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Yokozawa peeked into Hiyoriâs darkened room, creeping close to her bedside by the light streaming in from the hallway. Turning on the light near her pillow with a soft click, he carefully examined her pallor; her cheeks that had been flushed darkly had once again returned to their usual pale pink, and she looked leagues healthier than she had. Even her breathing now as she slept, previously labored and wheezing, had calmed compared to her state earlier that afternoon. From the looks of things, it was clear sheâd at last recovered, and Yokozawa felt a wave of relief wash over him.
He gently peeled away the cooling sheet from her forehead and tugged the futon, which had begun to slide off her body, up around her shoulders. Sorata, whoâd been curled up at the foot of the bed, rose to his feet to make his own inspection.
âSheâs sleeping well now, so donât you dare wake her up.â Apparently sheâd walked home in a sudden shower that had struck on Friday afternoon and wound up catching a summer cold. Summer this year had been absolutely sweltering, but Hiyo hadnât seemed affected in the leastâand yet as soon as summer vacation let up, it was as if all of the exhaustion that had been building up inside of her hit her in one fell swoop.
Heâd heard that sheâd taken with fever fairly often when she was little, but this was the first time Yokozawa had ever seen her laid up in bed like this since heâd started coming by the Kirishimasâ apartment. Heâd been out of his mind with worry, but the doctor had assured him that if they just made sure she got plenty of proper nutrition and rest, sheâd be good as new in no time.
Her school was going to be holding an outdoors session later on at the end of the month, and sheâd been supposed to spend the night that evening with some friends from the same classroom group to practice preparing the curry they were going to cook during the outdoors session, but it had now been rescheduled for the next weekend. Hiyori had been over the moon with excitement and seemed heartbroken at not being able to spend the night, but she needed to recoup her strength first. If she pushed herself too hard and wound up not being able to attend the outdoors session altogether, that wouldâve been just intolerable.
âSorataâdonât sit there, youâre crushing her.â The cat had settled his paws against her shoulder to peer down into her face. Sorata had originally been his own pet, but after having the Kirishimas look after him when he wasnât feeling well, the cat had wound up making this place his new home. Yokozawa had hesitated to drag Sorata back to his own place, seeing how well he and Hiyori were getting on, and before he knew it, Sorata living here had become almost a given.
It helped that Kirishima and Hiyori both had assured him that it was fine for Sorata to stay here forever, even, fawning over the catâand Sorata had to be enjoying himself more in his new abode, no longer left alone for long periods of time as he had been at Yokozawaâs place.
However, he couldnât let the animal bother Hiyori now that her condition had finally settled, and he scooped Sorata into his arms to carry him back into the living roomâat which point Hiyori sensed him and opened her eyes. âOniichanâ¦?â
âAh, sorryâguess I woke you up. Was I too loud?â
She shook her head slowly, eyes reflecting her just-woken state. âNo⦠I think itâs cause I was thirsty.â She wasnât coughing anymore, but her throat did sound a bit scratchy.
âThen how about a drink? Can you lift yourself up?â
âYeah.â Sorata, having been set back down on the bed by Yokozawa, once again took his place at Hiyoriâs side, and Yokozawa took his own seat in a chair beside the bed, helping Hiyori sit up.
âAll right, now take your time drinking.â
âThanks.â He passed a mild sports drink to Hiyori after sheâd arranged herself in a sitting position. She must have been parched indeed, as the moment the straw touched her lips, she downed half the contents in a single gulp.
She liked to call him Oniichan, but they were by no means blood-related siblings as the term suggested; she was, in actuality, the daughter of Yokozawaâs partner. Between being invited into her home and treated to dinner, even having her look after his sick catâsomewhere along the way theyâd grown rather close, and he and Sorata both enjoyed an almost familial relationship with her now. âHow are you feeling?â
âI donât feel bad anymore at least, and my head doesnât hurt now.â Sheâd lost much of her appetite due to the cold leaving her feeling out of sorts, so she hadnât taken in much solid food today at all. Sheâd managed to take a good three bites of the vegetable gruel Yokozawa had prepared, but that was all sheâd seemed able to keep down.
âNot hungry, are you?â
She shook her head gently at his question. âI had some jello earlier, so Iâm not hungry.â Yokozawa now recalled Kirishima mentioning earlier that heâd had her eat some jello when sheâd woken up.
It had become something of a tradition now for Yokozawa to head straight over to the Kirishimasâ apartment every Friday after work, and picking out treats for Hiyori every week was something Yokozawa took great joy in. This week, heâd brought her jello with chunks of real fruit in it from a famous fruit stand; heâd wavered between the jello and roll cakes, but he was glad now to have ultimately gone with the more refreshing of the two.
âHowâs your fever? Do you feel hot?â When he laid his hand gently against her forehead, he could tell her fever had come down quite a bit. At this rate, sheâd be back to as good as new by tomorrow morning.
âNot so much anymore. But your hands are chilly, Oniichanâthey feel good!â
âYou think?â
âHehe, and Sora-chanâs paws are soft and feel good, too,â she chuckled, gently squeezing Sorataâs front paws as he sat atop her lap.
âIâm gonna take your temperature, just to be safe. Do you mind?â He slid the thermometer into her ear and pressed the button, greeted moments later by a soft beeping. â..36.8, huh. Itâs come down quite a bit; at this rate, youâll be good as new by tomorrow, Iâll bet. Youâre probably bored out of your skull laid up in bed like this, but itâs only for a little longer.â
âYessir~â
Yokozawaâs eyes crinkled with mirth, and he patted her head at the polite response. While Hiyori could certainly come off more mature than her age suggested, she also could show a rather childish side at times as well. Perhaps because sheâd been feeling under the weather, today she was being a bit more needy than usual.
ââ¦Hey, Oniichanâwhereâs Dad?â
âHe was in here not too long agoâbut heâs in the bath now. Want me to get him for you?â
âNah; Iâve got you and Sora-chan here, so Iâm fine. Will you stay with me a little longerâ¦?â
Yokozawa felt an unconscious smile twitching at his lips at the way she looked with her eyes turned up at him, leading him to wonder if this feeling was what they meant by the phrase âthe apple of oneâs eyeâ. âDonât you fret; Iâll stay right here until you fall asleep.â
âThank you, OniichanâSora-chan.â
âNow get some rest and get your strength back.â
âOkay.â She settled back down, and Yokozawa pulled the covers up around her again, turning the light down a notch. However, just sitting silently by Hiyoriâs bedside left him feeling a bit bored, and he offered, ââ¦You want me to read you a book?â
ââ¦Oniichan, isnât that something a little more appropriate foryounger children?â
ââ¦Well now that you mention it, I guess so.â When he stopped to think about it, he realized that fifth graders were a bit too old to have books read to them, and he flushed in shame as Hiyori snickered softly at him. Hiyori was the only girl her age that Yokozawa knew, so he often found himself at a loss as to just how to deal with her appropriately.
âMmm, you know, on second thought, maybe I do want you to read me something. Will you read me a picture book, Oniichan?â she prodded, teasing obvious in her tone; it seemed she hadnât missed his embarrassment from her earlier pointing out of the inappropriateness of his suggestion.
âDonât tease your elders.â If she was feeling well enough to joke around like this, though, it suggested she was doing quite a bit better indeed. âI wonât read you any booksâbut Iâll make you anything you you want to eat tomorrow. Got any requests?â
âHmm, theeeenâ¦pudding! I want to try that one we saw on TV the other day!â
âThe other day?â He rifled through his memories at her description. âOhâthe one with apple slices in it?â If he recalled correctly, it had been a baked pudding stuffed with caramelized apples. If he checked the programâs website, he could probably find the recipe, and he began pondering whether or not he could manage it with the ingredients on-hand in the apartment.
âYouâ¦think itâll be too hard to make?â
âHmm, I think Iâll manage somehow. But I better not hear a peep of complaint out of you even if it tastes like crap, got it?â
âBut everything you make is delicious!â
âIf you say so.â
âThe hamburg steak you made before was really good too!â
âThatâs because you helped out with itâyou kneaded the meat and put together the sauce, too, remember?â All Yokozawa had done was slice up the onions and tend to the parts of the recipe that required working the stove; heâd mostly only been watching from the sidelines.
âLetâs cook again together, âkay?â Her words took on a slight lisp now, probably because she was getting tired, and her heavy blinking made it seem as if her lids could slide shut at any moment. Her speech trailed off, and a short while later, the room was filled with the sounds of her quiet breathing.
ââ¦Night,â he offered softly, rearranging the covers once more. Recognizing that having Sorata by her side would help keep her from feeling lonely when she woke, he gave up trying to remove the cat from the room. âTake care of her, will ya?â
He silently pushed himself up, being careful not to make a sound, and exited the room. As he stepped out into the hall, he found that Kirishima had come to check up on his daughter. Yokozawa had encouraged him to relax while taking his bath, but it seemed heâd only jumped in and quickly gotten out. âHow is she?â
âHer feverâs gone down, and sheâs feeling much better. She just went to sleep, though, so keep it down.â
âI seeâ¦â He peeked in through the crack in the door to check her features before quietly closing it again. This was Kirishima Zen, acting Editor-in-Chief of Marukawa Shotenâs monthly magazineJapun. He was the leading hit-maker in the entire company, well-respected by all his subordinates. In private, though, he was a doting father to his daughter, and despite losing his wife to illness some years before, heâd raised Hiyori into a fine girl. âStill, itâs been years since she got a feverâreally caught me off guard.â
âReally? You seemed perfectly even-keeled to me.â
âWell I can hardly let myself go to pieces in front of Hiyo. Iâm just glad it was only a coldâsome people can catch the flu in summer, after all.â The small mercy with the whole affair had been the fact that sheâd fallen ill over the weekend; thanks to that, theyâd been able to nurse her back to health without any distractions, at her side constantly. âThanks, really. For everything. It really helped, having you here. I probably couldnât have handled it all on my own.â
âJust returning the favor; you helped me out back then with Sorata, remember?â Yokozawa was certain that even if he hadnât been there, Kirishima could have always sought help from his own parents, who lived just around the corner; butâ¦it still filled him with a swell of happiness knowing heâd been the one Kirishima depended upon.
âYeah, butâ¦still, thanks.â
ââ¦Well, how long are we gonna stand around here for? We donât want Hiyo waking up.â He knew he should have just offered ayouâre welcome, but being shown such honest gratitude was somehow strangely embarrassing. He could feel Kirishima smiling at him from behind, but knew that if he turned around to confirm as such, heâd reveal himself in his own expression, and therefore kept his back to the guy, heading straight for the kitchen.
It had been one stormy night that had so suddenly brought together Kirishima and Yokozawa, whoâd never before traded more than a few words outside of meetings. Heartbroken and desperate for some outlet for the emotions pent up within him, Yokozawa had tried to lose himself in bottles of booze when Kirishima had approached him. Despite rarely sharing more than the occasional greeting at the office, Kirishima had forced the drunk Yokozawa to grant him a seat beside him and proven a rather irritating conversation partnerâand when Yokozawa had regained his senses, heâd found himself sharing a hotel room with the man. Heâd been shocked enough to find himself sleeping in the nudeâbut his heart had almost stopped in his chest when Kirishima had stepped out of the bathroom, fresh from the shower.
Since then, theyâd been through more than a few adventuresâbut perhaps the most surprising of all had been finding himself starting a relationship with Kirishima. Truthfully, it was still kind of hard to believe that heâd find himself so intimately involved with someone heâd previously almost never interacted with in the office.
Rest assured, though, that this sense of disbelief was not out of some sense of unease in their feelings for each other or any sort of mistrustâit was simplyâ¦that it made him think sometimes that this whole situation was like something out of a dream, and Yokozawaâs inability to shake that feeling was likely because he was just so damn happy right now.
His time spent at Kirishimaâs place was laid back and enjoyable; his only daughter, likely at a difficult age herself, had taken to him quite fondly, and they treated him like a member of their own family. It was truly a dreamy life.
And perhaps that was why he still occasionally found himself being caught off guard by Kirishimaâs words and actions; this kind of life had become normal, expected to him now, perhaps best described as something of a âwindfallâ, a stroke of luck.
He tugged open the refrigerator door, checking whether or not they had the ingredients for the pudding Hiyori had requested, when he felt someone draw up close behind him, refusing to step away to leave him any room and rousing feelings of irritation. âYou really didnât have to follow me all the way in here, you know.â
âI just came to get a drink, thatâs all; what, are you that sensitive to my presence?â
âHâhell no.â
âYeah right.â A knowing leer spreading over his handsome features, Kirishima brushed past Yokozawa to reach into the fridge and retrieve a bottle of oolong tea. The kitchen itself was actually pretty big, but with two men pushing 180 cm in height standing next to one another in it, the space felt kind of cramped. âWhatâre you doing?â
âHiyo said she wanted to eat some pudding, so I came to check the ingredients.â
âYour puddingâs her favorite food now, you know.â
âPudding is pretty much any kidâs favorite food. She said she wanted some with apple slices in it; are there any left?â
âPlenty; I actually tried peeling one myself earlier, but geezâI suck at it; hardly any was left when I finished.â
âOiâwhat the hell were you thinking? What if youâd hurt yourself?â The guy could barely wield a knife properly; he had to be out of his mind. He really wished Kirishima would try things like that where he could monitor him.
âOh? Worrying over me?â His lips quirked into an amused smile, leaving Yokozawa to realize his error in phrasing.
âHell noâif you fuck up your hand, itâs gonna come back to bite me in the office, though. The sales force is whoâll have to pick up the slack for you not pushing out books at a proper pace!â
âClassic tsundere response, right there.â The sight of Kirishimaâs shoulders shaking with repressed laughter sparked Yokozawaâs irritation further.
âThâthatâs not what Iâ¦â
âAll right, all rightâIâll cut you a break. Soâwhatâre your plans for tomorrow?â
Having Kirishima apply any interpretation he damn well pleased to Yokozawaâs words left him with a bit of indigestion, but he knew full well there was no way he could win against the guy like this. Heâd learned well over the past six months or so that it was best not to join any fight he knew he couldnât hope to win to begin with. âNothing in particular; with Hiyo like that, itâs probably best we donât go out shopping.â Theyâd discussed heading out on Sunday to pick up everything she would need for the outdoors session, but it wasnât a very good idea to push their luck when sheâd just recovered from an illness.
Weekends with no plans in particular were by and large spent at the Kirishimasâ place these days. Sometimes they went out as a trio, and other times Hiyori would go off to play with friends and the pair would head out shopping on their own; still other times, they would simply sit around the house all day.
âTrue; canât have her cold coming back, after all. Might be a good excuse to clear out the DVR, then.â
âShe didnât really eat much of anything today, so Iâll have to make sure I prepare something nice and nutritious. What about you? Anything you wanna eat? Which reminds me, Iâm starving⦠Maybe Iâll make a late-night snack.â
Yokozawa had made vegetable gruel earlier for Hiyori, who hadnât had much of an appetite, and he and Kirishima had enjoyed that for dinnerâbut as expected, it just hadnât been enough to satisfy completely.
âAs a matter of factâ¦there is something I want. But Iâm gonna hold back for now.â
âWhy the hell would you do that? Whatâworried about your waistline?â He recalled here that Kirishima had been grumbling a few days earlier about gaining too much weight, and while Yokozawa couldnât tell where heâd put on any pounds, if anywhere, he supposed Kirishima was at an age where that kind of thing bothered him.
ââ¦God you are really thick,â Kirishima murmured, a sigh laced in his words. âYouâre not playing dumb on purpose, are you?â
Yokozawaâs brows drew together at the insinuation. âPlaying dumb about what?â
ââ¦You seriously donât get what Iâm saying?â
âSaying about what, dammit?â he pressed again, irritation rising when Kirishima refused to give him a straight answer.
âIâm talking about you, idiot.â
âMe?â He couldnât connect this response with the initial question in any way, and he raked his gaze over Kirishima, confusion evident on his features.
ââ¦If still donât get it now, then I guess that means youâre really not playing the adorable airhead, huh? How about I put it this way: I want you.â
ââ¦â¦â¦?!â Yokozawaâs heart took a direct hit from the words dropped like a bomb before him. Reflecting back on their conversation, Kirishimaâs innuendo had been far from subtleâand Yokozawa couldnât negate the fact that he was, indeed, quite thick.
âIâd really love for you to start being able to read between the lines a little better⦠Youâre ruining my strategy here.â
âYouâ¦donât need any stupid strategy.â
âIs that your way of saying âjust come and get meâ, then?â
âYou know thatâs not what I mâhng.â Kirishima took him by the chin and stroked a thumb over his lips suggestively. A shudder jolted up his spine, and Yokozawa took a leap backwards.
âGeez, you donât have to react like thatâIâm not gonna just jump you.â With a flirtatious rake of his gaze over Yokozawa, he downed the rest of his oolong tea in one gulp before sauntering out of the kitchen.
âWhaâ¦â Yokozawa felt a flash of irritation rise up withinâwhat was with that attitude after having the nerve to rile someone up the way he had?âbut he knew if he protested the departure in any way, heâd just be fueling Kirishimaâs fire. Besides, with Hiyori laid up in bed with a fever, they couldnât afford to disturb her.
He could still feel Kirishimaâs fingers on his lipsâbut before he let himself get swept away by memories of his kisses, he shook his head fiercely to disperse the thoughts. He felt a familiar heat threatening to rise from inside himself, but he forced himself to ignore it and instead dove into preparing Hiyoriâs pudding.
ââ¦Tsk,â Yokozawa tutted in irritation at the umpteenth typo heâd made that day. The state heâd been in since the beginning of the week was starting to affect his work now, but despite understanding this, heâd found great difficulty in changing his attitude.
He knew fully well why he was feeling this way; he didnât want to admit itâ¦but it was all because he hadnât gotten to spend any time alone with Kirishima in the past week. On top of their mutually hectic schedules, Kirishima had been spirited away out of town for some anime/manga-related event over the weekend, and then Yokozawa had been called to attend an autograph event on the following Mondayâs holiday, leaving the pair just passing each other on their days off. Add to that the fact that he hadnât gotten to see much of Hiyori or Sorata either, and he just simply hadnât had time to sit down and relax.
Heâd thought they might perhaps at least be able to have lunch together, sending off a text message that morning suggesting as such, but apparently today marked the end of the cycle, and Kirishima had responded that he couldnât spare the time to leave the office.
âYokozawa-sanâdo you have a moment?â Henmi called out, interrupting his sighing to himself, and after closing the window displaying the proposal that just wasnât going anywhere right now, he slipped back into âwork superiorâ mode.
âWhat is it?â
âThe sample promotional materials for the next campaign came in; they actually look quite nice!â
âYeah; these are bound to stand out in stores.â
âIndeed! ThenâIâll take these up to the editing floor!â
âThanks. Ahâwait, no. Iâve got an errand I need to run up there, so Iâll just take care of the delivery while Iâm at it.â
âHuh? Are you sure?â Henmi squawked in surprise at Yokozawaâs offer. He could hardly be blamed; Yokozawa generally had Henmi run errands to the editing departments to avoid accidentally running into Kirishima around the office, after all.
âI need to discuss something with themâand they helped us out before by asking one of their mangaka to draft an illustration for the campaign, so Iâd better give my thanks, too.â Having an excuse like this would keep unnecessary questions from popping up when he dropped in to check things out.
âUnderstood. Ohâthen when you get back, would you mind looking over my project proposal?â
âSure. It shouldnât take long, so Iâll be back soon.â He snatched up the envelope with the promotional materials and left the sales floor, stepping onto the elevator and heading up to the fifth floorâtheJapun editing division. He peeked into their area from the hallway, judging the condition as best he could.
ââ¦â¦â¦â
The place was more sluggish and stagnant than heâd imagined, an oppressive atmosphere permeating everything in sight, and he froze in place before stepping one toe into the area. Kirishima had been muttering about how things were going particularly roughly this cycle, and he now recalled that the guy had seemed more frustrated than usual. Kirishima hardly ever wore a sour expression around the office, but heâd been decidedly tense todayâperhaps because of the general atmosphere of the editing department being in the sad state it was.
All of the editors seemed to be on deathâs doorstep, leaving Yokozawa to rethink his decision to visit and consider dropping by some other time. Just as heâd turned on his heel to head back down to the sales department, though, Kirishimaâs head shot upâ
â!!â
âand their eyes locked, setting an expression of agitation on Yokozawaâs features. He grit his teeth in frustration as he realized heâd just handed Kirishima a golden opportunity for teasing. Heâd been relatively adept at maintaining a poker face around the office lately, but unexpected blows like this still did him in.
Kirishima shot to his feet, approaching in a ghastly stateâbut when Yokozawa took a hesitant step back at the intensity of his attention, Kirishima grabbed his arm and ruined any plan of escape. âPerfect timing, Yokozawa.â
âWhaâ¦t?â He blinked several times in succession at the statement, struggling to wrap his head around the words.
Ignoring the altogether confused Yokozawa for a moment, Kirishima offhandedly called out to the nearby Katou, âIâm stepping out for a moment,â and the pair departed the editing floor.
With his arm still tight in Kirishimaâs grip, Yokozawa found himself dragged out into the hallway, still unsure as to what the guy had meant by perfect timing. If there was something heâd needed Yokozawa to check, then why leave the editing department? Even if it were something more akin to a âdiscussionâ, all they needed to do was head to the meeting space available on every floor. âWhatâs the big idea?â
âJust shut up and follow me.â He maintained his grip on Yokozawaâs arm, heading down the hall, and his long legs quickly had them sprinting up a staircase.
Yokozawaâs legs nearly buckled underneath him at being jerked along at such an awkward angle, but he shortly found himself being shuttled into an empty meeting room. âGeez, what the hell are you doingâ?!â Kirishima ignored his question, instead silently locking the door behind them before turning a dark expression on Yokozawa. âKiâ¦Kirishimaâ¦-sanâ¦?â The grave expression suggested theyâd fucked up something yet again, and Yokozawaâs chest clenched at the possibility of what lay ahead. âWas there another issue withââ he started, but his words were quickly stopped with a kiss as his lips were devoured greedily without even the grace of a breath granted.
Yokozawaâs mind went blank at the unexpected action, and when he finally snapped back to his senses after a few beats, he found a tight grip around his hips. âNnâ¦hnmâ!â He thumped his fist along Kirishimaâs back in protest, but the kiss only deepened in response. A tongue slipped through his lips to make a sweep of his mouth, and the slick sounds of their kissing and their labored breathing quickly roused a heat within him whether he liked it or not. âHnnâ¦nnâ¦â
He fiercely clamped down with the last bits of his good senses on the part of him that desperately wanted to give in to the momentâthis was an office meeting room. With the door locked as it was, hardly anyone was likely to barge inâbut there was still a slim possibility. More so, though, there was the fact that they were on the clock, and it was unforgivable for working adults to engage in this sort of act on company time.
However, while Yokozawa wouldâve liked to have given Kirishima a piece of his mind on such mattersâthe lips he needed to do so were otherwise engaged at the moment. Just as he was considering biting the guyâs tongue to get him to let go, though, Kirishima finally released him from the kiss, perhaps sensing himself in some mortal danger.
âYouâ¦!â
âYou have no idea how fucking glad I am to see you. I was seriously going out of my mind, I was so damn horny,â Kirishima cut in, his words lacking any grace and stalling Yokozawa in his gasping, wheezing attempt to chew him out.
ââ¦Huh?â
âI never thought Iâd get blue-balled for three whole weeks. Itâs beentorture.â
âWhat theâyouâre not trying to tell me this is all you dragged me in here for, are you?â
âYeah, why?â
âWhere the hell do you think we are?â
âA meeting room at work. And I made sure to choose one with thick walls, so donât you fret.â
âThen practice a little self-restraint since you seem to understand where this is!â Maybe a few screws had come loose from the guyâs head in the wake of the destruction wrought by the end of the cycle.
âNo can doâif I donât get a little pick-me-up right this instant, thereâs no way Iâm gonna make it through tonight.â He slipped a finger into the knot holding Yokozawaâs necktie in place, tugging it down insistently, and before Yokozawa even realized it, the guy had gotten two of his shirt buttons unsnapped and laid his teeth along the strip of bared neck. âNghâdonâtâ¦bite there, dammit!â
âItâs fine; no oneâll notice so long as you keep your tie tight.â
âThatâs not the issueââ He shuffled backwards in retreat, legs eventually bumping against the edge of a desk, and with nowhere left to run, he started to settle his weight on top of the desk.
Kirishima hadnât once stopped his roaming hands while quibbling with Yokozawa, who still couldnât divine just how serious or not the guy was being, and continued to nip at Yokozawaâs nape. The sensation of Kirishimaâs fingers sliding along his spine seeped down through the layers of his suit, and the hands soon dipped down to his hips, slipping under the light suit jacket he wore and brushing against the muscles of his lower back. âCutâ¦itâ¦nghâ¦â
Using a knee to force Yokozawaâs legs apart, Kirishima turned his attentions to his groin now, using his free hand to pinch at a nipple, twisting it cloth and all. Yokozawaâs brows drew together at the faint painâhis breathing was growing labored now, and conscious thought was starting to fade away. He tried to avert his attention from the actions being wrought upon his body, but it was futile.
âI saidâ¦cut itâ¦ngh, out!â Summoning the last of his strength, he shoved Kirishima away with all the might he could musterâif this went on for even a moment more, there would be no turning back. He could already sense a buzzing throbbing deep within his core, and his groin was begging for more attention. âJustâ¦so weâre clear, Iâll ask once more: You do realize weâre at work and are on the clockright now, right?â He made sure to phrase his question clearly, as if reprimanding a childâbut Kirishima only responded with a roll of his eyes and a forced sigh.
âGod, you really are way too stiff sometimes.â
âNo, itâs just your brain thatâs too soft!â he snapped, correcting the obviously peeved Kirishima. He needed the guy to understand just who was the one behaving ridiculously here.
âI didnât have time for lunch today, so whatâs the harm in taking a break for a few?â
âYou havenât eaten anything all day?â
âWellâone of the girls from the department next to us gave me a chocolate bar.â
âYou really need something more nutritious thanâ¦â Sure, it might do in a pinch for an emergency supply of energy, but there was no way a grown man could make it through the day on a single little chocolate bar for lunch. But busy as he may have been, it still didnât excuse such misconduct in the office.
âWeeeell, if a certain lovely wife would make me a bentou now and then, maybe I could have a delicious, nutritional lunchâ¦â He capped this wish with an innocent glance about the empty room.
ââ¦Oi, are you trying to tell me to make you a boxed lunch?â
âOoh, you caught on! I knew youâd get it!â
âI never said Iâd make shit,â Yokozawa warned Kirishima, who stood there nodding to himself in satisfaction; he couldnât stand having a casual remark mistaken as an offer like that. âWhy the hell should I, anyways? I have to be up before you alreadyâyou trying to tell me you want me to get up even earlier now?â
In the face of Yokozawaâs irritation, Kirishima returned, gravely somber, âWhy donât we wake up together, then? Iâm totally game for helping out if you just point me in the right direction. Ahâwait, waking up early tomorrow might be a bit toughâ¦â
Yokozawa sighed to himself as Kirishima stood there making plans all on his own and pointed out something which had obviously slipped the manâs mind: âYou didnât even read the text I sent you this morning properly, did you? I canât go to your place tonight anyway. I told you in the message that I have a business reception this evening.â
âWhatâs more important to you, then? Workâor me?â
Yokozawaâs irritation flared at the chidishly playful response; he couldnât put up with these suggestive jokes right now. âYou really want to bring that up right now? When youâll probably be stuck here until morning finishing up your cycle?â
âWork and family and my lover are all important to meâplus, itâll make the overtime easier to get through knowing youâre waiting for me at home.â
âYeah, right.â It was useless trying to keep up with this guy, and while Yokozawa cast a frosty glance his way, it seemed to have no effect on Kirishima, who immediately changed tacks and tried a different approach, face brightening.
âAhâthen how about tomorrow? Youâll be there tomorrow for sure, right?â
âTomorrow?â
âWhoâs forgetful now? Hiyoâs going off on her little outdoor school adventure starting tomorrow.â
âOh yeahâ¦â Now he rememberedâtomorrow Hiyori would be gone for three days and two nights on school camping trip. Sheâd completely recovered from her cold two weeks prior, and Yokozawa now recalled that sheâd sent him a text about it that morning. Heâd gotten a bit carried away and made a huge portion of the pudding sheâd asked back then, but sheâd eaten almost the entire thing by herself. When sheâd finished, sheâd worriedly pondered, âI wonder if Iâm gonna get fatâ¦â, but given her build, she could probably stand to put a little more weight on her bones. Plus, Yokozawa had always thought girls looked cuter if they had a bit of roundness to them.
âItâll be the first time weâve had some time alone in a whileâ¦â
ââ¦So what?â
âSo we can be as lovey-dovey as we want.â
âIdiot!â It was hardly language befitting a man his age.
âWhat, you donât wanna be lovey-dovey with me?â
âAre you seriously asking me that with a straight face?â Was he just imagining the headache he felt forming from this exchange? His reflexes just couldnât last going all out against this guy. There reallyhad to be something going on with Kirishima todayâand maybe it spoke to just how much pressure he was under with work right now.
âHey, I find it quite important to ascertain these sorts of things. I wouldnât want to do something you objected to, after all.â
âYeah rightâsays the man who gets off on teasing the shit out of me.â
âItâs your fault for looking so damn cute when youâre pissed.â
âDonât try and push the blame onto me!â
âOoh, I love it when you make that face.â
ââ¦â¦â¦!â Yokozawaâs face exploded into a flush at the words whispered right next to his ear. Try as he might, he was always doomed to failure in situations like this. Heâd do his best to cleverly maneuver through Kirishimaâs childish pranksâbut he always found himself ultimately beaten down by the manâs mature coolness.
âI was crazy lonely without you last weekâ¦â
ââ¦â¦â¦â
âYou were too, werenât you, Takafumi?â
Sometimes silence was consentâand just as Yokozawa braced himself, ready this time to accept Kirishima as his face drew close againâ¦the sound of a cellphone ringing wrent the air.
âDammitâguess our timeâs up. Yes? Kirishima speaking.â He slipped back seamlessly into work-mode, and over the speaker, Yokozawa could hear a voice frantically crying out Kirishima-san, where did you GO?! From the sound of his speech patterns, it was probably Katou.
âI was just about to head back. Give me another minute, geez.â His air made him seem like some cranky soba vendor making excuses for his slow service, and when Yokozawa mouthed silently You liar, Kirishima reached over and pinched his cheek as if ordering him to keep quiet.
âCut that out!â he hissed angrily so as not to be heard over the receiver, slapping at Kirishimaâs hands as he continued his childish teasing. But Kirishima proceeded to poke and prod wherever he could reach despite Yokozawaâs clear indignation, all the while continuing his phone conversation. Despite continually having his hands batted away, Kirishima never ceased his efforts, obviously enjoying Yokozawaâs reactions.
âAhâwell Iâll leave that to you, then. Yeahâthatâs fine. I trust your judgment. All right. Iâll be right there.â
ââ¦â¦â¦!â Yokozawa was nearly at his limit, and he gripped a tight fist around Kirishimaâs wrist when the man reached forward to get one last good cheek-poke in. He squeezed with all his might, and though Kirishimaâs face showed his pain clearly, he still seemed to be enjoying himself.
âGotcha. Get started with it for now.â He cut the call and leered at Yokozawa, who still kept his tight grip on Kirishimaâs wrist. He was running out of ways to react when the guy just seemed to enjoy everything Yokozawa threw at him. âCâmon, itâs nothing to get thatpissed over.â
âIâm not pissed; Iâm shocked. Now put the phone away and get your ass back to the editing floor!â
âGeez, youâre no fun. Try putting yourself in my shoes and thinking about how hard it is for me to leave you right now.â
âDONâT GROPE MY ASS.â He didnât want to deal with that kind of thing at homeâbut he certainly didnât want to be subjected to such sexual harassment at the office either.
âAll right, you win; weâll save the rest for tomorrowâbut youâll need to take care of yourself on your own for now; this is tough for me, too.â
âDonât play the victim!â
âHahaha, all right, all right. Iâm heading out thenâoh, and donât worry. I wonât lurk in the toilets on this floor, so feel free to use them if you need to.â
ââ¦Whatever, justâ¦get going!â Thereâd be no recovering if he ran into anyone in his present state; heâd have to wait it out and hope he cooled off soon. But as he took a deep breathâhe suddenly remembered. ââ¦Ah!â
Heâd completely forgotten to thank Kirishima for his help with the campaign materials and neglected to get him to okay the new adverts.
Recalling how heâd gotten swept up in the moment, he couldnât bring himself to lay all the blame on Kirishima, but when he thought about having to drag himself back up to the editing floor once againâ¦he felt quite depressed.
Yokozawa ducked his head into a bow as he saw off the taxi carrying his client, and after ensuring the car had rounded a corner and was well out of sight, both he and Henmi finally breathed a sigh of relief.
âGood work today.â
âWhew! Today really did a number on me. I never expected him to drink so muchâ¦!â
âAnd here I was praying you wouldnât lose your head with booze.â The client for todayâs business meeting had been quite the alcohol connoisseur, and on top of easily drinking his way through several bottles of wine without batting a lash, the man had gone out of his way to encourage Yokozawa and Henmi to partake as well, forcing them both to drink a bit more than they could feasibly handle.
âI couldnât let myself get tipsy tonight! But to tell the truth, I couldnât even make heads or tails of the taste of the meal itselfâ¦â Their client tonight had been the manager of the main branch of a large chain bookstore Marukawa would be doing business with for the first time. Given that the man would be throwing his full support and cooperation behind the upcoming manga fair for Japun, Yokozawa had invited him out to dinner to express his gratitude as well as pound out details.
âWhatâre your plans now? Care for another drink?â
âAhâno no no, Iâm headed home now. If I drink any more tonight, things might get ugly.â
âThatâs rare coming from you; feeling the summer fatigue already?â Henmi was usually the first to pipe up with a hearty âAbsolutely!â, so he really must have been exhausted today. With all of the drinking parties last week and having to come in to the office for autograph events over the holidays, his fatigue must have been building up for quite some time.
âPerhapsâor maybe Iâm just getting on up there in years!â
âYeah, right. Youâre still young; but I canât have you wrecking your body, so enjoy your rest.â With that, the two parted ways; it was certainly no laughing matter considering what might happen should Henmi be out of commission during such a busy period.
Yokozawa was just as exhausted himself, but he didnât feel like heading straight home just yet. âGuess one more drink wonât hurtâ¦â he muttered to himself, recalling that he was near a bar heâd frequented quite a bit in the past, and he headed for the establishment in question.
âWelcome!â
âOne beer, please.â
Perhaps he was loath to return to his apartment simply because he hated the fact that there was no one there waiting for him. Perhaps he wouldâve been better off not being so damned stubborn and just agreeing to go on ahead to the Kirishimasâ place. But thenâgiven that Kirishima himself would be late coming home, there was a very good chance that his mother was spending the night looking after Hiyori, and while he was on friendly terms with the woman, having met her on several occasions, he couldnât bring himself to saunter into the apartment when the owner himself wasnât even home.
He settled at the counter, nursing the drink heâd ordered and checking his cell phone for any texts that might have arrived recentlyâwhen he caught the sounds of two people arguing just behind him.
âYou donât care about me at all, do you?!â
âJust calm downâthis isnât the kind of place you can make a scene in.â
âYouâre always so damn caught up in what other people think of youâI hate that! So youâre telling me you care more about what a bunch of strangers think than me?â
âThatâs not it at allâIâm just saying, give a bit of thought as to where we are right nowâ¦â
Yokozawa casually glanced over his shoulder at what he took to be a loversâ spatâwhen the woman doused him with the contents of a cup of water sheâd thrown. Sheâd likely been aiming for the man sitting across from her, just behind Yokozawa, but heâd taken the brunt of the blow himself, and now the coat heâd had hanging across the back of his stool was soaked.
âYou should just marry your job if you love it so much!â she spit out with finality, slinging the door open as she stormed out and leaving the entire bar in a spoiled mood.
âIâIâm so sorry for the inconvenienceâ¦â the man apologized awkwardly, whipping out a handkerchief as he began to pat down Yokozawaâs soaked jacket.
âOhâno, itâs nothing. Thisâll dry off soon enough, Iâm sure. Please donât worry about it.â When he glanced up, he felt a sense of familiarity from the manâas if heâd seen him somewhere before, and after picking through his memories, trying to place the face, he finally realized: âAh!â This was Iokawa, the uncle of Hiyoriâs classmate whoâd brought her a birthday present recently.
Iokawaâs expression waxed confused at Yokozawaâs exclamation, but after a moment glancing at Yokozawaâs face, he reacted in much the same manner: âYouâreâ¦the man I met at Kirishima-sanâs place, correct? If I recall, your name wasâ¦â
âYokozawa,â he supplied before the man could struggle to remember.
âRight, rightâYokozawa-san! My apologies; Iâm mortified you had to witness thatâ¦â He seemed even more embarrassed at what had just transpired now that he was faced with someone who knew him. Surely anyone would be in much the same state if an acquaintance had witnessed such a scene.
His interaction with Iokawa now was removed from the severity of his earlier tiff, leaving him much more agreeable now, but they could neither of them shake the heavy gazes of those around them. âUhâ¦would you like to head somewhere else? Your glass seems about empty, anyway.â It was a hastily offered suggestion, but luckily enough, Yokozawaâs own glass was nearing empty itself, and theyâd likely have trouble enjoying a relaxing drink in this establishment now.
âAh, y-yes, you have a point!â Iokawa seemed to have noticed the eyes of the other patrons on him at Yokozawaâs suggestion, and with an apologetic duck of his head to the onlookers, he hastily gathered up his wallet. Perhaps in an effort to make it up to Yokozawa, Iokawa attempted to pay for their drinks together, but Yokozawa refused, clearing his own debt before the two stepped out of the bar.
âI really am sorry for getting you involved in my affairs, Yokozawa-san,â he apologized again, bowing his head and leaving Yokozawa a bit uncomfortable at being apologized to so much over so insignificant a matter.
âThink nothing of it; Iâd already been considering leaving soon, so itâs really not that big a deal.â Heâd only intended to have one drink, so it had been a good excuse to head home.
âWould youâ¦mind if I accompanied you as far as the station?â
âBy all means.â He had no reason to refuse, after all, and it wouldâve been awkward to purposefully split up when they were heading in the same direction. But the fact remained that Yokozawa had caught him in a rather embarrassing private scene, so he wasnât quite sure where to go with the conversation.
âSoâ¦do you go to that bar often, Yokozawa-san?â
âEh? Ahâ¦well, I used to. I havenât dropped by lately, though; tonight was the first time in a while, actually.â
âI seeâthen all the more reason for me to apologize for spoiling a moment youâd surely been enjoying.â
âNo no no, really pleaseâdonât fret over it.â
âIf Iâd know things would erupt like thatâ¦I wouldâve chosen a different shopâ¦â he allowed with a wry smile, muttering to himself that heâd never be able to show himself in that bar again. Yokozawa could think of nothing to say to console the man, so he instead fell silent. ââ¦Iâm sorry, for saying such strange things. I do believe I may be a bit drunk. Iâm sure youâre feeling rather put-out listening to me go on like this.â
âOh, noâthatâs not⦠I mean, I can lend an ear if you need it?â Sometimes it helped talking things out with someone completely removed from the situation, and while Yokozawa would have balked if genuinely begged to offer advice, it was always better to give voice to these feelings rather than keeping them bottled up inside.
âI thoughtâ¦well, that she might react more calmly if we were in a public place. Guess that backfired, huh? Weâd been dating since our school days, but weâve kind of drifted apart since graduating. Then, when I got really busy with work and couldnât make time for herâ¦she cheated on me.â
âWhaâ¦?â If that was the case, then she shouldâve been the one being attacked tonight; Yokozawa couldnât wrap his mind around the logic that had her so mercilessly chewing out Iokawa instead.
âShe said that it was my fault for pouring myself into my job and making her lonely; which, wellâ¦we havenât gotten to see much of each other at all over the past few months, soâ¦â
âBut stillâisnât that kind of ridiculous? Even if you were in the wrong for making her feel lonely, itâs hardly grounds to cheat on you.â Yokozawa knew full well the loneliness that came with not being able to find time to be with your lover; however, that hole in the heart was not one that could be filled by spending time instead with someone else. If sheâd been able to satisfy her needs via adultery, then there had to have been issue with her feelings for her boyfriend to begin with.
ââ¦Youâre a really good person, Yokozawa-san.â
âHuh?â
âWell, this is only our second time ever speaking, and yet youâre being so patient in listening to my problems. Only truly kind folks can do that sort of thing. Most would sooner run away than lend an ear to a guy who just got dumped.â
âIâ¦suppose so.â He couldnât help agreeing, as if they were discussing someone else. Sure, it was human nature to want to avoid getting drawn into annoying situations, but heâd never really given it that much thought until Iokawa pointed it out.
âHahahaâI see you didnât even realize it yourself. But stillâthank you very much. Thanks to you, I think Iâll be able to get back on my feet after this.â
âOh, no, not at all. I said Iâd just listen to your woes, and then I opened my big mouth.â
âNoâIâm truly grateful. Iâm sure Iâll be able to pour myself full-force into my work tomorrow now. Iâm afraid my job will have to be my lover for the foreseeable future,â Iokawa announced indifferently, and while he probably hadnât completely recovered from the evening, it was good that he didnât seem too shaken. The smile he wore may have been forced, but even so, time would heal all wounds.
Uneasy about continuing a discussion of loves lost, Yokozawa groped for some other point of conversation they might share, recalling the day theyâd first met. âThat reminds me, why were you the one to drop by the apartment the other day, Iokawa-san?â
âThe other day? Ah, Hiyori-chanâs birthday, you mean? YeahâI suppose it seemed a bit strange for an uncle to go along with his nephew rather than the parents.â
âI wouldnât necessarily say strange, but I did wonder.â
âWell, I live in the same apartment complex, for one, but I think he was mostly shy about talking to his parents about a girl he likedâheâll be hitting puberty soon, after allâso I offered to hear him out. Heâs an only child, too, so Iâm something like an older brother for him.â
Yokozawa could kind of understand how the kid must have been feeling; having his parents completely and enthusiastically support his efforts would likely only prove embarrassing, but it would be unbearable to be teased for it, too. As such, he might find himself wanting to place his trust in an uncle somewhat removed from the situation.
âHe was planning on going alone originallyâbut got cold feet at the last minute, so I wound up accompanying him.â
âI see⦠So thatâs how it was.â It had been glaringly obvious how nervous the poor kid had been, though Hiyori hadnât seemed aware in the least of his crush. The girl could prove amazingly mature on occasionâbut when it came to matters of romance, she was still very much a child. Granted, Yokozawa wasnât sure he could handle her growing up too quickly, so unfortunately for Iokawa-kun, he hoped she stayed just the way she was.
âBy the way, Yokozawa-sanâare you by any chance employed at Marukawa Shotenâ¦?â
âI amâbut how did youâ¦?â
âOh, no, justâI heard from my nephew that Kirishima-san is the editor-in-chief of Japun, and you introduced yourself as his subordinate when we met the other day, so I wondered if you werenât perhaps an editor maybeâ¦?â
He could see the logic in Iokawaâs train of thought; Kirishima wasnât the type to go about announcing his line of work, but it was hardly strange for parents and guardians to know some level of personal information about others.
âWell, noâactually, Iâm not his subordinate, per se. I work in sales,â he corrected. While such information might invite curiosity as to why two people so removed in age were as close as he and Kirishima seemed in their time off, he couldnât bring himself to keep up the lie.
âOh, really? Iâm actually a salesman for a publishing house myself! Though weâre nowhere near as grand as Marukawa-san, of course.â
âAre you? May I ask who you work with, then?â It was rare that Yokozawa found opportunity to converse with someone else in his line of work, and sheer curiosity pressed the question.
âFujino Books.â
âI seeâso youâre in sales for Fujino Books, then? Iâm a mystery fan myself, so Iâve read quite a few Fujino pieces.â
Fujino Books was a mid-ranked veteran publishing house, vending not only science fiction, mysteries, and foreign literature but also housing a rather impressive library of picture books and childrenâs literature as well. Hiyoriâs own bookshelves were stacked with more than a few Fujino titles.
âWow, Iâm thrilled! Ahâbut of course, I read Marukawa-sanâs pieces, too! Usami-senseiâs recent new release really was a novel idea; I quite enjoyed it!â
âThen thanks very much for your patronage; though Iâm afraid Iâm not in charge of the literature department myself.â
âWhat genre do you deal with, then? Ahâseeing how close you are with Kirishima-san, I suspect it would beâ¦manga?â
âIndeed. I deal with all manner of comics.â
âIâm afraid I donât read too much manga, but Iâve got all the volumes of Za Kan. I can never figure out where the storyâs going to go, so Iâm bowled over every time. I even broke out into tears with one of the recent chapters!â Iokawa may have seemed quiet on the surface, but it seemed he had quite the talkative side to him as well. From the looks of things, the guy would probably flip if he found out that Kirishima was Ijuuin Kyouâs managing editor.
âOhâI realize itâs a bit late for this sort of thing, but could I give you my card?â
âSure, thank youâIâll give you mine as well, if thatâs all right?â Yokozawa never wouldâve thought heâd find himself in a position exchanging business cards on a city street in the middle of the night.
âIâm thrilled to have gotten to meet someone like yourself, Yokozawa-san. I hope we can grab a drink together some timeâ¦? Iâve always wanted to chat with salesmen from other firms.â His words were likely little more than social niceties, but receiving such praise definitely didnât leave Yokozawa with a bad feeling. Most people tended to avoid him altogether, and he was often mistaken for being in a bad mood if he didnât say anything to dispel the misconception. The fact that Iokawa was treating him so nicely on only the second occasion of their meeting was likely due partly to the alcoholâbut also due to Yokozawaâs relationship with Kirishima as well. Such connections tended to make people open up more.
âYes, letâs.â And pulled along by Iokawaâs own smile, Yokozawaâs expression relaxed.
Yokozawa began ticking off items on his internal checklist; heâd finished prepping most of the materials he would need for the following weekâs print-run decision meeting, and the lineup for the upcoming fair was ready to be discussed as well. All that was left was to give everything a thorough re-check and hand it off to his boss for confirmation.
He hadnât had any rounds to make today, so the day had wound up being used for nothing but materials prep. Truthfully, he wasnât all that fond of desk work, but he couldnât exactly avoid it, and after ensuring that heâd put in his necessary hours on the task, he started to tidy up his desk area.
Kirishima had a meeting with an author in the afternoon, apparently, so heâd informed Yokozawa earlier that morning that heâd just head straight home from there once heâd finished. Middle of the week though it may have been, Yokozawa was heading over to Kirishimaâs place this eveningâsince Hiyori would be off on her three-day-two-night school camping trip.
In other words, they were finally going to get their long-awaited time alone together.
Yokozawa hadnât been able to relax since that morningânot because he had his head in the clouds like Kirishima, rest assured, but rather because he was just plain nervous. It would hardly be the first time theyâd been alone in that apartment, and yet having the fact that theyâd finally be alone for the first time in ages underscored so severely set him on edge.
As Yokozawa stood, glancing about to be sure he hadnât forgotten anything, his subordinate Henmi turned to him with surprise. âOhâyouâre heading home already, Yokozawa-san?â
âGot a problem with it?â
âNoânot at all; I simply thought it rare for you to head home at quitting time on a Wednesday⦠Ooh, do you perhaps have a date?â
âIdiotâhardly. Iâm going home because Iâm done with work. Thatâs all.â Flinching would only pique Henmiâs curiosity all the more, and seeing as this was most assuredly not a âdateâ, he wasnât lying.
âThenâ¦that means you donât have a girlfriend right now?â
His brows furrowed at the unexpected point Henmi chose to zero in on. âWhy the hell would you bring that up all of a sudden?â
Henmi explained himself, âWeeeell, I was kind ofâ¦asked to find out, see. Whether or not youâre seeing anyone. Youâve gotten pretty popular lately, you know, Yokozawa-san!â
âWho the hellâs asking that kind of thing?â he turned back on Henmi, easily sidestepping the teasingâbut Henmi refused to respond.
âI canât possibly reveal that, on grounds of privacy!â
âThen Iâm not telling you shit either.â If the person inquiring had their right to privacyâthen so did Yokozawa.
âEeeh?? But I promised to find out without really thinking it throughâplease tell me!â
âWho admits to that kind of idiocy?â
âSoâcan I just go ahead and tell them youâre not seeing anyone?â
At this irresponsible suggestion, Yokozawa deemed it best not to continue the line of conversation with Henmi any further. âSay whatever you like; Iâm heading out. Good work today.â
âWaiâYokozawa-san!!â
Breathing a sigh of relief at having somehow managed to escape Henmiâs interrogation, Yokozawa headed straight for the elevatorâââ¦Hm?ââwhen his cell phone began buzzing in his pocket; it was a text from Kirishima, who was out of the office at the moment.
/Finished my meeting, so Iâm heading on home./
If he was going straight back to the apartment from wherever heâd had the meeting, heâd almost certainly get there before Yokozawa. He punched out a message that he was leaving the office as well and slipped the phone back into his pocket just as the elevator doors opened.
âAh, good work today, Yokozawa-san,â called out the elevatorâs occupantâHatori. Given the envelope he held in his hand, it was clear he at least was not heading home just yet.
âSame to you. Burning the midnight oil again tonight?â
âIndeed; are you off now, Yokozawa-san? Quite early for you.â
âMm, wellâ¦yeah.â He and Hatori were two birds of a feather with regard to their workaholic ways, so neither were often seen leaving work on time. They were both capable sorts, able to do pretty much anything once they put their minds to it, and received a sense of worth from a job-well-done. As such, the time often got away from them while seated at their desks. Kirishima, in turn, always left the office as soon as was humanly possible after finishing his work for the day and hardly ever brought work homeâpartly for Hiyoriâs sake, but also because he didnât like his career eating into his personal life.
ââ¦Did something nice happen?â
âWhâwhat do you mean âsomethingâ? Why would you ask that?â he shot back.
âOhâno, just a feeling I got.â First Henmi had pestered him about a âdateâ, and now this? Was it that obvious from his expressionâ¦? Maybe he ought to check himself over in the mirrorâ¦
âNothing really. Though new release sales are going pretty well this month.â
âIndeed; it sounds like the recent three-day weekend gave us quite a boost. That reminds meâI wanted to thank you for your advice on that matter the other day.â
âOhâno, I should be thanking you. Soâ¦howâs Yoshikawa-sensei doing these days? Her recent new release got some pretty rave reviews, and I hear her serialized piece is doing pretty good.â He glanced at the advertisement papering the walls of the elevator.
âThanks to you, quite well. Though sheâs lagging behind in her schedule, as usualâ¦â Hatoriâs expression went deadpan, and he stared off into space; it seemed he had his hands full with Yoshikawa Chiharu, and Yokozawa had just brought up a touchy subject.
He groped for words, hoping to lighten the mood. âWellâthat just shows how in-demand she is, right? Sounds like sheâs really doing her best, that Yoshikawa-sensei. Itâs a blessing for us in sales, too, that sheâs always so eager to help out with our campaigns. Maybeâ¦you donât have to be so rough on her?â
âOut of the question; if I give her an inch, sheâll take a mile, and if I canât get her to do what she needs to when she needs to do it, sheâll never finish her manuscript.â
âIâ¦I seeâ¦â Heâd heard that Hatori and Yoshikawa were childhood friends, and from his attitude, Hatori struck Yokozawa as more of aguardian than a managing editorâperhaps it was that longstanding relationship that had him reacting that way. While a large part of the reason Yoshikawa-sensei always refused offers of autograph events was because she herself was on the shy side, Yokozawa suspected that Hatori didnât want to show her off all that much either. If greeting the public ran the risk of exhausting her, Hatori had explained, heâd rather just have her focus on finishing her manuscripts on time.
His iron fist with his authors showed just how much importance he placed on their success; he was the type to fight back with all he had, heedless of any damage he might sustain himself, if ever there were anything that might prove unfavorable to his authors.
Back when Emerald had been struggling to get back on its feet, its editors had had to face more than their fair share of tough situations, but all of the difficulties theyâd been through back then were the reason they were the division they were now.
âIf thereâs ever anything we can help with again, please feel free to let me know. Yoshikawaâs more than happy to do whatever she can to be of assistance.â
âIâm glad to hear it. Iâll do my best to sell the shit out of her next book.â
âIâll be counting on it.â
âAll right, Iâm off. Good work today.â They parted ways on reaching the ground floor, and after passing the reception desk, Yokozawa exited the office building. The summer heat was still brutal, but once theyâd reached mid-September, the evenings at least had become rather pleasant. The sun hadnât quite set by this hour, but the breeze brushing over his cheeks was welcome relief, and with a slight spring to his step, Yokozawa headed down the hill.
Yokozawa couldnât help feeling some sort of inability to relax as he walked the familiar roadâone he usually traversed while carrying treats for Hiyoriâempty-handed, and in no time at all, heâd reached his destination. Heâd fired off a text message just in case asking Kirishima if he needed to pick up anything, but all heâd received in response was a terse, /No, just hurry up and get your ass home./
Punching in the passcode heâd been given, he opened the auto lock at the entrance and headed for the elevators. ââ¦I wonder what he intends to do about dinner, thenâ¦â he pondered to himself, just now realizing he was quite famished. Heâd been so concerned with the fact that theyâd be alone together this evening that thoughts of eating hadnât even passed through his mind. But given that he hadnât been instructed to pick up anythingâmaybe Kirishima was making something himself?
He pressed the intercom button, still as yet unable to bring himself to use the spare key heâd been entrusted with, and was immediately greeted by the sound of the bolt being unlatched as the door was shoved open from the inside.
âWelcome home.â
ââ¦Iâm back.â He found it a bit awkward saying this sort of thing after all this time; why was it he had no issues with the greeting when it came to Hiyori and yet couldnât help being overly conscious of everything when faced with Kirishima?
âSoâwant some dinner? Or a bath? Or perhapsâ¦me?â
ââ¦â¦â¦â
Any discomfort or nerves that had been plaguing Yokozawa about the eveningâ¦were completely and utterly dispelled by the purposefully disgustingly cheesy comment.
ââ¦.What? Geez, say something, would you?â
ââ¦Well, Iâm pretty hungryâso I guess itâs dinner, then.â Any over-the-top reaction would only encourage Kirishima, after all. Heâd always assumed that the guy resorted to these types of comments in an effort to rile up Yokozawa, but then again, maybe he just had an affinity for really corny jokes.
âYeah rightâyou obviously mean me, right?â
âHuh?â At this, Kirishima locked the door to the foyer behind Yokozawa, giving his back a soft shove before he could even toe off his shoes.
âCâmon, snap it up.â
âHeyâwhatâre you doing?â He frantically tried to kick off his shoes, knowing he shouldnât wear them inside the house, but his bag and jacket were quickly snatched away from him as he was herded toward Kirishimaâs bedroom. âThe hell kind of a joke isâ¦â
âWhoâs joking?â
âUwahâ!â At the nonchalant response, a hand came up and gave Yokozawa a soft shove to the chest, robbing him of his balance and sending him toppling backward onto the bed. Before he could right himself, though, Kirishima slid onto the mattress and over Yokozawâs body, straddling him in victory. âWâwait, just hold on a secondââ
He knew the guy had been in strange spirits since the previous day, but he hadnât seriously expected him to have Yokozawa on his back in bed within mere moments of stepping through the door.
âJust give up, would you? Youâre not gonna tell me you didnât see this coming, right?â He quickly tugged loose the necktie and then proceeded to unbutton Yokozawaâs dress-shirt; Yokozawa was baffled as to how the guy couldnât manage to peel an apple and yet demonstrated surprising finesse with tasks such as this.
âI told you I was hungry!â
âYeah, and Iâm starving for you. So without further adoâ¦â
âOwwâdonât bite me, dammit!â he snapped as Kirishima grazed his teeth over the neck bared for his appraisal, but Kirishima simply laughed merrily in response.
âYou say that like you donât like itâwhich we know is utter shit. Besides, a little painâs kind of a turn-on, isnât it?â
âEnough with the filthy commentary.â He could very much do without Kirishima making him sound like some sick pervert.
âHeyâdonât look at me; Iâm happy admitting I like it when you do it to me.â
âWhen the hell have I ever bitten you?â
âYouâve never bittenâbut I have felt your nails. You wouldnât believe the work I have to go through to keep Hiyo from seeing the marks.â
âThatâ¦I never meant toâ¦â It wasnât as if heâd been consciously clawing at Kirishima; it was simply that, in the face of so much overwhelming sensation, heâd been known to cling to Kirishimaâs back. Claw marks were merely a byproduct of such pleasure.
âThen I donât mean to do it eitherâitâs just when Iâve got you here in my arms, I canât help myself.â
âNnâ¦.hngâ¦!â His subsequent kiss turned into a rough nip as well, his tongue darting between Yokozawaâs teeth and sweeping about his mouth. Yokozawaâs brows drew into a furrow as their tongues slid together. The paralysis freezing his mind reverberated down his spine, headed for his very center, with Kirishimaâs fingers following down along in its wake.
Stroking Yokozawaâs hip, his fingers slipped down his thighs and eased into the space between, stroking his inner thigh and drawing out a sharp, slight jerk of his body. âAt leastâ¦let me changeâ¦â At this rate, his slacks were going to wrinkleâand he just couldnât stand on some level getting carried away so easily like this. He hardly objected to the act itselfâhe simply didnât like being so one-sidedly teased this way.
But Kirishima was having none of it. âNo way; stripping you of that suitâs part of the fun.â
âWhaâ¦â Before heâd even realized it, all the buttons on his shirt had been undone, and Kirishima whipped off his belt, going straight for the fastener now.
With one hand trying valiantly to keep his underwear from being jerked down along with his pants, Yokozawa fixed a glare on Kirishima. âWhy the fuck am I the only one getting stripped here?â
âWhatâyou wanna see me naked that badly? Kinky~â
âJust shut up and get your clothes off.â Blushing or getting flustered was just inviting Kirishimaâs amusement, so Yokozawa did his utmost to maintain a calm mien.
âThis is good enough, isnât it?â Kirishima stripped off the t-shirt heâd been wearing and tossed it aside haphazardly, immediately yanking Yokozawaâs slacks and underwear off with his free hand in one movement. Suddenly stripped and laid bare without warning, Yokozawa let out a yelp. âCâmonâyouâre young and virile; try showing a little more enthusiasm.â
âWhâwhatâre you grabbing all of a sudden?!â Kirishima had his fingers now wrapped around Yokozawaâs still-limp cock, and Yokozawa swallowed thickly. Not granting him the time to even consider protesting, Kirishima quickly began working the shaft, sending heat pooling into Yokozawaâs center.
âThere you go, thatâs the spiritâ¦â
âNnghâ¦hnâ¦.â Kirishimaâs skillful fingering had little difficulty in exciting Yokozawa, and while he might have wanted, on some level, to tell the guy off, he felt any unnecessary opening of his mouth would instead leak out some embarrassing sound, so he instead grit his teeth and focused on riding out the sensations welling up between his hipsâwhen Kirishima, without warning, curled himself up andâ
â!!â
Yokozawaâs hips jumped when Kirishimaâs tongue touched his tip, his hand still feverishly working the shaft as he lifted it to lave a long stripe from stem to stern on the underside. âYâdonâtâ¦have toâ¦do thâ¦nghâ¦â
âExcept IÂ want to. How many times do I have to remind you?â
âStâ¦oâ¦hnn!â Kirishima eagerly swiped his tongue around the bits he could fit in his mouth, teasing Yokozawaâs balls with his free hand and stabbing the slit with the tip of his tongue from time to time, setting Yokozawaâs hips to trembling with tiny little jumps on each pass.
The warm, inviting wetness wrapped around him left Yokozawa feeling as if his hips were just going to melt away, and he thrust almost painfully into the embrace of Kirishimaâs mouth. âStâ¦oâletâ¦go, Iâmâ¦â
His mind was a roiling mess of shame and pleasure, and he buried his fingers in Kirishimaâs hair, trying to prise him away, but he couldnât muster any strength to do so, and the caresses Kirishima favored him with only grew all the more passionate. Loath to release any sort of embarrassing sound, he grit his teeth with all his might, but nevertheless, sounds he couldnât believe to be his own seeped from his throat. âHnnâ¦ahnâ¦!â
âGo onâjust come already.â With this, he took Yokozawa deep into his mouth and inhaled sharply.
ââ¦â¦Ahnâ¦ngh!â Yokozawaâs vision went white, and unable to clamp down on the urge, he climaxed as a great shudder rippled through his body. He was weak to fellatio in large part because Kirishima drank down his release with such a cool, collected expression, and despite Yokozawaâs continued demands not to do so, he never paid him heed.
Lifting his gaze, he swiped a finger along his slick lips in a gesture so graphic it forced Yokozawa to glance away.
âWhen am I gonna get you used to that, huh?â Kirishima prodded with a chuckle.
âShut up,â he returned, albeit without much bite, his body sluggish from his recent climax and robbing him of the strength to so much as glare at Kirishima. He allowed himself a few long moments to recover his breathing, sprawled out on his backâbut this proved a mistake.
Unprepared as he was, Kirishima snatched off the slacks and underwear still tangled at his feet, even pulling off his socks as he went with quick, precise movements, leaving Yokozawa to catch up to what was happening a few seconds later. âHeyâwait a minuteâ!â
âIs that all you know how to say? Why not change up your lines now and then?â
âWaiââ But his words were cut off as lotion-coated fingers slipped down between his legs, and he swallowed thickly at the slick, cool sensation. Even as he was still working to mentally prepare himself for what was coming next, the fingers pushed inside.
âThat hânghâ¦â
âIt doesnât hurtânot with all this lotion, surely? Or is this your way of begging me to be more gentle with you?â
âFuck no.â He tossed a glare at Kirishima, who smirked down at him, a bottle of lotion in one handâbut it didnât last long. Just as Kirishima had boasted, it didnât hurtâbut it nevertheless feltstrange. He grimaced at the fingers scissoring about inside of him, feeling not so much like a carp on the chopping block as like he was sitting in a dentistâs chair, waiting. âHnghâ¦â
The fingers brushed against him from inside as Kirishima worked him open, preparing this place which wasnât meant to accept intrusion. He fought back the sighs that bubbled up as the fingers slid in and out, and when he unconsciously clenched his teeth tight, he clamped down on the fingers.
Kirishima brought his face near Yokozawaâs whispering softly, words like a faint breath, âItâs all right; just relaxâ¦â
âNnâ¦â He made every effort to distract himself from the fingers and their probing, but it simply wasnât working. ââMâ¦fine, justâ¦go aheadâ¦â Playing fine was simply a cover for his discomfort; heâd rather be ridden rough a thousand times over than coddled like thisâat least that way, he could lose the lingering reason still clinging to his consciousness.
Kirishima slipped his fingers free and pressed Yokozawaâs legs open, and his hip joints shortly mounted a protest at the backs of his knees being pressed forward and down, bending him practically in half. âOwâdammit, theyâre not gonna open any wider!â
âYâknow, Iâve thought this before, but: youâre really stiff.â
âShut up⦠Thisâs hardly the time to bring that up.â
âYou can always just say âI want you nowâ when youâre trying to butter me up, you know.â
âWhaâwho the hell wouldââ But he didnât get a chance to finish his rebuttal, breath catching in his throat as Kirishima pressed the tip of his cock, covered in a thin condom, inside, easing forward deeper and deeper and sending sparks flashing just before Yokozawaâs eyes.
ââ¦Nnaahâ¦ngh!â Kirishima braced his hands against Yokozawaâs hips, lifting them up with all he had.
No matter how many times he experienced it, the sensation of something hard pressing its way into Yokozawaâs body would nevernot feel strangeâand knowing how it would lead to pleasure simply made the human body all the more fascinating in his eyes.
He didnât dislike being able to share this experience with Kirishima in the leastâbut he couldnât help the faint resistance that still welled up within him whenever he found himself pressed down, legs splayed wide. Maybe it was because he simply found the awkward, defenseless position utterly humiliating. He only allowed it because it was Kirishimaâhe wasnât bottoming here because he wanted to, he didnât want to be fucked like this. It was simply that he could find no reason to deny Kirishima as he so fervently sought Yokozawa this way.
Or maybe thinking up excuses like that in the middle of such an act was the only way he could find refuge from facing reality. He struggled not to lose himself in the urge to just die from shame, even as he was assaulted with pleasureâhow much longer would it take before he was able to accept this as normal?
âHnghâ¦â
âOpen your eyes. Look at me.â
âDonâtâ¦tell me what toâ¦do.â
âLook at me, Takafumi.â
âShâ¦ut upâ¦â He struggled to lift his lids, gulping down a haggard breath and locking eyes with Kirishima as he stared backâand in that instant, he couldnât have torn his gaze away if heâd wanted to.
âThere you goâ¦â
âDonât have toâ¦sound so damnâ¦cockyâahngh!â His spine twisted up on a particularly deep thrust and his fingers buried themselves in the sheets with startling strength. The thrusts came more punishingly now, sealing off all protest and leaving Yokozawa feeling as if heâd just been drawn into a storm.
The thrusts began to push him further up on the bed, but the hands at his hips dug in, yanking him forward again as Kirishima sought deeper and deeper penetration, and with each pass, he found himself clamping down on the shaft piercing him.
âAahâah!â His voice broke, breath ragged. Heâd long since lost track of how often heâd wished to be free, once back to himself, of any memories of what he did in the throes of passion. Unfortunately, though, the reality was that he could recall such moments as vividly as if reliving them in a dream.
âI keepâ¦telling youâ¦let me hear that voice of yours even more.â
âHaaâ¦ah! Nggah!â Jolted and juddering as he was in the wake of the onslaught, Yokozawa found himself at last slipping his arms around Kirishimaâs back, and clutching his shoulders as he did brought them into an embrace. The lips that pressed kisses to his temple and nape burned almost.
Kirishima softly whispered his name against his earâand the impact sent him over the edge, the urges heâd been fighting finally bursting free and releasing his passion in a brilliant explosion. âââââ¦!!â
Kirishima found his own release in nearly the same instant, peakingâand then collapsing atop Yokozawa in an inelegant heap as he released the breath heâd been holding, their labored breathing mingling between them both.
As the fever slowly seeped from his body, the reason that had all but abandoned him moments before gradually began to take shape again, filling Yokozawa with shame at their state.
ââ¦Just, get the hell off me; youâre heavy.â
âCâmon, itâs not that bad.â
âI feel like Iâm gonna get crushed. Getting a little porky, are we?â
âHeyâjust what part of me is porky? If weâre gonna point out each otherâs flaws, I could mention that youâre putting on a little extra weight right around hereââ
âDonât pinch me!â he snapped, slapping away the hand that had reached out to grab a bit of the flesh around Yokozawaâs waist. He was quite sure he hadnât gained any weight, but he was a bit sensitive about losing definition.
âI know just whatâs caused it, too: not enough exercise.â
ââ¦You just wanted to say that; now get off.â
âHuh? Surely you must be jokingâyou donât seriously think weâre done here, do you?â
âWhâbut, we both have work in the morning!â Surely Kirishima had to be the one joking, suggesting something like that with such a serious mienâit was the middle of the week, so he really needed Kirishima to do a bit of long-term consideration here.
âYouâre young; have some balls. Itâs too soon for you to wimp out on me now.â
âDonât try to suggest this is just a matter of being up to it or not!â
âThen letâs discuss this leisurelyâlater. Weâve got a long night ahead of us.â
âThereâs nothing to discuss!â
âLook on the bright sideâitâll be a great opportunity to get in that exercise youâve been lacking.â
ââ¦â¦!â But naturally, Yokozawaâs protests fell on deaf ears, and the night stretched onâ¦
âUgh, Iâm starvingâ¦â
âGee, I wonder whose fault that is.â Yokozawaâs current state of utter exhaustion could be entirely chalked up to the fact that heâd been dragged straight into the bedroom on arriving home from work, not even granted the pleasure of an evening meal. He could hardly be blamed for the irritation that flared up when Kirishima complained about the empty state of his own stomach.
The guy had far too much energy for his age; heâd even been stuck at the office until well into the evening the previous night due to the end of the cycle bearing down upon him. Why hadnât Yokozawa been able to stop him? He knew it was too little, too late, but he couldnât help going over things in his mind.
He vowed to himself to use this as a learning opportunity for the future, but he couldnât help but suspect heâd find himself being dragged along like this again eventually.
ââ¦That reminds me, whatâd you get for dinner?â
âPork and cabbage.â
âHuh?â Those were ingredientsânot a proper dish. Was Yokozawa just imagining things, or was this not a good signâ¦?
âWell, I wanted ginger-fried pork.â
âYouâre not trying to tell me you made it?â he hazardedâand the expression he received in return was shocked.
âHell no. Iâd slice off my fingers if I tried to chop cabbage, you know that. Ohâbut I made sure to soak the rice and put it on to steam. AndI learned my lesson after last time and got the thin-sliced pork. Soâit should be fine.â
âYou say that like itâs something worth being proud ofâ¦â Kirishimaâs excuses left him exhausted, sapping any and all will to drag himself from the bed. When heâd asked Kirishima to pick up groceries a few days prior, the guy had come back with a whole block of meat. Heâd explained that heâd just assumed meat was meat and this was as good as any but had seemed genuinely hurt when Hiyori had expressed her disbelief at his purchase.
âThe rice is probably done steaming now, thoughâcâmon, letâs go make dinner. I made sure to pull out that apron for you, too.â
ââ¦â¦â¦â
There was no way Yokozawa even remotely had the strength left in him to prepare a mealâwhich meant his only other option now was to sulk in bed, and he wordlessly shifted over on the mattress and placed his back to Kirishima.
âOiâYokozawa? Waitâare you tired? Helloooooâ?â
Maybe he assumed if he just kept calling, eventually Yokozawa would respondâbut instead, Yokozawa just squeezed his eyes shut with all his might.
âAre the bentous finished? They look tasty.â
âIâve got them chilling right now, so donât go poking around trying to taste anything.â
âI havenât touched them!â
âThatâs why I said donât do it.â Kirishima had peeked into the kitchen just as Yokozawa had placed the finishing touches on the lunch boxes heâd prepared, slapping away the hand that had reached forward before any damage could be done. The boxes featured ginger pork as the main dishâthe very meal that Kirishima had requested the previous evening.
Exhausted in body and mind from being dragged into the bedroom the moment heâd set foot in the apartment the night before, he hadnât been able to muster the strength to prepare any meals, and while he would have been happy to let his attempt at feigned sleep to throw off Kirishima turn into genuine slumber, his empty stomach had refused to allow him such freedom. But even after dragging himself out of bed, he still hadnât had the energy to prepare anything of merit and had wound up satisfying his hunger with leftovers, leaving the unused pork to become their lunches for today.
Somewhere along the way, Kirishima had rummaged up two bentou boxes, reassuring Yokozawa that, âI made sure to find two different ones, so no oneâll be the wiser.â Yokozawa, however, wouldâve rather he applied such discretion in other mattersâbut that was probably too tall an order.
âNot a finger on these, got it?â he reminded
âYes sir~ I understand,â Kirishima allowed, and with that, Yokozawa headed back into the bedroom the change. Given that he did on occasion sleep over during the week, heâd made sure to leave a spare suit and dress shirt hanging up. After all, no salesman worth his salt could show up at work wearing the same thing as he had the day before. He tore off the protective plastic cover and slipped on the work shirt, followed by his slacks. Heâd just begun work on a tie heâd picked at random, though, when Kirishima felt the need to offer commentary
âI wouldnât wear that tie if I were you.â
âItâs the same tie I always wear with this suit.â Besides, he only kept three ties here, and neither of the other ties really went with what he had on.
âChange things up once in a while; how about this one?â
ââ¦Thatâs yours though.â The tie Kirishima held out for him was a rather gaudy shade with a pattern Yokozawa never would have chosen for himself. It might suit Kirishima, but Yokozawa didnât believe he could quite do the thing justice.
âAnd like I saidâitâs fine. Besides, youâre supposed to wear something of your loverâs whenever you stay the night at their place.â
âSays who?â
âJust trust me. Youâll look great in itâhere, Iâll even tie it for you; face the mirror.â
ââ¦Have it your way.â The guy still seemed to be riding high from the previous evening. He slipped his arms underneath Yokozawaâs, forcing Yokozawa to lift his arms away from his body so as not to get in the way while Kirishima went about his business tying the tie.
ââ¦Itâs tough tying someone elseâs tieâ¦â
âThen Iâll do it myself, geezâ¦â
âWhat the hellâit was just a comment. Iâm almost done, so just pipe down and let me finish.â
âYeah yeahâ¦â He likely wasnât used to fastening ties given that Kirishima himself hardly ever wore one. Yokozawa couldnât help thinking that it would be quicker just to get it over with himself, unable to relax properly as he watched Kirishima go through the motions and closing his eyes to distract himself. The body heat seeping through his back, the weight of Kirishimaâs head resting just at his shoulder, the presence of his fingers near his chestâthey all worked in concert to keep Yokozawa alert and on edge. How were you supposed to describe this feeling of uneaseâ¦?
âThereâwhadya think?â At Kirishimaâs prompting, he opened his eyes again, staring into the mirror, and while loath to give Kirishima a bigger head than he already had, he had to admit he didnât actually look half bad.
ââ¦Itâs fine, I guess.â
âCâmon, donât be shyâyou look great, Iâm telling you.â
âWhateverâhow long are you planning on hanging on me? If youâre done, get off me.â He reached down to peel away the arms Kirishima had placed on his waist by the fingers, finally releasing himself from the embrace. A weekday morning was hardly the time to get carried away. âYou knowâthereâs no reason for you to come into the office with me. Why not relax a bit once in a while?â Unlike the sales division, editors worked flexible schedules, so given that Hiyori wouldnât be back from her outing until tomorrow afternoon, Kirishima could afford to go in a little later than usual.
âWhat? You donât want me going in with you, then?â
âI couldnât care less; Iâm not a kid who needs a chaperone though.â
âWhat an idiotâbeing a kidâs fun. Whatâs so bad about reliving your childhood?â
âYouâre a hell of a lot more idiotic than I ever could be.â The guy had to be sprouting flowers in that head of his, but when he returned the comment, he was met instead with an amused laugh.
He stepped into the bathroom, running some of Kirishimaâs product through his hair before heading back into the kitchen, where he found the bentou boxes already out and sealed with lids.
âAhâI wrapped up our bentous.â
ââ¦Yeah, I can see that.â The ends of the kerchief holding each box had been tied into granny knots, which while not pretty, were passable. The guy mustâve really wanted to help out somehow. âAll right, Sorataâweâre heading out. Take care of the place while weâre gone,â he called out to the cat, who sat atop his little tower erected in the living room, staring out the window. The piece had been an impulse buy by Kirishima when the three had visited a home furnishings store a short while before. Sorata had been more than a little wary of the tower initially, but now he seemed to have taken to it quite thoroughly.
âHey, have you seen my watch, Yokozawa?â
âOf course notâdid you leave it in the bedroom? And snap it upâweâre gonna be late. Iâm gonna take the trash down ahead of you.â
âOiâwait a minute for me, would you?â
âIâll waitâdownstairs.â
âNoâwait for me in the genkan!â
Yokozawa ignored the plea, snatching up the bag of burnable garbage and the bundle of magazines to be tossed out as he exited the apartment. The Kirishimasâ apartment complex allowed material to be placed in the garbage area on any day of the week, with Kirishima in charge of normal garbage and Hiyori in charge of separating out the recyclables.
Stepping onto the elevator, Yokozawa let out a sigh; Kirishimaâs high spirits this morning had already gone a ways to exhausting him before the day even got started. If pressed to admit itâhe was far from unhappy that theyâd finally found some time alone together. It was simply that he didnât know how to respond in the face of such energy. ââ¦Geezâ¦â
He tugged open the door to the garbage bin and set the bag and bundle in their respective locationsâbut just as he moved to close the door again, a voice called out to him from behind.
âGood morning.â
âOh, good morningâIokawa-san?â For when he turned around, there was Iokawa, whom heâd just encountered only two nights prior. It seemed he had come to toss his garbage as well, and Yokozawa stalled the door from closing, pressing a hand to keep it open.
âAh, sorryâthanks very much.â
Running into the guy again like this suggested that coincidences tended to repeat themselves. âI see you mustâve spent the night at Kirishima-sanâs place last night, then?â
âOhâah, yeah. Kind of had a little too much to drink, soâ¦â Iokawaâs assumption, given Yokozawaâs appearance here at this hour of the morning, wasnât far-fetched, and overreacting to every little comment would only arouse suspicion. If they were close enough that Kirishima invited Yokozawa into his home from time to time, then it stood to reason that having Yokozawa stay the night wasnât too far a stretch. There was no reason for Iokawa to suspect anything untoward of their relationship at all.
âIs your hangover all right, then?â
âI donât really tend to get hangovers that much. So, do you always head to work at this hour, Iokawa-san?â he asked innocently, in an attempt to switch topics.
âI usually head out a bit later than this, actually, but I woke up early this morning for some reason. Except I seem to have forgotten something in my apartment and have to head back, so now the early start I got is about to go to waste.â He chuckled at his own state, and Yokozawa was reminded, as he had been those few nights before, that the guy seemed a little ditzy. âOhâand Iâm sure you donât really want to hear this, butâ¦I talked to my girlfriend on the phone after the incident the other night, and we decided to formally break things off.â
ââ¦I see.â Perhaps heâd thought Yokozawa deserved to hear how things had panned out after getting dragged into being involved. From his expression, at least, Iokawa seemed refreshed, relieved compared to two nights before.
Everyone dealt with love differently, and Yokozawa hardly had enough experience in the act to go about doling out advice to others, but he suspected Iokawa would find someone much more suitable in the future.
âIâve been a bit preoccupied with this matter lately, but now I can put all my focus into my work. I intend to go on a selling spree, just so you knowâIâm not going to be losing to you, Yokozawa-san!â
As they headed back to the complex entrance, Iokawaâs declaration in his ears, Kirishima stepped out of the elevator. âDammit, YokozawaâI told you to waiâah, Iokawa-san?â
âOh, Kirishima-san. Good morning.â
âGood morning. Are you headed to work as well, Iokawa-san?â His inquiry reflected Yokozawaâs own from earlier. This was probably the only kind of conversation one could easily hold with someone who only amounted to a casual acquaintance.
âNoâIâve forgotten something in my apartment, so I was just about to head back. And after I was doing so well in getting an early start tooâIâm such a klutz! Ohâthanks so much for letting my nephew drop by the other day. He was absolutely thrilled to get a gift in return.â
Iokawaâs nephew had brought Hiyori a present for her birthday, and on being consulted by the girl as to what sort of gift in return a young boy might like, Kirishima and Yokozawa had both wracked their brains to come up with something appropriate.
âThatâs good to hear; sounds like it was the right choice in choosing something together with Hiyori. By the wayâwhen did you and Yokozawa grow so close?â
A shudder ran up Yokozawaâs spine at the question; theyâd only been chatting, certainly nothing suspicious.
âOh, we ran into each other at a bar the night before lastâhe was sitting in a chair right behind my own.â
âNight before last?â
âAhâit was after the business dinner I mentioned; we just happened to bump into one another.â
âI seeâthough itâs the first Iâm hearing of it.â His eyes, though, accused You never told me.
I just didnât have time to bring it up.â He hadnât done anything untoward in the leastâbut bringing up the fact that heâd been present when Iokawa had been arguing with his girlfriend would violate Iokawaâs privacy.
âHe kind of got dragged into some trouble of my own, and Iâm afraid I greatly inconvenienced him. But after we chatted for a bit later, I was quite shocked to find out heâs a salesman like me!â
âSalesman?â
âApparently Iokawa-sanâs a salesman for Fujino Books.â
âIs that so? My daughterâs an avid reader of your childrenâs books.â
âReally? Thatâs great! I rarely have opportunity to get to know others in my line of business, so I just kind of got carried away with conversation when I found out Yokozawa-san was in sales as well.â
âWell now that I canât miss out onâwhatâd you two talk about?â Kirishima had a smile plastered across his features, but his eyes werenât laughing in the least, and Yokozawa got the distinct feeling that the guy was jumping to ridiculous conclusionsâbut any attempts to correct the misconception here would mean exposing their private lives to Iokawa.
âJust business,â Yokozawa reassured; Iokawa was simply making a bigger deal out of their conversation than it had truly beenânothing special had passed between them. Theyâd discussed little more than common issues they met on the job, irritations they dealt with.
âHmmâ¦just business, huh?â
âIâd love to chat again if we ever have opportunity.â
âOh me too, by all meansâIâm ever so curious as to what sort of things Yokozawa chatted about.â
âAnd I told you it was nothing special.â A cold sweat dripped down his back as he fought down panic that Kirishima might actually blurt out something about their relationshipâhe couldnât let the two converse any further, he determined, and quickly ended the exchange. âOhâwould you look at the time! We really need to get goingâgonna be late for work!â he suggested, glancing pointedly to his watch.
âYeah, youâre rightâshall we?â
âOhâmy apologies for keeping you!â
âNot at all; it was a pleasure seeing you again. Well then, weâre off.â Kirishima offered Iokawa a short nod of his head before heading off.â
âHeyâwait up! Ah, Iâm sorry, I must be going!â Yokozawa nodded to Iokawa as well before jogging to catch up to Kirishima, flustered. Drawing up beside the man and wracking his brain as to just how to explain himself, he noticed that Kirishima was in a decidedly bad mood now.
ââ¦You were awfully friendly with him,â he noted peevishly, sparking Yokozawaâs irritation. He didnât recall being particularly friendly to Iokawa, nor had he done anything he thought deserving of Kirishimaâs ire.
âIt was sheer coincidence when we met up beforeâwhich just led us to chat a bitâand this was coincidence as well. Most people would greet a casual acquaintance when they ran into them, right?â
âSeemed closer than âcasual acquaintancesâ to me.â
âWeâre both in sales; of course weâre going to feel affinity for one another.â
âMaybe. Butâit wouldnât have killed you to have told me, at least.â Perhaps he was simply irritated that something had happened and he hadnât known about itâand Yokozawa did feel a twinge of guilt for what amounted to keeping the meeting from Kirishima, but really, it was hardly anything worth such blame.
âAnd like I saidâI just didnât have the chance to bring it up. Youâve been really busy latelyâ¦â
âYou couldâve mentioned it yesterday.
âAnd whose fault was it I didnât get a free moment to do that?â The previous evening had hardly been the time for conversation; Kirishima ought to have known that better than anyone else.
âIt wouldnât have take more than five minutes to mention that you ran into him.â
âGod youâre annoying; itâs none of your damn business who I associate with.â
âNone of my business?â
ââ¦â¦!â The error in his choice of words hit homeâhe shouldnât have used such language. Even if it didnât concern Kirishima, that wasnât the kind of thing you said to someone you were in a relationship with. He knew full well that Kirishimaâs behavior was simply product of petty jealousyâbut being harassed like that had just pushed Yokozawa over the edge. âI meanâ¦justâitâs nothing you need to worry aboutâ¦is what I was tryingâ¦to sayâ¦â
ââ¦Iâm not worried. Iâm just irritated.â Yokozawa, more than most others, could understand what jealousy could do to a personâbut he hadnât done anything, never would, to betray Kirishima, and such over-the-top reactions in the face of casual banter were simply annoying.
Or was he really that untrustworthy? ââ¦Fine, then be pissed if you want,â he spit out, pulling the silent treatment on Kirishima for the rest of the commute.
It had been such a small thingâbut now they were on completely different wavelengths.
Neither Yokozawa nor Kirishima spoke another word to one another for the remainder of the commute, silence stretching between them until they reached the office. Being as they were headed to the same location, they could hardly separate at any point along the way, and so the unbearably awkward commute commenced.
Theyâd just seen each other again during the meeting that had just finished, but they hadnât traded a single word during that time, and sparing a fleeting glance over at Kirishima, busy chatting with the other editors, Yokozawa stood in place, preparing to leave.
He knew situations like this were better resolved sooner rather than later, but he was loath to be the first to break, and besidesâhe hadnât found any moment to strike up a conversation even if heâd wanted to. He would just wait things out a bit longer, and as he released a soft sigh to himself, he twitched as a hand came down on his shoulder from behind, surprising him.
âA word, Yokozawa?â
ââ¦Oh, itâs you, Masamune.â
âWhatâs with you today? Itâs not like you to just space out like that.â
âAm I? Maybe because I didnât get much sleep last night.â Which wasnât a lieâheâd burned the midnight oil trying to keep up with Kirishima, who just hadnât seemed inclined to slow down any time soon.
âYou feeling okay?â
âYeah; if I can just make it through this week, I think thingsâll be fine.â
âWellâdonât push yourself too hard. â¦Hey, did your taste change?â
âWhat do you mean?â His brows furrowed at the comment, out of the blue as it was.
âNo, justâ¦your necktie; not really a pattern Iâve seen you wear before. You never used to wear stuff like this before, right?â
ââ¦Oh, I justâ¦had it lying aroundâ¦â None of the other sales staff had mentioned it, so heâd completely forgotten that he was wearing Kirishimaâs necktie today. He never wouldâve expected Takano of all people to notice, and now he found himself rather flustered.
âHey, whatâre you getting worked up for?â
Trying to come up with an excuse would just seem all the more suspicious, and after a momentâs hesitation, he brushed it off with an innocuous, ââ¦You think it looks weird?â
ââ¦I guess itâs fine? Doesnât look bad at all, actually.â
âOâoh, okayâ¦â His lips unconsciously twitched up into a smile at the complimentâbut on realizing this, he quickly schooled his features again. They hadnât been fighting that morning when Kirishima had helped him into the tie.
He brought his fingers up, brushing them over the knot Kirishima had fastened.
Whyâ¦had they fought over something so seemingly insignificantâ¦?
âOhâsorry, got side-tracked. About the fair weâve got coming upâ¦â Yokozawa let himself slip back into work mode, turning his full attention to the discussion with Takanoâbut soon felt as if someone was watching him, and on flicking his gaze casually to the side, he found Kirishima staring at them, expression steely.
ââ¦â¦!!â
ââ¦Yokozawa? Are you listening to me?â
âOf course I am,â he snapped back, but he couldnât shake Kirishimaâs appearance from his mind. In all honesty, none of the feelings heâd held for Takano before lingered now, and while he still felt some embarrassment at how heâd acted before, all he felt for Takano was the simple affection of a friend.
Kirishimaâs reassurance that you donât have to forget how you loved him had allowed him to come to terms with his own feelings. If heâd been convinced he absolutely needed to forget, to move on, it wouldâve likely only made the rejection hit all the harder, and he very likely might not have been able to recover.
What on earth was going on with Kirishima todayâ¦? Just when heâd thought the guy had been in high spirits, his mood had taken a sudden sharp diveâsurely there was some limit to the term âemotional instabilityâ.
âSoâIâll be counting on your help in that respect.â
âOhâyeah, sure. Leave it to me.â
ââ¦Whatâs wrong?â
âItâsânothing.â Without his realizing it, Kirishima had slipped out of the conference room. The usual Kirishima wouldâve likely just sauntered over and deposited himself squarely in the middle of their conversation with So whatâre you two talking about?
âAll right then; Iâll drop you an e-mail when Iâve got the details.â
âSure, got it.â Takano took his leave here, and Yokozawa now realized he was the only person left in the empty conference room. The eerie quiet was rather bleak, and he quickly exited the room.
If he left things between himself and Kirishima the way they were, the situation would only worsen, he was starting to feelâand yet he still hadnât the faintest clue how to go about resolving things. At the very least, he felt he wasnât the one who ought to apologize. He wasnât aware that heâd done anything wrong, after all, and while he did feel bad for hurting Kirishimaâs feelings with his comments, the manâs reaction had been far too narrow-minded in the first place.
But what had driving Kirishima to get so irritated about Iokawa to begin with? Heâd been strangely on-edge that first time theyâd met as well.
âAh, welcome back! I was planning on having ramen for lunchâhow about you, Yokozawa-san?â Henmi called out to him, wallet in hand, when he returned to the sales floor.
âOhâlunch time already? Iâll have my lunch here today.â
âRare for you to have bought lunch to eat!â
âUh, yeahâ¦well.â It wasnât so much bought as prepared himself, but there was no reason to go out of his way to announce this fact.
âThat reminds meâ¦when I dropped by the Japun editing division earlier, Kirishima-san was showing off his bentou! I wonder if his daughter made it for him. Man, that sure sounds niceâ¦â
ââ¦Yeah, I suppose so.â With no small measure of relief that Henmi didnât seem to suspect that Yokozawa had prepared it, he opted against pulling out his own bentou where Henmi could see it.
âMaybe Iâll try fixing myself one sometime! Huh? Where are you going, Yokozawa-san?â
âNone of your business.â He hastily rewrapped the bentou box and gathered his things, standing to leave in search of some place where he could eat in peace. Deciding heâd take care of his rounds after finishing his lunch, he slipped the necessary materials into his bag as well.
He first considered heading up to the roofâbut he couldnât discount the possibility of someone from the office having the same idea, so he decided to head outside instead. There was a large shrine located only a short distance from the office; it would have benches and likely few visitors, given that it wasnât the season for flower-viewing. The sunlight was still quite brutal, but the heat at least was no longer oppressive. Sometimes it was nice to get out of the office for lunch.
He paused along the way to grab a drink from a vending machine before seeking out a sparsely populated corner of the temple grounds and settling in. Glancing around, he was surprised to find not only sight-seeing couples and parents walking with their children, but also the odd businessman or two taking a break. It was likely easier to relax out here than in the confines of the office.
âWhaâ¦â A shudder jolted through Yokozawa when he finally lifted the cover of his bentou. He knew he hadnât placed anything on top of the rice that morningâ¦but now there was a layer of nori on top fashioned in a rather clumsy manner. It had obviously been torn apart by handâ¦and placed on the rice in the shape of a heart. âThat bastardâ¦â
This could only be Kirishimaâs doing. Heâd thought the guy had been sneaking around with the bentousâand it must have been to do this. He found himself at a loss for words with how ridiculous Kirishima could be. If they hadnât fought this morningâ¦he might have been able to laugh it off, but right now, all he was left feeling wasdrained.
âWhy the hell am I the one whoâs sitting here feeling all anxiousâ¦â His shock quickly shifted to irritation; heâd been sitting here worrying over this situation on his own, but after muttering to himself over the contents of the bentou, he couldnât help feeling a little pissed off as well. âDammitâlike hell Iâll be the first to break.â
He knew this was sheer childish pride, but he vowed to himself that, this time at least, he wouldnât be the one to yield any ground.
âUghâ¦â
What was Yokozawa doing out here? Killing time in a park because he couldnât bring himself to go homeâhe was acting like a child afraid of being scolded by his mother.
Kirishima had informed him in no uncertain terms the day before that he was to come to the apartment today as well, but he hadnât reminded Yokozawa of the promise yet todayâas such, heâd been planning on just going back to his own apartment.
And yetâ¦without realizing it, heâd stepped off the train at the station nearest Kirishimaâs place. He wavered for a moment, toying with the idea of getting back on the train, but his feet stalled in place. Perhaps it was this inability to make up his mind that had him sitting here on a park bench killing time.
Heâd checked to see that Kirishima wasnât around when heâd left the officeâgiven that he hadnât had any meetings scheduled, that likely meant he had already headed home.
At his umpteenth sigh in as many minutes, though, a feral cat came wandering up, rubbing itself against his legs. ââ¦Oi, Iâm not in any mood to play with you, so go on. Get,â he growled, but this only seemed to draw out even more cats. It wasnât as if he was carrying around any treats or anything of the sortâcats just seemed to like him. âUgh fine, do whatever you wantâAh!â
His cell phone began buzzing in his pocket, giving him more of a shock than it typically would have, perhaps due to his distracted state. He jerked up, sending the cats about his feet skittering away. âDammitâ¦donât scare me like thatâ¦â
He cautiously checked the caller ID screenâ¦and as expected, there was Kirishimaâs name. Unable to bring himself to answer immediately, he stared at the phone buzzing insistently in his hand for a few momentsâbut it never stopped, continuing to badger him for attention.
He half-considered just cutting the call off, but in the end, he steeled himself and pressed the âtalkâ button. ââ¦Yes.â
âSo you finally answered. Youâd better not tell me youâre not planning on coming over tonight, Yokozawa. Iâve already ordered in for two, so hurry and get your ass over here.â
ââ¦â¦â¦â
The arrogant tone sent an flare of irritation through Yokozawa; as heâd suspected, it really would have been best if heâd just canceled the call before answeringâand then, Kirishima continued, a thread of awkwardness laced in his tone.
âJustâ¦if you donât come home, thenâ¦I canât explain myself.â
ââ¦Huh?â It was as stupid a response as Yokozawa had ever givenâbut it was all he could muster.
âI meanâ¦justâ¦Iâm sorry.â
ââ¦Sorry for what, then?â
âYou knowâaboutâ¦this morning.â It seemed he was trying to apologize for his behavior earlier, but if the guy wouldnât explain just what exactly he was trying to make amends for, Yokozawa had no real way of responding to his efforts.
ââ¦â¦â¦â As he was wracking his mind trying to decide just how to continue from here, one of the feral cats wandered close again, pawing at Yokozawa for attention.
âOwâdammit, cut that out, you littleââ he snapped at the animal, cradling the phone in one hand and quieting his voice to keep Kirishima from hearing over the lineâbut he failed.
âOiâwhoâre you with? Donât tell me youâre seriously cheating onââ
âWhat theâwho the hell are you accusing ofâ?!â
âThen who is it?â
âItâs a cat, you idiot!â He hadnât really wanted Kirishima to know he had a bunch of cats trying to get him to play with themâbut he hardly had any choice now.
ââ¦A cat? Wait, where are you?â
âAtâ¦the park, near your place.â Kirishima might have suspected he was at someoneâs house, and he really was in no mood to have the guy jump to any more ridiculous conclusions. He was fully prepared to be teased mercilessly now for dawdling and dragging his feet to kill time, but the response he received instead was decidedly unexpected.
ââ¦All right, Iâm coming to get you, so wait there.â
âHuh? Waitâcoming to get me? Whatâre youââ But the line went dead with a click. Was the guy serious? Still, after being told to wait here, it was probably best not to leave now. He stared down at the phone in his hand, the call ended, when another cat made a pass at him. âDammit, I told you I canât play with you right now, so pleaseâjust, enough already!â As he stood there, flustered at how to deal with the insistent feline, someoneâs snorting laughter reached his ears.
âPffft, hahaha!â The laughter wasnât dying down, and Yokozawa felt a swell of embarrassment at having been caught messing around with a cat. He lifted his head to explain himselfâwhen he found himself staring at a familiar face. âIâm sorry, I didnât mean to laughâhonestly! I just couldnât help myself. You really are a nice person, arenât you, Yokozawa-san?â
âIokawa-sanâ¦â
âRunning into each other twice in the same dayâmust be fate! Almost âpredestinedâ even, donât you think?â
âI suppose so.â Given the similar spheres they walked in, theyâd likely encounter one another more and more nowâstill, it wasnât strange to feel some sort of connection, running into each other as often as they had of late.
âMind if I sit beside you?â
âFeel free.â
As Iokawa approached the bench, the cats all scattered, fleeing their separate ways. âAww, guess they donât like me.â
âIâm sure theyâre just shy.â
âI hope thatâs the case; do you frequent this park, Yokozawa-san?â
âI wouldnât say I frequent it, butâ¦â He did like to use it as a shortcut on his way the Kirishimasâ apartment heading back from shopping excursions.
âI like to drop by and have a beer on evenings when the moon is nice. The sakura trees over there blossom beautifully in Spring, so Iâll have my own personal flower viewing party. Though the trees behind my apartment complex are quite nice to look at as well.â The Kirishimasâ complex had a few cherry blossom trees planted on its grounds, allowing residents to enjoy the blossoms for a relatively lengthy period, and Yokozawa had seen a fair few families relaxing outside and taking in the view.
âDo you live alone in your apartment, Iokawa-san?â
âYesâthough I must confess, Iâm really only house-sitting for my some relatives while theyâre out of the country. Theyâre letting me live here rent-free while theyâre gone in exchange for my watching over the place.â
âWatching over someone elseâs stuff always tends to make you be a bit more careful with yourself than usual, huh?â Of course there were perks to living rent-free in such an expansive condominium as these apartments, but caring for the place seemed like it would really work your nerves.
âIndeed. Iâm only a transient, so I have to take extra care not to dirty or scratch anything. I always eat out, though, so Iâve managed not to mess up the kitchen at least. Iâd always dreamed of living in a really spacious apartment like this, but now that Iâve tried it outâ¦I feel like itâs a bit too much for me. What single man needs a 2LDK all to himself?â He shrugged with a wry laugh.
âYouâve got a pointâif all youâre doing is using it to sleep in, a more compact place might feel more manageable.â His busy periods left him loath to cook anything for himself, and there were times he couldnât even muster the will to clean up around his place. In that sense, Sorata and Hiyori had been something of a godsend. Having someone around who needed caring for helped him weather the tough times.
âDo you live alone as well, Yokozawa-san?â
âAhâyeah, though I do have a cat.â Except that said cat was currently enjoying a comfortable life with the Kirishimas.
âI seeâso that explains why you were surrounded like that before. They could probably sense your âcat-lover auraâ!â
âI dunno about thatâ¦â
âIâm quite envious; animals donât really tend to like meâthey give me quite the wide berth.â
âMaybe youâre just too stiff around them?â Animals could sense when someone was approaching them nervously, and convincing yourself that you âwerenât goodâ with them would only lead them to give you plenty of space.
âTakafumi,â someone called to him, his first name slipping out as Yokozawa moved to continue the rambling conversation with Iokawa.
Outside of his family, there was only one person who ever called him that. ââ¦â¦â¦!!â Kirishima had actually come to pick him up, and while he was doing his best to hide it, his ragged breath suggested that heâd run the whole way. He was dressed in a t-shirt and jeans, while on his feet he wore the sneakers he favored on his days off.
âGood evening, Iokawa-san. Mind if I interrupt your pleasant little chat?â
âAh, Kirishima-san! Off on a grocery run?â Perhaps the fact that Kirishima was empty-handed had prompted the question.
But Kirishima didnât mince any words: âNo; Iâve come to pick up Yokozawa.â
âWhaâ¦!â Phrasing his intentions like that left room for Iokawa to divine the exact nature of their relationship. It was one thing to speak like that with someone who knew that Kirishima liked to banter about risqué jokes from time to time, but Iokawa had no idea of that aspect to his personality.
âAh, I see. You two really are close, arenât you?â Iokawa didnât seem all that fazed by the comment, simply admiring their ostensibly platonic relationship. Yokozawa sent out a silent prayer of gratitude that the guy didnât seem all that sharp.
âIndeed; we hear that all the time.â He wanted desperately to find some way to shut the guy up, but he couldnât afford to make any false moves.
âI must say, Iâm quite jealous! Ahâif you donât mind, would you like to have a drink together some time? Iâd love to chat with you as well, Kirishima-san!â
âAbsolutely, Iâd love to. Howeverâin the future, Iâd really appreciate it if you went through me first before speaking with Yokozawa. Weâve got plans together for the foreseeable future, so would you mind keeping your distance?â
A shudder rippled through Yokozawa at how glaringly obvious he was being in his attempts to keep Iokawa at bay. âHeyââ¦!!â he started, turning a furious glare on Kirishima.
âUnderstood! You almost sound like his manager!â Iokawa laughed, thankfully taking Kirishimaâs language as joking and utterly failing to grasp the true meaning of it all.
âWell then, weâll be taking our leave now. Weâve got quite urgent business to attend to, soâletâs head home, Takafumi.â He grabbed Yokozawaâs arm, tugging him up from the bench, and stalked away.
ââ¦â¦?!â He didnât even have a chance to bid Iokawa farewell before he was practically dragged off as Kirishima strode away at practically a jog, racing down the path back to the apartment. The fingers digging into Yokozawaâs wrist pained him, and unable to manage to fall in step with Kirishimaâs pace, he stumbled frequently along the way. âThe hellâstop dragging me!â
When he shook off the hand that gripped his own, Kirishima at last slowed his pace. Heâd thought theyâd managed to restore their relationship to some degree with the phone call earlier, but now things were just awkward yet again. Biting his tongue hereâ¦would only lead to a repeat of that morning, though, and with great effort, Yokozawa spoke up in a normal tone. âWhat was the point in leaving like that, anyway? He lives in the same complex as you, you know.â
âI couldnât have lasted another minute with him.â
âHuh?â
âNoâsorry, justâ¦talking to myself.â
Yokozawa let out a great sigh at Kirishimaâs evasiveness. âJust so you knowâthe other day and this morning as well were really just coincidences. Thereâs nothing going on whatsoever that should give you cause to worry.â He made sure to add between the lines that Kirishima had no grounds to be suspicious of anything, which drew an embarrassed grimace.
Kirishima returned, tone a bit peevish as he explained himself, âI knowâand I trust you, really I do.â
âThen whyââ
âBecauseâbecause I canât help getting jealous! If it makes you feel any better, Iâm just as shocked as you are. I never expected Iâd turn out to be soâdamn, small-minded.â
Realizing that Kirishima also occasionally found himself overwhelmed by an inability to control his emotionsâ¦Yokozawa felt the energy slump from his shoulders. Maybeâ¦heâd had unreasonable expectations of the guy all this time.
He was older than Yokozawa, had experienced far moreâso somewhere deep inside, he mustâve assumed that heâd be smarter in how he conducted himself. But love robs people of their reason and senseâand if you were able to keep your head in a relationship with someone, then it probably wasnât true love in the first place.
âSorry forâ¦being such an ass.â
âYou say that like you arenât an ass all the time,â he snickered, realizing that Kirishima had finally come to understand how childish he could be.
âYeahâ¦guess youâve got a point.â Yokozawa had to bite back his shock at how easily Kirishima seemed to accept this as factâheâd just finished apologizing; wasnât it a bit too soon to be shifting gears like this?
âThen since you seem to realize it now, try acting a bit more normal. What if he gets the wrong idea about us?â
âMaybe I wanted him to.â
âHuh?â
âGotta set some boundaries.â
âWhy do you have it in for that guy? Thereâs no reason for you to hold any grudge against him.â When he paused to think about it, that simple question alone lay at the heart of the entire matter. Kirishima was generally pretty easygoing on the outside, and while he had his moments of jealousy, he wasnât the type to direct his ire against people uninvolved in the matter.
âMy gutâs telling me heâs no good.â
âHow so?â
âDunno. Justâ¦I canât help getting pissed whenever I see you two chatting it up. Whatâs the harm in a little bit of jealousy?â
âDonât try to turn the blame on to me.â In other words, it seemed even Kirishima himself didnât quite understand the reason behind his actions.
âJustâfor fuckâs sake, donât let yourself get hit on in a park of all places. Youâre practically defenseless, so I have to sit here biding my jealousy.â
âWho the hell was getting hit on? Youâre such an idiot.â It was utterly ridiculous, reading simple chatter as flirtation. If Kirishima got jealous over something that trivial, soon enough, heâd start seeing Yokozawaâs own coworkers as rivals. Besides, Yokozawa had been the one worrying over everything, as far as he saw it; he couldnât abide Kirishima speaking as if heâd been the only victim here.
âIâm just asking you not to go around thoughtlessly making nice with everyone you see.â
âActing rude with my features is only gonna scare people away.â He had a rather stern expression to begin with, and it didnât change much either. People tended to assume he was in a perpetually bad mood unless he opened his mouth to assure them otherwise, so he made every effort to be as polite as possible to those around him.
âSo what? I should be the only one who understands how truly adorable you can be.â
ââ¦Dammit, would you just cut that outâ¦!â When he whipped his head around to glance in Kirishimaâs direction, the guy was wearing the same expression he always did, likely pleased with himself at having embarrassed Yokozawa. âDonât laugh.â
âIâm not.â The quaver to his words betrayed the lie, though.
âYou sure as hell are.â
âI simply find you endearing, thatâs all.â
âHow is that any different?!â Kirishimaâs grin only deepened as Yokozawa responded to his teasing, and on realizing that he was once again being played for the fool in the palm of Kirishimaâs hand, he pursed his lips and fell silent.
ââ¦Mind reminding me why two brawny men have to share a bathtub together?â Yokozawa muttered sourly at their situation.
âCâmonâweâre lovers. Iâm cutting you some slack by putting up with just sitting face-to-face, so I donât wanna hear any complaints.â
âBe reasonable! I just want to take a relaxing bath here!â Kirishimaâs tub was relatively spacious, but it hadnât been made to support two grown men sitting in it together, and they both sat huddled with their legs bent at the knees to keep from bumping into one another.
âAw, give it a rest; Iâve always dreamed of being able to take a bath together with you, after all.â
âWe shared a bath when we went on vacation.â The hotel theyâd stayed at over their summer holiday had included a grand bathing area that overlooked the ocean. The vista that greeted them from beyond the glassed-in area looked like something right off of a postcard, and Kirishima had seemed quite pleased with the view.
âThat was a bathhouse, though; plus, we werenât alone.â
âSuch a nitpicker; whatâs it matter how many people were there? A bathâs a bath.â
âPut a little more thought into the emotions involved, would you? The situationâs important for this kind of thing.â
âWhatever.â This wasnât some trashy manga; he couldnât let himself get preoccupied with such measly details at every opportunity. Heâd initially assumed that Kirishima focused on these things because he was a fatherâbut maybe it was just because he actually liked such events himself. âMind if I get out now? Iâm starting to get dizzy from the heat.â
âSureâafter you count to 100. You always take such quick baths.â
Yokozawa gaped at the tone that smacked of a parent lecturing a child. âIâm not some little brat; Iâm seriously feeling faint here.â
âAnd you always make me feel faint.â
âWhaâ¦!â Yokozawa groped for words, at a loss for a response to Kirishimaâs seamlessly delivered pretentious line. Kirishima let out a light laugh, seemingly satisfied with having successfully ruffled Yokozawaâs feathers, but Yokozawa ignored him, standing to step out of the tubâwhen Kirishima snapped a hand out to grab his wrist, tugging him back in. âUwahâ!!â Balance lost, he slipped and toppled backward, landing with a great splash supported in Kirishimaâs arms. Heâd managed to avoid hurting himself, but he was now thoroughly soaked by the water heâd displaced with his fall. âWhat the hellâ!â
âI never said you could leave. And now lookâ¦half our waterâs goneâ¦â
âWhose fault do you think that is?! Let me go, dammitâ¦â Their position now, with Kirishimaâs arms looped around him from behind, was more than a little embarrassing, and Yokozawa twisted in place, struggling to free himselfâbut to no avail, as Kirishimaâs arms coiled about him refused to be moved.
âOh no you donât; youâre crazy if you think Iâm letting this chance slip by.â
âAnd Iâm saying I donât like this.â Just touching left him feeling awkward enough, so clinging together like this didnât suit him at all. Even their bickering was little more than a farce by this point.
âCâmonâuse your words properly. Itâs not that you donât like itâyouâre just embarrassed. Your bodyâs a hell of a lot more honest than your mouth.â
ââ¦Ngh, where the hell do you think youâre touching?!â he snapped as a hand snaked down between his legs to slip fingers around his shaft, lazily stroking him to erection.
âJust getting you in the mood, thatâs all.â
âThanks, but no thanks.â
This guy really left no chinks in his armor. Try as Yokozawa might to restrain him before he could provoke him, Kirishima quickly took the upper hand, tightening his grip along the stiff shaft.
Yokozawa fought down the cry that clamored for release, but the increasing attentions forced sounds from his throat regardless. He grit his teeth and held back a moan, biting out, âYou saidâ¦you wouldnât doâ¦anythingâ¦â That promise had convinced Yokozawa to grudgingly accede to Kirishimaâs request that they bathe together, and while he couldnât deny that heâd been more than a little naive in his actions, he couldnât sit silent and just take it.
âAnd you believed me?â
âThatâ¦was low,â he ground out, stalling as Kirishima turned the question back on him. It hadnât been so much that heâd believedKirishima as he simply hadnât thought through to this inevitable conclusion.
âMaybeâ¦but you love that about me.â
Yokozawa abandoned all efforts to refute Kirishimaâs brazen boasting and instead began to actively mount his revolt, bracing his hands against the bathtub edges as he struggled to lift himself from Kirishimaâs embraceâbut he simply hadnât the strength to follow through, at the mercy of Kirishimaâs expert attentions. âCutâ¦it..!â The remaining water splashed up around them in time with Yokozawaâs resistance.
âNow thatâs just bad manners.â Fingers skittered over his skin, outlining the shape of his abs, and lips pressed against the nape of his neck sucked against the skin there. At length, Yokozawa gave up on trying to remove himself bodily from the tub and focused instead on removing Kirishimaâs arms, gripping tight with his nails as he went on the offensiveâbut the fingers stroking along his shaft never ceased their attentions.
âJust give up and play along nicely; itâs for your own good,â Kirishima murmured into Yokozawaâs ear, his extremities pinned. He sounded like some cop from a television show, trying to prompt a perp to confess to a crime. Still, Yokozawa had no intention of giving himself over so easily, and even if he wound up putty in Kirishimaâs hand in the end, it just wasnât in his nature to duck his head and go about things dutifully.
âWhoâsâ¦gonna do whatever you sayâ¦?â He tried to tell himself that the dizzy wave sweeping over him was just from the bathâand it was all he could do to bite back the moans that threatened to seep from his throat.
âGood morning!â
âMorning.â With a great yawn, Yokozawa dragged himself over to his desk. Kirishima had kept him up late again, burning the midnight oil the previous night and leaving him utterly exhausted. That was two nights in a row now he hadnât gotten a good nightâs sleep, and pushing himself like this, at his age, had left him physically drained. It was great that heâd finally resolved things with Kirishima, but in return, heâd had to once again deal with a rather high-spirited Kirishima as well, and while heâd staunchly refused another bentou-making session or commute together, heâd had a âgoodbye kissâ forced on him in the genkan as heâd taken his leave.
He definitely shouldnât show his weak side to Kirishima, he was starting to realize; once the guy got going, there was no stopping him from getting carried away.
Hiyori was supposed to get back from her field trip today, but he was set on heading straight back to his own apartment this evening; he couldnât deal with three straight days of such a giddy Kirishima. He was looking forward to hearing Hiyori regale them with tales of her adventures, but he desperately needed his rest firstâensuring oneâs own physical health was oneâs duty as a member of society.
He pulled his planner from his bag, checking the dayâs schedule, when Henmi glanced over, chuckling lightly. âYokozawa-san, I see youâre wearing another cute tie today! Was it a gift from your girlfriend?â
âYeah, rightâidiot.â Heâd been wrangled into another necktie coordination session that morning as well, ending up with one of Kirishimaâs, but he was quite sure it wasnât so strange a pattern it merited Henmiâs laughter. However, while it might not have been a shade that really suited him, if he let his discomfort show, it would surely only invite more probing questions, and so he shrugged off the commentâwhen Henmiâs expression shifted to one of complete shock.
âWaitâyou donât mean to say you bought it yourself, right?â
âWhatâs with that shocked tone?â
âNo, itâs justâ¦â Henmiâs gaze honed in on the tie, and as Yokozawa followed the gaze, glancing down to get a better look at the tie, he noticed that a portion of the fine pattern was made up of bear-shaped silhouettes. Seeing as the images were only perhaps a few millimeters in size, he hadnât even noticed until Henmi pointed them out.
ââ¦â¦â¦â As heâd heard it, the tie Kirishima had chosen today had been picked out by Hiyori and her grandmother for Fatherâs Day the previous year. Heâd confessed he hadnât had much opportunity to wear it beforeâlikely less due to his line of work and more due tothis pattern. He now realized that this had been the reason Kirishima had been grinning like a loon when heâd seen Yokozawa off that morningâand the reason the high school girls standing in front of him on the train had been snickering, too. While it might have suited someone as baby faced as Henmi, there was no way it was doing any favors to someone like Yokozawa.
The tie heâd borrowed the day before had been rather gaudy but still of relatively normal design; heâd let his guard down regarding his chest area when leaving the apartment that morning, though, and shame began to well up from within.
âSoâ¦did you really pick it out yourself?â
âIâI borrowed it, of course! Thereâs no way in hell Iâd buy something like this for myself!â
âBorrowed it? From whom? Takano-sanâ¦wouldnât own something like that, probably. Ahâthen perhaps Kirishima-san?â
ââ¦Iâm going to return it.â He pulled out the back-up tie he kept in his desk drawer and stood to leave. Nothing wouldâve happened if he hadnât noticed it, but now that heâd realized the reason heâd garnered so much attention all day, he couldnât possibly keep it on.
âAww, whatâs the harm? I think itâs quite fetching, really cute!â
ââ¦Henmi. Youâre smiling.â He fixed a sharp glare on his subordinate, whoâd directed his attentions elsewhere, expression betraying his attempts to fight back his laughter. âDammit.â He quickly departed the sales floor, tugging off the tie as he headed for a bathroom with a mirror in it.
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