Eventually, I got up and tricked Squirrely to hug a pillow, since I want avoid the embarrassment and awkwardness when he wakes up. I mean, I don't even know how I would feel when he wakes up and just starts talking, with his brain still half asleep. Maybe I would act normal and slowly get up with him, or just be the basic idiot I know how to be, and push myself out of the bed, because my brain would hold to that one brain cell that will stay functioning on that moment.
Well anyway, we're now pass that. Seungmin called Minho and we figured out he got up earlier then usually, and went out to get some fresh air and also buy some food for the remaining 2 days.
Wait... 2 days.. only 2 days are left until the president holds his so called speech.. which means I have 2 more days left with Squirrely...
As I keep thinking about that a heavy sight escapes my lips. The thing I've been trying to avoid the most is finally here, and I don't really feel excited about it. In that moment, I hear the door upstairs open, causing my gaze to shoot up immediately. Squirrely is on the hallway with a bunch of notebooks in his hands making me confused as fuck. They are covering his seeing range which is a big problem, since I have already explained how much that railing is dangerous.
"Wh-... be careful!!" I shout at him seeing him turn toward the stairs, while leaving the door open. I walk up to him, and grab half of them not wanting for him to roll down the stairs again. I look down at the notebooks and I feel like I know these... a moment later it hits me. The notebooks from the hospital!!
I completely forgot I took them, since I just dumped them up here the first day, and because the first few nights kinda felt like I was standing on an edge of a cliff together with Squirrely and Minho, so I never bothered to remember. Squirrely has probably noticed how I'm looking down at the notebooks, while both of us walk to the living room and put them down on the floor.
"I wanted to ask you this but kinda forgot, so.... I really thought you're out of your mind when I saw this." I open one and hold it up so he can see what I'm referring to. "Can you explain to me what this means." I ask, with a confused face full of curiosity.
"Oh well. The truth is. They wouldn't let me study what I wanted when I was in the hospital, as I said before my education and technology use was cut off pretty fast after I realized I don't belong there, so I invented my own system and these are sounds." He points toward the lines and circles. Ok now that is confusing as fuck. How are those sounds??
"I was alone most of the time in the hospital, so there was a lot of silence which eventually started to drive me crazy, so I created sounds and after I wrote them down." He gives me a big smile before I look down at the opened page. "Look." He leans in and his finger gently brushes over the symbols on the page. "This is a long sound, this is a short one, this means that two different sounds are used at once. There is no way to tell what kind of melody this is though, since I don't remember what I meant while writing this down. Do you understand now??" He turns his face to me with a smile on it, and just like that I'm meet with his big sparkling eyes once again. Damn.. he's so close. Don't we have to many moments like this?? I don't mind them though, except for the fact that my ears go red when his don't, and his when mine don't. It's so frustrating to feel my ears start burning but again, I don't mind it when it comes because of him.
"Oo, ahh, I understand." I say as my face turns away from him and my ears get covered in a beautiful red shade.
"Why did you take them though??" He asks as his hands go through the pages of the notebook. I take a deep breath before turning back to him.
"The night I broke you out, I went through everything in case you had something that seemed important to you. The only thing I found were these notebooks, and since you were quite high at the time I wanted to get an explanation later on. Thankfully you are not insane." I say making him chuckle.
"What would you do if I was?? What if I just manipulated you and used you to get out of the hospital in order to go around and kill innocent people." I look up at his eyes and blink twice a little bit amazed at how this boy is so relaxed already. I admit, we did watch a lot of movies, some soft, some cartoons, and some horror. He saw a lot of different characters of people, and a lot of different situations he can get himself into. But I kinda get chills down my spine every time he tilts his head downwards and looks at me with that playful smirk on his face.
"With the help of Lee Minho, I would break your neck and bury you 2 meters under the ground." His smirk is immediately replaced by a half terrified and half surprised expression. He stutters the letter 't' a few times before finishing what he wants to say.
"That's so scary." I just give him an innocent smile, and right after the door opens reliving Seungmin. He's wearing a red cap and a black mask completely covering his face and in his hand he's holding a plastic bag. I didn't even notice when he left the house.
"I bought some food from the bakery, since Minho hyung said he has to check something as well, so it will take him longer." I just nod as he walks closer and places the food on the table. Squirrely immediately grabs it, and pulls out the food checking what Seungmin bought. With a small smile he gives the two of us our share and after a second everyone silently start to eat.
We chew the food down slowly, and just when I'm about to take one more bite, my phone starts to ring from across the room. With small annoyance in my movements, I get up and make my way toward the phone grabbing it and answering the call without even looking at the caller ID.
"He-" Minho's voice cuts me off immediately.
"I've had enough. Take the damn Squirrel and leave, I don't want to see you there when I get back." A frown makes it's way on my face as he says that. I pull the phone away and look at the caller ID in case it's not him, but of course it's him.
"Dude did you hit you head or something??"
"LISTEN TO ME!!" He shouts surprising the shit out of me.
"Take the damn Squirrel, and leave the house, immediately. I will call the police on you if I find you there. Also take that stinky puppy with you, I don't want him, and if you don't take care of him he'll end up behind bars. You have 30 minutes to get lost. UNDERSTOOD!!" It hits me after a moment.
Squirrel, Han Jisung. Stinky puppy, Kim Seungmin. Did they find us?? I eye the two boys and notice they are looking at me half curious half worried, but my attention turns back to the call fast.
"I UNDERSTAND!! YOU GOOD FOR NOTHING, YOU'RE SO USELESS!! COME HERE AND KICK ME OUT WHY ARE YOU HIDING OUTSIDE LIKE A RAT!!" We gotta keep the show going people. But don't they like know we lived together before as well...??
"YOU CRAZY BITCH, BE GRATEFUL I GAVE YOU SHELTER UNTIL NOW!!"
"WHATEVER, I DON'T NEED YOUR HELP YOU SELFISH BASTRD!!" I shout and hang up the call turning off the phone immediately. "Pack up boys, we need to go. Now"
"Did they find us?? Where is Minho hyung?? Is he gonna be ok??" Seungmin buries me with question while Squirrely just nervously keeps switching his gaze from me to him.
"Probably, I have no idea, and don't worry, he knows how to take care of himself. Now take anything that is voluble to you, some clothes and food ok??" He just nods while Squirrely is still as confused as before. I quickly enter the kitchen and open the second drowned. A slight relief washes over me, as I see some money still being there, thank god Minho didn't take all of the money we have left. I quickly roll it together and put it into my pocket.
As I walk back into the living room, I notice Squirrely still in the same position as before. I approach him, and slowly put my hand on his shoulder.
"Hey. You ok??" He flinches at my voice and right after slowly turns his head toward me. I can see the fear inside of his eyes, his mouth slightly opened and his breath a little bit faster than before.
"Will he hurt us?? What if he hurts us?? He won't hurt us right?? He can't hurt us. I can't go back. I can't let him hurt yo-" I slowly pull him in a hug in order to stop his brain from thinking. The panic is getting to him and I can't blame him, after all we have been at ease for the past few weeks.
"Don't worry, just breath ok?? Focus on your breath." I say and right after feel his chest move up and down slowly. Hearing his shaky breath makes me squeeze him closer to myself. I don't move for around a minute, before slowly pulling him back my eyes searching for his. He is crying again. I wipe his tears away and title his head upwards in order to see him clearly.
"Do you want to take anything with you??" He takes a moment before shaking his head.
"Ok. Go outside with Seungmin and wait for me, I will pick some stuff and come ok??" He nods his head and the both of us slowly get up. I see Seungmin gently pull him out of the house and right after my feet start sprinting upstairs. I enter my room and pull out my backpack, damn I haven't seen it in a while actually. I put the money inside and also pull out some clothes. Before leaving the room, I take my sisters teddy bear in my hands, I'm definitely not leaving it here. My next stop is Minho's room where I take out some clothes for Squirrely and Seungmin. One thing that is bothering me right now is Minho. Will he be ok?? Where will he go?? WHERE WILL WE GO!?!? OH MY GOD!!
I shake my head before the panic takes over me, and quickly exit the room. I look toward the living room table to see if Seungmin already took the food with him and yes, he did. Right after take the house key and exit the house locking the door behind me.
"Let's go." Seungmin says. He and Squirrely are already inside the car waiting for me.
"No. Wait." What if they get his car plate. No, wait. What if they got the fake car plate. Wait what.... I take the fake car plate from under the stairs in front of the house and put the plate in the front seat. Right after I hop in next to Squirrely and close the door. Seungmin looks at me in the reverse mirror, earning a small nod before he starts the car.
Where are we going though?? My eyes escape to Squirrely. He is just looking through the window with the corners of his lips curled downwards. He keeps rubbing his palms one of another and I don't even need to focus to notice that his body is tensed up. My eyes wander to the plastic bag with our unfinished food and I slowly stretch my hand to grab it. While unpacking the food Squirrely turns his attention to me, with his eyes carefully observing my actions.
"Here." I hold the food up for him to take it. His surprised face just looks at me and then back down at the food. Without saying anything he raises his hand up and takes the food with his fingers slightly brushing on mine.
The moment we start driving through the long bridge above the Han river, his head turns toward the city and the long river. This is his first time inside the city after 12 years, so it must be a mess inside his head right now. He leans toward the window as much as possible with his mouth slightly opened in amuse. I chuckle at his reaction to something so... daily.
Come to think of it, I have no idea what is he like around other people and considering the fact that he will have to speak in front of a big crowd tomorrow, I kinda need to know how he feels about it. Am I pressuring him to much with this tho?? Maybe it will be to fast for him to face everything. It's true he has been doing great in the past two three weeks but I'm not sure that's enough for him to overcome his trauma. If I was him I would never leave my house, so I kinda can't blame him.
In that moment an idea comes to my mind. What about having some fun outside for a day. Maybe to loosen him up a bit or at least try to. I keep staring at his face, the way his eyes travel from one object to another and his mouth keeps saying 'wow' every two seconds. He does deserve some fun and some outdoors experience, so let's give it to him.
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