Grandma: howâs our girl doing?
Luca: better. Itâs taking all my strength to keep her phone from her. Giving me attitude about it.
Grandma: you have your chat yet?
Luca: not yet. Soon. Itâs only been a few days since her concussion.
Grandma: stop finding excuses. Sheâs well enough to talk. Fix it, then call me to celebrate.
She was right. I hated it. It had been four days since the injury, and tomorrow, we had a football game. Not telling her how I felt ate at me all week. I wasnât excited about the game. Itâd mean Iâd have to spend even more hours away from her. I ran my fingers through my hair, pulling on the ends as I stared at the snack tray Iâd prepared for Lorelei. She was in our living room, away from the TV, but there was so much sunlight. She said she was sick of her bedroom and demanded she come down here. I didnât blame her.
Callum and Oliver had been talking her ear off, annoying me to no end. They offered to make posts for her project, and she ate it up. I couldâve done that too. I wanted her to need me for everything, as selfish as that was.
âMonroe.â Dean walked into the kitchen, his expression neutral. He jutted his chin toward the table. âSit with me a minute.â
Itâs time.
âLet me drop off the food to your sister first.â
âShe can wait ten minutes. She also can walk.â He pulled out a chair and plopped down, holding his hands together so it looked like he was praying. I joined him, my stomach churning with unease.
He knew I loved his sister and wanted to be with her. Iâd laid it all out Sunday night after her injury. Told him how I didnât plan for this, how Iâd hurt her, how Iâd fucked it up but planned to earn her back. Told him Iâd always be his teammate and football was a priority, but I couldnât have just football as my entire life.
He never punched me, which was a good sign. He said me he needed time to adjust to this, then weâd talk. We agreed to take care of Lo and then hash it out.
Seemed like he was ready.
âI donât say this lightly.â Dean closed his eyes, exhaled, and glared at me. âI trust you. Youâre loyal, intense, hardworking. I love you like a brother, on and off the field.
I nodded, swallowing the ball in my throat. There had to be a but coming.
He winced, glanced over my shoulder before meeting my gaze. âI also know youâre stubborn and can lose sight of others when youâre focused. You say you love my sister, but whatââ
âThere is no but what. I love her.â
Deanâs eye twitched. âWhen you hurt herââ
âThen Iâll apologize, learn from it, and never do it again.â My body raced with my pulse, the intensity of this conversation like a Big Ten game. Oxygen flowed through me, fueling me with each breath. This was a defensive play, and I had to react the right way. Instead of bodies on the field, it was words. âThis isnât temporary for me, this isâ¦Christ, how do I say this?â
Dean crossed his arms and leaned back.
âHer and I need to chat still, so all of this depends on her. If she doesnât want this, then Iâll respect her and be whatever she needs. I canât not have her in my life. But if sheâll give this a real chance, Iâll put her first. I donât care if you approve or donât like it, Dean, that wonât stop me. I know you wonât let this affect us on the field because thatâs not who we are as athletes, but I want Lorelei as long as sheâll have me, in any capacity. Now, if that affects our friendship, it sucks, but I hurt her by wanting to hide her. I canât⦠I refuse to upset her again.â I stood up, the urge to hold her even stronger than a few minutes ago. âI want a life with her.â
Dean nodded, tapped the table with his fingers, then held out his hand. âEvery time you make her cry, I punch you in the face.â
âHow long does this stipulation last?â
âForever. I donât care if youâre fucking sixty. You hurt her, I punch you.â
My lips twitched. âYouâre assuming she wonât hand me my ass first.â
âI expect her to. Romano twins are tough.â
I shook his hand, and he pulled me for an unexpected hug. âYou two make sense together, and itâll get easier to accept. Just, no excessive PDA around me, alright?â
I squeezed him hard. âYou got it.â
He patted me twice before walking away, and I jogged toward the snack tray. Lo and hunger didnât mix well together, and I loved how her face lit up when she saw me. If I made her even half as happy as she made me, then thatâd be enough. My teammates had left her, thankfully, so it was just her in the living room. âHungry?â
She licked her lips. âIs that cheese?â
âLots of it.â
âGod, I love you.â She clapped before her eyes widened. âWait, I mean, I love cheese. I love cheese, yes.â She blinked a lot and tilted her head. âYouâre fine too.â
I smiled and sat on the couch next to her. I placed the tray on the coffee table and pulled one of her feet into my lap. She always moaned a sexy little sound when I massaged her foot. Even now, she closed her eyes and sighed.
âRelax, eat. Then we can talk.â
âMm, how about we talk while I eat?â She leaned forward and snatched four pieces from the tray. She crossed her eyes as she bit into them. âMild cheddar gives me a stomach boner.â
I snorted. âYouâre feeling better.â
âI am, yeah. I want to start getting on my computer for an hour at a time tomorrow, see how it feels. That is⦠if my keeper lets me.â She glared at me and pinched my side. âYouâre a real mother hen, Luca.â
This is my moment.
âLorelei.â Shit. My voice cracked and got all deep. My face heated, and my blip of confidence faded into nothing. She could want me as just a friend again, as nothing. She couldâve realized I wasnât good enough for her. Hell, she could tell me to fuck off.
This was hard.
âLuca.â She smiled and bit into another bite of cheese. She nudged my side with her foot. âAre we finally having the talk?â
Narrowing my eyes, I stilled my hand on her foot. âAre you mocking me?â
âYes.â She laughed and scooted closer to me. âItâs so easy.â
âThis is serious.â I gulped, the back of my neck sweating at this point.
âSo serious.â She scrunched her nose.
âWould you stop it?â My lips twitched.
Lorelei grinned so hard her smile covered her entire face, and joy radiated from her like physical waves. She pushed her hair behind her ears and sighed, shaking her head at me as her gaze softened. âIâll behave and listen. Have your speech.â
âGod.â I laughed. âYouâre the worst.â
âYeah, but you love me anyway.â
âSee, thatâs the thing.â I cupped her jaw, running my thumb over her cheek. She leaned into my touch and placed her hand over mine. My chest tightened with a gooey, warm sense of peace. âI love you, Lorelei. I want your smiles, your laughter, your attitude, and your hanger attacks. I want to wipe away your tears when you cry out of joy, fear, or even if youâre sad. Iââ My voice shook, and I blinked away emotion. âYou want someone to put you first, and Iâll be that person. You deserve the world, and I can try to give you that. Iâm done being afraid of all the what-ifs in my life and want to focus on the what-I-haves, and thatâs you. So, can you forgive me?â
âForgive you?â She sniffed.
Tears fell down her cheeks, and I wiped them away. She smiled, so could they be happy tears? I pulled her closer so she sat on my lap now. Her warmth spread through me and her scentâGod, she smelled so damn good. I kissed her temple, pulling her in a hug. âFor not being what you needed before. No secrets, no hiding. We do this thing for real. A relationship. I show you every day how much I love you, and you continue being the light in my world. Football is important, and so is my grandma, but youâ¦I need you to be mine. To be my person.â
She glanced up at me, a watery smile on her lips as she said, âYou want me to be your goddess?â
I snorted. âYes, be my goddess. Love me back.â
âOkay.â She hummed, rested her head against my chest and hugged me hard. âI will.â
âThatâs all you have to say? I will?â I cupped the back of her head, gently kneading her scalp with one hand and rubbing her lower back with the other. Iâd never tire of holding her like this, our chests pressed together and her scent enveloping me. Yet, I expected more from her. More words.
âFour days.â She pinched my side. âYou can wait to hear me say I love you back for four days, Monroe.â
âIs there any reason why youâre being sassy right now?â
âYou and Dean talked outside my door Monday, and I heard you. You told him you loved me, and I had to wait four fucking days for you to tell me. So yes, Luca, there is a reason Iâm being sassy.â
âFuck, I missed you.â I cupped her face, staring down at her until I couldnât take it anymore. I kissed her. She tasted like cheese and coffee, and she groaned into my mouth, sliding her tongue into the kiss and stealing all my rational thoughts. âBaby, I have more to say.â
âMm, can you kiss and talk?â She pulled back, grinning at me with red cheeks and flushed skin.
âYouâre fucking gorgeous.â My breath hitched in my throat. âThereâs nothing I wouldnât do for you. You know that, right?â
âI do.â She cupped my chin, a glint of mischief entering her eyes. âYou submitted my assignments, did multiple grocery runs, held my hand, and told my brother the truth. I can feel how much you care for me.â
âI sense a but comingâ¦â I gripped her waist, letting my fingers tease the skin above her pants.
âBut if you truly want to be my boyfriend, youâll meet every need, yes?â
âAnything. Ask me anything and Iâll do it.â
She licked her lips, bent low until her teeth grazed the shell of my ear. âAnything?â
âBaby, yes.â
âThen I want you to take me upstairs and use your mouth to make me come.â
I coughed into her neck, the image of my fantasy already coming to my mind. Iâd been super careful because of her injury but⦠âYou canât move or strain yourself.â
âI donât plan to. My boyfriendâs mouth is really talented.â
She looked so smug, so pretty sitting on me. I laughed. âFine. Fine. I guess Iâll eat you out until you come. Iâm giving like that.â
Her winning smile felt like a punch to the chest, and her joy knocked me off-balance. I picked her up, held her tight against my chest when she mumbled something quiet. âWhat was that?â
âI love you.â
I stopped, waited for her to look at me. âSay it again. Slower.â
âI love you.â She chewed the side of her lip. âI teased you before, but I wanted you to know for sure. Iâm in this. Whatever we do, its together. You and me. Luca and Lo.â
âFucking love the sound of that.â I kissed her forehead and continued upstairs, where Iâd show her over and over how much I loved her.
I mightâve almost missed my chance with her by being too afraid, but she got me out of my shell. She pushed me to be better, to realize there was more to life than just football. Lorelei Romano entered my life as a forbidden distraction, but she taught me life was about joy, laughter, and letting people in. My world changed for her, and Iâd make sure I showed her how much she meant to me every single day.