Volume 1, Chapter 20: A new day had started already
TL: flarewk
Seeing that sort of expression of Xin Ranâs, I nearly opened my mouth instinctively, wanting to blurt out apologetic and compromising words. A habitual thinking that Iâve been keeping since a long time ago, Iâm unable to change it in just a short period of time. Last time, in order not to be hated thoroughly by my meimei, I would always be accustomed to display out a meekly attitude.
But now I canât do that already! If I was still being led around the nose by her, Iâll gradually sink into the pits of immorality, and in the end, drown within the emotions of forbidden love, being unable to get ahold of myself. It would only lead to a series of bad endings.
Things werenât that simple from what Iâve imagined, and it wasnât acted out to be as romantic as in television dramas, for the things to shoulder were simply too much already.
And so I must properly define out the borderlines! Siblings are just only siblings! Although many defense lines of mine had been breached by Xin Ran, and was in extreme high danger status already, but the final threshold must still be held on.
Previously it was in my sleep, about those stuff that Iâve done to Xin Ran, itâs fine since I donât have much memories about them. If Iâm awake, and Xin Ran continued to do those acts that she had detailed on earlierâ¦â¦â¦..I cannot guarantee that Iâm able to continue resisting.
No matter how youâll put it, Iâm still a male, and âsaint modeâ would also have its limits.
To let me be like Liu Xi Hui who was imperturbable from lust, itâs impossible unless I really had ED.
But the things that happened in the toilet earlier could explain many problems I had alreadyâ¦â¦â¦.Mm, looks like the beastly lust within my heart was way stronger than what Iâve thought it to beâ¦â¦â¦â¦
âE-even if you make that kind of expression, I wonât regress at all! Thereâs no way that I can make concessions for this!â
After Xin Ran looked at me for a while, the curvature on her lips slightly raised upwards, as her expression looked to be way more relaxed.
What exactly happened? Suddenly becoming happy already?
I really donât get a womanâs way of thinking at allâ¦â¦â¦..
âItâs very different from the usual gege, very assertive.â
âBecause previously I completely didnât know that you actually had special feelings towards me, itâs more like I thought that you especially hated me. Not calling me âgegeâ even once, always disregarding what I say, always showing an attitude of ignoring meâ¦â¦â¦..â
ââ¦â¦â¦â¦Because calling gege face-to-face was very embarrassing. Alsoâ¦â¦â¦â¦.â
Xin Ran paused, as she tightly clutched her thighs plus pursing her lips, and revealed a shy expression that Iâve never seen before, saying: âUmm, seeing gegeâs agonized face, I felt a little excited.
An S huh!
Itâs really been guessed out by me!
It really was because of Xin Ranâs fetish which was why she displayed out an aloof attitude towards me~!
âPlus, I canât really display a smile, my face expression is more singular. Isnât gege like that too?â
âAhhh, thatâs true, weâre all affected by Laobà , huhâ¦â¦â¦â¦â
Speaking of which, I seemed to be like that as well, no matter how disturbed my inner heart was, no matter how agitated I was, it wonât be shown onto my face. Itâs like the so-called âEven if Mt. Tai was to collapse before me, my facial expression still would unchangingâ.
Phew, since all the things that needed to be discussed had been discussed, and since the sky was also almost being lit up, Iâll just directly get up from bed then.
I walked towards the windows and pulled open the curtains, allowing dawnâs rays to shine into the room. Xin Ran instead laid back onto my bed, hugging my blankets as she squinted her eyes, with a look of wanting to go back and lazily sleep once again.
âYou wanted to continue on sleeping? Then remember to fold the blankets properly when you wake up later.â
Anyway, I canât sleep at any rate; as firstly, Iâm rejecting on me actively proceeding to sleep together with my meimei , and secondly, after knowing about this impactful reality, I had already become wide awake.
Since I had woken up so early, Iâll first go on to make breakfast then, and make my set of lunchbox too along the way. After experiencing that Ji Lian Bing canteen incident yesterday, I was planning never to head to the canteen again, as I donât want to be like a monkey within a zooâs cage, being surrounded and gawked at by everyone while eating.
I opened the windows and deeply breathed in a mouthful of fresh air, afterwards forcibly stretching a lazy arm, instantly feeling way more refreshed.
âGege.â
âMm? Oh, youâre feeling cold, right, Iâll close the windows immediately.â
I couldnât open the windows for a long period of time today for ventilation, as Xin Ran still was in the room; itâs terrible if she was to catch a cold from it.
âGege.â
âMm, whatâs the matter?â
âGege.â
âWhutâs the matter alreadyâ¦â¦â¦.canât you just say it directly.â
Everytime Xin Ran addressed me as gege, I would be slow to react to it, as her suddenly using this to address me really made me a little unused to it.
âItâs nothing, only that Iâve finally had a reply, last time there wasnât any.â
I was always sleeping last time, which was of course why I didnât reply you then! What would be replied to you was only this body that had already changed into acting instinctively!
âAhhhâ¦â¦â¦â¦next time Iâll also reply to you, so donât come crawling into my blanket when Iâm asleep, alright.â
âMm.â
Just when I wanted to leave the room, I suddenly remembered something, and turned around to ask Xin Ran: âOh yeah, Xin Ran, whereâs the jacket that I wore home? Where did you put it after you helped me to take it off?â
That jacket wasnât mine, today Iâll still need to return it to Li Li as well.
But Xin Ran didnât directly answer me, and instead raised a question towards me.
âGege, whereâs your school uniform? Why did you wear the sports jacket back home? Plus you didnât wear anything at all inside the jacketâ¦â¦â¦..â
âI accidentally tore my school uniform. Even the singlet inside was doomed along with it, and that jacket came from someone else who lent it to me.â
I intentionally concealed the reason of it being torn as well as the person who lent it to me, itâs all because of not wanting to expose those things about Li Li.
It was mainly due to things about Li Li being linked to various mysterious events, for example that Li Liâs a succubus, or like about my abilityâ¦â¦â¦.these things werenât stuff that could be easily mentioned.
And if there werenât any necessity at all, I wouldnât want to tell about these stuff to others. Especially my family, if I was to involve them into these nonsensical stuff as well then itâll really be disastrous.
However, Xin Ranâs astute intuition made her grasp the main point in just a short moment, as she pointed her sharp gaze towards me, stood up from bed and walked to my front while staring at me. After a moment of mysterious silence she asked: ââ¦â¦â¦â¦â¦â¦â¦â¦â¦..The jacket, whose is it?â
Although I canât explain clearly what kind of feeling it was, but intuition told me that itâs better for me to not completely say it out, hence I rubbed my nose and said: âUmm, itâs a friendâsâ¦â¦â¦.â
âLiar, you donât have any friends at all.â
âErrâ¦â¦â¦â
Iâve been exposed in just a short moment of time, even I myself thought that the excuse Iâve found was too lousy already. I couldnât help it, who asked me to be completely unable to lie at all?
âAnd on this jacket also had the scent of a womanâs, gege, you had a girlfriend already?â
âDidnât you say just now that you wonât interfere into my own lifeâ¦â¦â¦.â
âThis is just concern from being a family, as gegeâs girlfriend could possibly be gegeâs wife, and gegeâs wife will also be my sister-in-law, if she wants to be part of our family then sheâll have to go through my consent.â
Every time she said a passage of words, Xin Ran would take a step towards me, and I was forced to retreat back a step in return.
Her face was abnormally close, and itâs extremely intimidating! Faced with this sort of intimidation plus the habit that I always meekly dodged Xin Ran normally, it made me unresistingly say out the truth.
âItâs the teacherâs, the teacherâs! The libraryâs Yang Li Li-laoshi! Just like what youâve said, because I donât have any friends, thatâs why I can only look for the teacher to help me out, and hence the teacher lent me this sports jacketâ¦â¦â¦..â
âThe libraryâs Yang Li Li-laoshiâ¦â¦â¦..I see.â
I donât know why Xin Ran didnât continue to pursue it, but she flipped her sleeping gownâs skirt up, and handed the jacket that was clutched in between her legs onto my hands.
She actually hid it at that sort of place! No wait, it should be said instead that how could she hide there as well! Does the inner of womenâs skirts all contain dimensional spaces!
Itâs so mysterious and curious-inducingâ¦â¦â¦.Nonono, what am I thinking about exactly!
âGege.â
âMm? Anything else?â
I placed my hand onto the doorknob as I half-opened the atticâs door, and turned around to look at Xin Ran.
Xin Ran raised up her head a little, using a slightly damp eye expression to look at me, and tiptoed to plant a kiss onto my face.
âI love you.â
ââ¦â¦â¦..â
I remained silent for a moment, and unveiled a natural smile thereafter, stroking her cheeks as I also planted a kiss onto her forehead.
âI love you too.â
Although itâs only a siblingâs love thoughâ¦â¦â¦..
And my brand new day started from a meimeiâs morning kiss just like that.
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