Chapter Volume 2, 54 - Dark blue, Becoming black

Volume 2, Chapter 54: Dark blue, Becoming black

TL: flarewk

The first day of the consecutive Qing Ming holidays, 2nd of April, I woke up in the house of a female classmate’s.

I didn’t know what time it was as well when I fell asleep last night, its probably almost daylight already.

I still felt to be very fatigued when I woke up in the morning, just like as if I had never slept at all. My eyes were stinging as well, it still felt to be very discomforting after rubbing it forcibly, but the fragrance that emanated from my palms when rubbing my eyes made me quite rather awake.

At least I was considered to have slept for a little while…………or it should be said, it’s amazing that I could still even sleep at all…………

Lowering my head to look at Xue Qing who was still lying on my belly sleeping, I felt boundless sentiments within my heart. In the end, I succeeded in enduring it. Stubbornly resisted those damning impulses, not enacting out the ‘starts from 3 years, highest is death sentence’ criminal act.

Then again, saying that nothing had been done at all also seemed to be like finding excuses, as in reality, I still couldn’t wield control over my hands.

It should be said that, it’s impossible to hold control over it.

Unless I cut off those hands of mine off, or to otherwise cut off my little Jun Cheng.

If not, even if I was to be tied up, I felt that I was able to wrestle out of those ropes.

Xue Qing was lying on my body, and she’s still in the bare-body shirt’s appearance! The distance between me and her could be said to be zero, with her wondrous seductively nude figure right on me, and if I didn’t do anything at all, I’ll even be sorry towards heaven who had bestowed such a good chance unto me, as well as being sorry to myself even more….

No, I’m not trying to look for excuses for my actions, but, I only wanted to say that it’s already my limit to be resisting not to take off my pants already…………

As for what I exactly did towards her…………

I used these both hands to grope her entirety; kneading, playing, stroking, reaching inside. Those important places, those places that shouldn’t be groped at all, those places that must not be groped at all had all been explored already.

Every time I used my fingers to deeply probe within those places that perhaps even Xue Qing herself hadn’t even investigated before, Xue Qing would be giving off a corresponding response, just like pressing on certain parts of a doll, being able to trigger its voice-emanating device, causing her to givw off cute moans.

Yi yi ya ya, mmn mmn aah aah, every subconscious moan made my emotions incomparably exhilarated.

Afterwards, I untiredly and happily searched for those kinds of places, just like I had been possessed, as I ravaged about everywhere…………

Seizing onto when Xue Qing’s asleep, to do those acts that were way too overboard towards her.

While intense guilt was making my conscience develop agonized sensations, I was uncontrollably wanting to caress her, play about with her, dirty her, break her.

Although I had resisted the last two kinds, I couldn’t endure the frontal two kinds still.

Plus, after groping I felt to be even more discomforted, as I felt that my lower half was about to explode already…………

Even though I knew that I must endure, but I completely couldn’t suppress onto my desires. It’s the so-called lust, huh…………

It was the first time that I felt that endurance was actually such an agonizing thing………..

Suddenly, I had a sort of melancholic feeling of wanting to light up a cigarette to just get a smoke, perhaps this would be called as ‘being too tired to love already’………..

“Haaaa…………”

In any case, after wandering about within maliciousness and depravity for a night, I survived over it already.

At that very instance of daylight, my brain which had always been in a befuddled state finally cleared up, just like as if it’s proving that since ancient times, evil can never overcome good, as light chased away those darkness in the midst of my heart.

I also had no idea what time it was currently since my phone’s out of battery. Those rays that shone in from outside the windows doesn’t looked to be the light of dawn, but instead seemed to be those light that emanated out from incandescent lamps; there simply wasn’t any way to determine the exact timing as of now.

But, since it’s the holidays starting from today onwards, it doesn’t matter what time it was already.

Thinking up till this point, I once again looked at the presently shut-eyed, evenly-breathing, and still sleeping Xue Qing…………

An incomparably intense level of guilt surged within my heart.

What have I done alreadyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

W-, what kind of obscenity have I used these two hands to do alreadyy! Cut it off, cut it off! Just cut off these two molesty hands of mine already?!

Ehh, hold on, since I’m regretting right now, then that means that I finally regained back to normal already?

Looks like only at night, or perhaps being shrouded in darkness would these damning secondary effects then come into play…………in the future, I could only live within the light already, huh? Before resolving the magic circle inside my brain, I’ll need to try my best to avoid staying within dark places, next time, I’ll switch on the lights when I’m sleeping then.

Because I had blown out the candles last night, my entirety had changed to be dreadful already, as Lian Bing’s advice had been directly thrown to the back of my head. Don’t even mention about recalling about the past, as even maintaining my consciousness was already very difficult. Because my entire brain was filled with malicious thoughts, meditating and whatnot all of them didn’t work at all.

Was it because that nighttime was the succubi’s ‘hunting hours’? That’s why the charm magic circle would then be causing me to develop all sorts of dreadful thoughts then, does Li Li not know about this effect at all? Or was it that…………she knew but didn’t tell me about it instead?

Ah, wait, right now, I still can’t be easily sure that it’s due to the charm magic circle which made me develop malicious thoughts.

Plus, Li Li also said that she too had no idea on why the charm magic circle would have appeared within my head, and had no clue on how to remove it out as well. Right now, I can only wait till after the Qing Ming holidays are over before going to roundly discuss about it with the principal already.

Currently, it should be considered as a half-worrying, half-rejoicing then.

The worry was that, after waiting for Xue Qing to be awake on how to explain to her; the rejoice was that, I didn’t do stuff that were even more overboard.

But, it’s already been said that seeing a girl completely in the nude would have her being unable to be married out already. Then, if it’s being groped entirely…………wouldn’t it be that she could only marry me already?

Uuu, at least, at least I didn’t use my tongue to lick, and not take out my little Jun Cheng as well…………

But, what’s done was done already.

I must be responsible for my own actions.

It’s unacceptable no matter what reason it may be, and I must take charge of my own actions! I mustn’t embarrass this name that grandpa had gave me, I must act upon those actions that were befitting of my name!

Stretching my face wide, and forcibly blinking my eyes thereafter, I finally set down my determination.

Right now, I’ll wake Xue Qing up, and tell her everything afterwards!

Gently shaking her shoulders, I called out her name once.

“Xue Qing?”

“Mm…………”

Xue Qing squinted her eyes, and used the back of her hands to rub her eyes just like a small kitten, afterwards looked at me blearily.

The first sentence that came out was…………

“Want to pee………..”

“Eh!”

No, this was a normal reaction, no matter who it was, after waking up they would want to pee.

But right now, after I heard the word ‘pee’, I very naturally recalled back to those two sudden happenings. With my back facing Xin Ran in the washroom, as well as facing towards Xin Ran in the washroom…………no matter which one it was, it all made me nearly puke out blood!

“Can’t, endure already.”

“Eh? Wait wait! Don’t pee! I’ll immediately carry you to the toilet!”

What am I hesitating about! Xue Qing’s also not Xin Ran, she wouldn’t make unreasonable requests towards me at all!

Without saying another word, I directly carried Xue Qing and wanted to run towards the toilet, with the result that………..

Can’t get up.

I’m saying that I suddenly felt a series of back aches, hence wasn’t able to sit up.

It’s quite true too now that I’m thinking about it, as although Xue Qing wasn’t heavy, but being laid on by this nearly 40 kilos loli for an entire night, it definitely would have caused a slight burden towards my body.

I hastily slapped my back hip, and after recovering about from that sensation I once again tried to stand up.

However, Xue Qing suddenly said.

“Coming out already.”

“Hold on! Just endure a little while more! I don’t want to wipe the floors again!”

After I had finally crawled up from the bed, I resisted my waist’s discomfort, carried Xue Qing and wanted to leave the room.

“Can’t, endure anymore…………Uuuu…………”

“Eeeehhhhh!”

Running towards the washroom right now, Xue Qing definitely would be uncontrollably peeing out halfway en-route! I don’t think that she would be able to withstand the shakings along the way there.

In any case, don’t pee out on the floor!

What to do? What to do? ………….There’s no choice already!

In the midst of anxiety, I hastily carried Xue Qing and went towards the sides of the windows, afterwards smacking open the windowsills, with two hands supporting on the back of Xue Qing’s knee, spreading open her both legs while tilting my head and crying out.

“Go ahead! Go on and pee! Use a little more force! Try for it to be as far as possible!”

“Mm………….”

Within my embrace, Xue Qing gave off a series of convulsions, and afterwards, a pillar of water dissipated out within the sky into rain droplets as they showered upon the earth…………

So awkward…………

Thinking about it right now, being propped up by me like this and peeing outside the windows, wouldn’t it be even more shameful than wetting the bed?

Had I clipped my head against the door already, for me to be thinking out these sort of idiotic ideas?

A moment later, the sound of liquid can’t be heard anymore, as I continued to maintain a head turned posture and asked.

“Finished peeing already?”

“Mm…………”

Her voice was way smaller than usual, had she felt embarrassed already?

Ahhh, as expected as of using this sort of posture, furthermore peeing out outside of the windows as well, it definitely would make one feel rather shameful. Ah, I’m not sure why, but I’m a little touched already…………I finally met onto a girl who would normally feel embarrassed already.

Mn? Wait, does this mean those girls along my side were always this shameless?

While thinking of these stuff that were useless on overcontemplation about it, I closed up Xue Qing’s legs, used my left palm to hold up the back of her both knees, with my other hand placed under her butt to catch those droplets that hadn’t finished leaking, and swiftly walked towards the tableside.

Afterwards, I very naturally took up the towel that I had used to wipe Xue Qing’s body yesterday to help wipe her butt.

Very thoroughly wiped it clean, from the outside to the inside.

“Umu…………Jun Cheng?”

Afterwards, I then suddenly realized, what the hell am I exactly doing!

“Graahhhhh! S-, s-, s-, sorry! I’m really sorry! I got so used to it that I………..*pei*! No! I’m not used to it! I definitely wasn’t used to being wiping your body!”

(TL: pei = spitting sfx to display a ‘oh f me why i say that’)

Aaaaahh! Am I an idiot! I just confessed to it myself!

“Put me down…………okay?”n/o/vel/b//in dot c//om

Her face seemed to have reddened a little. As expected, she felt embarrassed already.

Uuu, so cute.

Why would she be so cute?

I’ve actually groped onto her entirety, it’s simply just an act of bestowance from heaven…………

What’s next can’t be that I would be getting onto my retribution, right?

It’s said that misfortune comes along with fortune, so after fortune, what awaited me can’t be the start of misfortune already, right?

Since it’s like that, I just might as well enjoy it to my heart’s content…………letting myself go…………and violate her then?

I placed her down, looked at her eye-to-eye afterwards.

I wasn’t able to move away my vision at all, and as I was gazing at her deep bluish pupils, I felt that my entirety was almost about to be sucked within.

My head started to become cluttered and fuzzy.

My both hands roughly pressed onto Xue Qing’s shoulders, with my head leaning towards her face.

I want to kiss her…………

“Jun Cheng?”

“Uuu………..”

No wait, I’m a little………..strange…………

Within my eyes there’s a bout of chaos, with my surroundings spinning about, and my head being so heavy as if that it’s about to drop onto the ground.

I could only see her eyes clearly, that deep blue-colored pupils.

“Bleeding already.”

“Ahh? Ah………..”

My nose had bled already.

As expected, was my mental condition being not too well? And what was it too with last night not being able to sleep properly…………

Should I go back and go look for Laobà to discuss, on whether to go see the psychology branch’s Doctor He…………

My philtrum suddenly felt a sensation of softness; Xue Qing had proactively leaned forward, stuck out her tongue and was licking my nosebleed.

I hastily turned away my head and cried out.

“Hey, stop licking already, it’s filthy!”

“It’s fine.”

Xue Qing actively leaned over, hugged onto my head, and directly kissed onto my philtrum, sucking onto the tips of my nose.

Licking up all of the blood into her mouth.

My upper lip touched unto her lower lip, an intersecting kiss. Afterwards, her cherry small lips slowly moved downwards, all the way till she had licked away those blood that had dripped onto my chin…………a bizarre kiss.

She didn’t mind it?

Just like as if her thoughts was connected to mine, she immediately replied my question.

“I don’t mind.”

Why?

How could she always be like this, that unmindful in approaching me?

“Jun Cheng, is special.”

I’m special?

“Me?”

“Mm.”

An incomparably affirmative tone.

Even I also wanted to just believe her, without any reason at all.

“Is, special.”

Just like as if she’s affirming onto my existence.

“Irre-, -placable.”

Just like as if she’s confirming onto my worth.

Emphasizing the place of mine within her heart.

Just then, I suddenly remembered, that Xue Qing’s status had unknowingly turned blue already.

Because I had always put on spectacles previously, hence I hadn’t really paid attention to the colors, and right now, I then suddenly realized that her status had already turned blue since unknownst when.

That glimmer of blue yesterday night, I still thought that it’s emotions that were being displayed out towards Xiang Yue Xun, as the both of them looked to be rather well acquainted.

But right now, it’s still maintaining a bluish color.

Furthermore, it’s not a normal bluish color.

It’s a deep blue, just the same as her pupils.

No…………was that really blue? Staring at that glimmer of blue, I had the distinct feeling that the deep blue was gradually turning into black…………it’s a color that’s even more pitch-black than my pupils.

I started to become a little uncertain…………the ability to sense colors had become rather ambiguous.

Originally, color differentiation by humans were dependent on light, medium, and emotions for ascertaining. Towards similar colors, it wasn’t that quite clear for it to be differentiated apart………….

Likewise, there’s no way that ambiguous emotions could be differentiated apart.

Was she really the corpse-splitting homicidal maniac?

Why did she treat me so well? Does she like me?

I’m not sure, there’s no way to be sure.

Uncertainty saturated between the both of us.

Dark blue becoming black…………

Black, or dark blue?

Only ghosts* would know…………

(TL: a word play, ‘ghosts’ here can mean “what the hell” (Jun Cheng’s catchphrase), or “ghoul” (part category of ghosts))