looking

it's funny, really.

how i can go so quickly

from believing that we're

more than what we are.

all it takes is a glance at you.

that's it.

and i'm sent spiraling back

into madness.

insanity.

i know that you don't

love me

like i love you

but

i guess i forget

very very quickly.

we can have the most brief exchange

of words and i

will believe that

you have fallen in love

with me again.

i'm so sorry because i didn't mean to end up like this, but it seems as if there's nothing i can do.

i keep looking for you

and finding you

looking for someone else.

i already knew what i would

find when i began looking, though.