𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 40

M e h r b a n o

The man standing in front of me was my husband, Ehan Haider but he wasn't like the man I have married and stayed with for the last two years.

I was seeing him after many weeks and he looked like a completely different man. I never expected him to reach me. But that didn't surprise me, his look did.

He looked thin and weak. He was among those people who couldn't lose their weight easily but now it seemed like he was starving for weeks.

His eyes were sunken and dark circles very prominent. It seemed as if he hadn't slept for a long time. His eyes had lost their charm.

His hair ruffled and clothes crinkled. He was wearing a simple black shirt and trousers that was his lounge wear.

He never stepped out of the house in such a condition. He liked neatness and perfection in every aspect. I couldn't believe my eyes.

What had happened to him?

I took my steps back. I didn't want to indulge in conversation with him in front of the guard. He followed behind me impatiently.

"Mehr!" His voice had that longing which I once desired. It struck my heart like a bow.

"What are you doing here? How did you even got to know about my address?" I asked him strictly.

"How are you? It's been so long..." He asked impatiently. His voice was slow and faint.

"Answer me" I didn't softened my tone. Anger was building inside me.

"I was dying to see you" He said emotionally.

"From where did you get my address Ehan?" I repeated my question sternly.

"I took my friend's help" He mentioned.

"Shame on you for doing this" I pointed my finger at him in accusation.

"I just wanted to find you. I wanted to know that you are safe" His voice cracked.

"I am very safe when I am not at your place" I looked away from him.

"I am so sorry Mehr! Please don't do this with us. Give me one chance love! Please! I beg you once chance. I can't bear this anymore. Please!!!" His eyes begged just like his voice.

"Stop it" I murmured, gazing his reckless appearance. It would be unfair to not accept that I didn't like him in such devastated condition even when I already said that I don't care about him anymore. But it wasn't true anyway.

"You have no idea. How much I craved to see you. Thank God you are safe! How have you been all this time?.." He tried to grab my hand.

"I have been very happy and content" I jerked his hands.

"You shouldn't have left like that. Do you even have a slightest idea what could have happened to you. This world isn't safe for women" He fisted his hands together.

"We aren't safe in our homes anyway" I looked him into his eyes, which seemed dead and hollow.

"I always tried to protect you. Don't say that. I didn't want to hurt you ever" His eyes watered and a tear rolled down on his cheeks.

It wasn't nice to watch him crying. It didn't give me any satisfaction.

"And you still hurt me" I had nothing but assusations for him.

"Forgive me please!" He covered his face with his both hands.

"I want to move on. I want to forget you. Can you just leave me alone!!!" I asked him firmly.

He removed his hands and looked into my eyes silently.

"I can't do this" He murmured.

"You are pathetic. You have always been!" I stared into his eyes.

He stayed silent for a few seconds.

"I am so happy that you are doing so well professionally" He smiled at me.

"You are such a hypocrite Ehan! Don't forget you were the one who didn't let me do any job for two years. You just wanted to cage me in your home to satisfy your ego!" I snapped at him.

He shook his head.

"No, I didn't want anything like that. I just wanted to protect you from hardships. I wanted to make your life easy" He gave his reasons. He never bothered to tell me ever.

"And the irony is, you are the one who made my life hard" I accused him once again.

"No, I didn't want to. I am really really sorry for all the pain I have caused you" He muttered hurtfully.

"You can't repay for my pain. For two years I was caged into your home alone and unhappy. You took all source of happiness from me. You wouldn't even let me become a mother" I growled at the end.

I can't forget how he didn't give me my right. It was supposed to be a mutual decision. If he would have discussed it with me I would have agreed to wait for a year to give him time but he didn't discussed anything. He just ordered me to get contraceptive injections.

There was no say of mine in such important decision of my life. I craved to become a mother but he never even thought about it again.

I have many reasons to hate this man.

"I hate you for this Ehan! I hate you for not letting me becoming a mother" I pushed him away when he tried to come closer to me.

"I can explain.." He said impatiently.

"I don't want explanations now"

"Listen to me Mehr!" He begged.

"Shut up! There is nothing to listen. I will finally meet a lawyer tomorrow. You and me will be over!" I glared at him.

"No. No. Don't do this Mehr. I can't live without you. Please forgive me. Please. I beg you" He held my hands in his. His eyes watered more with his each word.

"I don't want to see you again nor I am going to forgive you. Get this thing in your brain" I tried to remove my hands from his hold.

"What you want me to do, to get your forgiveness. I will do everything for you" He stumbled as I pushed him hard this time.

"Nothing" I placed my hand on his chest to maintain the distance again as he moved forward.

"There is no room for forgiveness. I have forgave you again and again. I can't do this again. I am happy now. I am making my own life without any of you who have hurt me. I can live on my own, with my own money. I don't want any toxic relationship in my life. I have made my decision. There is going to be no us again!" I asked him furiously.

"I am sorry" He mumbled once again.

I walked on my way without looking at him.

"I lost my job" I heard him saying from behind.

For a moment I stopped at my place, It was his dream job. I know how many days and night he worked hard for it. He actually deserved that place. How did he end up losing it?

I felt bad but the next moment I told myself I have nothing to do with man anymore. I shouldn't care about him or his job.

"Acha hua" I muttered to him before walking again.

(It's good)

I wanted to hurt him and I know my words hurt him a lot just like his words did to me for a long time.

There was a strong desire in me to hurt him again and again with my words.

Ehan is losing everything he once had.

Mehr isn't even thinking of forgiving him and you can't blame her for that. Those who get hurt can only understand the pain. It's necessary to move on but always not so easy to forgive.

There seems no hope for them😭

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