CHAPTER : 22

They both sat there is silence. They both have their own side of feeling which they have to share but the words formed in their mouth were not coming out. Sai was angry on Virat for what he did to her but her heart was the same amount of happy on seeing him after so long. Virat, on the other hand was feeling guilty for all he did to her but his heart was not able to speak anything and just wanted to look and admire her face all day long. Finally Sai decided to break the ice and initiate the conversation.

Sai: It's been six year. Itne saalo baad aapko mujhse kya baat karni hai Mr. Virat?

Virat looked at sai with sudden expression. He wanted her to call him "Virat Sir" again but he remind himself that for her calling him that, he has a long way to go. He has to apologise for what he did and to make her forgive him.

Virat: Sai mein... Mujhe samajh nahi aa raha ki mein kaha se shuru karu. Mein...

Virat was falling short of words. He has a lot of things to say to her but he was having trouble from where to start the conversation.

Sai: aap kab se bolne se pehle sochne lag gaye Mr. Virat? Jaha tak mujhe yaad hai, aap toh kuch karne or bolne se pehle kuch sochte hi nahi hai. Phir aaj kyu soch rahe hai? Bol dijiye jo bolna hai jaise aap pehle se karte aaye hai.

Virat was hurt, but he also know that he will be hurt numerous times now, as Sai will taunt him and he also know that she has full right to taunt him, to shout on him and to hurt him. He understands that she is still angry on him and he will be happy to get hurt so that his love can forgive him.

Virat: Sai, mein tumse maafi magna chahata hu. Mujhe pata hai ki meine jo bhi kiya vo bahut galat tha. Meine apne parivaar pe bharosa kiya or unhone mujhe srif dhoka diya. Tumne mere parivar ke liye itna kuch kiya, Devi tai ki shaadi karai, Samrat ki madad ki, uski jaan bachai jiske liye mein tumhe jitna bhi thank you bolu utna kam hai, par meine tumpe bharosa nahi kiya, nahi meine tumhari baat suni, mein janta hu ki yeh tumhare liye bahut mushkil hoga par please kya tum ek baar, bas ek baar mujhe maaf kar sakti ho?

Virat knows that it is very difficult for Sai to forgive him but at least he can try his best to make her forgive him. Sai was sitting there in disbelief and was looking at Virat's face. She cannot belive that he expects her to forgive him that easily for the amount of pain she has to go throught just because of him.

Sai: Maafi? Aap mujhse maafi mang rahe hai? Mein kaise maaf kar du aapko? Mein yeh kaise bhul jao ki aapne ek baar, ek baar bhi mujhe sachai sabit karne ka mauka nahi diya. Kaise bhul jao ki aapne ek baar bhi apni biwi pe trust nahi kiya? Kaise bhul jao ki aapne mere character pe jo kechad uchla tha uske daag mitane mein mujhe kitni pareshani hui thi?

By the time Sai finished speaking, both of the them were having ears in their eyes. Both of them remembers the worst day of their life, when they got seperated from each other. Virat looked in her eyes and said.

Virat: mein janta hu ki meine tumhe bahut chot pahuchai hai. Meine jo bhi kiya vo bahut galat tha mein yeh bhi janta hu. Pata hai jab meine tumhe apni zindagi se nikal diya, tab se leke aaj tak meine srif dukh ke aasu roye hai. Mein apne aap ko kosta tha ki mujh mein hi  koi kami reh gai hogi ki Sai ne mujhe dhokha diya...

The tears in his eyes was rolling down his cheeks at a fast speed. He was confessing to everything which he did in the last six years hoping that it will help him to make her forgive him and give him an another chance in her life. His words were coming out from his mouth breaking in between because he was crying so bad. His eyes turned again to red and he can't control his emotions which were finally coming out from his heart after six years in front of his beloved.

Virat: Mein pagal ho gaya tha Sai jo apne baba or kaku pe bharosa kar liya. Unke baato mein aake mein yeh nahi dekh paya ki jis ladki ne mere liye or mere parivaar ke liye itna kuch  kiya, vo ladki aaisa kaam nahi kar sakti. Mera dil humesha yeh kehta raha hai ki tumne kuch nahi kiya par mere aanko ke saamne sabut the, jo ki sab jhoote the. Apne dil ki baat suno toh vo srif tumhe yaad karta tha par agar apne dimag ki baat suno toh usse vo saare jhoote sabut dikhai dete the. Meine jeena chod diya tha Sai kyuki tum meri zindagi mein nahi thi. Please mujhe maaf kar do sai. Please.

They both were crying. Sai remembered Samrat telling her about his brother. How much devastated and broken his brother was since his wife left him. How his brother used to go on dangerous missions and wanted to end his life. At that time she didn't know that Virat was the brother Samrat was referring to, but now after knowing the truth, she knows that Virat is not lying. She can see in his eyes that he is not lying. She used to feel bad for bad for Samrat's brother and now she was feeling bad for Virat. She knows that what he did was not his fault, entirely. The real culprits were Bhawani and Ninad who have left this world leaving a created big mess in  the life of the two people. But she still can't forget what he did to her. Besides breaking their marriage and not trusting her, he has also hurt her self respect and character fir which she can't forgive him that easily.

Sai: Theek hai, mana ki aap ne jo bhi kiya, vo sab jhoote sabut dekh kar kiya. Aapne humar rishta khatam karne se pehle ek baar bhi nahi soch ki mein aaisa nahi kar sakti thi kabhi or aapne jhoote sabuton ko dekh ker humara rishta aaise itni asani se khatam kar diya, theek hai maan liya. Yeh bhi maan liya ki aap aaj yaha pe jo kuch bhi mujhse keh rahe hai vo sab sach hai. Or chalo mein apna bada dil rakhte hue aapko humara rishta khatam karne ke liye, maaf karti hu kyuki vo rishta toh waise bhi khatam hi hona tha. Par Mr. Virat, aapne mere character pe jo keechad uchala tha vo, uska kya, ha? Aapne meri self respect ko hurt kiya tha or meri upbringing pe ungali uthai thi, mein vo aise bhul jao? Mein vo din kaise bhul jao jab aapne mujhe itna insult karke mujhe ghar se jaane ke liye keh diya tha? Kaise bhul jao mein?

Sai stopped in between and could not able to utter a single word because she noticed a sharp pain in his eyes. She was not able to understand why he was so in pain? He should be happy as she has forgiven him for ending their marriage which has to end at some point.

Virat heard what Sai said. He was happy when Sai said that she forgives him for ending their marriage and his heart jumps in joy but the very next moment, his heart was in pain again. How could she ever thing that their marriage would have ended if all this mess wouldn't have been created? How could she thinks that he would have let her go after she had completed her degree? He was planning to confess his love to her but she was still taking that marriage as a deal! How could she even think like that? He had thought that when he will meet Sai, he will keep patience and will listen to what ever she said, calmly. He was determined to make her forgive him, but hearing that she had always thought to end this marriage, make his blood boil in his veins. He thought that why couldn't she can understand his feelings  towards him? Why does she thinks that it will be that easy for her to go and l break the relation which they shared ? Then he remembered that he was only the one who said that she should not except any kind of husbandly expectations from him and he was also the one who thought to wait and confess his feeling towards her after she completes her degree. He calmed himself down when he realised that what Sai thinks or has said was only because of him taking the things in the opposite direction to what they should have gone in.

Not getting any answer from him, Sai thought that he don't have any explanations or answer to her questions so she decided to leave as she cannot tolerate his silence anymore and also it was getting dark and she should return home. There was no one around and she don't want to go home late as she would have to walk all the way to her house and she don't want to walk alone on the streets.

Sai: Nahi hai na aapke pass koi bhi javab? Nahi de sakte na mere sawalo ka javab? Aapse or umeed bhi kya kar hi sakti hu.

She got up and turned around. As soon as she started to walk in the opposite direction. Virat held her from her arms and turned her around. Once she faced him he got closer to Sai, only few inches apart and looked in her eyes. They both looked in each other's eyes noticing the red colour and pain in them. The tears were clearly visible in the dark night due to their closeness and also because of the moonlight falling on their face.

Virat: Tumhe kya lagta hai ki tumhe kisi or ke saath dekhna mere liye kisi saja se kam hai? Tumhe kisi aur ke saath dekhta hu toh mujhe jalan hoti hai, mujhe dukh hota hai. Mein janta hu ki tumhari shaadi hone wali hai or mein yeh bhi janta hu ki tumhari engagement ho chuki hai. Par shayad tum yeh nahi janti ki tumhe kisi or ke saath apni puri zindagi bitate dekh mein baar baar marunga. Mein nahi ji paonga tumhare bina. In beete saalo mein meine haar vo koshis ki hai jismein mein apni jaan de saku kyuki mein tumhare bina nahi jee sakta. Or ab mujhe puri zindagi tumhare bina jini padegi, kya vo saja mere liye kaafi nhi? Duniya ki sabse badi saja hai vo mere liye.

They both were close to each other and they can clearly see the pain and the tears  in each others eyes even in the darkness. They both know that the other person is in pain because they are not with each other. The chilled breeze blowing around them making their faces cold which has become hot due to constant crying. They both were looking in each other eyes. The closeness they were sharing was peaceful to them. They have waited six years to find peace and now they find it in each other's arms and being close to each other.