Chapter 6: His Arrival

Its him! It's actually him! Rhyden Blight! Oh how Ive waited for so long of your arrival! You... you... you fucking bastard! you made me wait for so long it had me worried! Two weeks! TWO WHOLE GODDAMN WEEKS! YOURE LATE, RHYDEN BLIGHT! I WOULD FUCKING SMACK YOU!-- Wait wait wait... I cant do that. He might kill me instead. Hehe. Welcome Rhyden Blight.

I shouldnt be so energetic and dramatic right now. My head still hurts.

"Rhyden, please occupy one of the open seats." The teacher told Rhyden. He immediately did what the teacher told him to so he looked around the room, checking the unoccupied seats inside the classroom. He is taking a bit long, contemplating where he should sitt and those who has open seat beside them had a huge hope of having Rhyden sit next to them. Their eyes with full of anticipation must have made him think twice which seat to choose.

Alright. I'm taking the lead.

I stood up from my seat and walked towards Rhyden. I could see everyone's eyes turned towards me and before they could start whispering to each other, I reached my hand to Rhyden's bag which he surprisingly did not react despite he could have done so, then I walked with his bag towards the unoccupied seat next to me which is Eugene's new seat by the way, but he's absent anyways and it's a good thing, so, I'm taking this spot for Rhyden for the first interaction with me and him. I placed his bag to that seat and looked at him with a sly smile on my face

"You're seat will be next to me." I said with a playful tone. I squinted my eyes at him like a fox then placed my hand to my hips then tilted my head playfully. I am uncertain what kind of look I'm going for but I'm certain with the words I am choosing for him. "Come on now. Don't be shy. I picked this seat just for you! And I." With a lingering breath when I said 'I' he hesitantly walked to me then sat on his new seat. When he did, I gave him another smile then called him "Good student" and went back to my seat.

Hehe, I wished to call him good boy instead but I fear it might send a different signal instead so I held myself back. Phew. I would also not be able to get through with such cringey line I let go from my mouth. Eurgh.

Throughout the lesson of the last period, I kept my eyes to Rhyden like a fox playing with its subject though I'm sure it is not the actual motivation I have, it is only for Carlos' interaction with Rhyden.

When the class is finally over. The students packed up all of their things and neatly tucked it inside their bag. Rhyden did the same too. For me, I don't need to do all that because my desk is clean as an empty lot. I purposely didn't pay attention to the lesson just to make this next interaction happen.

As soon as he finishes cleaning up his desk and putting his things away. I quickly got up from my seat then stood in front of Rhyden then gave him a cocky arrogant smile to him. He looked at me. I could tell weirded out though I'm sure that he already had some past interactions like this one with the other people. He had once expressed it back then how it is a problem for him having to meet wert people in the game.

"I've heard lots about you Rhyden." I started. He did not say anything. " I must say you're really good. Really. Really. Good." I emphasized each word that came out of my mouth. I gently leaned closer to him. My hands on his table supporting my upper body while maintaining an eye contact to him.

"Say, how about we become friends? We might even become a great duo. Who knows?" I raised my hand and offered it to Rhyden. He just looks at it and the whispering behind me begins. Their eyes are all turned to me. Their judgemental eyes, but, that's a great. I always loved judges for audience. Not that I care about their judgement anyways. It has become a norm to Carlos so I might as well accept it.

"Go on. Shake my hand. Nothing would go wrong. I promise." I gave him a creepy smile as much as I could. Waving my hand in front of him gently.

"What would I get from you?" He asks to me. Yes, he is going along with the script. I'm doing good.

I smiled at him then gave him an answer. "My loyalty of course! What else is there to look forward to if you need a friend?" I growled at the end of my sentence then gave him a wider smile but I think it appeared more of a grin though I would take it. My cheeks hurt from it.

Rhyden looked at me even more confused and I could hear our classmates' whispering are getting louder and some of them wished out loud for Rhyden not to take my hand. Speaking about the past bad deeds Carlos did back then, they recalled it then spoke of it quite out loud so Im sure Rhyden could hear it. Good job everyone, you are all doing very well.

"Your loyalty?" he repeated my word hinted with reluctance. I repeated the word 'loyalty' to him with more assurance. Looked deeply in his eyes and moved forward my hand. Insisting he would take my hand for an act.

"I accept."

What?

Youre not supposed to...--

Rhyden raised his right hand from underneath the table then caught my hand and shook it very firmly. His hand is big from length to width. His hand is very strong and firm which I think it must be because of his sword training including some other weapons. He squeezed my hand after shaking hands with me. His eyes are locked into mine. I see no longer see the hesitation in him but with pure assurance which I did not expect to receive.

"What's wrong? Why do you look so shock? I thought you wanted this." he asked. His hair gently falling to one side when he tilted his head.

Crap! I was caught off guard. I must have been so shocked I forgot to maintain my posture and my shocked expression must have shown. I should have been more careful, however, this is not how it should have been the outcome. It is supposed to be Rhyden refusing my hand and I thought when he raised his right hand, he would slap my hand away which is better for the story but what could have been the reason for this outcome? This is our first interaction so there couldnt have been any difference in the story so how?

"N-nothing! I was just grateful that you did take my offer." I returned to my Carlos mode then put on the same smile I had when I was looking at him. Realizing he had not let go of my hand. I yanked my hand away rudely from his then put it on my side.

"Its nice to have you as a new friend of mine. Tomorrow will be new day. A chance for our friendship to bloom." I playfully said then grabbed my bag and quickly escape from the door though I made sure I left without him sensing anything from me aside from being Carlos. Then I straightly exited the school altogether and hopped on to my carriage that is already waiting for me then had the coach go a little faster, using the same excuse of I want to get back home quickly. No longer he asked me the reason why whenever I requested him to go faster since I have made the request multiple times by now.

I am very grateful that no more of the accident happened on the first day happened although since then, I never get to see the same boy who I accidentally have his dog runover by my carriage. I need to see him again and hope his dog is fine by now.

When I got back to the manor, I am fully dazed because of what happened. I could still feel the firmness of his hand lingering to my own right hand. I could still feel the natural warmth emitting from his hand and how he took my hand unexpected. I could not stop replaying the same scene in my head.

What happened earlier at school, my first interaction with Rhyden should not have happened I mean-- the outcome of our first interaction should not have been him accepting my offer to have him as my friend and taking hand so seriously.

What happened? Why did this happened? How could have this happened? When did I ever tried to tweak the story? I didn't do anything! I was waiting patiently for him and follow the script as it was in the game though I admit there was some improvised part early though, but it could not have been the reason for the outcome to be different!

I dread of the result of our first interaction that I felt so worried. I lost my appetite to eat dinner and just laid back down onto the floor dramatically with my bag on my side. I moved to my side then hugged my bag in finding a little bit of small comfort from inanimated object because I knew to myself no one could I talk to regarding about this. It has only begun and I am already like this, stressing like this is some kind of exam that I failed to answer correctly and nervously waiting for the failed result in report card. This nervous and all is getting to me that my fever seems to get back at me once more.

I thought the medicine has already taken effect? What happened?

My head has been aching from way back to the manor but it wasnt this bad. I could feel my head started to burn up again. My body begins to grow heavier and heavier and my heart rate rises up. Every second passes by I felt my energy being drained. Despite the floor is cold to the touch, I could not bring myself from standing up because I felt like gravity is pulling me so much it is preventing me to get up so I laid there with my bag as my own heat source even though it doesnt emit any warmth, just a metaphorical thinking from myself. Every is becoming colder and colder. I dont think the window is close and the sun has already set together with its radiating heat, making the temperature goes down as well with it.

Unable to move, I decided to just sleep there. Letting my eyelids cover my vision and the drowsiness engulf me with its overwhelming temper for rest.

"Yo!!" I heard a voice behind me. "We'll be late! Come on!!" it calls to me.

I was feeling dazed with a blinding light showering upon me. Not a thing could I see and I could not identify who calls to me. My body felt so light as if I weigh nothing more than air and my movement feels so slow as time goes. It feels like Im flying with both of my feet still touching the ground.

"What are you waiting for? Lets hurry!" A hand grabbed my wrist then pulled me towards their direction. With a gust of wind passing me, touching my cheeks, I gained vision of the surroundings. The blinding light no longer blocks my view and I see the familiar places I used to visit flashes through my eyes before it brought me to one place. My school.

It is the school I attended as highschool. Where I created lots of memories with people whom I did not expect I will be spending my most memorable and happiest times with. The place where I met lots of people. Interesting people and people who I either want to see again or don't want to see again, altogether, they're in one place right now but they walk towards to the school. They are not interacting with each other. No greetings, no words spoken to each other then before I knew it, my two friends run passes me. They both looked at me with smiles and motioned their hands for me to follow them, followed by their cheerful voices then spoke "Walk faster! Let's go!"

When I heard them both said the same thing, I quickly rushed to chase after them. A spark of joy inside my chest blooms and it feels warm. I felt my whole body alive and no longer did I feel floating in the air. My legs worked as I wanted it to be and runs after my two friends. I told them to wait for me followed with a laugh I used to make when I was together with them but then as I run, I never got to get closer to them. Everyone seems to move, especially my friends moving further and further away from me. Running away from me then calling out to me with some sweet laughs.

"No. Wait! Wait for me!" I yelled. I tried to run faster but they seem to just get away from me. I am moving but I am stuck in one place. I reached my hand out to them but neither could that help however I persisted and hoped to catch up to them till they're are gone out of my sight and once again, the overwhelming light engulfed me, blinding me once more I could not help but cover my eyes because it hurts so much. It hurts that I think there's a lump in my throat, making it unbearable for me to call out and my chest tightened it hurts.

The light became softer I gained another chance to look out for them once more but all I see is the ceiling of the same fancy room. Carlos' room. I'm back here again. I thought I had finally woke up from this dream.

I tried to get up and realized I'm already in my bed. Neatly tucked. My lower body covered with a weighted blanket so perfectly and no longer on the cold floor I slept on while my head suffer from an unbearable pain.

I reached for my head and realized I am no longer burning up nor does my head hurt. My body no longer feels like gravity is pulling me down and feel like I'm good as new. Better than yesterday.

I looked around and see no one else. When I looked to my bedside table, there lies a tray and on the tray, a pitcher of water, a glass half full, and a medicine lying at the corner of the tray, carefully distanced from the water.

Someone must have found me lying down on the floor and realized I was sick so they must have carried me to my bed and made me drink some medicine while I was asleep? Thank I guess...?

While I analyzed my situation, I remembered my dream not long ago.

I'm already in college and it has been hell ever since. During my highschool, I could never forget how it became one of the most significant time in life, when my saddest moment happened and when I experienced my happiest moment in life. So happy that I dreaded it had ended. My life back then. I wish to go back.

I felt tears swell up in my eyes. Making my vision blurry.

No no no! This is just a dream! I will wake up soon! I will get to see them again! It's just college and they're my friends! I would still see them! So please! Let me wake up from this life! I want to see them again. I miss them. Please someone wake me up...

I could not help but let the tears fall like a fountain, unable to stop and unable to be contained. The homesickness I had tried to suppress, having hopes of this dream would end soon and for me to return to the reality as soon as I wake up and forget this dream after that then meet up with my friends again and hang out like we always used to it. It has been so long. Why hasn't this ended yet?

My tears soon made a small puddle of tears on my blanket as it falls. I could not help but weep on the spot. With no handkerchief to my side, I used the sleeves of my clothes I was changed into while I was unconscious, use it to wipe my tears so desperately but as soon as I do it, another stream of hot salty liquid gushes out of my eyes. My freshly wet all the way down to my chin. With so many attempt dry my tears futilely, it hurt my eyes from multiple wiping from my sleeves that I eventually stop and let the tears fall once more.

"I want to see them again" I sobbed.

*Creaks*

A sound of door opening caught me off guard. I raised my head to the direction of my door and sees Julien at the door. He brought a tray of food. He looked very collected to a concerned look as soon as he sees my face wet.

I clumsily wiped my tears away again even if my eyes hurt. I just need to dry my face. This is really embarrassing having someone see me cry.

"Is something the matter, Master Carlos?" Julien asked. Cautiously examining me as he walks closer to the table to place the tray down.

"Nothing." I simply said. I tried to put Carlos mode on and furrowed my brows without looking at him though I could not hide the sound of my sniffles.

"If nothing is wrong then why are you crying?" He asks. He arranges the food on the table and leaves the tray at the side of the table then walked towards me.

I turned my head away from him.

"There's nothing to worry of!" I quickly replied to him and so is his hand. His hand reached to my jaw and forcefully turned it to his direction. It was quick but it wasn't rough.

He looked at me and examined my face. My eyes are locked to his judging eyes then he finally looks into my eyes. Though his expression is stoic, I saw a glimpse of light that I may suspect as empathy to me or maybe just for Carlos. The hand is still latched on my jaw although I did not try to slap his hand away nor did I try to pry it off. Something inside that I couldn't do it.

"Something is definitely wrong, Master Carlos." He said. He removes his hand then turned to other direction. I could not read his expression due to not able to see his face.

"Nothing is wrong. I told you. Do not insist that something is wrong because there isn't!" Using Carlos' act of character, I refused to comply to Julien regarding of the reason why I am crying. He would not understand anyway and if I were to tell, he might see me as a crazier person than what Carlos already is.

"Whatever you say so Master Carlos." he replied to me. His voice were soft by the end. His back still turned to me. He walked towards the table where plates of different food is placed. He fixed the utensils then looked back at me. "Come now. Eat your breakfast." He said.

I don't think he is offering breakfast to me but rather having me required to eat breakfast today. So, I felt hesitant to refuse. I gently got up from my bed then walked towards the table with Julien at the side. I sit down on the table which Julien pulled the chair for me to sit in then pushes it gently after I took my place.

Today's breakfast is a simple tomato soup and a small bowl of porridge. For the sides, there are some sliced apples, a banana, and a handful of cashews.

When I smelled the tomato soup, I heard my stomach growl from the aroma of it. I took the spoon placed next to the plate then scooped up a spoonful of soup and had a taste for myself. And dear god how great it tastes. I have never had a tomato soup before and tomato has never been part of my food choices back in my real life except for ketchup, tomato sauces and spaghetti but this is a whole new journey for my taste buds to explore the flavors all within in the tomato soup.

I also had some of the porridge. Though plain, it has a distinct taste of salty and garlicky taste. It is actually pleasant to eat. It is soft and very easy to swallow while still being able to taste the flavor. There are few bits of chicken chunks inside it and I relish to the taste of boiled chicken. The porridge itself is wholely gentle from eating to the inside of the stomach. And with both of the tomato soup and the porridge, it gave me some warmth inside to get back at how I felt so cold yesterday because of my fever.

With the soup and porridge had eaten for now, I took some bites of the apple slices and some cashews. I decided to eat the banana for the last and eat the others for now.

Julien has been quiet ever since I took my seat to eat my breakfast. Perhaps I was too occupied eating, filling my stomach with some food that I did not notice Julien watching me eat till he said something.

"It is great to know you have an appetite now. Are you feeling any better? Perhaps a lot better than yesterday?" He asks. He bends his body a little to lean forward to me.

I gave him a short answer as yes then nodded meekly while keeping the posture of a spoiled brat.

"That is good to know." He said then returned to how he usually stands everytime he is waiting for something. He opens his mouth again with no longer looking at me. "Would you like me to bring you breakfast here at your room instead eating at the dining room?" He asks another question.

I was a little puzzled but I told him that there is no need for that.

"But Master Carlos, I noticed how you have been avoiding your family now. So much you have been neglecting your meals so I suggest this idea of bringing food to you up here instead."

"No need to go that far. Plus, I am not avoiding them. If you think I am, don't think too much about it. I am merely starting to like my own company."

"Please Master Carlos. I noticed how little you eat and also, according to Jacques, who found you (thankful for him finding you) at the floor last night in your room passed out and brought you to your bed, that you had gotten lighter."

My ears peaked at the name mentioned, Jacques.

"Who is Jacques?" It is now my turn to ask a question. I took the last bite of my apple slices then looked at Julien to answer my question. He looked at me with a small look at first before he responded.

"Jacque. A young servant, a year younger than you, who was hired a year ago. Though I don't doubt you forgetting a servant's name but Jacque had revealed me that you have been sneaking out late at night to the kitchen and eat something for yourself. He had once found you fell asleep in the kitchen and decided to bring you back your room. He noted how you weighted more at that time than it is last night."

Wait-- so it wasn't my imagination that I suddenly got teleported to my room after that night. And also, I didn't know that I have been watched the whole time as I get something for myself during midnight?? Also, Jacques... The name sounds familiar...

Ah yes, Jacques! The first year student who started started his first year at the same school as Carlos, a little bit late than the others. He is one of the students who got enrolled to the school with no talent and have a scholarship to study there. The catch is that within his year, he must awaken his talent or else the school would revoke his scholarship.

For the sake of keeping his scholarship and also to awaken his talent which is the reason of him enrolling to the school, he has to try harder than almost everyone else to have his talent awoken. Every night he pray to have his talent be awaken. He said he doesn't not care what it could be but he hopes it is something that would make a change to the world. Something that could make an impact. Something that make him part of the history. Spoiler alert, he did. Im proud of his character.

I finished eating and wrapped everything up. I stood up from my seat and exited the room to take a shower to prepare to go to school. Though I might be a little late, it is better than not going to school at all. I still have a protagonist to take care of. I left Julien inside the room to clean the table where I've eaten from.

When I got back to my room, I quickly dressed myself with the school uniform then prepared my bag. I looked at myself to the mirror if I got my bow tie properly and put twisted it to the other side to keep it even. I closed my blazer as well to keep me from cold. The fever might have been gone but I still feel a little cold, at least, not cold as I did yesterday.

Just as I was about to leave the room, Julien came back to my room, carrying another tray and on it is a medicine and a single glass of water. When he saw me dressed up for school, he frowned at me.

"Master Carlos, you have just got off from a fever, you cant go to school today." He said. I frowned too and looked at him then replied.

"I am going to school. My fever is gone." I got back at him.

"You just gotten better. It is best to rest for now before returning to school." He insists but I cannot go back down so easily.

"There wont be much to do at school anyways. I will be fine." after that, I tried to leave but he calls for me again.

"At least drink some medicine before you go." he said. I complied to his request so to not get hold back longer. I obediently put the bitter medicine in my mouth and washed it down with the whole glass of water because the bitter taste of the medicine lingers at the back of my tongue and I wish for it to gone completely. And after that is done, I went outside and called the coach who drives my carriage who thought I wouldnt go to school today. He hurriedly prepared the carriage for me then rushes off to the school because he wouldnt want to be the reason of me getting late even though it is not his fault but mine entirely.

Thankfully for the coach's fast driving of the carriage, I got to get into my classroom at the last minute before the bell rings. There, I saw Rhyden at the same seat I placed him on, sitting properly while reading a book about some mythical living creatures in this world. I simply walked to my seat.

I knew to myself I could not be friends with the protagonist because that is not how it was in the game so I thought of a plan on my way here to get the protagonist end his friendship with me and that is, being super annoying to him. Bother him at all cost and show him some of my bad sides well-- Carlos' side and make him feel like he's involved with everything I do so he would be forced to break our ties together. Yes, perfect yet a simple plan! As for the inspiration of this plan is from a person who I found annoying so I ended my friendship with them and since it worked to me, might as well try the same thing to Rhyden but way worse.

After putt my bag to my desk, I pulled my chair and placed it right next to him before sitting down. He felt my presence not too long and lowered his book. I leaned forward to his book, acting a bit of interested to what he is reading. Obviously acting so oblivious how close I am to him and invade his personal space for the start of my plan.

"Hmm... What are you reading?" I asked. Though I have already read the title of the book from the cover, I asked anyway. I placed my arm on the table and used it to rest my head one while staring at him and no longer at the book.

"Its about mythical creatures." He simply said.

"Ooohh~ So what kind of mythical creature are you reading right now?"

"Right now Im reading about griffins."

"Hmm, what so interesting about them?"

"So its a creature with a lion's body and an eagle's head. It has a huge pair of wings and strong talons for its front legs then its tail is--"

"So youre quite a nerd arent you?" When I said it, he stopped what he is talking about then turned to me all silent. He didnt appear angry or shocked or any at all, though, there is a silent between us unexplainable. "Though I suppose being a nerd is another term to be called smart." I gave him a very stretched and narrowed smile to him.

"Huh, well I guess youre right." He said to me, however, he didnt sound so sure but rather hesitant to me before slowly returning to his book. I didnt not let him have a chance to get back at reading so I snatched the book from his hand which he failed to catch from my hand. I then looked at the page he is at and the page did showed me a picture of griffin along with its description and types of griffin that can be founded in a different places.

"Oh wow! This is a lot!" I gave an act of trying to hold out my laugh to mock the protagonist. It worked. He snatched the book from my hand then closed it tightly and placed it on the table with his hand weighing on top of it.

"Are you messing with me?" He asked. His expression showed an angry look but his tone of voice remained calm.

"Of course not!" I prolonged my reply. "Arent we friends? Its normal for a friend to take interest towards what youre interested in. Come on, its not like youve never had any friends!" I teased. I tried to reach my hand to his book again and surprisingly, he lifted his hand from his book and gave me access to slide the book towards me. I didnt know what to do next so I opened it and tried to point out the creature the first thing I saw.

"Oh look! Its a unicorn! Everyone's favorite!" I jest though it did not go as how I anticipated it to be because I just go dragged into almost half an hour long session of conversation with him talking about the mythical creatures written in the book. I have already read the book back when I played the game and I know all the mythical creatures inside the book for the sake of farming materials for characters so I managed to catch up to him while trying to slip some few "accidental" insults, teases, and from degradation either to his interest for mythical creatures and to mythical creatures itself. I truly do not want to insult him or anything and applause for his knowledgeable expertise when it comes to informations about the creatures, I am forced to act as Carlos.

Maybe I should avoid talking to him about mythical creatures and avoid that topic as much as I can or else I wouldnt be able to stop him from talking about it and I feel bad disregarding his interest because I know to myself how it hurts for someone to be ignored just because of liking something.

At lunch time, I had him follow me to the cafeteria and I purposely cut into the lines then offered it to Rhyden to which he is truly against of taking it till I pulled him in and forced him into the line I cut into.

"With me, you will always get a special treatment." I said. One hand snaking up on his shoulder.

He turned to me looking all guilty and unsure. "I dont think this is right." He said. I brushed him off and replied to him "If it isnt wrong then why hasnt anyone correct us? Let alone that I have been doing this for so long as far as I can remember and not one has ever told me Im in the wrong! So, what I did just for now for you isnt wrong." I breathe just behind his ear, tiptoeing high as I can to reach his ear just to tell him that. I knew it did affected him. The words I told him. And I knew he is feeling guilty immediately.

At Sir Symoun's class, I dared not do anything stupid. I dont want to catch his attention all too much because Sir Symoun is fussing over Rhyden being transferred to his class and calls Rhyden the section's rising star because of his talent being "good at everything" though his real talent has yet to be confirmed.

Sir Symoun made a remark how it is ironic for me to be sitting next to Rhyden, someone who's good at everything while me, being bad at everything. A complete contrast of each other. He even tried to switch Rhyden's seat arrangement to somewhere else though I dont really mind that at all as long as he get another student to exchange to the seat that Eugene had once taken over next to me. Sir Symoun also warned Rhyden not to get too involved with me because of my past bad deeds. He did so ominously which I am a little bit thankful since I am trying to break my friendship ties with Rhyden that shouldnt have exist in the first place.

"We should get back to our classroom." Rhyden worriedly asks as I drag him away. I only brushed off his words and told him it is alright since there is nothing wrong with taking our time to enjoy our life and not always sacrificing our freedom for the sake of education when education can be attain anytime. Right now, I decided to cut class with Rhyden. Though I have never actually cut class before and I dont know how it is done. All I knew is that catting classes meaning not going in to your designated class and instead go somewhere else, either still inside the school premises or outside the school premises. Right now, we are still in the school premises and I brought him to the library, a quiet place, a great place to do some pranks.

When we got there, Rhyden did not hesitate to actually look for a good book to read while I scheme of what to do inside the library to cause some trouble for the librarian and not long did I find something. Not even 10 minutes, everyone inside the library has been having troubles and screaming can be heard inside.

I sneaked some three lizards that I found nearby then threw it at the desk of the exact three girls at a table and all of them shrieked after I perfectly threw the lizards on their desk. One directly went into the girl's cup. Then, I jinxed one of the ladders for the bookshelves and a noise of someone falling over can be heard bothered the people inside. I also tipped one of stacks of books where someone is perfectly at the spot of having the books fall over them. With that, just a few mischievous activities, multiple screams were produced and had everyone worried of what is happening.

Though I did all of those bad things, I am full of guilt as I am performing the act. I feel so bad doing it and hope for the people I victimized would be fine at the end of the day. The real Carlos would have done worse but that doesnt mean I would do it as well. I am only trying to find an alternative bad actions of Carlos.

Before the people would realize that Carlos is at it again, I grabbed Rhyden out of the library.

"Wait! I havent returned the book yet." He tried to get back inside the library but I stopped him.

"Its alright to bring the book with you even without the librarian knowing as long as you know to yourself you would return it anyways." I talked my way into his mind and he agreed though he did got a suspicion towards me because he knows what is happening inside the library and my sudden want to leave the library quickly right after I dragged him there physically.

"We're you all behind all those terrible things happening inside the building?" he asks hen points back at the library entrance. I brushed him off and told him "So what?" and knew he was not amused by my action.

"I knew it." He said. "Carlos. The representative of a bad student." he turned his body around to face me. "Carlos, the untalented student who always causes a ruckus to everyone. A problem child not only in his family but also at school. The useless bastard."

"Woah woah hey! You cant just go around and tell me that!"

"But you are not denying it!"

"Well, what is there to deny? Unlike you, I never get what I want nor my way so I have to do it on my own." I closed my distance to him with my chest touching his. Even if I needed to crane my neck to look at him, I did not back down. "You all people only care about talents whether talent about reading so fast or calculate the equations the fastest-- those talents are not even relevant to be honest! You all use the word talent to be relevant in this life even though you all are not making any difference. History, yes, maybe you'll get your name down in the history but what change would you all make? Difference that you could lift heavier than me? Not the difference where people are less focused on talents and more focused on the future of how to better the quality of life so people could enjoy the peace? Face it. This whole construct of talent is all just a delusion for people in hopes of gaining recognition with their unusual skill just to rise up to the social status without actually doing anything."

"Are you saying all these things because you never awaken your talent?" Rhyden got back at me though his tone were more empathetic towards me but keeping his ground.

"You'll get what I mean." I said to him before back down and distanced myself away from him. "Since youre smart anyway." I finished my words with him. I walked away from him, bumping his shoulder purposely.

I got back to the manor feeling all bummed out. I entered my room and threw my bag to the couch and flopped my whole body to the big fluffy bed, letting the softness swallow my completely.

GGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WHY DID I LASH OUT TO HIM LIKE THAT!!?? I GOT WAY INTO THE CHARACTER THAT I FORGOT!! Though it is what Carlos truly felt BUT STILL!! I ACTED TO MY OWN ACCORD WITHOUT THINKING CRITICALLY AND LET MY EMOTION DRIVE ME AT THAT MOMENT-- JUST WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME???

Just why.... huhu...