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Two in one day because I just love y'all aggravating asses so much 😌❤️

Three weeks later...

Angel

It's been three weeks since I've last seen Caroline and honestly I'm just taking everything one day at a time.

She's called, but I don't answer the phone. After a week of her calling and me not returning them, I guess she got the clue that I didn't want to talk to her or I'll call when I'm ready. I still don't know if I want her to be in my life or not.

All I know is, I'm getting bigger and I don't need to stress about anything.

I'm now 7 months pregnant and in my third trimester. I'm falling in love with being able to see and feel my baby move all around in my stomach.

I also just took my maternity leave, so I've been at home and bored lately. All I do is lay around, eat, work on my clothing line, and help Steph and Zoie plan for the baby shower.

I miss going to work everyday and being able to make the patients smile, even while they're hurting.

My friends have been a great help though. They make sure I never feel lonely while I'm at home on leave. They all make sure they come by and visit me.

Dave comes by every morning before he goes to work, on his lunch break, and on his way home from work. He brings me breakfast, lunch, and dinner everyday.

He even cooks for me whenever he has time. He's been so busy with the gym lately. It's a big hit.

After we kissed, you'd think that things would be awkward, but they haven't been. It happened and we just never talked about it again...

We really didn't have time because we were to tied up with the situations that I just got done going through.

Stephanie and Zoie come over every night after their shift is over telling me about work and keeping me updated.

Right now, their loud asses were laying in my bed eating. They brought pizza and snacks over. They even drug Kendall here with them.

"Y'all this pizza is good as FUCK!..." Kendall said with his mouth full. "Bitch I can tell by how you smacking!" Steph mugged him.

"Oop! AHHHH!" Zoie yelled out. "Nu uh Zoe, I know you ain't laughing! You chew like a damn goat." Kendall said. We laughed.

Zoe straightened up quick. "UH WAIT HOLD UP BITCH WHAT WE NOT GONE DO-" He walked over to him and playfully mushed his head. Kendall almost dropped his piece of pizza.

"Bitch you lucky Ian drop my pizza! It would've been me and you!" He pointed at him.

"Whatever! Ooh y'all, let's play 21 questions!" Zoe exclaimed. I rubbed my belly and sat up. "Alright!" We all said.

"Alright! Ummmm, Steph! Are you a spitter or a swallower?" He turned to Steph.

"A swallower..." Kendall mumbled and we all busted out laughing. "A swallower..." She said low. "See I knew it!" Kendall exclaimed.

"Wait so you just swallow every nigga nut who's dick you suck?!" Zoe scrunched up his face.

"NO NO! I didn't suck every nigga dick I fucked with though. You had to be special for me to put my mouth on you, let alone swallow your nut. And I only met two special people. And one I rarely ever saw so." She said.

"That's how I am too..." I spoke up.

"Angel girl LIES! You probably never sucked a dick in your life! You look like a licker." Kendall said. They laughed. "Just over there licking it like it's a Tootsie Pop!" Zoe said dying.

"No I have! I've sucked a dick before!" I frowned. "Angel, girl you only had sex with two people in your whole life: Dave and Amir." Steph held up two fingers.

"And Dave look like a pleaser so I know it wasn't him." Kendall said.

"Wait hold up ni. Just because somebody's a pleaser doesn't mean they don't like to be pleased... You can lose your man thinking like that." Zoe argued.

"That's true..." Stephanie said holding her glass of wine up to him.

"No I'm not saying that! I'm just saying Dave doesn't look like the type to- well let's just let Angel answer! Angel, have you ever sucked Dave's dick? Did he ever ask you or was he to busy pleasing you?" Kendall asked me.

"He was to busy pleasing me..." I said softly. "See!" He yelled at them.

"Well bitch that's just him! But I'm sure if Angel initiated it, he wouldn't stop her." Zoe said crossing his legs.

"Hell no he wouldn't. Dave's a freak. If he turned down head, I'd probably think he was gay." I said biting my pizza.

"Alright next question!" Steph yelled. "Zoe have you ever had sex with a girl?"

He shook his head no. "No, but I've ate a girl out before." Well looked at him shocked. "WHAT?!" We said in unison.

"Yeah! I've fingered a girl before too."

"How was it?" I snickered. "Bitch it was salty as fuck. Neva again. That was a whole lotta whole lotta." He said making us burst into laughter.

"You just ate the wrong cat. Or she hadn't washed her pussy." I said.

"Right! Its was either supposed to taste like nothing or it was supposed to taste sweet." Steph co-signed.

"Okay okay my turn!" I yelled. "Kendall, have you ever shitted while having sex?" Steph almost spit her drink out.

"No, I always douche before I have sex. Gay men have to. I mean unless you don't mind shit everywhere." He shrugged.

"GIRL LIES. It probably be shit all on that condom." Zoe said.

"Lies you tell. You tried it!" Kendall exclaimed.

"Alright alright, my turn again!" Zoe said smiling. "Steph, would you rather have a three some with your man and another guy, or your man and another girl?"

"Damn what kind of 21 questions is this?" I furrowed my eyebrows.

"Okay girl... Because this is very explicit." Kendall said drinking some of his wine.

Steph sat there for a minute. "Ooo I don't know... This one is hard!"

"Just choose one friend!" Zoe yelled.

"No because like- I don't knowwww! Do I HAVE to choose one?"

"You have to choose one." Zoe said.

"I mean I'm a freak, but I don't think I can take two peens at the same time-" Zoe laughed at her using his word peen. "and Ian gone lie, I'd probably think he was a lil gay if he agreed to that."

"And I would probably kick the bitch out if she start getting to comfortable and start touching him to much. I just couldn't see my nigga fucking another bitch. I mean the only way I'd be able to do it is if he don't fuck her or kiss her. I'd let him touch her titties and shit like that and get head from her though." She shrugged.

We all nodded our heads. "That's understandable. I see what you're saying." I said.

"Y'all it's supposed to be lit at Club Wave tonight..." Kendall said as he looked down into his phone.

"Ooh y'all let's go!" Zoie said. I shook my head. "Nope I'm not going to no club or party pregnant." He sucked his teeth and turned to Stephanie.

"Steph let's go!" She shook her head. "Oh no..." I drew my head back at her.

Every since her and Jaceyon broke up a month ago, she hasn't been her same goofy, joyful self. Even when she smiles; her smile isn't as bright as it once was.

She doesn't go out anymore like she used to. She doesn't go anywhere anymore now that I think about it. No where but work, my house, and home.

"Girl every since you broke up with Jd, you've been acting weird!" Kendall pointed his finger at her.

"Yeah bitch like wassup?" Zoie co-signed.

"What?! Y'all nothing is up! I just haven't been wanting to go out anywhere!" She argued.

"And why the fuck not?!" They both yelled. "That's not like you Steph... You never turned down turning up..." Zoe said. She sighed.

"Come on Steph..." Kendall said to her. "Yeah I think it'll be fun for you guys!" I said praying she'd give in.

I wanted my friend to go out and have fun like she used to. I've never seen her this down before. Stephanie was always the kind of person who still laughed and smiled through all their pain. She's been so down lately...

She groaned. "Alright! Alright! I'll go..."

We all screamed. "AYYYE BITCH OUR LIFE LIT BITCH OUR LIFE LIT" Kendall yelled as he danced.

Stephanie

I pulled up to Club Ocean and waited for Kendall to send a text through the group chat.

KenDoll 😍: Alright y'all, y'all can come in. We're in the VIP section. You'll see me. I have on a sparkly jacket.

I hopped out my car and walked straight inside the club. Big G was guarding the door so I didn't have to wait in line.

"Ohhh wassup Steph?!" G said side hugging me.

"Hey G! How are you?" I asked smiling. "I'm good, I'm good!"

Damn, how many jobs that nigga got?

The club was packed. I walked into VIP and soon seen Kendall out of all of the people that were in the club.

It wasn't hard. That nigga looked like a damn disco ball with that bright ass jacket on.

Once he saw me, he pulled his phone out recording me. "Yes ma'am! You giving me bat woman tease!" Kendall screamed.

I put my middle finger up to the camera. "Fuck you light bright." I said chuckling. I sat down.

"Where the hell Zoie at?" I scrunched my face up.

"Girl sis ass went to go get us some drinks!" Kendall said excited.

Just as he said that, Zoe walked up to the couch with 3 drinks in his hand. "Thanks boo." We said as we took them.

"OOH FRIENDDD! YOU GIVING ME BAT WOMAN TEASE!" Zoie yelled and Kendall busted out laughing.

"FUCK BOTH OF YALL!" I yelled dying.

"You cute though! I like it... And that ass sitting up right! Yessss!" Zoe yelled. I just brushed him off, sipping on my drink.

***

I sat on the couch by myself and watched as Zoie and Kendall entertained they cute snacks at the bar.

Kendall then walked back up to me. "Girl come on! It's a billion fine niggas in here! Come catch you one! Let's dance, something! Come on let's have fun! You've been sitting here all night..." He frowned.

I shook my head. "Kendall I'm fine right here!" I yelled over the music.

"You sure?" He mouthed. I nodded my head. "Yes..."

He just shrugged. "Alright friend... Ima get you another drink!" He said walking away.

I looked at my glass. I hadn't even finished my first drink...

I sighed and put it down.

I watched all the people in the club smiling and laughing. I could do the same, but it wouldn't be genuine...

I honestly truly haven't been happy since I was with him. I haven't talked to him or seen him since that night I told him about me not being able to have children.

Usually when Glenn would disappear, I would just say fuck it and find a hoe to keep me company. But this time, I couldn't do that even if I wanted to.

All I wanted was him... I missed him.

Me not being able to have kids definitely affects my confidence and self esteem. Another thing that stops me from seeing other people and moving on is me coming to the conclusion that no man truly wants a woman that can't give him kids. I feel worthless.

I thought that's what women were put on this earth for: to birth. If I can't birth, then why am I here?... What's my purpose?...

I have all the things that everyone asks for: money, a great career, nice expensive wardrobe, a fancy car, a beautiful house, a fancy lifestyle.

People think having those things will make your life better and easier. They think it'll make you happy. Well, I'm one of many to say that they are wrong. It's not true.

I would give it all up just to have a family... To have a husband and a child. That's unconditional love that I'll never get to feel.

Sometimes I wonder if my parents abusing me all my life has something to do with me not being able to conceive.

My heart broke as I thought about my parents.

I haven't talked to them in months. They got mad at me because I told them I couldn't send them anymore money.

I've been paying all their bills and mine every since I started working at the hospital years ago.

It's not like my parents don't work or anything, because they do. It's just that my dad has a huge gambling problem.

He gambles away his money and hers. So my mom calls me and asks for money. And I after I send that, he does the exact same thing and spends the money I send them to clean up his mess. My mom calls again begging for more.

What's the point in me sending it if he's just going to spend it? They don't even tell me thank you...

I shifted in my seat feeling uncomfortable and hot. I was horny. It's hard having to go from getting the best sex you've ever had in your life all day everyday to not getting any at all.

I'm ready to go home. I've been here long enough. I look down and grabbed my purse.

I looked up again and saw a tall woman with a blonde pixie cut across the room.

She looks kind of familiar...

I focused my eyes more on her. She was holding on to something, but I couldn't see because someone stepped in the way.

After moving my head trying to see, they finally moved out the way.

She was kissing and hugging on a man that was the same height as her. She was blocking his face.

After she pulled away, she turned around smiling. It allowed me to see both of their faces. My heart dropped.

It was Jaceyon and his ex fiancé Kelis...

Jd told me about every woman he'd ever dealt with throughout his life, and she was one of the girls he mentioned.

He met Kelis when he was 26. She was the first girl he got serious with. Things were great at first. Two years in, he proposed to her. Two weeks after, he found out that she was sleeping with his best friend the entire time they were together. He was in love with her and still wanted to work it out. She said okay and they went on with their lives. She began to mistreat him and over the course of their relationship, she would spend all of his money that he brought home from the streets like it was no tomorrow. They found out that she was pregnant, but she decided to terminate it without asking or talking with him about it first. A week before their wedding, she moved all of her things out of their apartment and left while he was out working one day. Granted Kelis was beautiful, but she wasn't beautiful inside. She put him through hell and came into his life with ill intentions. He told himself that he'd never go back to her again.

Well as you can see, that part was a lie.

Tears fell out of my eyes as I stared at them, watching them interact with each other.

Is that where he went that day he stormed out the house?

He looked over and his smile faded. Our eyes connected. We started at each other in shock.

I came to my senses and broke eye contact. I grabbed my purse and hurried out of the club.

I faintly heard him calling my name. It sounded like he was far away, which was good. I ran to the parking lot and hopped in my car. I wasted no time starting it.

I pulled off.

***

I laid my head on the steering wheel.

I didn't mean to fall in love with Jaceyon, but I did. I hate myself for it too...

I sent a text to the group chat.

Steph No Curry ❤️: Hey y'all, I left. I'm home now. Text me when you guys make it home.

Zoie 🧚🏾‍♂️: Alright boo!

KenDoll 💁🏽‍♀️: Alright girl...

I sighed and got out the car. Shutting the door, my heart nearly stopped.

"Steph..." I jumped and quickly pulled my gun out of my purse and turned around, pointing it at them.

I sighed and put it down. "Jd what the fuck are you doing here?!" I yelled. He stepped up to me.

"I just wanna talk to you..." He grabbed my hand. I snatched it back. "No! You didn't wanna talk to me when you left the house, so don't talk now."

"Stephanie I'm sorry for walking out the way that I did, but you were wrong!" He yelled.

"And I apologized! You think I wanna be this way?! You think I wouldn't want anything more than to have a baby?! You making it seem like it's my fault I can't have kids! You left me!" I yelled back.

"Steph stop making it seem like I left because you can't have kids! I LEFT because you kept that shit from me! You kept everything from me! I told you everything! You didn't have to find out shit!" I scoffed and waved him off.

"I kept it from you because I was afraid how you'd react! When I told Glenn that, he left me! That's why he was in and out of my life: I couldn't give him kids!" My voice cracked. He sighed.

"Stephanie,-"

"Go back home to Kelis. That's who you love anyway. What happened to 'Ohhhh what we had is over and I'd never go back to her'" I imitated him.

"I didn't reach out to her Steph! She reached out to ME saying how she changed and how sorry she was!"

"And you believed her..." I shook my head. "You know that's funny: You leave someone you love and that loves you because they tell you they can't give you kids but you go back to someone who doesn't give a fuck about you and can give you kids but kills them because of her own selfish ways."

"STEPHANIE IT WASN'T ABOUT THAT! YOU HID A LOT OF SHIT FROM ME AND LED ME ON TO SOMETHING THAT YOU COULD'VE EASILY TOLD ME ABOUT!" He yelled.

"I had my reasons!!! I shouldn't have kept things from you but I did and I apologized. Jaceyon I'd never hurt you the way that she did. I'd never break you down like that! You could've just told me if you didn't want to be with me anymore. You didn't have to walk out and disappear like that. I just hope it's better this time." I stared to walk away from him.

"Steph wait!" He grabbed my hips and squeezed them, pulling me back. I turned around.

I looked up at him and into his eyes feeling tears sting mine. "I never wanna see you again."

I got out of his grip and walked into the house, not looking back.

Well y'all...

That's why Jd was so upset when Steph told him she couldn't have kids: Because she hid it from him and led him on about it and the child that was supposed to be on the earth with him was taken away by it's mother. So he kind of felt like damn yanno? Am I ever going to be able to have a child?

Oh and this is Kelis btw. 🌚

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