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Today was Alexis's funeral. I've been there for Keenan since he has gotten out of the hospital but he hasn't been the same. He's way more quiet and to himself. I don't even remember the last I saw him crack a smile.

No matter how much I didn't like Alexis , I know for a fact that Keenan did love her. A love I will never understand and I can't do anything but respect that.

The last thing me and him want to talk about is him confessing his feelings for me. So talking about us has been completely put behind us for now, I just want him to get better mentally and physically.

We were back in Detroit at Keenan's home. His father has been working none stop to cover the rest of the hospital bill, his siblings have just been going to school, and Miss Nikita has been making sure they're staying busy because she doesn't want them to see Keenan like this.

Miss Nikita has truly been going through it though. One night I found her in the kitchen at 3am balling her eyes out.

* two nights ago *

After Keenan fell asleep I made my downstairs to go grab a bottle of water. When I walked into the kitchen miss Nikita's back was facing the door.

"Are you okay?" I asked her, I saw her jump to my voice "oh tiara you scared me" she said, I watched her arm go towards her face showing me that she was wiping her face.

When she turned around and looked at me her eyes were super puffy. "It makes me upset seeing him like this also" I told her. I walked over to her and pulled her into a hug.

"Then his little brother and sister are far from dumb , they know exactly what's going on and I know it's worrying them seeing their older brother like this but I don't want them worrying, I want them to stay focused on their work and school" she cried.

"He'll get better, he just lost someone close to him and that car accident took a huge toll on his body. He just doesn't feel like himself right now" I explained to her. "Did he tell you that? Like in actual words because he won't even talk to me. My own son won't even talk to me" she started crying some more.

No Keenan didn't tell me that because he won't talk to me either. He just lays in his bed, face glued to his tv screen or he's sound asleep. I don't even remember the last time he picked up his phone.

The girls and Anthony all called to check up on him and I've been keeping them updated with everything, but I haven't been telling them the full truth.

I don't tell them that he doesn't eat, doesn't move out of his bed unless it's to shower. He doesn't talk to any of us. His body is just here existing. This is not my Keenan.

"No. He didn't tell me that." I told her truthfully. "What are we gonna do Ti?" She asked me. I really don't know. "We're going to be there for him as much as we can. We're gonna take things step by step" I told her.

I've never seen such a strong woman break down like this. I mean her son is hurting so she's hurting.

"I just want my son back" she cried "I know, I want my best friend back".

* current day *

I was helping Keenan put his tie on. He wouldn't even look me in my eyes even though we were centimeters apart.

"How are you feeling?" I tried asking him. He looked down at me for a split second and I tried to take it in before he hurried up and looked away. I sighed once he didn't respond to me.

I handed him his crutches and opened the door for him so he could get through. I closed his door behind us and then he handed me his crutches so he could make it down the steps.

I know Keenan doesn't like needing help but I don't care I'm gonna continue helping him until he's back and better.

Once we got downstairs I handed him his crutches back "thanks" he mumbled. That's all I ever get from him nowadays.

"Of course" but I still smile and reassure him that I'm here and not going anywhere.

"Are we ready?" Miss Nikita asked us, she was wearing a black body con turtle neck dress with black red bottoms and her hair was slicked back into a long ponytail. She also had a pair of white and black sunglasses on the top of her head. Her makeup was natural and normally she always wear red lipstick to add that pop of color but today she stuck with nude lipgloss.

"Yeah" I said. Keenan opened the car door for himself and then attempted to get into the car, Miss Nikita was about to bend down to help him "I got it" he said to her. She stood up straight and just put her sunglasses on and walked to the drivers side of the car.

I looked at him and sighed. I grabbed his crutches and put them in the back with me.

When we arrived to the church, the parking lot was full. Alexis was very known in our school, she was considered someone popular. Even though we had our differences to other people she was super sweet and kind. Honor roll student and she was also an athlete. All her coaches were here, her girl friends from school. Even some of the guys she cheated on Keenan with were here.

All these people she meant something to or else they wouldn't of showed up. I'm here to pay my respects and also here for Keenan.

He loved this girl with everything in him. "Alright let's go in" Miss Nikita said. We opened the door but Keenan stayed still.

"Keenan?" His mother called for him, I opened the door and stood there in between him and the door.

"I can't do this" he said to me. This was the first time in a week he has actually said something to me. He looked at me and we were staring at each other. "We wouldn't of been here if it wasn't for me. This is all my fault. She is dead because of me. Alexis is gone. She's really gone" out of all our years of being friends he has never broke down like this.

"It's not your fault Keenan" I pulled him into me and let him cry in my arms. "I promise you it's not your fault." I said to him. "I should've just let her drive, I - I should've just let her drive" Miss Nikita came over and joined our hug.

"Baby it's not your fault okay. You did not do this to her. Maybe it was just her time to go. That is something we will never know. Alexis knew exactly what she was doing when she kept trying to pull the wheel away from you on that highway. I know you loved her. And I know you cared deeply about her. But Keenan you did what you could for her. Even after everything you still tried your hardest to be the best boyfriend you could be for her. Never forget that." She explained to him.

He just nodded his head and wiped his face. I handed him some tissues and helped him get hisself together. I handed him his sunglasses and crutches and then we made our way into the church.

When we entered, all eyes were on Keenan.

"Keenan, Tiara & Nikita I'm so glad you guys could make it" her mother said to us. "Keenan, if you don't mind could you join us up front?" Alexis's mother asked him "of course" he cleared his throat. We let Keenan go up front and we sat in the middle.

It was weird seeing her body lay there lifeless in the white casket. At the same time she looked so peaceful and beautiful. The picture they used for her was also gorgeous. One thing Alexis loved doing was modeling.

I kept my eye on Keenan as I watched him look at her body. I could tell it was taking everything in him to not break down.

After the service it was now time to say our final goodbyes to her. The burial site was right behind the church so the paul bearers took her casket to the back of the church and we all followed them.

The people who worked at the graveyard had everything set up ready to burry Alexis.

They sat her down on the stand and before they began to lower her, her mother said a few final words.

"My oldest daughter. Oh how bright you were. You were the highlight of my day. My sunshine. My everything. I can't question anything God does, but I can't help but have a wondering mind. Thinking to myself why my baby? Why now? But I've learned to accept the fact that it was just your time to go. I will forever love you my sweet angel Alexis. I know you will always be looking down at your sisters and I. We love you and we will never forget about you" she said with tears streaming down her eyes.

Keenan walked up to the casket and touched it. "I'm so sorry... I'm so so sorry" Keenan started crying. He was crying so hard that his face was completely red. As they started lowering her casket, I watched Keenan the entire time through my sunglasses.

I saw his body begin to give out, he was going to the ground but before he could fall, I caught him.

"I got you Keenan. I promise. I got you forever" I said to him as he cried while watching Alexis's casket disappear six feet under ground.

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Hi my loves! So I know it's been a tad minute since I've updated I'm sorry I've been working none stop. But as I promised there will be a double update. So stay tuned !

I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter. The story is really just beginning. There's so many crazy things that's gonna go down .. I'm honestly excited. Also! I appreciate you guys reading and commenting pleaseeeee keep it up. I swear you guys doing that puts the biggest smile on my face and honestly motivates me to keep going. And I'm gonna do just that.

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