CH. 17 Why did I do that?

CH. 17 why did I do that?

(Rosemary POV)

I made my way into my bedroom, wondering what in the world just happened.

I noticed that something was bothering him, so I went out of my way to check up on him.

Which honestly took me off guard, me checking up on him was out of my character.

Heck, the way I was talking to him was out of character.

The fact that I let him pull me into a hug, which means his arms were around me was out of character but the fact that I wrapped my arms around him also.

I felt like, I was possessed but I knew that wasn't true because I wasn't possessed at all. It was all me, all me.

I Rosemary have actually allowed someone to hug me and I hugged them back.

I walked towards my bed and sat on it, wondering why I did what I did.

I shook my head, I was starting to act weird.

I even smelled him, but that's because I heard him smelling me back.

I didn't know what to do, I mean is it common for people to do that? I don't know, I thought it was a common thing.

I don't even know if I'm being serious right now or making excuses.

I ran my fingers through my hair and let out a sigh.

Does it really bother me if he is upset? Yes, Yes it does but why? Why does it bother me?

Do I care?

Honestly, if I had found Humor in that I would have let out a huge laugh.

I haven't really laugh lately, it's honestly been a while. Maybe it's because there isn't really anything to laugh about.

I wanted to cheer him up so that's why I offered for us to go out tomorrow.

I needed to figure out what to wear.

I stood up walking to my closet, trying to decide what I should wear. Knowing damn well my closet was filled with dark colors.

I wonder what he would like eating tomorrow, I knew a couple of nice places to eat.

I recalled the look on his face when I asked him out, asking him to go out with me tomorrow.

My hand froze.

Asking him out......

Did I just ask him out?

No, I asked him out because I am concern about him and don't want him wearing the same clothes all the time.

I didn't ask him out, it didn't matter that we were going shopping together and also having lunch.

I shook my head and decided that I would go with the skin-tight black dress tomorrow.

I was tired and wanted to go to sleep, I made my way towards my bathroom. Looking at myself in the mirror, taking off the contacts and letting my natural eye color show.

An eye color that always had people stare at me nonstop wondering how and usually continue staring until I give them a dirty look.

I stared at myself in the mirror, people can tell that She and I are related, although her eyes are bright green and mine were bright grey.

There was a familiarity between us.

I wet my hands and ran it through my hair, leaving it down.

I didn't want to know about my parents, I didn't want to know who I looked like.

I was me, I am just me.

I walked back out of the bathroom and sat on the bed.

Taking off my clothes and grabbing the sleep shirt I had on my bed.

I put it on me and curled myself furthered onto the bed.

I grabbed my body pillow and brought it to me, wrapping my arms around it.

I took a sniff of it. upset that it didn't smell like...

Wait, why was I upset?

Did I honestly want my body pillow to smell like him?

No, of course not. It's just that he pops into my head just now because I had happened to sniff my pillow, it's not because I wanted to be sniffing him.

I closed my eyes and tried to go to sleep, I laid there for 45 minutes not having sleep take my mind at all.

It's like now that I was trying to sleep, I had a million thoughts running through my mind.

I sat up and looked around my room, knowing that no one was there but it was something that I have been doing since I was a child.

Why?

Well, I'm sure it's obvious on why I would do that.

I got off the bed, walking out my bedroom and heading downstairs.

Maybe if I drank some cinnamon milk I would have an easy time sleeping.

As I got towards the kitchen, Mona was there.

She looked at me and smiled.

"I sense that you couldn't sleep." She said and I nodded my head, she pointed towards a coffee cup that I knew held the cinnamon milk I was craving.

"Thanks, Mom," I said walking towards the cup, picking it up to take a sip.

The warm taste bringing calmness to my body.

"So why was it that you were unable to sleep this time?" She asked me and I shrugged my shoulders.

"No Idea. just had a lot of things in mind with everything that's been going on you know," I said and she nodded her head.

"You also have Jamison on your mind on top of that." She said that had me coughing.

"Pardon?" I asked and she let out a low laugh.

"Jamison is also on your mind. I heard from two little birdies that you asked him out on a date." She said which caused me to quickly put the cup down.

"Two little birdies said what? I didn't ask him out, I mean I don't know if I did or not. I just was concerned about him not having his clothes and you did tell me to be more nice to him." I said and I swear, Isaw her eyes sparkle.

"You actually took my advice on being nice to someone?" She said and I rolled my eyes.

"I always take your advice, Mom," I said and she shook her head.

"Yes, but not on letting people in. Rosie, you've never taken my advice on being friends with anyone or letting them in, until now which means that you actually might want to let him in. You might actually care for this person." She said and I shook my head.

"I don't think so," I said and she laughed.

"You like him, dear." She said, watching me and analyzing me.

I stood there, taking more sips of my drink.

"That's bad," I said, not denying that if I did like him or not because Clearly I really didn't know.

"Why is it bad?" She asked me.

"If what you're saying is true, then you and I know that I have never liked anyone before and I don't know what to do with that or how to deal with that. I'm not a very loving and easy to get along with people" I said not sugarcoating.

I know my personality and I knew my flaws. I never hid them and won't ever deny them.

She nodded her head.

"Yeah, but you never know. Maybe he's the one that can help with all of that." She said and I let her words settle in.

"I'm not going to expect a person to come into my life and magically make me feel things I've never felt, that's not right for him or me. " I said and she nodded her head.

"I understand honey. Just see where it goes." She said and I slowly nodded my head.

This was weird, but I had to ask myself. Do I really like him? Because if I do, this is the first time of me actually liking someone.

I guess I'll see where it goes.

(*Kassandra Speaks*)

Admit it girl, your falling, your falling girl.

Looks like Rosemary is starting to catch something and it's called feelings. Hahaha, give this chapter a VOTE & COMMENT!

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-Kassandra Vivu