Chapter 0147 The reason I was even still in her life was because I was Noahâs dad and also because I was being forceful. Otherwise, she would have tossed me in the cold like she has done with the rest.
âMaybe next time thenâ Kate gives him a sad smile.
She was on the brink of tears. About to lose it. Noah didnât know the drama that was going on. I couldnât let him see his grandma breakdown in front of him. He will start to question things and once he finds out the truth of how Ava has been treated, he will blow.
Noah was loyal to his mom above anyone else. If he finds out how cruel weâve been to instantly be considered his enemies and he will cut us off.
va, we w âLetâs go...Iâm sure the rest are waiting for usâ I walk towards them and gently push them inside the house.
Kate excuses herself and goes to the bathroom while Noah and I move to the backyard.
I internally groan when I realize everyone has shown up. Noah runs ahead leaving me back.
He greets everyone except Emma. He doesnât even spare her a F***ing glance. He doesnât like her and he isnât afraid of showing it.
âSo glad youâre finally here sonâ my dad claps me on the back.
He knows it irritates me when he does that, but he still does it.
âYesâ I mumbled already wanting this whole thing to be over and done with.
âYou sure sound excited being around familyâ Gabe says sarcastically.
I glare at him. He doesnât even flinch. Maybe itâs because he is my twin, but he is the only one who doesnât cower at my glare.
âCome on, Rowan. Give me a hugâ mom says smiling at me. âIâve missed youâ
I wrap one hand around her waist and hug her to me. âMissed you tooâ
We separate just as Kate comes back. Her eyes red and face blotchy.
Noah was already at the table with a plate chatting with Trevor, He had invited Letty, but she declined. She didnât want to be around people who hurt Ava.
Her friendship and loyalty to Ava was causing waves in their relationship. Trevor was so F***ing afraid of losing her since he was among those that really hurt her friend. The only things that was standing âCan I talk to you, Rowan Emmaâs voice penetrates my ears.
Fuck. I had not noticed her approaching me.
âThere really isnât anything to talk aboutâ I say facing her.uh I have been avoiding her. I was still mad as hell about all the shit she said about Noah. More than that I just didnât want her around me. Not when all I can think about is Ava.
I had loved the woman in front of me. Cherished her even when I was married to her sister. I was so F***ing sure there was no one else for me except Emma.
All I had wished was for her to come back. I had sworn that the moment she did and she accepted to give me a chance, I would divorce Ava and make a life with her.
Sheâs been back for months. Yet I canât find the love I had for her. The love that I had thought was eternal. The love I had sworn no other woman would have.
I feel like a fool. One minute Iâm professing my love for Emma and the next I donât want her near me. One minute Iâm sure I hate Ava with all my heart and the next, I canât stay away from her.
Everything about the two sister was doing my head in âRowan..â
âWhat?â I snap feeling suffocated.
I see tears fill her eyes, but for some reason I just donât give a damn anymore. Not like I used to.
Without giving her another look, I turn around and walk away.
For a while I played the what if game. What if I could finally have the woman Iâve always loved? What if we got married and started a family? What if everything played out the way it was supposed to years ago?
Those questions rang in my mind for years and the weeks when Emma arrived. I thought that this was our second chance at our love, but I had been wrong.
Emma and I were too different right now. We would never work and even if we did get together years ago there is no guarantee that we would have been end game.
Sheâll always have a part of my heart as my first love, but it was time to accept the truth. My love for her is dead. It has probably been dead for years.