Chapter 23

"Aish, where did she go? How are we going to find her?" Tzuyu asked as they were looking for Y/N.

"I think I have an idea on where she might be. She always goes to this one place when she's mad or sad." Chaeyoung said and they followed her. Ten minutes later they arrived at Han river.

"Just look around here, I think she's here somewhere." Chaeyoung informed and they split up to find Y/N. Mina was the one that found Y/N. She texted the rest that she found her. Y/N was walking back and forth and it looked like she was losing her mind.

"Are you stupid? You should've hit him. Why did you walk away? Are you that weak? Are you that low?" Ever since Y/N left the cafe she's been hearing her father's voice in her head saying things like these. It's driving her crazy.

"STOOOP, Shut the fuck up!" Y/N yelled as she held her head and walked back and forth very fast. Mina was surprised. She didn't know what was going on. No one was talking so who was she telling to shut up?

"Go punch him. Teach him a lesson. Are you going to let him get away with this?"

"Go away!" Y/N sat down on a bench as she kept holding her head. She's trying very hard not to listen to him. In the past she always did, that's why she always got into trouble and hurt people. Lately she's been trying very hard to ignore that voice, but it's driving her crazy. The more she ignores it the intenser it gets.

"Y/N, Y/N look at me." Mina couldn't stand seeing Y/N like this. It was like she was losing her mind so Mina approached her on the bench. She kneeled down and grabbed Y/N's hands. Y/N was breathing heavily, she was obviously not okay.

"It's me, Mina, you're okay. I'm here. Breathe okay, breathe slowly." With that Y/N started to breathe a bit slower. It took Mina about 10 minutes to calm her friend down but she succeeded.

"Jungkook really gets the worst out of you, doesn't he?" Mina sat down next to Y/N after the girl calmed down.

"He does. He bothered me all the time when I was with Minju. Now he stopped bothering me, but is bothering Minju. I fucking wanna break his neck."

"Why did you run away, though? You're not the type that runs away after a fight." Mina asked and when she looked behind her she saw Chaeyoung and Tzuyu approaching but she gestured them to stay back, which they did. They were standing behind and listening to Mina and Y/N's conversation.

"I don't know. I really don't fucking know." Y/N sighed. She hates herself for staying silent after the guy accused her and Ms. Im for being more than friends. She should've denied it, but she didn't.

"Is it because of Minju or because of Ms. Im?"

"I don't wanna talk about it, Mina." Y/N really isn't the type of girl to tell others whats bothering her. The fact that she told her friends about her past is already a very big thing.

"Okay. You don't have to. What was happening just now? Were you having a panic attack?"

"Remember how I told you earlier in the cafe that I keep hearing voices telling me to do bad things?" Mina nodded.

"They were talking to me just now, telling me to go back and teach Jungkook a lesson. It was my father's voice this time. It's driving me crazy."

"Y/N, that's so fucked up. I wish I could help." Mina really wants to help, but she doesn't know how.

"Can we go for a drink? I know Chaeyoung and Tzuyu are standing behind us. I can hear them whispering." The two stopped whispering and approached the two girls that were having a conversation.

"You really wanna go for a drink?" Tzuyu asked. They weren't sure whether Y/N was joking or not. She has never asked to go for a drink.

"Yes, I wanna take my mind off of things."

"Sure, let's go." The girls said and they went to a bar to get some drinks. They're all underage, but Y/N has her ways of getting whatever she wants.

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It's 1 am already and Y/N is still not home. Nayeon is worried sick, she keeps calling the girl but it goes straight to voicemail. Should she go out and look for her? Where is she even gonna go, she has no idea where the younger might be. Just as she was thinking about what to do, someone opened the door. Nayeon went closer and saw that it was Y/N.

"Where the fuck were you? I called you like a 100 times."

"Chill, I was with my friends." Y/N simply answered as she walked into the apartment.

"Chill? How can I chill? You ran away, didn't answer my calls and you come home at 1am."

"I'm sorry my phone died." Y/N is not lying about that. Her phone really did die.

"Are you drunk? You smell." Nayeon lifted Y/N's chin up to look at her face.

"I did drink, but I'm not drunk. Don't worry." The girl only drank a cup, so she isn't drunk.

"Next time just tell me when you're going out, I was worried sick." Y/N didn't mean to make her girlfriend worry like that, she feels sorry.

"Why? I don't need to tell you everything that I do." Nayeon widened her eyes, she didn't expect Y/N to speak to her with a tone like that.

"What? I'm your girlfriend, isn't it normal for me to want to know where you are?"

"Whatever." Y/N was about to walk away but Nayeon stopped her.

"Why are you being like this? Talk to me please." Nayeon pleaded. Y/N is acting weird again.

"Just leave me the fuck alone, I have a lot on my mind."

"What is it that you have on your mind? Is it Minju?" Y/N isn't the only one that was affected by today's actions, Nayeon is affected by it as well. She hates how her girlfriend keeps protecting her ex-girlfriend like that.

"Why the hell would I have Minju on my mind??"

"I don't know, maybe because you saved her? Just like you always do."

"This isn't the time to get jealous, Nayeon-ssi." Y/N shook her head.

"How isn't it? You almost got yourself in trouble again because of her. You were going to beat up someone for her!"

"You know very well that I would've done the same thing whoever that girl was." Y/N approached Nayeon and stood very closely to her.

"What a coincidence that it was Minju, right?" Nayeon chuckled.

"Don't you trust me? I've told you many times that my feelings for her are gone and that I love you!"

"I do trust you! But it still bothers me! It's funny how you get all possesive whenever Jeongyeon is around me but get mad when I do the same fucking thing."

"I'm done arguing with you." Y/N always does what she's best at, running away instead of talking.

"This isn't about Minju is it? It's about what Jungkook said, why do you even care that much about what he said?"

"How can I not care? It's only a matter of time until people will find out." Truth is Y/N is scared. When she heard what Jungkook said her heart stopped. What if people actually find out? Will she lose Nayeon? Will Nayeon lose her job? There are so many risks and it seems like people are starting to speculate things about them.

"They don't have proof, Y/N. Besides he's the only one that has said something like that." Nayeon was shocked too at that moment. She didn't expect for people other than Y/N's friends and Sana to speculate things.

"He isn't the only one. Rumors are going around about us." Y/N said weakly. Nayeon didn't know about this, she hasn't heard any of the rumors. "And they will only worsen after what happened today. I don't know what to do anymore." Y/N sighed as she sat down on the couch and held her head between her hands.

"We can get through this right? Those are just rumors, we will deny them until the very end." Nayeon sat down next to her.

"You don't get it. I don't want you to lose your job and most importantly I don't wanna lose you. We'll lose everything if someone finds out. You should just leave me, I'm not good for you."

"Y/N, didn't we already talk about this before we decided to start dating? We knew there were going to be risks and we knew it was going to be hard."

"Yes, but on second thought maybe it wasn't the right thing to do." It hurt Y/N to say those words, but the only thing she wants at this moment is to protect her lover.

"What are you saying, Y/N? Do you want to break up?" Tears were already forming in Nayeon's eyes. No way she's letting this girl go.

"I don't know." Y/N looked down.

"Look at me." The teacher said as she held her student's face.

"I know you're not worried about yourself but about me, and I get it, this isn't an easy thing to do. But I already assured you that this is what I want, I want you to respect my descision. I love you and I already took the risk of loving you, I'm not going to back out now."

"I'm gonna feel fucking guilty if anything happens to you because of me." The younger admitted.

"Don't. You shouldn't feel guilty because this is my choice. I'm choosing to do this, you're not forcing me. Rumors spread around fast, yeah. But let's just have no interactions at school right now. Let's ignore each other at school, the rumors will stop eventually."

"What if they don't?"

"We'll see what we'll do then. For now, just trust me please." Nayeon started to cry. She loves the girl in front of her so much, that she will go through hell for her.

"Ah don't cry please. I didn't mean to make you cry." Y/N pulled her girlfriend into a tight hug.

"You made me fucking worried. I thought you weren't coming back. I thought you left me." Nayeon sniffed as she hit the younger girl's shoulder multiple times expressing her anger. However Y/N didn't let go of the hug, she pulled her even closer.

"I'm sorry. I'll never make you worry like that again, okay? Besides I won't ever leave you, unless you want me to." Y/N pulled away and looked at her lover's face caressing her cheeks.

"I love you, Im Nayeon, I always will. I'm very lucky to have you." Y/N smiled weakly.

"I love you too, Choi Y/N." With that the teacher kissed the younger's lips, slowly. The kiss was full of love. Both enjoying the taste of each others lips.

"I know you're angry with Jungkook, but you shouldn't take out your anger on me like that." Nayeon suggested as they pulled away.

"I know, I can't help it. You know I can't control it." Y/N really didn't want to take her anger out on Nayeon, but she can't control it, even when she tries.

"That's why I called my friend Seulgi, the therapist I told you about. We can go to her after school tomorrow. I won't force you to go if you don't want to, but I think she'll be of big help. So what do you think?"

"What about the costs though, isn't it expensive? I can't pay that."

"Don't worry about that. I'll handle it." Nayeon doesn't care about the costs, she just wants Y/N to get better.

"No, no, no. I can't let you pay for that. I'm already staying at your place, I won't let you pay for that as well." She hates how the older tries to pay everything for Y/N.

"Shut up, I said I'll handle it."

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