Nokukhanya (Chapter 21)

Chapter 21

●Nokukhanya Ngwenya

I spent another night with him, I slept with him again and again I slept with Langa without protection. During the night Nonjabulo woke up and demanded attention and her father volunteered to spend time with her until she fell asleep again. The three of us shared the bed until he had to go in the morning. This was the time when reality hit me, that Langa will never be mine, that he is married with a sick son, still with reality hitting me, I can't help falling in love with him, the feelings I have for him will never go away that for sure.

Call me whatever, but I want my daughter to have what I never had, a family. Messed up as it is my feelings for her father are very strong and I know I should stop whatever we are trying to do, but my heart refuses. This man will always be my first love, even though we never dated he will always be my first, the man who earned my heart.

Today I wanted to go to the offices so that everyone will know that I am now part of the company, again, but I decide otherwise. I want to meet up with Langa so we can decide a way forward regarding our daughter. The court date is in three days from now and I will really like if we could settle this out of court, I mean I haven't even appointed a lawyer to defend me. I called him this morning, but he never answered my calls, so I called his brother.

"Baby Mama." Gosh, I so hate this name and this idiot doesn't care.

"Wena, you need to stop calling me like that. I am not your friend." I tell him with a bit of attitude you know, but you know what he doesn't care because he starts laughing,

Gosh! I so hate him.

"I know you not my friend, but fortunately for me you are my baby's mother."

"Did you have sex with me Lindokuhle?" He chokes then laughs.

"We didn't have too, yet you still gave birth to my princess. How blessed am I? Baby Mama." I hang up on him while he is busy laughing like hyena.

Idiot!

Argh! I will never win with this one. And going back and forth with him is making me dizzy I even forgot why I called him. Oh, yeah, I need to talk to his brother.

I Dial him again. And he is still laughing.

Eye roll!

"Lindokuhle, I need to speak to your brother. Where is he?" Did he even hear what I said? Now I must wait for him to finish laughing. Jesus why did I have to meet these people and worse fall for one of them.

"Lindokuhle!" He is still laughing. The Fuck! I internally scream shaking my phone as if it will stop him from acting like this.

"What will I get for my information?" He asks.

"You get to be in my daughter's life forever."

"That's a given. I want something else."

"Otherwise, I'm not telling you where he is."

"Okay, fine, fine, ufunani?" I give up.

"Go out with me, tonight."

"Okay. So where is your brother?"

"Still in hospital."

"Is his son still not out." I ask out of curiosity.

"Nope, that woman should just tell us who is the baby's father because that's not my brothers' kid. What time should I pick you up, will you organise a babysitter for her, or should I get my mother to baby sit?" the only thing I heard from him was Langa not being the father, that's all I heard, and I was even planning on not going out with him but with this bit of information, he needs to tell me.

"Pick me up at six."

"Really? Okay cool. I really need to out with all this drama, plus I don't have any friends here. You are the only person I know, so you need to show me around, yeah?"

"Yeah," I hang up on him again.

Why do I suddenly feel like I have a shot with him. If it happens that he is not the father, does that mean he is going to leave and divorce that woman and come back to me, right...?"

'Bitch please'

'Stop dreaming.'

****

Arriving here feels like a nightmare. I'm not sure what is wrong with my baby girl, but she has been screaming ever since we left my house. And that is so unlike her. I had to stop my car at the side of the road to put her car seat at the front.

"Why is she crying like this?" Sam asks taking her from me. I feel defeated. Nonjabulo is the only person who easly gets me to panic. I start crying at the same time as my phone stats ringing.

"Calm down and answer your phone. Patrick, come take your granddaughter!" I wish she can stop crying.

"Hello." I sniff and blow my nose.

"Baby mama, where are you? I'm here by your house. Whats wrong? Why are you crying?"

"I don't think I can go out anymore. Nonjabulo cannot stop crying. I don't know what wrong with her." I sniff.

"Nokukhanya..."

"I can't go out with you Lindo." I say after a while.

"Where are you? Send me your location."

"Lindo."

"Location now! Nokukhanya." This time he hangs up on me and I send him the location.

Am I a bad mother that I cannot get my daughter to stop crying but the moment that she was in Patrick's hands she stopped? I walk upstairs and find the two of them now looking at the sleeping war starter.

"Whats wrong with her? She doesn't have a fever, yet she couldn't stop crying." I say, my voice barely audible.

"Nothing is wrong. And you, why where you crying. Sunshine, you can't start crying whenever she acts like the diva she is."

"I can't help it." I answer her honestly.

"Come, Patrick will watch her. I want you tell me why you are cancelling your date because the princess was crying." Dammit! She was eavesdropping! I thought she followed her husband when I answered my phone.

"What date? With whom? Sunshine, are you dating?" Patrick shouts after us.

"Stop being a drama queen and watch your granddaughter."

I follow her downstairs busy cursing out Patrick for being a busy body. Shame poor men, they do get it sometimes from us hey, like right now there was no need for her to shout like this all because he asked if I was going out.

"Who is taking you out?" She asks.

"Lindo."

"Who is that?"

"Langa's brother."

"My word! Sunshine! You are going for his brother now."

"What! Of course not! Really Sam?" She laughs as the doorbell rings. Lucky me.

"Hello, I'm here for Nokukhanya." I hear him say as they walk towards me. He looks good, really good in his black jeans and white t-shirt and a biker jacket.

You are drooling, my subconscious says, and I ignore her, there is definitely nothing wrong with looking.

"Baby Mama, you good?"

"Yes, I'm okay."

"Where is the princess? Why were you crying? Do you miss my brother? Is that why you were crying like a baby?"

Damn! This idiot! I roll my eyes and ignore him, as I go freshen up.

Changing into a white satin short dress and a long black blazer.

I go check on my daughter and she is still sleeping with her grandfather, snoring as if we were not involved in World War ten thousand with her screaming my little car.

"I'm done, we can leave now." I say, yes! That's the look and shock I was looking for, he needs to tell his brother that he is missing out. He clears is throat.

"Damn! Mommy, you are beautiful, strike a pose I need to take a picture." Yes, yes. Thank you, Jesus!

I pose like my pictures will be on the billboards tomorrow, I even threw in some sexy poses there. We get done and I ask Sam, to call me whenever she starts acting up. This will be the first time I leave her behind at night to have some fun. I always try to organise my dates for during the day because after seven, that's my daughters time.

"Go on now, enjoy yourself and don't worry about the princess I will look after her."

****

We decided to go for drinks first then go to this party he was invited too. We get there and its packed reminds me back home, with Victor and Cindy.

"I hope you don't mind, but I have invited some of my friends." What Friends?

"I thought you said you don't have any friends around here." I remind him of what he told me this morning.

"Baby Mama, please don't embarrass me tu." I roll my eyes and follow him to the VIP section.

We greet a group of five men and three girls. I am saying men because these are MEN. Tall, strong, and black. You know guys are totally different from us women, I thought this idiot of mine was going to introduce me to these people like we girls would normally do, go around the table and tell each person's name, but no, he just said, Guys meet my baby mama and sunshine meet my friends, and gents, she's off limits. If it was someone else, I would have been offended.

"Are you really his baby mama." Gugu, asks. She was the first one out of the three girls to give me a hug.

"He wishes." I say and get a finger pointed at me.

"Then why is he calling you like that?" What is this? High school? Aii no! I ignore her and order myself a drink as we were casually chatting around the table.

Gugu and I ordered a bottle of wine to share. The other two girls ordered themselves some cocktails. This VIP place was nice and lowkey for these people and very boring for me. I wanted to be downstairs singing and dancing, because sitting here made me think of my daughter and all my problems Eventually I calmed down as the evening wore on.

"Is he now single?" Trust alcohol to make people speak.

"I really don't know. Why? Are you interested in him?" She's a very pretty girl, but I don't think she is Lindo's type.

"I kinda, have a crush on him, Since college."

"That long? Huh?"

"Yeah, but he has never looked at me that way you know." Yho! I can't.

"Gugu, do you want to go downstairs to dance maybe." I offer, ngoba phela I won't survive this, whatever this is from her and the stares we are getting from the other two.

"Yes, yho! I thought you were one of them." She says pointing at the other two with her eyes.

We get downstairs and this is where the party is. The vibe is to die for. The music is pulsing with a thumping bass line. The dance floor isn't crowded, which means we have some space to dance.

"Do you know how to dance?"

"I just need alcohol in my body then, I will be on top of the table singing as well," I tell her as she grins at me. I have never been a good dancer and I don't even have a problem about it.

We start dancing and enjoying ourselves, singing out loud for the whole club to listen to us.

"I'm so happy," she shouts over the music with me singing.

I think the alcohols starts doing it jobs as I move up towards the bar and ask one of the bartenders to help me up.

"Nokukhanya, what are you doing?" When did he get here? He looks just like his brother right now. 'No bitch, it's the booze'

"I'm having fun."

"Please get down from there."

"Don't be like your brother." I start singing on top of my lungs, when, Work from Rihanna plays loudly and start shaking my body, with twerking here and there.

"Please get down, do you want Langa to kill me? Please get down." He begs and I shake my head.

"We are having fun, aren't we?"

"Get down tu."

"NO!" I turn around and face the bar and go down twerking. When I turn back everyone has their phone pointed at me.

"Please get down." Shame, I should do this to him all the time. I get down and he pulls me away while everyone is clapping for me.

"I told you not to embarrass me...what is this?"

"Yho, Girl you have over two thousand views on your video. You are trending." What! That's the last thing I wanted. I reach for my phone in my bag and get ten missed calls from both Samantha and Patrick and a voice message from Langa. When I look at Lindo busy on his phone, he turns and looks at me.

"We need to go, right now."

"What happened?" I ask. Already sobering up.

"Princess has been admitted."

*****

The ride here has been very quiet, Lindo was driving like a maniac, and I don't even blame him. So many things going through my head. One of them, I shouldn't have gone out and leaving her like that. She was fine though.

"She is going to be fine." He says, bringing me back from my thoughts. I don't say anything.

"She is very strong, like her mother."

"I will die if something happens to her."

"Nothing will happen to her."

"You don't know that."

This definitely feels like Déjà vu.

We finally arrive at the hospital, and everyone is here.

"Is she okay?" I ask Sam and get rudely answered by Langa.

"Where have you been? What kind of a mother are you leaving my daughter and going out?"

"Langa, calm down." His mother reprimands him.

"Langa, if you are looking for someone to blame you can blame me and not her."

"Lindo, stay out of this! Wena, if something happens to her, you will regret it, I'm telling you." He seethed before walking away.

What have I done?

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