undead - 7:37 PM

I try to remember the important facts

the vital things

things that will benefit me.

but unfortunately I've found

that the nightmares, the dreams, pure fantasy

seems to ingrain itself onto the inside of my skull

and the inside of my eyelids

perpetually feeding me lies

that no matter what I do

I cannot truly escape.

until one day I will gouge my eyes out

and smash my skull to ivory shards

maybe then I could start anew

and how could I forget

the thing that harbors all the murky memories?

removing brain from it's place

(using the term 'it's place' lightly, of course, for my brain has always felt out-of-place)

running my fingers across the curves and bumps

its repulsive slimy texture

causing the final tidal wave of hatred towards the thing

I rip the bloodied creature (for its a separate entity) apart

disregarding the squelching sounds that fill the room

up to the point where there is

nothing.

just a zombie with no memory

of who she was, is, or will be.

is that what you want?