Turning my world upside down

Zach and Aaron were the only two left.

"You know Luke's coming back tonight."

I tore my gaze away from the night sky to look at Aaron. Zach hit him and gave him the 'i'm-going-to-beat-your-ass-12-ways-to-Hong-Kong' look.

I raised my eyebrow but my mind's going a mile a minute.

Where is he?

What happened?

Is he ok?

Who's he with?

Is he hurt?

"What are you talking about?"

"You didn't tell her?"

".......no"

I turned to Zach and he cracked.

"Ok you see Luke was called to the annual Alpha training blah blah blah. I was put in charge and he told me I had to get a new traine-"

"SO HE DOESN'T KNOW I'M HERE? HE DOESN'T KNOW I'VE BEEN TRAINING YOU ALL. WHAT. THE. FUCK. YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT HONESTY."

I'm fuming. I'm pretty sure there's smoke coming out of my ears.

"You led me to believe that Luke was aware of all of this."

"He is........he just doesn't know it's you."

I just rubbed my temples and let the anger evaporate. I guess it's better this way. What he doesn't know won't hurt him.

"Actually, it's fine. It's better this way. Now come on, it's way past your bedtime and Aaron you have a patient to look after. Go on, go home. That's an order."

They squished me into a group hug and walked off.

I took off my shoes and laid down in the grass. I spent a few hours staring at the stars just trying to figure my life out. I gave up a while ago and tried to make patterns with the stars.

I checked the time. 3am.......wow. It feels like i've only been here for a few minutes. I guess it's time to make a move.

I got up and unzipped my bag. I took the first note out along with my swiss army knife. I walked over to the largest tree in the centre. I held the note up to the tree and with force secured it with the knife. It was simple, short and to the point.

"I've done my job. We all knew that this was going to happen any day now. Remember there is always room for improvement. I have eyes everywhere so don't make me come back and beat your asses for slacking.

So for the last time safe home and goodbye,

Alex"

They guys will get it in the morning when they turn up for training. I jumped into my car and drove to the 24 hour homeless shelter. I dropped off the food and clothes.

At least one person can benefit from this situation.

I parked in front of Luke's house. My hands began to shake but I pushed everything aside. I promised Zach that I would make sure the pack was in safe hands before I left.

I grabbed Luke's jumper from my car along with the note and music sheet. I walked around to the side of the house and climbed up the tree. Aaron, Bonnie and Zach were in the house as well and I don't want them to know i'm here. I was never good at goodbyes.

The window was open thank god and as I sat on the windowsill I scanned my surroundings. The room was a mess. Holes in the wall, cabinets broken and clothes everywhere. There's the silhouette of a body in the bed. I guess he's really tired because he didn't even flinch.

I walked over and put the stuff on the end of his huge bed where i'm sure he'll see it in the morning. I was about to leave bit couldn't bring myself to.

I walked over to the side of the bed and knelt down. I ran my fingers through his slightly longer messy hair and examined him. He's thinner than he was. He's not looking after himself.

"Why would you do this to yourself? This is all my fault. This is why I have to leave. I knew it would never work. You deserve a nice pretty girl who comes from a great family, not some damaged human. I'm actually happy with the way it happened. I knew I was never going to walk out of this with my heart intact. You kissing that girl was probably the least pain I would've been caused, so in a weird sense thank you for that.

Now. You need to get a grip and man up. Your pack needs you. Them before me. Them before us. Sacrifice the needs of the one for the needs of the many. I made the decision for you. Now when i'm gone you should move on and go back to normal. Go back to who you were before we met. No matter how hard I try to forget you, you'll always be in my heart......Goodbye Luke."

I leaned down and kissed his forehead.

Then I left, I did it. I left.

I've been driving down the empty road doing everything to stop myself for thinking about what I just did. I put in the radio, I sang, I beat boxed anything and everything.

I passed the area where I first met Luke well Mr WolfyMcFluffy. All the emotions i've been suppressing for the last few months just hit me like a brick wall. The anger, the tears and the laughter came hard and fast.

I didn't even notice the clouds covering the rising sun. Out of nowhere a strike of lightening hit. The car served but I regained control. I could feel my heart in my throat.

I grabbed onto the steering wheel for dear life. Then out of nowhere I lost control of the tail end of the car. I slammed on the breaks but it was too little too late. I was drifting and the car couldn't handle the sudden movement, it toppled.

Everything was in slow motion. I put my arms up to protect my head, I could feel myself hitting against the steering wheel and glass. The screeching and my screams seemed only a distant cry as I waited for the end.

Finally the motion stopped. I was in a lot of pain, my legs trapped and I can feel the blood trickling down my face. I definitely have bruises from the seat belt but it's better than going through the windscreen and hitting the road.

My throat closed up. I don't have it in me to scream, I don't have it in me to fight.

What use is it anymore?

My eyelids became heavy and I gave up protesting and just allowed the darkness to consume me......

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*Luke's POV*

I just got back from an Alpha meeting. I was meant to introduce Alex as my Luna this week but obviously things didn't go to plan.

I would still have my Mate, my pack would know they have a Luna if I had reacted quicker or moved out of the way or just stayed with Alex the entire night. In that red dress, she was smoking hot? No she was beautiful.

It's just a load of if's and buts. It's not meant to happen like this. I messed up but she disappeared. I know I hurt her but I don't want anyone else but her. I didn't even get a chance to tell her my side of the story but from what she saw no wonder she didn't want to listen.

She's not a wolf. The bond isn't as strong for her. She's insecure and doesn't understand that whatever she feels........or felt is only a fraction of what I feel towards her. I want to piece her back together, I know she'll still be cracked but hopefully time will heal the wounds.

No matter what happened in the past she will always be perfect to me.

The first few days I was acting out. I could feel her pain, every time she cried was like another stab in the chest. I was just numb. I wanted to feel something, anything. I wanted to take her pain away. The boys stopped me from hunting her down and never letting her go.

When I was away, I had Zach look after the pack and look out for Alex. I made a decision. She and I have both had time to cool off and collect our thoughts. I'm going to find her and win her back.

I know it's not going to be easy. This is Alex for god sake. She's anything but easy. Good thing I like a challenge and love her.

I let her go the first time but that's not going to happen again. I'm not going to just stand by. I'm going to make her feel like my princess, i'm going to make her feel love for the first time in her life. I know it's in there. It's in her eyes, I just need to get it out of her.

I went to bed with my mind made up.

I'm in the middle of a meadow, it's dark and all I can see is the moon reflecting off of a pool of water. I walk over and look at my reflection. It's not me but my wolf. Suddenly I see Alex appear, she's in her red dress with tear stained cheeks. Just like the day she left.

She softly began to speak but I only caught parts of it.

"Why would you do this to yourself?.........I knew I would never walk out of this with my heart intact..........so thank you in a weird way............the pack needs to come before me, before us..........goodbye Luke"

I turned around but she wasn't there. I could see her red dress amongst the bushes and I chased it as her voice got quieter and quieter.

My eyes flew open. My heart was racing. She's been haunting my dreams for the last month. I noticed something on the end of my bed. It was a note and an old jumper that I gave her to sleep in.

I went into shock. She was here. She was so close and I let her slip through my fingers again. So that means it wasn't a dream.

The roar of an engine woke Damien within me. He hasn't talked to me since Alex left. That engine sounded familiar, yes I know my cars that well. Something that made Alex even more perfect in my eyes, our shared passion for cars.

"Mate, Mate, Mate, Mate. Go get Mate."

Suddenly I was aware that I was surrounded by her scent. I'm like a drug addict trying to overdose.

This just drove me. I saw my window wide open so I ran over and jumped. I didn't care about what would happen to me I just couldn't loose her, not again. I landed like a cat. Oh the Irony.

As I steadied myself I saw the unmistakable vehicle that belonged to my princess. It's a one of a kind original so it's easy to spot.

I turned into my wolf form and ran after her. My paws pounding against the ground as I pushed myself to go faster.

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I'm a few feet behind her. I'm not 100% sure on exactly what i'm going to do but I'll figure that out when it comes to it.

Out of nowhere Lightening struck. Her car swerved. I dug my heels into the ground and held my breath.

She regained control. Damn right. She knows what she's doing.

My relief was short lived as the back of the car swerved. It toppled and I could here her scream. I had to watch the car flip and bounce off the road. Imagines running through my head of what was happening to her inside the car or what she was thinking. When the car came to a stop I ran towards it. The sight was something else. Her car was in shit. I know that's the only thing she'll care about.

I then noticed her lifeless body laying limp in the driver's seat. Her once flawless skin pale and smeared with blood. Her hair is matted and her clothes torn. I strained to get any sign that she was still breathing. Her chest wasn't moving. Her pulse weak and heart rate slow.

I used my paw to break the last of the glass. I stuck my nose in and nuzzled into her neck. This was to calm Damien down, and to give me a sense of comfort. The smell of bloody was overpowering but that didn't stop the smell of Strawberries and Vanilla.

I used my jaw to crush the seat belt plug which released her from the cage she was trapped in. She slumped forward and I dragged her out by her collar.

Within seconds Zach, Aaron, Charles, Daniel and Michael our pack doctor turned up. Everything went by in a blur. I don't know if it was the panic, protectiveness, lack of sleep, food or dehydration but I can't remember what happened. I started seeing black spots but I kept shaking it off because Alex was in my arms and I couldn't no I wouldn't let anything happen to her.

When we got to the house we were separated. I growled and lunged for her. Michael looked me dead in the eyes.

"Look at the state of you. You are in no condition to protect yourself let alone a pack or mate." This had me growling more as I bared my canines.

"You can barely stand. You are no use to her like this, and it will just upset her if she sees you." Her words came flooding back. I stopped resisting.

"You need to go, eat and you can sleep on the chair in the same room as her ok?"

I looked at him and then at her. I just nodded and was lead away by Zach and Aaron.

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A sandwich was put on a plate in front of me after I tried to sleep but I couldn't. I couldn't sleep knowing that she's in the next room and not in my arms. Not knowing if she's ok or what's going on. Michael refuses to tell my anything.

It was silently. No one dared talk after my outburst earlier. The door slamming caught our attention. Bonnie came running in.

"Tell me it's not true. Tell me. First she's gone then she came back and we spend the day together for my birthday and then she was just going to leave but she was in a car crash." Aaron just took her out.

"What did Bonnie mean when she said that she came back?" Zach looked nervous.

"She's uh the trainer I employed."

Before I could say anything Michael emerged and called me.

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Author's Note :

Luke's POV what do you think?

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