Part 10 ❀

February 3rd 2020

A week has now passed since Taehyun's demise.

Beomgyu hasn't actually gone to school since, he was still grieving but was feeling much better after the blonde's letter. He's not really going out much and stays in his room most of the time.

His cousin also comes to visit him often now, just like today.

"Beomgyu" they were both sitting at the raven haired's desk with the older performing his favourite activity which is poking the other's cheek repeatedly "What are you doing?"

"Can't you tell? I'm writing."

Yeonjun leaned to see what he was writing, but he leaned quite exaggeratedly since his chin was now on the desk "Um is this a poem?"

"Kinda. Well it's a song, a sad love song to be exact"

Yeonjun started rubbing his chin and squinting his eyes then hummed "Annnd...... why are you doing this?"

Beomgyu sighed in a way that indicated that he didn't want to answer that stupid question. He's in the music after school class for crying out loud. "Well," he put on a slightly embarrassed face "I decided to combine my love song and Taehyun's sad song together"

"Aw that's cute" his cousin smirked "And I see you that you framed the picture he gave you"

The younger grumbled bashfully as a response.

Yeonjun stretched his arms upwards and made the most dramatic exhalation "I should make a sad love song too! For me and Jessica, since we're parting ways..." he wiped a fake tear.

"You know you're with Soobin hyung right? And for the last time, who the hell is Jessica?!"

"I told you already! My time travelling assistant. It's almost been 6 months since my 20th birthday, and that's usually the time it takes for an ebys to dissipate."

Yeonjun put his hand on his forehead in dejection "I'll surely lose my ebys completely during this week or so. So that means no more Jessica."

Beomgyu pat his shoulder "It's a shame that you didn't use your ebys that much. When you were a kid you always used it"

The younger then sighed dreamily "I wonder how it's like to time travel..."

Yeonjun smiled "It's really fun as far as I recall, but making big mistakes is forbidden. Thankfully Jessica was there for me."

"Is she even... real?"

"Nope. It's not a person, she's like a voice inside your head. But Gyu!" Yeonjun tapped his back quite brutally "You shall come to school tomorrow!"

"But.."

"Aw come on, I don't think Taehyun would be really happy if you failed because of him."

February 4th 2020

"Why."

Beomgyu just uttered this one word while he was standing in front of the school building.

Yeonjun started pushing him to keep walking "Because you're still a student"

The younger got gloomy, his cousin is pushing him the same way Taehyun was that time.

Soobin was walking alongside them "And you have a lot of school work to catch up to"

~

Beomgyu split with the two older since they were going towards different directions, he then stopped

'This is the same hall where me and Taehyun would always bump into each other...'

They weren't in the same general class, but still somehow ran into each other pretty often.

He then sighed and walked up the stairs.

Even though he doesn't really show it on the outside anymore, he always thinks about Taehyun and connects everything to him.

'Why... Why did this have to happen? And if things couldn't get worse, tomorrow is literally his birthday..'

~

Classes were the same as usual, boring.

Especially now that Beomgyu wasn't even mentally there, only physically. He thought that he was over it but.. His eyes kept on welling up with tears and he hated that. The teacher even asked if he was okay.

It's interesting how in the past during his middle school years, Beomgyu had trouble concentrating in class solely because of Taehyun. The twitterpated teenager couldn't stop daydreaming about the brunette boy who he thought and still thinks is the prettiest ever.

And now, it's the same but with a completely different feel of emotions and for different reasons.

'At least... later today, I can present to our music teacher the song. Just like Taehyun wanted'

After school

Huening Kai decided to accompany Beomgyu to music class.

And while they were making their way there, the latter put on a smile "I'm quite proud of our song! I hope jungkook hyung picks it as a candidate for the end of the year show"

The younger chuckled "I like how you call it 'our' song"

"W-well yea! It's me and Taehyun's song, the lyrics are kind of about our story too. I'm the main character of course" Beomgyu tried to hard the fact that what he just said was making him emotional.

Huening Kai put on a more serious expression "Did you read what I wrote, the long text that was in the folder"

"Oh... no, not yet"

Kai sighed, he doesn't get why the raven haired won't just read it. Doesn't he want to know the truth about Taehyun? Well he won't if he doesn't act. But the younger decided to change the subject again, and it started with a giggle "It's Taehyun's birthday tomorrow, what do you want to give him as a gift?"

Beomgyu stared at him like he was worried for the younger's mental health "Bruh... what do you want me to give to a deceased person?"

"Anything Taehyun wanted in particular?"

Beomgyu started pondering, he was even wondering why he was doing that. Taehyun isn't there anyway so how the hell is he supposed to give him something? 'Something Taehyun wanted?' He wondered.

"Well.. me to stop crying, presenting his sad song and also wanting to ki—"

Huening tilted his head at the older's abrupt pausing "to what?" 'I already know to be honest'

Beomgyu made a dramatic cough "Let's keep going...."

They arrived there. But.. the classroom that's usually open was locked and no one was there. "Huh?"

They then saw a boy walking towards them.

It was Kang Minhee "You want to attend music class? Didn't you hear that Mr Jeon quit?"

"WHAT?!" Beomgyu yelled without realising it.

Huening patted the older's shoulder "I mean.. he did lose his brother"

"But.." Beomgyu stared at the sheet of paper that he's been working so hard on, for Taehyun. He wasn't that thrilled about writing a love song at first.

But now he actually had the motivation and inspiration to do so. Looks like staying up all night to write this was for nothing.

"But... T-Taehyun wanted me to..."

Not wanting those 02 liners to witness his vulnerability, Beomgyu ran off out of the school.

✧✧✧

Hearing some loud meowing from the sitting room, a lady went to check on her kitten.

She kneeled down "Aw what is it, you hungry?"

The meowing intensified.

"Hehe, I was actually just about to get your food" The person made her way back to the kitchen counter then grabbed a bowl and put in on the floor for her white kitten.

But instead of eating, the cat suddenly just started yowling at her.

'...oh right. He used to only accept food from Taehyun'

She decided to pick the kitten up "You miss Taehyun don't you?" The kitten then made whimpering sounds.

"Me too.. I miss my baby so much" she tilted her head upwards to prevent the tears from falling.

She was a single mother who lived alone in this big house with her son. She split up with her horrible ebist husband some time ago. She also now keeps in touch with her ex boyfriend which is Taehyun's father.

Jungkook left the house to live on his own so her only human company was Taehyun, but now she's all alone with the cat that her son left behind.

The lady went upstairs with the cat still in her arms and opened the door to a huge bedroom. "What should I do with all his things?" She asked a kitten who will naturally not reply. "I don't want to throw them away...."

Taehyun's white kitten that Beomgyu saved, started miauling at something in the room. Wondering what was causing this, the mother looked in the direction that his little head turned to. And saw a weird and old looking teddy bear on the shelf. Well it wasn't actually really a teddy bear.

She advanced towards it, smiled then looked at her cat "Do you mind being alone for a moment?"

~~~

*doorbell ringing*

"Gyuuuuu see who's at the door please"

"Yea open the door cousin"

Beomgyu rolled his eyes, why does he have to do it when Taehyung and Yeonjun are literally closer to the door than he is, he thought.

The youngest peered through the peephole and strangely perceived someone who usually doesn't want to be associated with him and his brother.

He opened the door and bowed in a shy manner.

"Hello Mrs Kang"

Besides being really kind, her and her ex husband weren't the most supportive of their oldest son's sexuality and broke him and his boyfriend up when they realised that they were dating. In the past, she was a bit distraught that her younger son was close to Taehyung's brother. Scared that "the gay will rub off on Taehyun".

The boy was quite surprised to see such a high-class lady casually standing in front of his apartment.

She made Beomgyu a broken smile then searched for something in her bag "I want you to have this"

The male looked at the object a bit confused "What is it? Oh do you want to come in?" he politely gestured her to step inside.

"No it's fine, I won't be here for long. Just please take this, it's a teddy tiger. My son made it for you a long time ago"

"W-what..." Beomgyu froze in disbelief.

"Taehyun actually fabricated it entirely, hehe he hurt his fingers a lot of times from sewing. Since 'Beom' stands for 'tiger' and that he thought you looked like a bear, well he made this for you. But the embarrassment hit him when he was done and ended up not giving it to you."

The lady stretched the handmade stuffed crossbreed animal to the boy "I just saw it in his room and he will probably kill me if he find out that I threw it away"

With his mouth gaped, Beomgyu took hold of the plushie like it was the most precious thing in the world, like if he dropped it, it will shatter into pieces.

"Is...he...for real..?

***

When Taehyun's mother left, Beomgyu trudged up the stairs with the same shocked expression. When he was now in his bedroom, he slowly sat on the floor against a wall and finally stopped holding all of it in and broke down into tears "Is he serious?!"

He hugged the teddy tiger against his chest.

"I couldn't give him the necklace, I couldn't present his song, I couldn't save him.

I don't deserve this gift at all!"

"I wanted to kiss you so badly"

"What does that even mean??"

Beomgyu has secretly been yearning for the feel of Taehyun's soft rosy lips pressed against his own for so long. And the younger wanting the same thing feels to good to be true.

Like what does Taehyun even feel towards Beomgyu? The latter was never really able to tell and was also convinced that blonde liked Nari more. He always had to go though the pain and jealousy of Taehyun constantly blabbing on about how nice she is and that he wanted to become close with her.

"Why do I miss that freaking jerk so much?!" Beomgyu wailed "Why did he leave me like this?!" "I want to see him again, even if he rejects me, even if he doesn't remember me, I want to see Tyun-ah again..."

"It's Taehyun's birthday tomorrow, what do you want to give him as a gift?"

Beomgyu wiped his tears away and put on a determined expression "I want to give him life"

~

Beomgyu was pouring his heart to who he thought was no one. But little did he know is that his cousin who came to visit like he always does was listening in on the other side of the door.

'Well do you know what I want to give you?

Jessica.'