74 - Your dreams

Sanem

- What plane?

I lift my head from his shoulder looking at him surprised and confused, I've been busy with the last details of the work with the American agency these days and it was Can who took care of the tickets for the return, or at least that's what I thought until now.

He smiles slyly and takes my hand to bring it to his lips with a look full of all the love he has rediscovered in his heart, now that doubts and fears have been swept away I can see it clearly.

- Can? -

- Did I or did I not promise you that I would devote the rest of my life to the sole purpose of making you happy Sanem Divit? I want to start right now, we don't have any big work commitments in the near future, you need time and calm to continue writing your book and I will do everything to make it happen for you then....-

He stops the car on the side of the road and pulls out "our" bandana from his trouser pocket and shows it to me, smiling.

- I want to spoil you and amaze you every moment aşkım my love, I want to show you how much seni çok seviyorum I love you, I want to make your every dream come true and I want to discover the whole world with you -

I look at him moved and adoring, this man manages to amaze me and to make me love him somehow always more than I think is humanly possible, I reach out smiling through the tears to place a kiss of love and devotion on his lips, I look into his eyes laying bare my heart in a single glance and then I simply tell him:

- My most beautiful dream is only you -

- Ah Sanem ah, you'll make my heart burst with love one of these days, I can almost feel it overflowing from this poor muscle which has never experienced such intense emotions in the past -

We look at each other for a long time then he recovers - Let's go now, I'm anxious to show you my surprise, come here and let me blindfold you -

I let him tie the bandana around my head as I feel I am unable to stop smiling, then I reach out a hand to him who promptly takes it and places it on his thigh as he restarts the engine and starts up again.

- Anyway, on a side note, I'd like to tell you Can Divit that I too feel my heart bursting with love for you, it always has been and it always will be, apparently there's no limit to how much it can hold because I feel it can only grow larger and larger -

He takes my hand and brings it to his lips in a devotional kiss of the kind only he can give me, driving my heart in love crazy.

He drives in silence until I finally hear the car stop, turn off the engine, open the door on my side and his hand helps me down. His arm guides me, resting on my back as we walk a few hundred metres and I feel the sea breeze ruffling my hair, we must be close to the beach I guess.

Finally we stop, I feel him reach behind me, he embraces me putting one hand on my stomach while the other starts to untie the knot in the bandana that prevents me from seeing. I feel a chill on my skin feeling his warm breath on my neck as he whispers softly in my ear:

-Are you ready to discover the future that awaits us in the coming months together aşkım my love? -

I nod smiling, finally the bandana is removed and my mind struggles to believe what my eyes are looking at, I shake my head, how is this possible?

- Can? How... how did it get here? -

- OUR boat Sanem, you told me it's ours now right? I had an experienced sailor friend of mine bring it here.

She turns around to face me and hugs me tightly, rests her forehead on mine smiling.

- If you agree I'd like to make your dream come true, remember I told you about having a flash of us on a pier while you were telling me about your dream of becoming a writer? Well I also remember that you then added that you wanted to move to the Galapagos to do it. The first dream, what a wonderful and strong-willed woman you are, you realised it all by yourself and now I want to be the one to realise the other part of that daydream, how about hoisting the sails towards Galapagos and our life together Sanem?

I bring my hands to my mouth in disbelief, I can't believe that he has done all this for me, that he has brought our boat from Turkey so that we can leave together towards my dream, towards my deepest desires.

I wrap my arms around his neck, unable to say a word, it's too much, as he said just now, I feel my heart bursting from the love I feel for this exceptional and unique man.

- Oh Can... - I whisper through the tears of emotion and the little kisses I place on his lips and face in a rush of love that I can't contain.

He takes my hand and helps me aboard what will be our home and our future for the months to come. I'm excited to take this long trip with him, to share this passion and this reality that, even more than our flat on the beach in San Diego, will be out of time, in a space that is uniquely ours.

I watch him move confidently from one side of the boat to the other to prepare all the necessary manoeuvres to go out to sea, I am fascinated and charmed by his grace and the sensuality of his every movement. Every now and then he turns to look at me smiling, he is as happy as I am, I can't believe this is really happening.

We set sail when the sun is already setting, I watch the coast and the city of San Diego move away and slowly become a distant dot between sky and sea, I watch Can with confident gestures manoeuvre the rudder of the boat that moves fast pushed by a warm wind that I feel with pleasure caressing my skin. The sun has gone down quickly and has now disappeared beyond a horizon illuminated by every possible shade of red, orange and yellow.

I turn to Can to comment on the very beauty of the incredible spectacle we are witnessing when I see a strange expression on his face, he shakes his head several times bringing his hand to his temple.

- Can? Can, are you alright? -

I see him mechanically moving his hands among the instruments on board until the boat begins to decelerate to a complete stop, lulled only by the slow movement of the waves, Can does nothing but stare blankly ahead.

I get up worriedly to go to him and put my hand on his cheek - Can aşkım, what's wrong? Are you OK? -

My call seems to shake him out of the sort of trance he seems to have fallen into, he shifts a strange, almost surprised look on me and I see his eyes move to my face as if he is seeing me for the first time.

- Sanem? -