Linking her arm through mine, Rory skipped along through the baking hot festival ground in the Southern Californian desert. We were out past Joshua Tree National Park, but close enough to home for both me and my bestie to get time together.
In teeny shorts, halter necks, shades, and low baseball caps, we matched, and I blended in with the people around me at the Campfyre music festival.
A security guard stalked me from a careful distance, a condition of my contract, but so far so goodânot one person had made the connection.
Not that I was billed to be here, and besides, the blonde hair made a big difference.
It had been dyed for my previous movie, and Iâd kept it to feel safer coming here, fulfilling the agreement with my rock star acquaintance.
Plus I had a statement to make.
Nerves racked my belly.
Soon, Iâd be face to face with Leo and his crew. In the past few months, weâd both been so busy weâd only managed brief messages about the performance, him sending a piece for me to learn, me returning recordings for him to correct. Weâd rehearse it for the first time today then perform onstage tomorrow evening.
Heâd said nothing about my shitty treatment of Cameron but offered his support for the exposing news articles. At a guess, he could be playing nice because we were tied into working together.
Except heâd given me an out, if Iâd wanted it.
I didnât understand.
âGreta texted me again earlier.â Rory veered to a stall, peering over her sunglasses at a display of pretty daisy bracelets before dismissing them. âSheâs still so upset about what happened.â
Greta, my once-friend who worked at the riding stables, and with whom Iâd destroyed Derrenâs car, had been the source of the leak of that piece of juicy gossip. Sheâd confided in her younger sister whoâd passed it on to her new boyfriend in an attempt to impress him.
Yet another example of how I should never trust anyone.
âTell her itâs fine. She didnât know that her sister was going to blab. It was my fault for agreeing to do it. I canât blame anyone but myself. Live and learn, right?â
We continued on in the direction of the artist-only area. Here, the crowd thinned.
Rory hugged my arm. âThat therapist you were seeing, did she think this performance was a good idea?â
âI didnât tell her about it entirely. Only that I needed to make a statement. Take the power back.â
My friend nodded sagely. âAfter pussy-gate.â
âPussy-gate, but other stuff, too. She gave me coping techniques but she also suggested I stop acting for a while.â
âHoly shit. Are you really going to quit?â Rory asked.
I chewed my lip. âWellââ
A shoe hit my sandaled heel from behind, and I stumbled. My bodyguard loomed over us. Too close.
I stared up at him. âOw.â
âSorry,â he intoned.
âCould you give me a little space?â I asked.
He inched back, still too close for comfort.
At the security gate to the artists-only camping area, I held up my pass then twisted around to my clingy guard. âWeâre good from here.â
The big manâs lips flattened in a line. âIâll stay with you.â
âNo, really. Iâll call you if Iâm going to walk out in the crowds again.â
âIâm not supposed to leave you alone.â
Rory waved. âWhat am I, chopped nuts? She isnât alone. Iâm with her.â
The man worked his jaw. âI donât thinkââ
âNo one paid you to think,â my friend quipped. âYouâre here to protect Elise from the public. Weâre not in a public area now. Take the afternoon off.â
âIâd appreciate it,â I added, just to be polite.
The guard grimaced but wheeled around and left us to go into the secure zone.
I elbowed Rory. âWhatâs with the queen bitch-mode?â
She led me through the gate, beaming. âIâve been practicing. I hate how people treat you like you donât know your own mind.â
âI like that heâs gone.â
âHe isnât one of your usual guys. Who sent him?â
âJanelle. Or maybe Mom. I canât remember.â
âDo you think heâs a spy? He was over interested in our conversation.â
My thoughts drifted in another direction. Inside the gate, people mingled, smoking pot while music played. Highly important management staff barked into phones and stalked around between makeshift offices and artistsâ accommodation. I had an RV for Rory and me to sleep in at the other end of the site.
We were here to see Leo.
Down the end of the dust road, a truck was being unloaded. Gordain, Leoâs father-in-law, stood nearby, talking with other beefy men in the same uniform of black t-shirts and cargo pants.
I clutched Rory. âThatâs Leoâs people.â
âAre you nervous? If anyoneâs mean to you, theyâll have to answer to me.â She put up her fists and mimed boxing. âI am here to fight your corner.â
My bestie and I were similar in appearance, both petite and brunette, even if my hair no longer matched. But Aurora was all Iâd been before Dad died, before Derren, pussy-gate, and life in general. She was an artist with a love for life, plus fewer boundaries than me, and a dose of adrenaline on top. All her feistiness fronted a good and loyal heart.
I loved her deeply and wanted only good things for her.
That was the reason Iâd kept my darkest secret to myself. It would cut her up. I wanted to keep her just as she was, not scarred like me.
We arrived at the truck, and I waved awkwardly. âMr McRae. Itâs Elise. We met at your home. Is Leo here yet? Iâm supposed to be meeting him.â
Leoâs father-in-law turned from his duties and regarded me, tattooed arms flexing as he propped his hands onto his hips. I flinched, anticipating harsh words. At the meal weâd had in their kitchen, heâd treated Cameron like a favourite.
Cameron. So long as I didnât think too much about him, I could get through this weekend.
Gordain gave a wide smile. âAye, sweetheart. I remember. Good to see ye again. Iâll give Leo a shout. Vi and the bairn are napping, but heâs around.â
He strode over to a collection of accommodation vehicles, and I swallowed my surprise.
After a moment, Leo appeared. I schooled my features into the purely professional face Iâd cultivated in the past couple of months. My wildness was tamed, no more car smashing for me.
Then my efforts fell away as two men strode out behind Leo.
Cameron, all in black, sunglasses on, and with scruff shadowing his jaw.
Max sauntered along with him, but all my attention stuck on the man Iâd wronged.
Here.
Handsome as all get out.
Fuck.
My mouth opened, and I snapped it closed, forcing my attention to Leo who ushered me into a light hug.
âYouâre here already! Viola will be out in a second, she just woke up. How cool is this?â
âHey, Leo.â Awash with far too much feeling, the nature of which I couldnât fully recognise, I forced through my stumbling and gestured weakly at my friend. âThis is Rory.â
Leo stuck out a hand, then thumbed to the two men at his side. âCameron and Max.â
Roryâs eyes widened. âThe Cameron? As in, of the car? Yikes.â
She knew the story. Iâd told her about the kissing, too. Now I prayed sheâd shut the hell up.
Leo tilted his head at Cameron. âWhat about a car?â
Heat rose up my throat, no doubt staining my already hot skin.
With no show of emotion, Cameron raised a shoulder. I hated that I couldnât see his eyes behind his shades. Max had removed his, Leo, too.
âI gave Elise a driving lesson. She drove through brambles. No damage done.â
No damage done. Iâd been in pieces over our encounters for months, and no damage done? Why was he protecting me?
My heart squeezed, and I advanced half a step. âCan I talk to you?â
Cameron remained a sentinel. âNo.â
âThirty seconds of your time. I had no idea youâd be here.â
âSorry. Not now.â
Quiet tension rippled through our group. Out of the corner of my eye, I witnessed Rory exchange a glance with Max.
âElise!â Viola threaded her way between the men, her baby bound to her in a sling. Sheâd kept a little weight of post-pregnancy and looked all the healthier for it. Likewise, in three months, Baby G had changed. He blinked at me with bright eyes under his sunhat as his mom wrapped me in a sideways hug.
âIâve been so looking forward to seeing ye. Thanks so, so much for the baby gifts. Ye really shouldnât have done so much. I must admit Iâve loved receiving your parcels.â
True to the advice Cameron had given me, Iâd taken the effort to choose personal gifts for Baby G. And for Viola, too. It had become a regular thing. Whenever I spotted something I liked, wherever I was, I packaged it up and sent it to the castle. A tiny but warm hat with âI love snowâ on it. A beautiful handknitted blanket Iâd found in a yarn store. Gorgeous-smelling body rub for new moms.
âI enjoyed it, too.â I stroked Baby Gâs tiny hand, my smile for him entirely natural.
âWeâre going to have so much fun.â Viola beamed. âThis is the first time weâve been out anywhere since the baby was born. Are ye staying here as well?â
âRory and I are on the other side of the festival park.â
I made the introduction.
Rory greeted Viola and grinned at the baby. âWhoâs this little guy?â
âHeâs Finn, but everyone calls him Baby G.â Viola waved his hand in greeting.
âWhy are you so cute? First festival, Baby G?â Rory gave him a mini fist bump.
More, her interest was on Cameron, the unmoving made-of-stone Highlander who was so obviously beyond pissed at me.
With every right.
Leo clapped once. âElise, we should get started. Rehearsal time is tight. You and I are onstage tomorrow night. Weâre still doing this thing, right? Itâs unannounced so far.â
Rory answered for me. âOh yes, she is. She hasnât shown her face in months. Not since pussy-gate hit.â
Identical expressions of pity fell on me. I didnât mind it from these people, but I really I didnât want it from strangers. Nor the censure or abuse I might get walking out onstage. I couldnât let anyone have power over me like that. Especially not those whoâd seen my exposure with delight.
Hence my need to make the story my own.
âThat was the worst,â Vi said quietly. âNo one here wouldâve looked at those pictures. I hope ye know that.â
Sheâd said as much in the supportive messages sheâd sent. Iâd limited my replies, sure that at any moment, Violaâs regard for me would drop. Cameron would tell her all, and sheâd hate me.
Except he hadnât.
âOf course we didnât,â Leo added. He looked at Max and Cameron.
Cameronâs expression said it all.
Max raised his hands. âVaginas on the Internet. Totally not my thing.â A devilish grin followed. âWhat? Iâm kidding. It was a gross invasion of privacy.â
âThank you.â I sucked in a breath. âIâve got something in mind for addressing pussy-gate. If it works with the show.â
âYouâre so brave. And ye have all of us here in support.â Viola cupped my elbow.
A fresh wave of emotion rolled through me.
Leo gestured to their RV, and I guessed the makeshift rehearsal space. âCanât wait to hear it. Follow me. I have a guitar with your name on it.â
Two hours later, I set aside my borrowed semi-acoustic and stretched out my fingers. Since spring, Iâd practised Leoâs song, Thief, endlessly, the activity giving me well-needed focus in my lonely evenings.
Across the RV, Viola, snuggling Baby G, gave a happy sigh. Sheâd joined us to hear the song played through, Leoâs lyrics only so far.
âI can believe how good ye sound already. The song is amazing. People are gonna go nuts. Ye have a real Taylor Swift vibe going on.â
âNot going to lieâI love her. Thatâs a real ego boost.â Iâd listened to her folk songs on repeat, matching my pain to her lyrics. Violaâs comparison was incredibly flattering.
Leo set his guitar aside, his forehead lined with worry. âElise has some of her own lyrics, too.â
âOh yeah? Can I hear them?â
I twisted my lips, anxiety stalling me. But fuck it. Iâd written them with the intention of playing in front of thousands. What difference should it make if Viola heard them now?
Solo, I played Leoâs song and sang my new words.
At the end, the couple gazed at me.
In simple lines, Iâd changed the thief in Leoâs lyrics to the photographers whoâd stolen moments from me, and then the person whoâd taken more.
The theft of my mental state by the abuse of my body. All by someone whoâd claimed to love me.
It didnât take a genius to unpick my message.
Viola rubbed her eyes. âShite. Thatâs beautiful, butâ¦are ye sure ye want to get up onstage and share that?â
My pulse thrummed in my ears. âNo, but Iâm going to do it anyway.â
Leo worried at the edge of his nail. He had more to say, but it had taken everything in me to get this far.
I assumed this weekend would be traumatic, with only Rory for a lifeline. It had been easier to imagine performing with hostility around me. The fact that Leo and Viola were still friendlyâ¦
I shot to my feet, placing the borrowed guitar on the couch. âYou guys must be tired. New parents and all. Iâll get out of your hair. See you tomorrow.â
On that note, I fled their RV.
Rory had announced that she was hanging around, so I picked up my phone to call her. I should notify my security guard that were ready to walk back across the site, but the man had given me a strange feeling.
âOver here.â Rory waved from the steps of a trailer.
Two other women sat with her, all with a glass of wine in hand. Naturally, sheâd made friends.
She waved them goodbye and joined me. âHow was that?â
âGood. Nerve-racking. I just hope I donât get shouted off the stage. Leo didnât veto my words, but I donât think he approves.â
âWhatever you decide, Iâm here for you.â
I hugged her hard, grateful for the light she gave me.
âWhat do you want to do now?â Rory asked.
Iâd only flown back to California yesterday and probably needed sleep. My therapist told me to look after myself. Good rest, good food, putting my physical state first so my mental state didnât have any additional strain.
âDinner to go, then we can hide out in the RV. I havenât seen you in so long, and we have so much to catch up on. Ugh. But I donât want that guard hanging around us anymore.â
From the end of the row, two men emerged. Cameron and Max.
My heart again beat out of time. This time, in the dark, Cameronâs sunglasses had gone, but his new close-cut beard was a difference I studied. Hard. He hadnât needed the added maturity, but it suited him all the same.
Max nudged his cousin. âOh look, the object of your non-conversation.â
âMouth shut,â Cameron warned.
Rory perked up. âHey, are you guys going out? We need to get back to the other side of the site, but Elise isnât allowed to mingle in the crowds without protection. Help a girl out? Her bodyguard is the worst.â
Cameronâs gaze sliced to me. âWhatâs up with the guard?â
âHeâs a spy,â Rory mock whispered. âSeriously. He was all over Elise like a rash. No personal boundaries. Youâd be doing us a huge favour.â
Cameron watched me for a long moment, his previous easiness nowhere in sight. âIs that what ye want?â
I swallowed. âPlease.â
âWeâll take ye.â
The men moved ahead, and I waylaid Rory. âCan you distract Max? I need to talk to Cameron alone. Pretty sure heâs going to avoid me otherwise, and I need to say my piece.â
âYouâve got it.â At the gate, Rory ran her arm around Maxâs. âOh wow.â She patted his biceps. âSomeone works out. Tell me about yourself, I want to hear more of that sexy accent.â
I stepped up to Cameron, emerging into the festival park alongside him. âSoââ
A hand landed on my shoulder. I squeaked in alarm and whipped around.
My bodyguard loomed over me. âIâve been waiting for your call.â
I shrank back. âI donât need you right now.â
âThatâs not how this works.â
I blinked at him. âI get to decide that. Not you.â
âMy contract states that I have eyes on you whenever youâre in a public place.â He gestured around with a meaty hand, his expression sarcastic.
Alarm curled inside me.
Security guards didnât behave this way. They were polite, often bored, and very happy to be given time off.
Cameron moved before I knew it had happened. In a fast switch, heâd placed himself in front of me. âShe said no, pal.â
The guard gritted his teeth. âWho the hell are you?â
Cameron looked him up and down, an inch or two taller than the guy, but far less bulky. Yet his body language was unmissable. It spoke of innate strength and coiled power.
âShe needs security detail, correct?â He held up his ID. âIâm that. She asked me to escort her. She doesnae need ye.â
Cameron was a security guard? I recalled that Gordain protected Leo, so it made sense that heâd bring his nephew into the operation. I peered around him to witness the guard glower.
âWho is this guy?â the guard queried.
âNo one. Just another one of you. But who wonât tread on my heels.â If I said anything else, it would end up in the press.
âIâll have to call this in.â
I gave him a hard look. âYou do that. Goodnight.â
After a short staring match with Cameron, the security guard took the hint and left. Relief replaced my panic. Now I had the chance to undo a tiny degree of the damage Iâd done, and I summoned my strength.
Though Cameron had just stepped up for me, I wasnât about to pretend to myself that he was being anything more than Leoâs friend.
My heart constricted again. I wished that circumstances could be different. That we could go for a drink together. Be friends. But I only had this single shot at redemption, after which I was certain Cameron would never speak to me again.
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