Chapter 0214 Rowan releases a groan uncomfortably. âCan we not talk about this? It was years ago.â
âTo answer your question, yes. I was still a virgin... Anyway,â I paused. âI told Calvin about the baby. I didnât want the child and I wanted to get rid of it, but he wouldnât let me.â
âYou wanted an abortion?â Mom asks, her voice ringing with horror and disappointment.
I couldnât do anything, but nod my head. âCalvin threatened to tell you and dad if I went ahead with my plans. I didnât want you to know about my mistake, so I agreed to carry the baby to term and he would keep his mouth shut. It was the worst period because I was forced to carry a baby I didnât want but had no other choice.â
âThat was during the time you completely stayed away.â Travis whispers. âYou wouldnât even allow us to come visit you.
Iâd made excuses during that time.
When I got bigger, Calvin took me to a house his grandfather owned, which he left to him when he died. I didnât want word to get back to Rowan. Thatâs where I stayed until I gave birth.
âI convinced the school to let me take online classes, and since I was actually doing well, there wasnât a need to call you or anything. I stayed with Calvin off campus until I gave birth.â
I see Momâs eyes fill. I know that it hurts her that she wasnât there when her grandson was born, but it was my decision and I had decided I didnât want the baby.
âWhen I gave birth, I told the nurses to give the baby to Calvin. I didnât want anything to do with him. To me, my job was done and now I could be free from the shackles Calvin tied around me when he forced me to keep the babyâ
âYou didnât even look at your own child?â Mom asks.
âNo. I didnât want to. To me he was the symbol of my worst mistake. I didnât want to see him, hold him or be in his lifeâ
I know it makes me look like an absolute bitch, but I honestly donât care. It was my decision, and itâs what I wanted.
I left the hospital the morning after. Calvin worked two jobs just so he could afford the bill for the hospital. I didnât care about how the baby was. How he was doing, what he was eating, and so on. All I wanted to do was forget that Iâd had another manâs baby.
âAnd you continued living your life like he didnât exist, right? Like he was nothing at all?â Mom asks, standing up âMom...â
âJust shut up!â she yells before repeating softly. âJust shut up. Today, youâve managed to destroy the remaining piece of my heart. As if losing your father and Ava wasnât punishment enough, now I find out what a cruel daughter I really have...I canât even look at you right now; I just canât.â
With that, she walks away. Leaving me sobbing on the floor.
I look at the rest, and one by one, they walk away too. Travis is the last to leave.
He shakes his head in what I think is disgust.
âOf all the people, I never expected this from you, Emma. Not you,â he says, and then he too walks away.
I stay on the ground, crying. Everything had been perfect before she walked here and ruined everything. This was Avaâs F***ing fault. Her and her big mouth. I will never forgive her for this. Never.