array of emotions - 4:47 PM

as a new chapter

in my life begins

a new sense of

apprehension builds

in my chest, in my

throat. its presence

unwanted in my being.

still, it holds its

ground while i am

stuck thinking what

this next year will

bring me. i am aware

of my growth. however,

i am also terribly

aware of my habit

to dwell on the past.

the horrid comfort

i find in my sadness.

after all, it is all that

i have known.

so what will my future hold?

what will my life throw at me next?

only time will tell, i know.

unfortunately, time and i

have never gotten

along.