Nokukhanya (Chapter 10)

Chapter 10

●Nokukhanya Ngwenya

I’m so excited finally I will be a qualified CA and if everything goes according to my plans maybe I will do my Master’s as well but one thing at a time. I woke up feeling light today I even dreamt of my parents last night and they were happy so happy that my mother kept on touching my stomach. Speaking of my stomach how crazy was my Nana though thinking I’m pregnant I mean how can I be pregnant I only slept with that married man nje kphela and no one else and it happened once basically I’m still sealed as he said. I’m still a virgin so how can I fall pregnant if I slept with one person and only once.

You sound so stupid right now. Wake up and go get your degree you are embarrassing me right now... how dare you think like that? Don’t you know that having sex …unprotected sex for that matter leads to babies? Don’t be stupid. Fuck you bitch! I tell my subconscious and the bitch leaves after flipping her hair and showing me her middle finger.

My head was buzzing with various options …scenes and all that shit that happens inside one’s head last night and it was so hard to sleep because I am so confused, I mean how can my grandmother think that even this bitch now is getting me paranoid. I can’t be pregnant I am not ready to have someone call me mommy I mean I am still a child myself. Enough! Get up and get ready you still need to come up with a lie to tell your Nana why you leaving here instead of at your house.

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The auditorium is crowded.  Shit! I never knew we had this many students here. I had to come in early so they can prep us you know the clever students the ones that get distinctions for all their modules and we not that many it’s just five of us…2 boys and 3 girls. Girl power! Anyway, the ceremony is about to start. My Nana walks in looking so ever beautiful with her long dress I’m telling this one used to turn heads she is simply breath-taking and my friend with her small baby bump looks very sexy.

As the Chancellor gets to his feet and starts the ceremony with his speech, I’m busy scanning the hall to see where my family is at and my eyes lands on his…WAIT he is here? But why? What the hell is he doing here?  I watch Langelihle looking deliciously handsome with his black suit that looks like it was tailored on him and a fresh haircut and I find myself thinking about my first time with him on how delicate he was with me… looks like he lost some weight there though. I sink into my seat trying to make myself as invincible as possible and I fail miserably because the moment my eyes go back to him, he is gazing at me.

The ceremony takes about two hours to finish I mean I did say they were a lot of students here today. Finally, I get called by my sexy faculty Chancellor on the stage to get my degree. When I return to my seat, I do a little twerk and a twirl, and everyone laughs, my inner goddess… the bitch is definitely not pleased with this as I cannot dance to save myself, I would die on the spot should they ever ask me to dance but hey look at me twerking in front of the whole auditorium like I’m a video vixen or something.

“Seriously you had to do that in front of everyone just right after getting a degree Khanyo?” Mxm! This bitch just had to call me that though. Ignore her she just wants to piss you off and today is your happy day. The Goddess says and I agree with her this time.

“My baby girl has gotten herself a degree. I’m so proud of you my sunshine.”

“Thank you, Nana…” I say giving her a hug. Oh, I love this woman and I pray to God that he keeps her until I’m more established in life there’s more, I still need to do for her. I still need to spoil her rotten and she still needs to meet her grand-grandchildren.

“You did good Kid and I’m proud,” Mzwandile says earning a look from my girls. But I don’t know why he calls me kid I mean we are like six years apart he can even be my boyfriend for all I care since there’s no ring on his finger plus I haven’t met any of his girlfriends since I started working with him.

“Thank you, Boss.”

“You know the big boss would like to meet you. Please come with me if you don’t mind.”

“Ahh, why does he want to meet with me? I’m not in trouble, am I? I mean I did submit all my findings to you and everything was clear on your side you did not steal the money. Why does he want to check my references because I did tell you that my previous work experience was washing dishes dirty dishes and nothing else…Mzwandile you know thi…”  I stop talking when I find everyone looking at me like I've grown two horns. Even my poor gogo is sitting down. It’s because you were blabbering you moron you know you can’t stop talking when you get nervous. I roll my eyes at this bitch.

“Yho! Calm down will you? He just wants to congratulate you nothing else and there was no need to mention that in front of everyone.” He scolds.

“Sorry…”

“Miss Ngwenya.” For real though did he have to come here and disturb my peace?

“Mr Gumede, how are you doing?”

“You guys know each other?” Poor Mzwandile.

“Yes, we do. We’ve met before right Nokukhanya?”

“Right. Excuse me please I need to take my Nana home now it's late.” I need to get away from this man I only want to see me suffer I mean that’s the only reason that he didn’t give me a job angisho.

“You are not running away from me, aren’t you?”

“Why would she?” – Mzwandile.

“Sunshine do you know this man? Who is this man?” Can this floor swallow me please? Can I just die and disappear?  When I turn to Cindy, she is having the time of her life with my misery.

“Nana this is Langelihle Gumede…Mr Gumede meet my grandmother.” I watch as they exchange greetings and all the formalities and all I want to do is run…run Nokukhanya and never look back.

This man is a temptation a delicious sin I wouldn’t want to commit.  Since that day he took me in his bed and had his ways with me I’ve been thinking a lot about him and I dream about him too and when that happens, I find my fingers going down there. I touch myself to a point that I can’t even breathe anymore.

“Nokukhanya…” Oh someone is calling me. I think I zoned out there.

“Sunshine are you okay? You look flushed.” I am flushed. All of a sudden, it's hot in here and I’m finding it difficult to breathe.

“Yeah, yeah I’m okay Nana. We need to get going. Bye, Mr Gumede please say hi to your brother for me.” That fucker. What a rude person and I wish to never meet him ever again or it's going to down between me and him I swear.

I tell them and walk away. I don’t need him to look at me like he was looking at me just now. I feel naked when he does that and it leaves me empty and I hate feeling like that. I get outside and take a huge deep breath I was suffocating in there. Why did I have to sleep with a married man and actually catch feelings afterward? I thought me not seeing him since that day would have crushed my little crush but damn these stupid feelings. They just decided to come out from wherever they were and ruin my day.

“Are you okay?” He speaks so softly I swear if I didn’t smell him, I wouldn’t have heard him. See why I need to get away from him and get over these feelings. I know his scent now, a scent that doesn’t belong to me but someone else and I know it.

I close my eyes and inhale deeply before I look at him.

“Yeah, I’m good wena.”

“I’m okay too, congratulations on obtaining your degree.” He says and looks away from me. What’s wrong with him.

“Thanks, why are you here?” I ask.

“I was invited.”

“By who? I didn’t know you knew people here.” I mean how does he know anyone here, his business is not even that big, is it?

“I was invited by the Dean Nokukhanya he is an old family friend. How have you been? I haven’t seen you since you stormed out from my house.”

“I did not storm out, I walked out and I did it gracefully and I’ve been good.”

Bitch why are you even lying you did storm out and threaten the poor man. Do you see how sexy he is today? Look at his tie …mmmh.  Oh my God, I bet we can drag him with it and pull him to bed and just have our way with him you know returning the favor so you can stop touching yourself.

“Been sick you know throwing up and finding everything smelling funny. Thanks for asking.” He says sarcastically and I show him my smile.

This is too much for me. He's been sick? He doesn’t look sick. Why is he telling me this? Shouldn’t he be sharing this with his wife? Where is my family when you need them to show up, they just disappear without a trace?

“I’m glad you feel better you look better even. One would say you were lying.”

“Are you calling me liar Nokukhanya?” He asks.

“Of course, not why would I do that?”

“Have you slept with anyone else since our night together?” I frown and watch him look everywhere but me. He has been doing a lot of that since he got here. And how dare he!

“Excuse me! How dare you ask me that.”

“It was just an honest question. No need to get all dramatic about it.”

“Yeah, whatever! I need to leave and I do not appreciate you asking me about my private life Mr. Gumede, do you see me asking you about your life?” I ask and he just looks at me. Let me just walk away from this man before I throw myself at him again.

He grabs my arm and pulls me to him close enough that we breathing the same air.

“Dammit Nokukhanya marn! It’s a yes or no answer nothing more nothing less! So, did you sleep with anyone else after me?”

“Why does it matter to you huh? And let go of me you are hurting my arm.”

“Did you or did you not.” He says angrily this time.

“Ummm…”

“There you are, I’ve been looking all over for you,” Cindy says clearly looking shocked after the position I was with this man.

“Are you okay? Nana is looking for you, she’s tired now. We need to leave.”

“Yes, I’m coming. We are done here Mr. Gumede, right?”

“No, we not done here, Cindy please give us a minute.” Excuse me what!

“What do you mean we not done?” I shoot him a deadly look.

“We still talking, aren’t we? And plus, you haven’t answered my question.” Bloody hell.

“I need to leave Langa and you are not going to stop me and by the way, you are the only man I slept with not that is any of your business but I guess you knowing that will make you sleep better at night. Good night.”

How dare he grabs me like that, I don't belong to him. Bloody bastard!

“What was that about?” Cindy asks me as soon as we out of sight from him.

Am I not glad that she did not hear that I slept with him otherwise I would be getting a lecture for sleeping with a married and I wonder what was that about?

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“What are we doing here? You leave here now? How did this happen?” Here goes my life. I’m dying today.

“I moved out Nana and I found this place for myself you know so I can be an independent young woman and it’s a lovely and safe place.”

“Sunshine you are not answering me. When did this happen? Judging by your furniture in here, you have been staying in here for a long time, am I wrong.”

“You are right Gogo, I moved out because your daughter wasn’t treating me right if stayed there, we wouldn’t even be here right now, I would have failed my matric.”

I watch her as she closes her eyes and sits down.

“I had to Nana otherwise I wouldn’t have got my degree khona manje. Your daughter is evil and she is even selling my father’s house without telling me.”

“Nokukhanya…what…what are you say…saying.” Why is she stuttering now? When I turn to look at her, she is struggling to breathe.

I take my phone and dial the ambulance.

“Nana please don’t do this to me.”

Langa Gumede

For the first time in years, I think I may be losing my touch or something. How can she leave me hanging like this? I’m relieved that she hasn’t slept with anyone else but me so if she is indeed expecting then it's mine. Still, how is she not afraid of me? Why isn’t she drooling after me like the rest of them?

I’m still standing here still on the same spot where she left me and I’m finding it hard to move. What is she doing to me though, why can’t I get her off my head?

I send a request to my PA to send me her address then get my driver to follow them. I will not be leaving this issue hanging I need to know i8f she is pregnant so we can handle this like real adults and maybe start a relationship. Okay okay I know I’m pushing it right now she is as stubborn as they get.

“Langelihle uyaphi.?” My mother, Lord bless her soul, and I'm very grateful that she is still here with me but she is too much now. I mean was it necessary to track my phone like I’m a two-year-old.

“I’m trying to get you your grandchild ma.”

“What do you mean? You told me you did not sleep with anyone. Are you dating Langelihle?”

“I’m single Ma but I think I like this one but she is driving me crazy,” I confess.

“Langa…”

“Can I tell you when I get back please?”

“Are you okay?”

“I am Ma. I will see you later nyana.”

I had to tell her something because she was never going to stop asking me questions and right now, I’m not in the mood actually I need to puke. I ask Stan to stop the car by the side of the road so I can take out whatever is stuck in my throat.

I get done with vomiting nothing and this what pisses me off vomiting nothing. When I get inside the car we get past by a speeding ambulance.

“Stan, how far are we till we get there.”

“Almost there, Sir.”

We get to her place and it’s busy, people running around and all. I’m not a people’s person in fact I find it very hard to socialize with new people, it's funny how at the office or during meetings and meeting new clients I’m this untouchable top dog but put me in front of people to social, I would die. So, I kindly request my driver to find out if we at the right place or not. Definitely, she leaves here however that ambulance that passed us back there was her and grandmother that’s why Stan is driving like a maniac now following my orders.

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“Mr. Gumede, what are you doing here?” Cindy.

“I wanted to speak to your sister but I was told you guys are here. Are you okay?” I ask while my eyes are on her. She isn’t even looking at me I don’t even think she even noticed I was here.

“I found her like this.” She tells me when she sees that I’ve been staring at her. I’ve been here before with my wife. Waiting for the impossible to happen when I knew that they wouldn’t survive that accident yet I still prayed to the man above for them to make it. I make my way to her and sit next to her.

“Are you okay?” I ask clearly not expecting any reply from her because I know what she is going through her grandmother means a lot to her.  The pain of not knowing what will happen is what drains you and right now is more scared of losing her. I reach out to her and our hands entwined. She turns and looks at me then our hands.

“She’s all I have.” She says softly.

“I know.”

“I cannot lose her.” I wish I can tell her that she is going o be fine but at the same time I really don’t want to lie to her.

“You know what I was scared for happened today and if something happens to her, I will never forgive myself.

“Ngwenya! Sibongile Ngwenya!” We both turn to look at the Doctor calling out her grandmother’s family and she quickly stands up and still holding my hand.

“She’s my grandmother… is she… is she okay?”

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