29 | hope you're happy

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i walked back into the room and laid in the hospital bed with billie.

and i whispered in her ear..

"did you kill paige?"

she turned to face me and it was all in her eyes.

then my eyes got wide. "what did you do?"

"are you mad at me?" she asked in concern.

"no baby," i pulled her closer to me. "but do you trust me? cause i need you to tell me what really happened."

billie sighed. "okay. so when paige insisted we go for a drive, she basically started pulling me to the exit of the festival. which is super far so i just suggested we take my car, but my initial plan was to just get in my car and drive off without her to get away."

"but like, she got in there so fast. and i was kinda clueless on what she even wanted out of me at that point, so i just began driving," she added. "well then she got to talking shit again and just like touching shit in my car."

"and i can take her talking shit saylor, but she just started doing the most," billie continued. "so eventually we started arguing, while i was driving. and we were both pissed at this point. but i was holding my composure as much as i could i swear."

"i was remaining calm at first for real," b started. "but what did it for me is when she started bragging about how she used to abuse you, and how she wish she could do it all over again."

"i don't know," billie shook her head. "i- i just lost it. i noticed she wasn't wearing a seatbelt and immediately knew what i was about to do. i was going so fast and i just swerved off a hill, through a guard rail."

my eyes lit up. "oh my god, billie."

"i wasn't thinking!" she whispered yelled. "i just wanted her to shut up. the hill wasn't steep or anything, but the car started to tumble and she got ejected."

i rose my eyebrows.

"so," she sighed. "when the car finally landed, it was on the right side, thankfully. i was scared and confused and everything else. but i knew what i had to do."

"oh my god," i said lowly as i realized. "you got in the passenger seat. and when help showed up, you told them paige had been driving."

"yeah," she said lowly with nod. "it wasn't easy to move, it was painful as fuck but i had to."

my mouth was ajar. "i- i- oh my god- like are you okay?"

"that depends," she started. "how do you feel about all that?"

"honestly b," i started. "im so happy."

her face filled with shock. "wait really?"

i grinned.

and she grinned.

and i gave her the biggest hug.

"ow," she said softly. "im still very sore."

"but," i said as i broke the hug and hit her arm. "next time don't put your own life at risk."

"yes ma'am," she chuckled. "im sorry."

"hush," i moved her hair behind her ear. "i love you."

"i love you more, everything's gonna be okay."

"i know," i caressed her cheek.

-

billie was bruised and cut up pretty bad but miraculously had no severe injuries. but because the doctors wanted to assure no internal bleeding occurred, they decided to keep her overnight.

of course im going to stay with her but im not having the best luck falling asleep.

i've been laying in this bed with her for hours, not able to get any shut eye due to my mind racing and racing. so i just decided to get up and walk around.

i eased my way out of the bed without waking billie, and i put some slippers on to accompany my sweatpants and tshirt.

i grabbed my phone that read 2:34am and i walked out of the room, gently closing the door. the hospital was so dead and quiet, i almost felt guilty for even walking the halls at this time.

i walked back to the same vending machine i was at earlier. i thought about just getting the same bag of chips i had earlier but then got distracted by some chocolate.

i was snapped back to reality when someone cleared their throat. i turned around to see a nurse, who then made me realize i had been staring at the vending machine for about 4 minutes.

"oh im sorry," i nervously chuckled.

"it's fine," she shook her head. "maybe this was a sign that i really didn't need the honeybun anyway."

i giggled and looked back at her, realizing she had a couple dollars pinned to her shirt.

"it's your birthday?" i furrowed my eyebrows. "and you're here?"

"unfortunately people don't stop getting hurt just because i wanna go out and eat a nice dinner," she shrugged. "but it's okay, i get off at 6am," she shrugged. "plenty of time to get rest before i celebrate."

i just smiled as i pressed the buttons on the machine. when the item dropped, i picked it up and handed the girl the honeybun. "well, happy birthday," i told her.

her eyes kinda lit up in shock as she took the honeybun from me. "i- wha- thank you."

"yeah," i grinned as i walked away.

i walked out of the hospital and sat on the bench that's right outside the doors. i took a deep breath and looked down.

this is just all so crazy.

i took this time to finally go through all the messages that had been sent to my phone when everything happened. i went ahead and started responding to them, even though it's the middle of the night.

i heard the automatic doors open behind me and soon after, that nurse girl came and sat by me on the bench.

"i come out here a lot too," she said as she broke her honeybun in half and held it out for me.

i looked at it, and then at her.

"cmon," she suggested. "you're good for it."

i smiled and took the piece of honeybun before taking a bite.

i then sighed. "do you believe in karma?"

she chuckled. "i used to," she started. "but then i started working in the ER and realized that bad things happen to people who deserve it and who don't."

i just nodded.

"but hey, what do i know?" she shrugged.

i just stared straight ahead.

"you okay?" she looked at me.

"i- i-," i hesitated.

the nurse furrowed her eyebrows.

"my abuser is dead."

her eyes got wide.

"and i couldn't be happier," i began laughing.

but the girl looked at me as if i was slightly insane. "um sorry i don't know if i should laugh with you orrrr."

"it's okay," i shook my head. "you'd probably laugh if you knew the circumstances."

"that bad huh?" she asked. "so i guess you won't attend the funeral."

"oh," i rose my eyebrows. "they wouldn't want me there. i'd expose every little thing about that girl with no remorse."

"well hey," she shrugged. "fuck her."

"fuck her!" i exclaimed before taking a deep sigh. "fuck, i need a shot."

"you and me both," the nurse agreed as she took another bite of her piece of the honeybun.

"so," i looked at her. "what brings you out here?

"i saw you sitting out here alone," she shrugged. "seemed like you could use a friend."

i smiled.

-

i woke up to birds chirping and the sun rising, and i was still sitting on the bench. my head was laying on the shoulder of the nurse i met hours ago. and her head was laying on top of mine.

i checked my phone and it ready 6:18am. "fuck," i said as i lifted my head.

"what time is it?" the girl rasped as she woke up and looked at her apple watch. "fuck! my shift is over, oh my god."

we both stood up and started dusting ourselves off. "how the fuck did we fall asleep out here?" i asked.

"i don't fucking know," she replied in distress. "but i hope they weren't looking for me anywhere."

we both began to walk back into the hospital and go our separate ways but i stopped her.

"wait," i paused. "i never got your name."

"oh," she paused. "aj," she smiled.

"oh cool," i smiled back. "well, im saylor."

"i know," she grinned before turning and walking the opposite direction.

i furrowed my eyebrows in confusion, but i let it go and walked back to billie's room. i crept in and saw that she was still asleep.

i tried to get in the bed as quiet as possible but i ended up waking her.

"baby," she moaned, opening her eyes. "shhhh."

"sorry baby," i whispered. "go back to sleep."

"why do you smell like you've been outside all day?" her face scrunched up.

"b," i giggled. "go back to bed baby."

"okay," she grinned. "can you hold me?"

-

it's the afternoon and billie was finally getting discharged from the hospital. she's hella sore and it hurts for her to move for real so they put her in a wheelchair so i could just roll her out.

as we were nearing the front doors to the building, we noticed a shit ton of people outside, most with cameras.

"is that paparazzi?" billie asked in shock.

"are they even allowed to block the entrance like this?" i asked.

billie let out a huge groan.

"we can just wait-"

"no, fuck them," she said. "i wanna go home, let's go."

i listened to the queen and continued pushing. the automatic doors came open and everything got so loud.

"billie billie billie! what happened?!"

"why did you allow someone else to drive your car?"

"the family has questions billie!"

"billie are you hurt?"

"do you feel guilty?"

"move out my fucking way!" i yelled. "move! what the fuck is wrong with you people!"

we managed to get through paparazzi but then i noticed some other people approaching us..

and they were paige's friends.

"fuck," i mumbled. "get in the car, get in," i told billie as i quickly unlocked my doors for her.

she got in the passenger side and shut the door right in time. me however? i was too late.

"moony don't you fucking dare," one of them said to me.

i sighed at them. "look, im sorry for your loss."

"really?" another said. "fuck you! this shit isn't fair!"

"guys," i shook my head. "we gotta go, please just-"

"let us talk to billie," one of them said. "i wanna know what happened!"

"no!" i exclaimed before getting in the car and starting it.

then.. someone came to my window.

and it was quinn.

yes, the blonde.

oh my fucking.

i rolled down the window. "fuck off," i told her.

"you two think you're so slick," she looked at billie and i. "but i know that billie hated paige. and i also have enough sense to know she'd never let paige drive her fucking car."

billie and i didn't say anything.

"what's done is done," quinn started. "but i hope you're happy with that shit billie. just know that i know the truth."

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