CH 47

Chapter 47: No Resistance?

How did this happen?

I thought in the corner of my mind while looking down below me at Sara. She was pressed down onto the white sheets of my bed.

“Hey, Sara. Remember when I said that you are very attractive and loved by both men and women?”

What came to mind seeing Sara’s eyes was shocking. Is she not scared about this? Both her arms were trapped by me, I was pinning her down with my body, she was completely ensnared.

However, my heart was hurting. Despite this her trust in me was still unwavering.

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So each of us took turns taking a bath.

After my father came home, the four of us peacefully ate dinner. Our usual dinner was lit up alot with an additional person, and It seems that Sara was really enjoying that atmosphere. It is almost comical to believe that this was the same nervous person shivering before my house.

Sara took the bath before me. Taking a bath after your crush is. . .well, I had a lot of things to think about. I felt like an adolescent boy.

I’m in the group of people that’d leisurely take baths even in the summer, but today I was too restless so I just took a shower.

When I stayed at Sara’s house I took a bath after Sara, but I wasn’t aware of my feelings then so I was fine.

When I returned to my room feeling like an adolescent boy in the body of a high school girl, the person who’s been in my mind was waiting on my bed.

Lightly dressed, barefeet, in that hot fluffy state after taking a bath.

What the heck is this torture? How could I not think about this? No, it’s not like I didn’t expect this when I invited her over, but reality has easily passed my expectation. I have no choice but regret my failure to prepare later.

I never thought how destructive the power is from seeing your  favorite person relaxing on the bed you always use.

“Welcome back Shiori-san.”

“I’m back.”

Just from this exchange I’m near a nosebleed.

“It’s still too early to go to bed, but I’ll go get my futon. It’s also good to get it while my mother is still awake.”

The real reason is I don’t have the courage to sit besides Sara.

“Do you really need to lay out a futon? Can’t we just sleep together?”

“No way. It’s hot, and narrow. I’m sorry but I can’t be your hug pillow.”

“Eh, it will be okay if we turn your Air Conditioner on. Let’s stick close together and sleep.”

I don’t even know how to respond. . .! Why did we decide to stay at my house instead of her’s then?

I would like it if you’d stop fanning these adolescent boys’ feelings and ulterior feelings. I’ve been trying to suppress them for a while now. Because it’s dangerous! Dangerous for you!

“Heyy, can’t we sleep together?”

She took my hand after standing up, inviting me with an innocent smile.

The lines that you must not cross were easily trampled over. She was amazingly defenseless. What popped into my head was not those ulterior motives or an adolescent boy’s hidden feelings, but a quiet irritation.

Here as a good friend, and as an older sister, she may need to be quietly reminded.

I knew that would be the correct answer. I knew it well, but that irritation that arose did not allow me.

“You really are. . .”

I untied our hands and grabbed Sara’s shoulder – – -slowly but with considerable force I pushed her towards the bed.

Riding the inertia from leaning over her we fell onto the bed. I restrained her hands near her face. She looked up at me in surprise.

The caramel-colored hair spread out onto my bed, as the scent of her shampoo fluttered up into my nose.

“Hey, Sara. Remember when I said that you are very attractive and loved by both men and women?”

“Y-Yeah. . .”

“Well I don’t think you are being vigilant enough, or this- – – is going to happen.”

Holding her body close to me, her upper body was blocked from moving. Her legs were sticking off of the bed, so I left them alone.

The softness of her cloth made my head flutter. How happy I’d be if I could strip off that obstacle, and see her soft skin hidden beneath it.

Yet despite her being laid down by me with these desires, Sara’s face was simply puzzled, she was simply surprised. Why?

Now matter how pure she could be, she wouldn’t be so stupid to not  know what’s going on. Even more with her saying she wants nothing to do with love. It’s impossible she doesn’t know.

Now it makes me want to try seeing how far I could go,

“Sara. . .Close your eyes.”

I said as I approached her face, and she closed her eyes tightly in a hurry.

Eh, She heard that right? Do you understand what it means?

That means a kiss, but you aren’t resisting?

I gazed at her nice colored lips.

If I was to say if I wanted or not, of course I want to. I really wanted to. I want to seal her lips with mine, just to taste it. Sara isn’t resisting. Her eyes are closed too. So it’s okay, right?

I slowly dropped my face, shortening the distance.

And- – –

*Gong!!!*

When the distance came zero. Our foreheads hit.

“Ouch~~~~~!”

“It didn’t hurt, the pain will wash away. You didn’ resist at all, you don’t know when to quit!”

“But-!”

After doing a headbutt, I quickly retreated from Sara. That position was dangerous. I don’t know if I could stop again.

“No buts! You were in a spot where you could have been robbed of your firsts, not just your first kiss!?”

“I know, but Shiori-san’s sex appeal is too strong? Or rather, oh my gosh I was surprised by how soft your breasts were. . .Um, plus if it’s Shiori-san then I wouldn’t hate it, so I guess it’d be okay.”

What is this, you trust me way too much.

I mean, you closed your eyes saying. . .you wouldn’t hate it. Then please tell me how far you would endure. . . actually I’m too scared to know.

“You were supposed to hate being pushed down. I’m really worried.”

“It’s fine, I’d push them away if it was someone else!”

“Do the same with me. Well, I’m going to grab the futon, so please reflect on it.”

“O~K.”

With that send off as she rubbed her forehead, as I left the room.

Now alone, I realized what I did, and processed Sara’s reaction. I’m really at my wit’s end.

It was dangerous. It was really dangerou! I wonder how I could last another two nights with her.

While scrutinizing my previous exchange, I sighed as I walked down the stairs in self-deprecation.