Tuesday instead of Monday because I got to work an extra shift," she informed him making him furrow his eyebrows in confusion as to why.

"Why you taking an extra shift for," he questioned.

"I just want to," she lied shrugging.

"Mi doesn't lie, why you need the extra shift," he asked more firmly this time.

She huffed before replying, "I need the extra cash".

"We struggling," he asked as he leaned off the wall.

"No, I just need extra cash for Keem's activities," she explained as she picked at her nails.

"What happened to the money I left you," he asked.

"That only lasted for about a year Ra, plus you know Keem has asthma and those hospital bills ain't no joke" She replied rolling her eyes on how Rakeem was getting it.

"You work in a hospital so you must've now what you doing, do that shit at home," he said as if it was that simple.

"I need the equipment stupid, plus you know he sometimes has attacks"

"Steal the damn equipment Mi"

"Nigga you sound so stupid right now, I could lose my damn licence because of that," she snapped on him.

"Damn, sorry I ain't mean to trigger nothing," he apologised feeling sort of bad.

"No it's okay baby, sorry for snapping," she chuckled a bit trying to lighten up the mood.

"You want me to try and find a way to get you some money," he offered.

"You know I don't want you to do nothing illegal, it's the damn reason you're in here right now Rakeem and you better not do a damn thing," she warmed him causing him to laugh at how she tried to be angry.

"I'm not going to, anymore," he whispered the last part chuckling.

"I could ask my cousin if could give y'all some money," he hopefully stated hoping she would agree.

"No we good, I don't want any of your cousins' money, I just need to do a little overtime that's all," she replied as she made her way downstairs heading to the car to pick up Keem from his friends' house so she could spend a little time with him before she had to head to work.

"You s-" he tried to ask before being interrupted by the intercom.

"You have one-minute remaining"

"I love you soo much baby girl don't ever forget that" he confessed.

"I love you too baby" she started to tear up at the thought of hanging upon him.

"Tell Lil man I said I love him as well"

"I will see you on Tuesday baby"

"See yo-" the phone has cut off before he could even say bye.

She sighed as she drove off heading to Keems friends house.

"How was your day baby," Miracle rubbed the top of Keems head as they walked to her car.

"I had soo much fun mummy," he excitedly said getting comfortable in his car seat.

She strapped him in up his seat and headed round the car to the driver's seat.

"That's good to hear baby, have you eaten," she asked peeling out of the driveway.

"We ate breakfast but not lunch, I wanted you to cook me something," he replied looking out the window.

"Baby you know we struggling," she sighed, "and if you can eat at their house do it, even if you want my food okay baby," she said slowly so he understood.

"Yes mummy, sorry," he apologised

"No it's fine baby, just remember for next time"

Miracle didn't want to tell Rakeem they were struggling because she knew he would do something he had no business doing which resulted in him getting extra time added onto his sentence. Miracle worked as a nurse but she had only recently joined considering she had just graduated so that money alone wasn't doing it as she and Rakeem were in debt before and still are. Rakeem worked as a corner boy when he had found out Miracle was pregnant which was when he was 18 and she was 17. Miracle had just been kicked out by her dad resulting in her moving in Rakeem who was already struggling. Already struggling to pay the bills with just himself he now had to feed a whole other mouth which he couldn't afford and it left them two homeless for a couple of months.

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Robyn looked down at the positive pregnancy test with a disappointing smile on her face.

She had been wanting to get pregnant since forever but now that she finally was she didn't know how to feel.

She looked at the test in disbelief apart of her hoping it was wrong. Being in such in denial she decided to take another pregnancy test. She went back into her room and dig into her bag looking for the other test, after a while of searching she still couldn't find it. Getting frustrated she tipped her bag upside down letting everything that was inside dropped onto the bed. She searched through the pile of rubbish that was now on her bed but she couldn't find it.

"Arghh," she let out.

"I know I bought that shit, where the fuck is it," she mumbled to herself trying to recall back her steps once she left the store. She went into her kitchen, where she was last, and looked around but the test was nowhere to be found. She decided on going to the car just in case it dropped before she came out and low and behold it was lying right on the floor on the passengers' side.

She grabbed it making her way back to her apartment ready to go piss again. After pissing and waiting 5 minutes for it to beep it finally did but her shaky hands wouldn't let her pick up the stick properly as it dropped every time she tried to read it. Calming herself down she picked up the test and the tears she tried to hold in let out as she saw positive on the stick once again.

"I can't be," she mumbled in disbelief still.

She put both packets back into the bags it was in a threw it in the trash bin she had in the bathroom and left out but not before putting a tissue over it so you couldn't see it without actually searching in the bin for it.

She plopped down on her bed and her hand automatically went to her stomach that was still flat. She knew she was only 3 months because that was the last time they had sex and Odell didn't use a condom, so her belly wasn't noticeable yet but when it would start to be, she would have to tell people about her pregnancy, which she did not want to. With Odell being such a huge football player it came with a lot of publicity. To the public eye Odell was still with Nahlia so Robyn telling people she was pregnant and the father being Odell, she would get a lot of hate her way and she didn't want that type of drama.

It had been a few weeks with Odell claiming he dumped Nahlia but Robyn knew he was secretly still seeing her. She didn't understand why he didn't just leave her alone but with Odell claiming she has dirt on him and she will spill everything to the press he had no choice to stay with her, but Robyn wasn't falling for that.

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Odell stepped out his car and walked towards Nahlias apartment. He opened the door with the key he had been given and stepped into the apartment. He was greeted by Nahlia as soon as he entered like she had been waiting for him and sat right by the door.

"Hey baby," she greeted giving his kisses all over his face.

"Hey," he plainly replied as he let her get her greeting over and done with.

"How was practice," she asked following behind him as he made his way to the kitchen.

"Practice was practice," he kept it short and simple not really wanting to have a conversation with her.

"Is that it," she couldn't understand why Odell was all of a sudden giving her blunt answers.

"That's what I said didn't I," he replied as he opened the fridge grabbing a Gatorade.

"Why so rude," she shut the fridge forcefully for him while glaring at him but he plainly ignored her. He had only been here for about a minute and he already wanted to leave and never return. Sometimes he wondered why he had to meet her because all she had done was make his life miserable.

"Can I just have some peace and quiet please, is that so hard to ask," he took deep breaths not wanting his anger to get the best of him but he still kept talking and nagging at him all that would go out the window. Odell didn't touch females but for Nahlia he would break the rule just once.

"I just want to know what's wrong baby," she touched at his arm causing him to flinch and put his hand up signalling for her to stop.

"Nahlia," he sternly said.

"Yes baby," she innocently replied inching closer to him again.

"What is it that you want," he slowly asked with his head down and his arms braced on the counter.

"I want you, baby," she stated smiling widely like a fool.

"No what is it that you really want," he asked again emphasising really because he knew that Nahlia is full of games.

"What do you mean," she acted cluelessly.

"You think I'm stupid," he now lifted his head up looking straight into her eyes. Nahlia now became inferior under his gaze and shifted uncomfortably.

"No, baby all I want is you," she tried her hardest to show a sinister smile but Odell saw right through it.

"First you lie to me about the medication I take, then you blackmail me so I have to stay with you, WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU ACTUALLY WANT," his voice boomed through the house as he slammed his fist on the counter.

"I love you why can't you just see that," At this point, she now was terrified of Odell because she knew the history he had with his anger and all the things she did to him didn't make it any better.

He scoffed at her statement, "Oh don't give me that bullshit," he spat at her.

"You're evil and manipulative bitch who only cares about herself, you would do anything to get to the top," he revealed.

"No I'm not" she slightly raised her voice defending herself.

"Who the fuck You think you talking to," he inched closer to her causing her to step back until her back hit the wall and she could no longer go any further.

"I just want you to love me"

"And who says I didn't, I fucking loved your ass," he spoke through gritted teeth. His words tugged at her because he said loved her instead of love and was silently punching herself up because she knew she had thrown it all away when she blackmailed him.

He threw a punch at the wall right beside her head causing her to flinch.

"Damn it," he shouted as he backed away from her.

"You're going to regret this Odell," she threatened now standing up for herself as he approached the door.

"You won't know what hit you," once those words left her mouth he turned around so fast surprised he didn't get whiplash and glared at her in which she returned as well.

"Trust me you don't want to threaten me," he continued walking towards the door.

"No trust me you don't want to underestimate me," she clapped back watching him put on his jacket.

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"I know Nick," Kamiya revealed.

"The fuck You just say," Kairo had to take a double-take to know if he heard correctly.

"I know Nick," she mumbled with her head down.

"I know you fucking lying," he laughed sarcastically.

"SO ALL THIS FUCKING TIME," his voice boomed causing Kamiya to whimper in fear.

"ALL THIS FUCKING TIME AND YOU KNEW THAT SHIT, YOU KNOW WE BEEN TRYING TO GET THIS NIGGA AND YOU FUCKING KNEW ALL ALONG," he put his hands on his head trying to process what Kamiya had said. Kamiya just stood there not knowing what to say afterwards pissing off Kairo even more.

"How the fuck You know him," he asked the million-dollar question.

"From back in the day," she kept it short.

"I'm losing my patient here, WHAT THE FUCK DOES BACK IN THE DAY MEAN," he balled up his fist as he paced back and forth.

"We maybe sorta had a thing," she used her hands to express how little she knew him.

"What the fuck is maybe sorta had a thing, Kamiya," he stopped right in front of her as she sat on the edge of the bed.

"We fucking dated okay," she shouted out throwing her arms in the air.

"How the fuck can you date him, the nigga is like 40 years old," he held a disgusted look on his face.

She gave him attitude while she answered the question highly offended with what he had said.

"It doesn't matter bout the age Kairo," she didn't see the point of him saying the age of Nick when love was love.

Well, what she thought was love.

"How did you meet him," He asked ignoring her question with his arms crossed.

Contemplating whether or not she should lie to Kairo or tell the truth.

"He adopted me," she decided on telling the truth but to an extent.

"What the fuck type shit is this," Kairo was completely confused on the whole situation between Kamiya and Nick.

"My nigga you just said you dated him now you say he adopted you, what the fuck is the truth," He was becoming pissed off with Kamiya and the lies he thought she was telling.

"First off I'm not your damn nigga don't call me that-" she began but Kairo rudely interrupted putting his hand in her face.

"I call you what the fuck I want to," he aggressively stated getting up all in her face with his hands balled up.

"Can you please back up," she tried to push him away but the small hands she had wasn't nothing compared to Kairos muscular body.

"Don't put your fucking hands on me," he forcefully pushed her hands down from off his body.

"Can you calm down," she quietly asked

"Don't fucking tell me to calm the fuck down"

"If you not gon' listen I'm finna go downstairs," Kamiya said ready to get up and head out the door.

"No we gon' talk about this," he stretched out his arm blocking her from going any further.

"No, I don't want to talk about this anymore"

"Well I do," he wasn't trying to hear anything Kamiya was saying right now, he was only focused on the information he wanted to now.

"No I'm going," she yanked his arm down heading to the door.

"Don't open that fucking door," he demanded rather to calm scaring Kamiya.

"I'm done wit-" she started to say but the voice of Kairo stopped her from speaking any further.

"WE ARE TALKING ABOUT THIS RIGHT FUCKING NOW," he stomped his right foot on the ground with his handheld in a fist as he turned to look at Kamiya.

"Start talking," he said after they stood for a while just staring at each other.

"When I was 13 Nick adopted me from foster care, at first it was all normal until a couple of months later I found out he was a pimp," she sighed but continued on,

"he started making me do stuff for him and for other men to, then 2 years later I was in charge of everything, I operated the girls and I became Nicks girlfriend, at first it felt weird but when I was 16 I started to like him, sooner or later I became like his ride or die, girl," she explained all in one breath.

"Do you was a hoe," he stated nodding his head in understanding with his bottom lip tucked in.

"I wasn't a hoe, I just told you I was his girlfriend"

"Ight, so you was his girlfriend or whateva and when did you stop being his girlfriend," he asked staring into her eyes that were filled with many emotions one being regret.

"When I was 17," she replied rethinking back to the day she had run away from Nick.

"When I met you did you know anything about me," he was curious but also anxious on what her answer might be.

"No," she firmly replied so he knew she was telling the truth.

"Don't fucki-" he warned he but Kamiya cut him off.

"I'm not lying, back then we were in Baton Rouge so I only really knew the people there, I didn't even know Nick was a kingpin as well," she truthfully answered.

"Why wait until know to tell me," he asked,

"Wait no lemme rephrase that shit How the fuck does Armani know shit about Nick but I don't," he forgot all about Armani and her dropping hints about Kamiya.

Kamiya was frozen, she didn't know how to answer that.

"I umm ran into him uh one day when she was umm with me," she cleared her throat after.

"So what does that have to do with her knowing all about Nick," he still had no clue why or how Armani knew about Nick.

"She asked and I told her," she lied.

"This is all too much," he finally said as he took into account everything Kamiya had told him.

"What do you mean," she followed him as he went into their closet.

"What do you mean, what do I mean, I can't process shit right with you here, I just need to think," he replied as he packed a duffle bag.

"Do You have to leave," she asked as she tried to stop him but resulted in her getting shoved back by Kairo.

"Yes I have to fucking leave before I put my hands on your motherfucking ass," he voice boomed through the closet scaring Kamiya.

"I just told you everything you asked for what more do you want," she pleaded with him following him as he exited out their room heading towards Liyahs bedroom.

He walked in the room quietly before going to her crib and kissing her forehead.

"I love you, mamas," he stated.

Kamiya waited outside the room door for him and went back to nagging him after he came out of the room.

"You don't have to go, we can talk some more please," she was on his tail even when he put his bags in the trunk.

"You were sleeping with the enemy I can't trust you," he stated as he stared in her eyes so she knew it was true and peeled out of their driveway and out the gates.

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Sorry for the late update I just started school so I been busy but update coming soon soon.

Again, From now on if no one asks for an update or I don't get any comments on the chapter I won't be updating but I need at least 20 likes!!!

You will see later on why Miracle and Rakeem Sr are important in the story, hold on!