Something that can wash off the pain

A slight breeze ran over me, waking me from my slumber. I began to fidget, feeling around for the blanket to pull over my head. My entire body went rigid as the memories for yesterday came flooding back. My eyes shot open and I didn't even dare breathe. I completely forgot about Luke's wound. I gently pushed the pillow back to be met with an empty bed. My heart dropped and I don't know why. I guess i've become too used to waking up in his arms, secure and safe. Today of all days I wake up alone, the day i'm in need of assurance.

I scanned the room and my eyes lingered on the alarm clock. Wow I slept in, it's 10am. My eyes then caught my reflection in the mirror. I stood up, wobbling and walked towards it. As my eyes adjusted, the details cleared and I became more frightened. Approaching the mirror I ran my fingers through my hair, gently touched my face and eventually looked down at my hands and clothes. Their normal colour barely even visible due to the red stain that seemed to cover me from head to toe.

My stomach began to turn as I felt disgusted. I ran to the bathroom, turning on the shower. I didn't even check the temperature. I just climbed in, trying to wash everything away. The pain, the memories, the blood. I let the water beat down on me as I stood there fully dressed staring blankly at the wall. My skin began to itch as I felt the desire to scrub my arms raw run through me. I grabbed a flannel and began my assault.

I watched as the now slightly red water ran down my body and into the drain. That was it. I broke down. I made no attempt to stop the now free flowing tears. I leaned forward and rest my head against the wall, wrapping my arms around myself for some comfort. My hair fell like a curtain around me. It was matted together with blood and dirt. I tried to run my fingers through it but it was a pathetic attempt at detangling it.

I rested my two hands flush against the wall of the shower and pushed myself until I was standing upright. Once stabilised I took a step back and tilted my head. With my eyes closed I enjoyed the sensation of the water running through my hair and down my spine.

It was peaceful until I was met with harsh flashbacks, from yesterday and from times I'd rather forget. The water washing away my sins, my guilt as the scenes are on reply in my mind. I will myself not to cry, i'm done with crying. I've had my quota for the month. People say crying isn't a sign of weakness but a sign of staying strong for too long. Never the less crying doesn't solve anything. To me crying shows vulnerability, something I never wish to broadcast.

The painful images are halted as I feel arms around my waist. They are clearly not mine as mine are raised above my head in my hair. I drop my arms and my eyes fly open, slightly panicked. The sight in front of me makes me weak at the knees. Once again I find myself staring into the crystal blue eye that changed my life, the eyes I thought i'd never see again. Luke stood at his full height, towering above me. His eyebrows knitted together in concern.

Looking into his eyes the water wasn't the only thing rushing over me, I couldn't control my emotions. He brings out the soft side of me. When i'm with him i'm not the cold, strong marine that I used to be instead i'm an emotional girl wanting to be loved. For years I held onto my anger, I never showed pain. It's a sign of weakness and I couldn't let people think I was weak. I was shot, I was tortured, i've watched friends die and I have killed people but not once did I cry. I pushed myself harder telling myself that i'm doing this for my country.

But Luke.........But Luke has brought out a side of me I never knew existed. Brick by brick he's tearing my walls down. Watching him.......well die sparked this. That's how I got here, leaning into Luke's chest sobbing like a baby in the shower.

Luke whispered sweet nothings in my ear and he pulled me close. My sopping clothes sticking to me like a second skin contrasting to his warm slightly damp chest.

I just promised myself I wouldn't cry anymore and here I am. It's like when you're holding it together and you think you're fine until someone asks if you're ok.

With one hand firmly on my hip and the other creating circular motions on my back I relaxed into him. We started slightly rocking from side to side. Finally after swallowing the lump in my throat I began to speak.

"You left me alone." My voice barely a whisper. With my ear pressed to his chest I could hear his heart rate increase as he reassuringly squeezed me but remained silent.

"I've never been so scared in my life." I unhooked my hands from around the waistband of his shorts.

"Never do that to me again." I slapped the back of his head and received a whine in returned. Then I tilted my head to the side and kissed his shoulder.

Luke just chuckled at me before his arms followed my figure and rested on my thigh. He removed his hand from my back and placed it in the wall. Backing me into the wall he leaned down until his lips were level with my ear.

"I'm sorry princess." He gently tugged at my earlobe and placed light pecks across my jaw before leaning back to look me in the eye. Holding my stare he breathlessly whispered "let me make it up to you."

It's only fair really.

I pushed him off me and he looked shocked. I opened the shower door and stepped onto the towel I had placed on the floor. Using another towel I tried my tear stained cheeks. I blew my nose and moved my hair from my face.

Walking out of the bathroom I left a trail of water drops after me. I picked up my shower essentials like razor, speakers, moisturiser. I also picked up a new outfit, something simple. Blue faded jeans, a grey top and of course matching underwear. Having matching underwear just makes me feel like I have my life together.

I grabbed my bundle and walked back into the bathroom. I placed everything on the toilet seat and dropped the towel. The Dark Side by Trevor Moran blast through my speakers as I opened the now fogged up glass shower door.

"If you're going to make it up to me then you can start by getting out of the shower so I can get cleaned up and we can go out."

Luke chuckled and his eyes gleaming with mischief. He walked up to me, reaching around me and pulling the door shut again. The sides of his lips curling up into one of his famous smirks.

He brought his voice down an octave, it's raspier. Huskier. As he whispers "I had other plans"

I heard the little tip taps of the water drops hitting Luke's back. He blocked me from the warm wrath of the flowing water but the heat coming off of his was twenty times warmer.

Everything seemed to slow down as I took in every detail. The water droplets resting perfectly on his now flat hair. His arms slowly leaving the shower door to wrap around my waist.

His muscles becoming more prominent as his bicep contracts to move his arm up. His strong jawline and cheekbones slightly damp from the moisture in the air.

My eyes travel from his bottom lip pulled betwen his teeth up to his eyes which were firmly fixed on my own lips.

He pulled me flush against his chest with force. It wasn't out of anger but the sexual tension that's clearly evident in the small shower. His head slowly lowered until I could feel his warm breath fanning over the shell of my ear.

"Come on princess." He placed a gently kiss to my temple before travelling down again. Dangerously close to my mark he raised his voice slightly "give in"

I stood completely still knowing that would spark a greater response than anything I could say would. "Let me touch you" his lips no longer lingering over my mark but now made full contact as he began to suck harshly.

It felt like I was getting thoughts of little shocks. I'm literally tingling but I have to say I enjoy it. I nestled my hands into his hair and pulled his head closer to the base of my neck. Needing more. His hands clamped firmly down on my waist dragging me into him even further as he began grinding into me. My own hips soon matching his rhythm. Even that slight amount of friction gave so much pleasure. Just when I thought it was over I felt his canines begin to extend as he pierced the skin. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I let out a low moan in the form if his name.

All action came to a swift stop. Luke lifted his head and exposed his eyes now darkened with lust and flecks of black which tells me he's really horny.

"Do that again." I decided it was my turn to tease.

"What?" I batted my eyelashes. Luke pinned me to the wall, no longer shielding me from the flowing water.

He let out a low playful growl and pushed me further into the wall using his hips. He dropped his head into the crook of my neck, trying to control himself but I want to push him a bit.

I turn my head slightly, leaning in to his ear and softly whispering "Luuuukkkeee" breathless and panting it came out as a seductive drawl. Exactly what I was hoping for.

His head snapped up and he went into high gear. He took of my soaking now almost see through shirt exposing my black bra. He slowly worked his way down, snapping my belt and with one hand undoing the button, letting my pants pool at my ankles. There was no fumbling or awkward stopping, Luke was on a mission.

For the first time today he gave me a proper kiss. Not a slight peck on the lips but a real passionate kiss. I froze when I felt Luke's hand slip into my underwear.

I've never done this before. I've never gone this far. Just as the panic and doubt was rising he began to speak.

"Relax princess we're gonna take this nice and slow"

He hooked a finger under the waistband of my underwear and slowly dragged them over my hips. He stopped and ran his thumb across my hipbone in a soothing manor. This small gesture made me relax into him. He looked at me pleadingly wait for an indication to continue. It amazes me how he can go from demanding to slow and caring. It's times like this that leave no doubt in my mind that all he wants is to make me happy.

His hand slid down a little bit more and I gasped in pain. Luke went rigid and his head snapped up. He stepped back and I could feel his worry and pain. He looked down at my hip and his eyes widened. It wasn't a pretty sight, the bruise the size of a golf ball. Various shades of purple and green. All from that stupid table, at least it's good quality.

Luke gently traced his fingers over the mark and when I flinched it was like protective mate mode had been activated. His jaw clenched as he inspected my bruise from a distance. His eyes softened as he looked in mine but I could see the underlying anger.

"What happened?" I smiled. Always worrying about me, he's going to be exhausted because if no ones hasn't noticed already i'm accident prone.

"I'm fine I promise" I put a hand on his cheek to try to calm him down. He grabbed my hand "Princess that bruise is contradicting you, now tell me what happened."

He thinks he's intimidating but really I think he's adorable. I rolled my eyes "I walked into the table in the hall today. Happy?"

He chuckled "very, now what do you say I kiss it all better." He gave me a cheeky wink before sinking to his knees. My jaw dropped as I firmly clamped my legs together, desperately trying to divert his attention.

"Luke remember what the doc-"

"Ah I remember but he never said I couldn't get your heart racing." My jaw dropped and he gave me a smirk.

He pinned me to the shower wall then began leaving soft kisses around my bruise.

He slid my underwear down until it met my jeans at my ankles. I suddenly felt very exposed but so ready. I never understood the term "in the heat of the moment" but right here, right now I sure do.

Luke's hands clasped around my thighs and held my legs open. He lowered his head, I could feel his warm breath fan across my core.

I closed my eyes in an attempt to get a grip on my hormones. I felt his stubble brush the top of my thigh and I squeezed my eyes shut tighter. My hands curled into fists by my side, trying to stop myself from running my hands through his hair.

However I couldn't stop my natural reaction. He pulled my thighs further apart and his tongue glided over my folds. My eyes snapped open and I stared down at him. My knees nearly gave way as I looked down at him. Luke on his knees in front of me, is definitely a sight I could get used to.

I threaded my fingers through his hair as I began to relax and actually start to enjoy this new experience. I'm starting to understand what all the fuss is over.

I began tugging on his hair as he played with my clit. I suddenly became very thankful of the blaring music. It's bad enough that these wolves can hear my conversations but hearing me moan as Luke eats me out is something i'd rather not have.

My hips began to buck forward as I craved more. It was like a fire spreading within and only he could quench it. Luke released one of my thighs and used his hand to pin me to the wall.

His tongue moved faster and my legs turned to jelly. He quickly pulled back and smirked at me. Licking his lips he stood up and I was in complete shock. He stood to his full height and gave me a quick peck on the lips.

"You don't think i'm done with you, do you?"

My heart began to race again. My chest heaved up and down. His eyes were drawn to my chest and he bit his lip.

"God I love you."

He rested his head in the crook of my neck and began to leave a mark on the opposite side of my neck to the one left earlier. His hands followed the curves of my body until he reached my now sensitive clit.

His fingers circled my folds, slowly opening them. He continue sucking on my neck as he slowly slid one finger in. I bit my lip and scrapped my nails across his back.

"You're so tight princess." He looked up at me and gave me a wink. A moan slipped passed my lips and he stopped.

His eyes dancing with curiosity as he maintained eye contact. He began pumping his finger in and out again and I began moaning. He stopped again, just as I was going to give out to me he added another finger.

I became putty in his hands. His peppered kisses across my jaw as he worked his fingers. Continuously bringing me to the edge but never over.

"Luke" we looked at each other and realised that we must have been in here a little too long. "One Minute" Luke's voice echoed through the bathroom.

He focused his attention on my mark for the second time. Just as he bit down he gave one last thrust, finally pushing me over the edge. I bit down on his shoulder in an attempt to suffocate my moans.

Luke brought his fingers to his lips and licked them clean. He leaned forward and gave me a quick peck then walked out. He just walked out.

In shock I stood there staring at the shower door. I leaned my head against the wall and started giggling like a school girl. I could feel my cheeks heating up as I replayed the events of only a minute ago in my head.

I continued with my shower, singing along to the music blaring in the bathroom.

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Walking out of our bedroom I had half a bottle of foundation on my neck in an attempt to hide the various hickeys left by the Alpha himself.

My hair currently in pigtail braids taking me back to my childhood. I'm doing everything possible trying to hide these marks. Sure they're a sign of love but they are NOT worth the mocking and slagging that is sure to follow.

Walking down the stairs I begin cursing myself for leaving my scarf downstairs. I heard the boys shouting and messing around. I soon recognised them as the twins, Zach, Aaron, Charles and of course Luke.

I took a deep breath and repositioned my hair. I walked into the room on a mission, like I was trying to get past my parents. My attempt to go unnoticed was foiled by Luke's ability to play Call Of Duty.

Zach jumped off the chair "LEEEEEEXXXXIIIIII." Everyone turned to look at me as I looked at them horrified. Zach is running towards me and I don't know why so I did what any sane person would do and I ran. I ran around the couch and in front of the TV, the twins began shouting at me because they were in the middle of a very intense video game. I soon found myself trapped and giggling like a maniac. The twins died and suddenly all three of them were closing in on me.

They got within touching distance and I had somehow managed to turn around. Instead of being backed into a corner or the TV I'm being backed into the couch. Just as they lunged at me Luke let out a growl and pulled me on top of him.

They visibly paled and then shook it off when they realised he was just being a protective mate. They began cursing me and saying how they'd get me next time. This did not impress Luke. He let out another growl as they restarted the game, muttering under their breath. Luke put his arm around me and pulled me close. I could feel him relax as he was able to hold me.

"You've been here less then two minutes." I laughed at him shaking his head and with a chuckle explained myself "I just wanted a scarf."

It was then I noticed he wasn't wearing a shirt. I looked at him in confusion but he was focused on the game that the twins were playing. Suddenly my eyes began to wander. Almost as if he could feel my gaze Luke looked over and winked at me. I cleared my throat and decided to play it off even though I know I was caught in the act.

"My shirt was wet" Answering my unasked question. Even though he wasn't looking at me I can see the smirk plastered on his smug face. Something white caught my attention. I noticed Luke's tattered and soaked bandages that the doctor put on last night. The dweeb went into the shower with them on! He still hasn't changed them.

I took in the scene and spotted Bonnie sitting in the corner, submerged in the chair on her phone. She's oddly quiet. I unraveled myself from Luke and went over to sit on Bonnie. That's right I sat on her.

"Whatcha dooooooing?"

"Ugh, jesus Lexi. I'm shopping."

"Are you bored?" She laughed at me

"Yes but that's besides the point, we only have a few days to Christmas." My jaw dropped as I took out my phone to check the date. The 20th of December was staring back at me.

I began wriggling and mumbling. Bonnie was laughing at me because we were just getting more tangled up. I was laughing so much that the tears were streaming down my face and since I couldn't see I just gave up. When Bonnie and I calmed down a bit we saw the strange looks that the boys were giving us which started us off again.

When we finally got a grip I stood up. "Ok we need to go shopping." They gasped. They actually gasped.

"Someone pinch me." I just stared at her.

"Har har har very funny but it's CHRISTMAS !!! WE NEED PRESENTS." I grabbed her hand and pulled her off the chair. We hadn't even made it two steps before the boys protests were heard.

All of them were shouting over each other so it was just one big blur of words.

"No"

"Are you crazy."

"ROGUES"

"You shopping?" Zach always on his own train of thought.

"Princess you're not going." Luke stood up, as if his word was final. He should know by now that this doesn't work with me. Exasperated I let out a huge sigh before I got an idea.

"How about a little bet?" All heads snapped towards me. I could see the glint in Luke's eyes but everyone else looked terrified.

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Authors Note :

I know this took so long, please don't kill me because you luv me. Hahaha but really don't because you won't know what happens next. Mwahahaha.

I honestly don't even know what i'm saying, I hate being sick.

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