Chap.6 : Hold me tight

The deepest pain I ever felt was denying my own feelings to make everyone else comfortable...

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Y/N's P.O.V.

Leaving Jungkook's room, I followed Jiyeon downstairs. We didn't say a word,it was all dead silence between us. I wondered where she would take me and to be honest,not being in such good terms with each other worried me a litttle.

But soon enough,I realized we were heading towards the room where Taehyung was staying.

Jiyeon stopped in front of the door and I stopped behind her.I could see her hand shaking and the hesitation taking over it,but,she managed to grab the door knob and open it. I was still confused as to why I was brought here...whether I could go in.As if Jiyeon had read my mind,she spoke:

"Come in." Her voice was low but clear enough to be heard. I followed behind and closed the door. Jiyeon sat down next to Taehyung's bed and held his hand in between hers,staring at his dead-like body.

There was something in those eyes.I could see it,I could see the pain reflected in them.

I could see the love and despair too, I felt sorry for her. The loss of her mate could destroy her.

"You must be wondering why I brought you here." She spoke slowly,still having her eyes fixed on Taehyung.

"It would be a lie if I said no." I replied, "I know you don't like me very much."

She let out a small chuckle and then looked at me.

"That's true...or better say.. it was."

"What do you mean?" She smiled a little again and looked at Taehyung.

"You know...if he were awake right now,he would be goofing around and trying to become best friends with you. " She said, "He has a weak spot for Jungkook and I'm sure he would be the same with you."

I didn't speak a word. I just listened to everything she said.

"That's why I brought you here. Taehyung would have scolded me for being rude to you by now." Then,she looked at me.

"I want to apologize for the way I acted towards you. " I widened my eyes in shock.I really didn't see this coming. "And I wanna thank you for helping him and the others."

"Jiyeon-ah..." She didn't let me finish.

"This is hard for me,you can't imagine it...in fact,no one in this house can."She looked down,tears threatening to fall. "And you being from our enemy pack doesn't make it any easier for me. I was quick to judge you and I'm sorry for that."

I could see the sincerity reflected in her eyes and spoken through her words. The anger was nothing but a shield for pain, like a cornered soldier randomly throwing out grenades, scared for his life, lonely, desperate. I could see it clearly on her eyes.

I instinctively held her hand and looked at her.

"I don't blame you,I know this is hard and you don't have to apologize.I would have been the same in your shoes." I spoke and smiled at her. " Thank you for doing this anyway. I'm glad we can be friends now."

A sad smile formed on her lips. I knew this was devastating for everyone,especially her.

"Me too." She said.

"Don't worry about Taehyung ok? I'm sure we'll find a cure for him,you just need to have some faith and be optimistic. Besides,Taehyung wouldn't like to see you like this,right?"

"Right." She smiled, "Thank you for everything Y/N-ah. I will be strong for him."

I smiled at her again and we spent the next couple of hours taking care of Taehyung and getting to know each other. I was glad that we finally made peace.

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A while later,I realize the sleeping figure of Jiyeon. I smiled lightly. Her hands are still holding Taehyung's tight. As the night gets darker, I figure I should cover her in something. I look around and found a small yellow blanket. I placed it over her shoulders as she flinched a little in her sleep.

I couldn't help but stare at them. Even in their unconscious state, love was more alive than ever.

Her palm looked like it caressed his hand, the lines on her hand catching my attention. They swirled on her hand like an unfinished drawing. Her long bony fingers were holding tight onto his, but all I could see were her red knuckles. Wine-red blotches from the cold. Yet,she didn't bother for a second to let go.

I envied her so much.

I envied the way they felt for each other so much...the way mates are supposed to feel...

"Y/N-ah?" A deep manly voice made me flinch in surprise but luckily,I didn't let my voice out.I turned around only to find Jungkook. "What are you doing?"

"She fell asleep,I thought of waking her up but then..." I turned around to look at Jiyeon, "I don't think she would wanna go anyway..." A bitter smile left my lips.

"Let's get out and let them sleep." Jungkook's breath hit my neck and made my body tremble.I nodded my head before leaving the room and heading upstairs again.

Jungkook made me sit on his bed..as usual,I couldn't say no to him.He had this weird possessiveness and control over me.I couldn't help but feel the nervousness with his piercing gaze.My heart wasn't beating normally and I mentally cursed myself for not being able to control it.

"I think we should both get some rest,it was quite a long day today." With that,he threw himself on the soft mattress, pulling me with him.

"Jungkook!" I exclaimed in shock as he smiled devilishly, wrapping his arms around my body.The warmth of him made me wanna stay in there forever.

"Yah! This is not funny! Let me go!" I struggled to break free but he just held me tighter.

"I love it when you get angry..."He said coming closer to my ear and whispering, "It's enough to drive me insane.."

My face turned red like a tomato and I pushed him away with all I had. I tried to get up but it was useless. He held me close to his warm chest,his eyes never leaving mine.They shone so bright, the envy of every summer sky and his smile was warmer than the gentle sun.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" I said, with a slight crack in my voice. Jungkook just smiled slightly.

"Because you are the most beautiful thing I know." With that,he kissed my forehead gently.

I could feel my heart beat... every single pound in my chest. Not through my ears,but I could feel it..how crazy it went just because of him and the simple words he would say. I daren't move, I daren't even breathe, I was frozen to the spot.

His arms held me in my place. They felt like the metal bars that could hold me down as I tumbled down a roller coaster or an anaconda that could squeeze my spirit out of my nostrils. His arms were my tragic hero. My favourite drug.

I find the courage to look up again only to find his eyes closed.His features were much softer in sleep, the lines that usually creased his brow replaced by the youthful appearance that matched those of others their age. He looked peaceful. His heart thumped in accordance with slow, shallow breaths. Serenity was plastered across his face as he slept. At peace, his consciousness swirled in the land of dreams, oblivious to the physical world.

Wanting nothing more than to curl up into the curve of his body, I turned around and pulled the blanket up over our shoulders.I'm almost drifting off myself when he giggles in his sleep. Damn. He's got to let me go first thing, before dawn, or he'll be the death of me...

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