Chapter 0199 I struggle, but finally kneel before him.
âHoney, whatâs wrong?â I ask gently as I touch his arm softly.
The moment he hears my voice, he lunges at me. His arms circle my neck and he holds on for dear life. I fall on my butt on the soft carpet and end up sitting with him in my arms.
âBaby, talk to me...â I plead while rubbing his back.
1âI just donât understand. Youâre a great mother and you live with Noah. He told me that you and his dad arenât together, but you still love him so much. So why does my mother not love me?â he hiccups.
Struggling to get the words out.
My heart goes to him. I hold him close to me. Hoping that he can feel my love for him radiating from me.
âIâve only met her once. She doesnât want to see me or be near me. Am I a bad boy? Does she hate me so much? I just donât understand why she doesnât love meâ he cries.
I canât stop the tears that run down my face. I feel my heart squeeze. My throat bobbles as I try to contain my emotion. I pull him even closer. As if I could absorb his pain and take it into my own b*dy.
âDad say I am not a bad boy and Iâve tried my best to always be good, but she still doesnât want me. It hurts, Ava. It hurts so much in hereâ he lets go of me for a while then pounds on his chest.
I grasp his hand in mine and stop his actions. I k*ss his cheeks, then his forehead, before running my finger down his cheek.
âI donât have all the answers to your questions, but I know youâre a great little boy. It may not mean much, but I love you, Gunner, just as much as I love Noah. If I were to have another son, then I would probably pray to the heavens that it would be you.â I take a breath before continuing.
âDonât ever doubt yourself, honey. We may not know your mother, but itâs her loss because youâre awesome, and weâre so glad you came into our lives. Never put yourself down, Gunner. Ever. Because there are people who love you so much.â
I pour out my heart to him. Hoping it will be enough to pull him back to us. Everything I said is the truth. I Just hope he believes me.
He stops crying. His eyes focused on mine.
You mean that? You love me?â He asks timidly, making the need to find his mother and beat the crap out of her rise within me.
âOf course. Youâre a part of Noah and me now, so how can we not love you?â I reply, wiping away the tear stains He calms down, then leans forward and k*sses my cheek.
7 love you guys too. Iâm so glad our dog sneaked into your yard that day, because then we met you and Noah, Iâve been a lot happier since I met you two.
His words brings tears to my eyes. Damn it. The kid was too sweet.
âIâm glad we met you too, Gunner.â Noah adds, and I nod in agreement.
A smile breaks from his l*ps and transforms his whole face. He was a carbon copy of his dad, but there was just something about his smile.
Looking at him closely, something tags at my brain, but no matter what, I just couldnât place why his smile.
seemed really familiar or why I feel like things are about to unravel.