I want to be with mama...wherever she is

Octavia was so upset I didn't know how to help and I had Tom, Bill, Georg and Gustav all starting at me, I thought to myself did Octavia really think I was dead and why wasn't I, I want to die and get out of this place but I don't want to leave Octavia at the same time.

"did you really think I was dead?" I said with empathy and sorrow in my voice.

Octavia looked up at me and cried even more she tried to speak but all that came out was soft whimper and sobs. I looked up to see Tom walking over and he grabbed Octavia by the shoulder.

"come on we have to get going. I have some unfinished business to do"

just the sound of Tom sent shivers down my spine. Octavia looked up at tom and nodded then she went over to bill for comfort but he pushed her away and for a reason it made me mad.

"don't push her away" I said with venom and disgust in my voice.

Bill looked at me up and down before giving Octavia a little kiss on the cheek then looking back at me

"I can do what I want with her"

as soon as bill said that I jumped out of bed and threw myself on him but he moved out the way before I could do anything and before I knew it Tom had grabbed me and thrown me back on the bed

"DON'T YOU EVER TRY TO HURT MY BROTHER OR ANYONE THAT IS IN MY GANG"

I was shocked because I've only woken up from like a coma or something and now he was shouting at me like a pet that's shat on the floor in his new apartment. then the anger grow even more in, I was going to punch him but a nurse walked in. she has short brown hair that was in a ponytail and she has glasses that are thick and black. she looked at Octavia crying, Bill sitting, Gustav and George eating then me and Tom. I had my fist clutched and my face was red, Tom was still looking calmer then ever not even a little bit annoyed.

"Hi dear. you have been discharged from the hospital so I'm happy to say you can leave but before you do, can you sign this"

she gave me a small smile before handling me a clipboard with some paper on it. I signed the papers without speaking to Tom, I got up and went to leave the room but got stopped by Tom.

"where are you going?"

He looked confused and a bit annoyed now.

"I'm going to give back the papers the nurse gave me"

he gave me a look and then opened the door but called the others to come too. I gave the papers back and the nurse looked worried at me.

we walked out the hospital and into the parking lot on the way out people was staring and looking terrified but I shrugged it off knowing why they was scared. I got to Tom's car realising it was different, I look at Tom to see him grinning like a little child.

now realising all the cars are different they all have Nissan Sky line's GTR-R34's Tom's is dark blood red, Bill's is pitch black, George's is dark gray and Gustav's is silver with blue stripes on it.

"Do you like the new cars"

I heard Octavia say, she's right next to me now, I look at her in a excited way because I've always loved GTR-R34's and Octavia knows this because it's her favourite car too.

"Do I love it...OF COURSE I DO" I said with excitement.

she looked over the moon to hear I loved the cars but then Bill called her over.

"COME ON OCTAVIA WE NEED TO START PACKING"

I completely forgot about the "unfinished business" Tom and his gang has to do but why does me and Octavia have to go so I looked at Tom who was walking around the car to get to the drivers side.

"wait"

he turned around slowly and looked at me but didn't say anything.

"why does Octavia and me have to go?"

I asked looking confused and a bit annoyed knowing that I will still be in Tom's site.

"because I can't be on the other side of the world and still keep you close..can I now?"

I was completely and utterly distraught knowing that I will be away from Germany and on the other side of the world not only that but I have to get in a plane with him.

"where are we going?"

I asked but he didn't answer all he said was a new home somewhere more exciting. and with that I was already in the car back at the house and Octavia running back and forth getting all her clothes, I opened Tom's door and stopped her.

"where are we going?" I asked confused

Octavia looked at me and shrugged

"I don't know but I do know there's a lot of food"

she said excited and basically squealing at the thought of food. I looked at her before she put her hand on my shoulder.

"you need to start packing now because we are leaving early hours in the morning about 2am"

I looked at her and said I will then with that she left to pack all her stuff, I looked at the time to see it's 12am already and by that time Tom, Bill and Gustav was back and I hadn't even packed.

I heard Octavia running downstairs like an elephant with all she suitcases and bags then I heard Tom's loud foot steps making his way to our room, I panicked and started packing all my clothes and shoes all the things I need. Tom opened the door to see me on the floor throwing anything and everything in the suitcase.

"why aren't you ready?"

he was annoyed and sounded upset? I looked up at him but then he got on his knees and started to help me put my clothes in the suitcase we didn't say anything. about an hour later we was done and now it was 1am

"we need to get going"

Octavia said poking her head in to see Tom and me on the floor, I looked at her and nodded still confused on where we are going.

I was in the car with Tom and like always he was going at the speed of light not acknowledging I crashed and ended up in hospital and I still didn't know if I was in a coma or just sleeping AMD I still don't know where we are going.

Tom stopped the car and everyone got out then we walked in and a man that was dressed like a butler came up to us

"Mr Kaulitz your jet is waiting for you"

and with that I was being dragged to a private jet then before I knew it I was sitting next to Tom and trying to process everything that was going on like I woke up from a coma or something now they have new cars and now I'm being taken out of Germany and to a different country and I still don't know where all these thoughts made me tired so I went to sleep still trying to process everything.

I woke up to Octavia shaking me and calling my name but not with her normal happy voice with a anxious and worried voice then I opened my eyes to see Tom next to her looking at me annoyed like jeez why so annoyed with me all of a sudden.

"Crystal...we are in Tokyo"

My eyes shot open and I screamed

"WHAT...WHY?"

NO, NO, NO, I CANT BE HERE WHY HAS MY NIGHTMARE BECOME MORE OF A NIGHTMARE. why do I have to live here with Tom and his rats and why am I here in the one place I know I will get killed...I want to be with mama...wherever she is.