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Seras checked the time .
[Itâs time to change shifts . ]
......Itâs already time huh .
I follow Seras as we go further into the cave .
Releasing the effect of my , Eve wakes up .
The awoken Eve looks at her side .
[Is it alright to let Liz rest some more?]
[Yeah, itâs fine to let her sleep for now . ]
This cave is quite narrow .
Liz has shrunk her body as she sleeps .
Slei is sleeping in a prone position .
Pigimaru whose very size itself could fit in anywhere .
The innermost part of the cave is occupied by these three .
You could only fit two human-sized people in the remaining space .
One person has to get out .
[Weâll leave immediately after I wake up . ]
[Acknowledged . ]
I would like to go to the Witchâs home as soon as possible .
However, it would be quite tough considering the wounds and fatigue in our body .
We donât have any idea what we may face ahead of us .
We should get some rest and make sure that we have adequate strength to travel .
Eve already went outside .
If itâs her, I could safely entrust the sentry job to her......
Now then...
[Letâs sleep . ]
[Yes, letâs do so . ]
Arranging the hem of her clothes, Seras kneels down on the laid out cloth .
I will sleep on the cloth laid out next to hers .
The warmness of Eveâs body still remains on the cloth .
Using my arm as my pillow, I close my eyes .
[........................ . ]
I canât sleep .
If I were to invoke to myself, I wouldnât be able to cancel it .
As one would expect, that would be really risky .
I wouldnât be able to deal with any sudden threats .
[ââYou canât sleep?]
[It seems that Iâm still alert from that battle earlier that I couldnât sleep . Well, I should be able to sleep after some time lying down here...]
[Well then...]
Pat pat .
Seras tapped her lap .
[I donât know if this will be able to suppress your alertness though . ]
[......Is this retaliation for what happened before?]
I gave her a lap pillow before .
[Unlike that time, I donât intend for this suggestion to be a joke, you know?]
[Just sleep . ]
[Umm...... Iâm actually too alert to sleep . ]
I see .
So, that would be your charade huh .
I understood it from the tone of her voice .
It appears that she wants me to do it that much .
[............... . . Then, donât mind if I do . ]
Slightly shifting my body, I place my head on Serasâ lap .
Her lap feels different from ordinary pillows .
Because of her body temperature, the presence of her heat also makes a difference . n/o/vel/b//in dot c//om
[I would get a lap pillow from my aunt back then . ]
[.....................]
[......Seras?]
Looking up from her lap, I could see Serasâ face over her chest .
Sheâs also looking back at me......
Her blue eyes were just staring blankly at me .
[Seras . ]
[......Eh?]
[Are you tired for the day?]
[ââ-Ah, ......Thatâs maybe so . As expected, I may also be tired for the day . ]
[Thatâs enough of the lap pillow, you should gain some rest . ]
[Yesâ- Umm, Touka-dono . ]
Gulp
Seras gulped down .
[Youâre aware of it, right?]
Hmm?
Aware of it?
I start getting up from her lap, only to be stopped .
[What are you talking about?]
[The way you treat me has been changing, little by little . ]
Is that so?
[You realized that?]
[Yes, I did . ]
For instance .
The way I call her slightly changed from âyou (anta)â to âyou (omae)â .
I changed it that way thinking about the difference of how distant I am towards her compared with other people .
I was trying to act natural with that change .
......However, I guess it didnât turn as flawless as I thought .
[Iâm now in a position where I give instructions to others...... I feel that if I donât start making my âbehaviour fitting for a leaderâ, I feel like there would be some difficulties when I command the group in the future . ]
The same is also true for Eve .
Actually, Eve looks like she had some difficulties with that .
However, my instructions and her movements began to perfectly mesh with each other after I changed it .
I match eyes with Seras whoâs looking down towards me .
[Are you uncomfortable with that?]
[No . Itâs just that...]
Seras places her hands on both of the sides of my head .
As if sheâs wrapping her arms around me .
[You donât have to hold everything by yourself . ]
[......Did I really look that tired?]
[Just like that time when all those monsters attacked simultaneously, Touka-dono acted like youâre going to deal with all of them . Looking at how you acted at that time, Eve and Liz seemed to feel reassured . ]
Seras started combing my bangs with her thin fingers .
......I see .
I then noticed .
[You noticed some lies mixed within my words huh . ]
[ââYes . ]
She saw through my âbluffâ with the power of the spirit .
[If we want to deal with that amount of monsters, the only way would be my combination with Pigimaru and my Abnormal State Skill...... If I look anxious even a little bit, Eve and Liz would get anxious themselves . Especially since you know that Eve had that personality of hers, right? If they were to get even more guilty, they would definitely act self-sacrificing again . ]
Therefore, I needed to make sure that theyâre reassured .
That if itâs Touka, it would be alright .
That if itâs Touka, he would definitely survive .
That if itâs Touka... he would prevail against those monsters .
Making use of my attitude and facial expression, It was necessary to make them think so .
Well, in the end, Eve still came out of the cave afterwards .
[......Sometimes, I would get scared . One day, Touka-dono who had overburdened himself...... and would suddenly break . Thatâs what Iâm worried about . ]
[........................]
In fact, Serasâ worries had turned real when things turned for the worst earlierâ-
[ââ-I somehow managed to defeat them but...... Well, this wouldnât turn into a pattern where I would promise not to do that, you know?]
âKuku...â I laughed a bit .
[Touka-dono......?]
âThe worstâ
The environment that I left behind when I was young .
That was exactly âthe worstâ situation for me .
A narrow apartment .
âIâll break your arm, brat . â
âLower your head, brat . â
âYou brat, Iâll f*cking kill you . â
âHey, you became a little thinner, Touka! Hereâs a detergent juice! Drink it!â
âWhatâs with your look, Touka...... Oi, want me to break them? You want me to break them that much?â
âWhy the f*ck did I have to give birth to you...... Why canât I just f*cking abort you? Canât you just be a little bit considerate and die while youâre in my f*cking belly, Touka!?â
A really narrow hell .
At that time......
Filled with killing intent, I thought of ways to become stronger .
âââ-If youâre going to break me, let me see how you do thatââââ
[I donât know about other people but...... I donât think those monsters would be able to break me that easily . ]
Perhaps, Iâve already passed through what I considered as the âworstâ .
Iâm sure . Thereâs nothing that could be even worse for me .
[........................... . ]
That time when I slapped my middle finger to that goddessâ face .
The Disposal Ruins afterwards .
Through those things, I returned back to the âToukaâ from back then .
And with time...
I found that the ânormalâ that I built up has disappeared within me .
If I had remained ânormalâ, I might have been quickly broken in this world .
[However, that may be just something that Touka-dono thoughtâ-]
[Seras . ]
I raise my right hand .
I put my hand on Serasâ smooth cheek .
She didnât quiver at all nor did she turn her eyes away .
[What is it?]
[If youâre really that worried about me, you donât need to do something like thatââ]
Itâs better this way .
[You just need to support me with the best that you can . ]
[âââââYes . ]
A clear and dignified answer .
Seras gently held my right hand with her own .
[Please leave it to me, Touka-dono . ]
I pull back my hand .
And Serasâ hand naturally pulled her own hands away .
[Umm...... However, please donât hesitate to tell me anything when youâre having a difficult time . If itâs something that I can do, Iâll do my best to help . ]
[Youâre still the same overly caring deputy leader, arenât you?]
âPfft...â Seras smiles back .
[I wish you could at least describe me as a dedicated person .
[My sister . ]
[Eh?]
[If I had a sister, I feel like she would be someone like this . ]
[............... . . ]
[............... . . ]
[Speaking of which, how old are you, Touka-dono?]
Hmm?
Did I not tell her about it before?
I tell her my age . (T/N: His age is also not stated in the raws . )
Then... Seras blinked as she looked at me in surprise .
[Eh? Touka-dono...... Youâre younger than me!?]
[Well, arenât High Elves supposed to be a long-lived race? I suppose that would be quite obvious......]
Thatâs why I had some difficulty getting accustomed to this commanding tone .
Seras pointed to herself .
[Iâm 19 . ]
Eh?
[Your age?]
Seras nodded in response .
.....................
She was a lot younger than I thought .
I mean...... Whether itâs the amount of books she has read or the amount of knowledge she knows, both of them were quite a lot .
[I was convinced that you have been living for more that 100 years already......]
The intellectual Seras looks bewildered as she begins to explain .
[Umm, you see...... we call the period where we were the most active throughout our life as the âactive periodâ...... Comparing the Elven race with the other races, it can be said that our active period is longer than them . ]
Doesnât that just mean they have a long healthy lifespan?
Plus, add in anti-aging on top of thatâ- or so thatâs what I think .
[However, there are some people whose appearance and age are not so different from those of humans . There are some that have a short active period and some of them may even have a life span that is almost as short as a human . ]
And, the High Elves were a race whose active period tends to be particularly long .
The young active period of their life would usually last until theyâre 100 to 200 years old .
âThere were some High Elves who were like that . â or so she said .
However, it has only been 19 years since Seras was born .
Therefore, she still hasnât reached the age where her active period was measured .
I see...... Seras is a relatively young High Elf huh .
[19 huh . ]
Hmm?
[ââwait . To begin with, how old did you think I am?]
[I thought youâre around your early twenties to about mid twenties...... Umm...... Itâs because youâre too calm that I thought youâre around that age...]
[......I see . ]
A little jokingly, I said .
[So, will I get to be treated as your little brother from now on?]
[N- Noââ Youâre the King of this âFly King Squadronâ . I have no intention of changing my attitude towards the king to whom I have sworn allegiance, even though he is younger . Please, rest assured . ]
[......Fly King huh . ]
The King of Flies .
[However, I only wear the fly king mask to hide my face... Well, I did like the mask though . However, as expected, I donât think I have the calibre to be a king . ]
(T/N: the vessel/calibre of a king . theyâre talking about the same vessel here that kirihara brags about, but I think calibre is more appropriate in this case . )
[No, Touka-dono . ]
Seras brings her face closer to me .
[You already are myâ-]
Her lustrous blonde hair hung languidly on her white cheeks .
[â-irreplaceable, one and only king . ]
â¡
Before I knew it, my consciousness was fading .
It seems that Iâm finally getting sleepy .
My consciousness falls down into the deep darkness .
[............ -ka......... . âno......... . you......... -py?]
(T/N: not sure myself what sheâs saying here . )
I think...... Seras is saying something .
However, I donât know what sheâs saying .
Discomfort .
A strange warmth .
Only the pleasant feeling coming from somewhere gently brushes along with the surface of my consciousness as it drifts away .
Thatâs when I fell unconsciousââ
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