Chap.3 : Punishment

I love everything about you...except the fact that you're not mine...

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Y/N's P.O.V.

The tears burst forth like water from a dam, spilling down my face. I feel the muscles of my chin tremble like a small child and I stop running,looking up at the sky . There is static in my head once more, the side effect of this constant fear I've started to live with.

I feel as if all the walls that held me up,that made me strong are collapsing one by one.The only vision that keeps invading my brain are those blue eyes...so innocent and so tempting...

I can't even stop...Why can I not stop crying?

Did he affect me this much?

Just then, a strange unfamiliar scent grabbed my attention.Instead of crying,I merely sniffed, sensing the wintry coldness that laced the air. Something wasn't right- I could feel it in my bones. I sniffed again, and sensed mint... and ice.

A loud howling noise was heard from the distance and I could no longer smell anything. That mysterious scent had vanished just the way it appeared. I didn't give it any more importance as I was called to go back home.

Shoot!

I totally lost track of time,the morning training session was probably over and my father was ready to scold me harsher this time.When it came to punctuality or disobedience,especially if I was the one to break them,he would turn into the most hostile person you could ever meet.

I ran as fast as I could until I reached the house.I turned to my human form again and inhaled the air deeply to fill my lungs...before preparing myself mentally for what was in store for me.

And there he was...his eyes full of rage piercing right through me although his face remained serious,unemotional. I have to admit that sometimes he just creeps me out.

"Where were you?" His stern cold voice filled the dead silence that surrounded us as the other members had their heads lowered down,except from my brother.

"Out...in the forest..."

"You were supposed to train today,did you forget that?"

"No,I ju.."

"I GAVE YOU NO PERMISSION TO TALK YOU DISOBEDIENT CHILD!"

His echoing screams filled my ears enough to leave me deaf at any moment.I lowered my head and whimpered at the sound of his voice. He walked towards me,towering over my head as I stared up.

"You think this is some kind of game? You skip your crucial training to get distracted by birds and plants?!"

"Father..."

"DO NOT TALK BACK TO ME!"

I knew I was going to suffer the consequences for this and it was unimaginable what he would do to me. He never showed pity or mercy for any of my mistakes.That's the way I was grown up.

"I'm sorry alpha.." I half-whispered.

"You feel good about embarrassing me this way? Showing that the daughter of the alpha doesn't even care? Showing that I didn't train you properly? HUH?!"

I could see his legs shaking from anger as he stood in front of me. I tried to swallow the lump that formed in my throat.I couldn't even let my voice out.

My dad was about to speak again,until my brother interrupted him.

"Father.." He placed his hand on my father's shoulder as I looked at him desperately to save me from punishment. "I think that's enough.She has learned her lesson."

" And who asked for your opinion?" His voice sounded like a growl as he turned his attention to Jaebum. "Do not tell me what to do."

Jaebum hesitated for a moment but then talked again.

"I will deal with her, father. You have work to do today."

My father didn't spoke so I thought he had given in but then he furiously answered back.

"I will deal with her myself!" He pushed Jaebum's hand away. "Get back inside with the others, Jaebum!"

"But father..."

"Do as you're told!" His eyes went pure black and after giving me an apologetic look,Jaebum went back inside.Then,my father turned to me.

"As for you..you're not allowed to return home tonight..." My eyes immediately widened at the punishment he gave me.

"W-what?"

"As you heard,this is not the first time you do this,so the only way to make sure you've learned the lesson is to punish you!"

"But father..."

"Stay out in the forest tonight and think of whether you want to keep acting this way!"

With that said,he walked back inside,slamming the door behind him.

White knuckles from clenching my fists too hard, and gritted teeth from effort to remain silent, my hunched form exuded an animosity that was like acid - burning, slicing, potent. My face was red with suppressed rage.

"This is unfair..." I talked to myself... "THIS IS UNFAIR!!" I shouted louder and I knew he could hear me.

After that,I shifted into my wolf form and ran away to the darkest corners of the forest. I ran and ran non-stop.All kinds of thoughts polluted my mind.

How could my own father do this to me just because of this stupid training?

What if I get killed out here?

Does he even care about me?

Is he even capable of feeling anything?

Anger had consumed me all that I couldn't even control myself anymore.

"I HATE YOU SO MUCH!! I HATE YOU AND THIS STUPID PACK!!" I hit the tree in front of me and everything else that stood in front of me. I kept thinking of all my childhood and life up till now.

When I came with a toddler's open heart, my father only saw an annoyance, another mouth to feed, a bottom to wipe. But I saw him as my only hope to fill the void after losing my mother. She fought to keep me and instead I got him, him who counted the slices of bread and totted up his balance book. My crying was "manipulation" and my sadness was "put on for attention." Every day he looked at the kid in front him and killed her a little more. Killed her with "professional care." All I am is hatred, all I am is rage, and I won't give him the God damn satisfaction of seeing me at the bottom of a bottle.

My mind clouded with pain, my heart grew cold and numb with pent up emotion. I felt clogged with pain and anger, hurt, and fear. All I could do was join the cry.

Then,the sweet familiar scent that knew how to drive me insane, filled up my nostrils.A pair of arms wrapped around me.I daren't move, I daren't even breathe, I stood frozen to the spot. I could feel my heart pounding in my chest...

Ba boom...ba boom...ba boom...

I felt like a million butterflies exploded in my stomach.A feeling I hadn't felt before overcame my whole body.I felt warm,loved,protected.

I didn't want him to let me go. I felt as if the world was a better place for as long as he held me tight.

I felt him burry his head on the back of my neck.

"He shouldn't treat you this way..." God...why did I miss his soothing voice so much?

"He's my father and the alpha, Jungkook." I softly replied.

"No,he's not! A father doesn't treat his own daughter like this!"

I sighed as reality hit me again.We had to keep the distance between us.

"Jungkook..let me go..."

I thought he was gonna say no,but to my surprise,he loosened his grip on me and spun me around so I could face him.

I looked up,immediately losing myself into his crystal blue eyes.They were both filled with pain and affection as he stared down at me.I couldn't stand to see him that way,I had the urge to hug him until he felt no more pain.It killed me inside knowing I couldn't do that.

The only way to resist it was to look away,and so I did.

"He's always been that way,I'm used to it by now..."

"That's no excuse! No pack should treat its members like this!"

"You're not part of my pack Jungkook." I said as I took some steps backwards to keep the distance. "I don't expect you to understand."

The look on his face perfectly reflected his frustration.

"I don't need to understand..Even if he's your father,he shouldn't treat you like trash!"

I sighed.

"I can't see my imprint get treated like trash..." His voice softened as he closed once again the distance between us.

"I'm not your imprint Jungkook, get that in your head!" My heart ached at my own words.The wolf within me whimpered in pain and I felt guilty for lying this way.

But this was the right thing to do,whether I liked it or not.

Jungkook sighed as he ran his hand through his hair. Then,he sat his eyes on me,melting me with his stare once again.

"Are you trying to convince me or yourself Y/N-ah?"

"I don't need to be convinced." My eyes narrowed. " I know where enough is enough, you're pushing it and you're only going to get hurt this way."

"Is it really only me?" We stood only inches away from each other.I could feel the warmth of his breath on my skin.I wanted to throw myself in his arms,my wolf was going crazy. I wanted him,every single part of him wanted him. I tried to control my breathing as he leaned down closer to my face.

"Because by the way you look at me, I know you're hurting too." My stomach was sent on a rollercoaster ride. "I know you're trying to fight this imprint,but it doesn't work that way."

I closed my eyes and turned around from him.

"Jungkook please...leave!"

I was about to do the same when he grabbed my hand and stopped me in my tracks.

"I can't leave you alone...not tonight!"

With that,he took me with him to God knows where without accepting a 'no' for an answer.

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