I made a deal with the devil and been looking for a loophole since - 10:14 PM

nothing left to lose, either way I have already lost my dignity

long ago when I gave myself up for judas himself.

no sweetness will ever come close to how delectable loss of self-respect

tasted on my cherry tongue.

so easy, so liberating, so destructive

I will never be the same again

I lost that self eons ago, I deserted her in the dark matter of the universe

no amount of searching will ever be enough to find what I wish for so dearly

but regardless I don't think my past self would ever look at me

without traces of disdain staining her physique.