Chapter 31
Carrack sat in the dimly lit confines of Dr. Mortierâs shop, the space cluttered with stacks of disorganized books. The haunting memories of his recent ordeal lingered, each heartbeat sending tremors through his body, igniting internal alarms of panic. Clutching a blanket tightly around him, he sought warmth from the fireplaceâs flickering flames, which fought in vain against the persistent chill that gripped him. Despite being dry now, the icy discomfort still clung to him like a stubborn shadow.
The steam from a cup of tea curled lazily into the air, its quiet ascent punctuated only by the fireâs crackling as it consumed the latest sacrificial books thrown regretfully by Dr. Mortier into its hungry inferno. Carrack uttered only muffled, meek words of gratitude, his mind ensnared by thoughts of the enigmatic statue and Lady Matilda.
Dr. Mortier had little to say to Carrack, perhaps sensing there was little worth discussing at the moment or preferring to let him find some calm, a state Carrack was clearly far from. The steam from the tea began to swirl more rapidly, disrupted by a change in the air, followed by the distinctive ring of the shopâs bell. Footsteps approached as the bell sounded again, altering the atmosphere of the room. Dr. Mortierâs muffled grumbles preceded his words to the visitor: âWhat makes you think youâre welcome in here?â
Lady Matildaâs voice, calm yet tinged with urgency, responded, âYou know why Iâm here. I need to talk to him.â
âHeâs hardly in a state to talk,â Dr. Mortier retorted with a sneer, âespecially not to you ⦠after what that thing did to him. It nearly killed him!â
âBut he is alive because of me,â Lady Matilda countered firmly.
Carrack, gathering his strength, called out shakily, âLet her in!â His voice cut through the tension, bringing a sudden silence.
Dr. Mortierâs footsteps, heavy with anger, echoed as he retreated to the other end of the shop, immersing himself in his work. In contrast, Lady Matildaâs approach was marked by careful, measured steps. Her arrival was heralded by a violet shimmering glow that rounded the corner before she did, casting a subtle yet unmistakable radiance. Under his blanket, Carrack glimpsed his own body still faintly aglow.
But the luminous aura surrounding Lady Matilda quickly faded from Carrackâs focus as he observed her face. It lacked the usual confidence and stoicism he had seen during his last visit to her chapel. Instead, her features were etched with fatigue, weariness, and a deep sense of concern.
As she drew nearer, Lady Matilda leaned in, her hesitation to speak apparent, yet her expression conveyed genuine concern for his wellbeing. It was Carrack, however, who broke the silence first. His voice, shaky at first, gained a sudden clarity as he blurted out, âWhat the fuck happened to me?â
âYouâve been â¦â Lady Matilda began, her voice faltering as she searched for the right words, â⦠blessed.â
Carrackâs body trembled, not with fear, cold, or discomfort, but with a surge of anger in response to her words. âCut the shit! Just cut all that shit out!â he exploded.
âCarrackââ she attempted to soothe.
âLord Carrack!â he snapped, demanding the formality.
Acknowledging his correction, she continued with caution. âLord Carrack, sometimes our encounters with the divine are ⦠terrifying. You shouldnât have been there; none of this was supposed to happen.â
âIf my pistol wasnât waterlogged and caked with mud â¦â Carrack muttered through clenched teeth, his thoughts briefly wandering to the idea of shooting Lady Matilda. He knew it wouldnât resolve anything, yet the thought brought him a grim sense of comfort, nonetheless.
âOkay, okay,â Lady Matilda sighed deeply, relenting. She found a stack of books to sit on near Carrack. As she started to reach out to him, she hesitated, abruptly pulling back. Instead, she clasped her own hands in her lap, rubbing them togetherâher nervousness evident. âYouâve had an experience. A harrowing, harrowing experience, I know; it happened to me too.â
Carrack remained silent, still shivering, yet his gaze was unyielding, scrutinizing every word she spokeâand those she left unsaid. Lady Matildaâs attempts at explanation were fraught with starts and stops, her words weaving through topics of God, faith, and her own experiences. Carrack gleaned a few useful tidbits amongst her words, but mostly, he found her speech to be wandering and uncertain. What struck him most was not the content of her words but the conspicuous lack of coherence and confidence she displayed.
Carrack raised his hand, noticing the faint glow surrounding his body. His eyes lingered on it for a moment before he shifted his focus back to Lady Matilda, who fell silent at his gesture.
âThe statue, what is it?â Carrack said.
Lady Matilda sighed deeply, choosing her words with caution. âItâs what called to me,â she revealed. âAfter the shipwreck, I kept hearing its call. When that ship arrived, I sensed not just the chaos at the docks but also its ⦠arrival. It was like feeling the resonance of a colossal bell, yet without the actual sound. I heard it without hearing it; I felt its vibration.â
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âAnd after the fires at the docks were extinguished?â Carrack prompted, steering her to the next chapter of her tale.
âThe ship ⦠I felt an irresistible pull toward it,â she recounted. âDespite the hull still steaming from the fires, the force drawing me was overwhelming, and I braved the heat.â
âWhat else was inside the ship?â Carrack probed further.
âNothing that I could discern,â she confessed. âMuch of it was scorched beyond recognition, reduced to a black, ashy paste by the rain seeping into the vessel.â
âAnd the statue?â he inquired.
âIt was hidden deep within the shipâs bowels, half-submerged in seawater due to a gaping hole in the hull. But the urge to touch it was overpowering ⦠When I did, I didnât just touch it; I saw something.â
âSaw what?â Carrack urged.
Lady Matildaâs gaze drifted into the distance, her eyes widening. âI just ⦠saw.â
Carrack found himself feeling an unexpected pity for Lady Matilda. Amidst his own confusion and anger, accentuated by the relentless shivering and discomfort from his ordeal, he noticed a certain quality in her voice when she trailed off after saying she âjust sawâ. He recalled his own harrowing experience, the vividness still fresh in his memory. Yet, when he tried to rationalize it, to find words to describe what he had seen, a wave of discomfort washed over him. He felt a nauseating inability to articulate it, a loss for words that pushed his mind toward an unsettling abyss he was reluctant to explore. It must have been just as bad for her to explain what she saw, for all he knew she could have dealt with the same terrifying experience.
Carrack pressed her beyond the previous topic. âWhere did the food come from? How did you know how to make it happen?â
âThe idea simply emerged in my mind, as if it had always been there,â she replied solemnly. âSo, when I lay down in front of the statue, I somehow knew what would unfold, what it would yield.â Her voice wavered slightly. âAnd then, seeing the food grow ⦠It felt like a miracle, despite my anticipation.â
Carrackâs tone grew colder as he summarized, âSo, you spread the word, gathered a following around this object, a symbol of divinity ⦠your divinity, that terrifies you.â
âOf course it terrifies me,â she confessed. âIâve always been terrified of Magia. She embodies a power beyond explanation, a force that overshadows all. She demands our attention, our listening ears. Thatâs what Iâve been striving for, what Iâve dedicated myself to since embracing this faith. And now, Iâve not only heard her but seen her. She is everything and more, overwhelmingly so. And itâs terrifying.âShe placed her hand on Carrackâs thigh, meeting his gaze with an intensity that conveyed deep concern. âWasnât it?â she asked, her eyes searching his for affirmation or understanding.
Her hand was warm, the only source of warmth on his otherwise cold body. The touch was so soothing that it momentarily quelled the anxious shivers that had afflicted him since his encounter with the statue. Yet, this comfort also stirred an unsettling disquiet within him. Seeing her hand, bathed in its own glowing aura, touching him, and intertwining with his glow felt too personal, too intimateâa closeness he was not prepared to accept. Despite the initial relief her touch brought, an instinctive reaction made him jerk his leg away, leaving her hand suspended in mid-air. The fleeting comfort her touch had provided swiftly evaporated.
âI didnât see your God, I didnât see any God ⦠I donât know what I saw!â Carrack grunted in frustration. âBut what I do see now is this sickening glow, a lingering infection from whatever I went through.â
âItâs a sign of our blessed nature, of being touched by her,â Lady Matilda replied, only to be met with a humorless snort from Carrack.
âOh, so this is our âblessingâ?â he asked. âWhat about the rest of your followers? I havenât seen any other members of your congregation convulsing, half drown in mud, and starting to glow after they touched that damned statue.â
Lady Matilda sat in silence, her gaze fixed on the ground. The only sound accompanying the crackle of the fire was the nervous tapping of her finger against her lap. Her expression turned pensive, the bite on the inside of her cheek creating a noticeable indentation.
âWhat makes you so special?â Carrack demanded, his voice rising as he pointed a finger directly at her.
âWhat makes us special!â she retorted with a flash of frustration, quickly softening her voice. âWhat makes me âspecialâ, as you say, might be because ⦠Iâve had dealings with the arcane.â
Carrackâs mind raced, recalling the faint echoes of her shouting what now seemed like incantations. âYouâre a fucking mage?â he blurted out in disbelief. The revelation was startling; he had always thought Alaina was the islandâs sole mage. While he had considered the possibility of another hidden mage among them, being directly confronted with this reality was another matter entirely. A surge of anger flashed through him as he remembered their last personal encounter, particularly her denial of using magic on him. This new information cast that interaction, and her in general, in a drastically different light.
âSo much for your faith not practicing magic,â Carrack grumbled, recalling her offense at his previous accusation of using magic. âI should put you in chains. How do I know you havenât been using your abilities to manipulate others on this island? To draw them into your fold, or keep them under your influence against their will?â
âNever!â Lady Matilda stood up, incensed. âMy followers, my listeners, they are there of their own free will. Thereâs no force or magical influence involved. They choose to be part of the faith!â
âNever!â Carrack echoed back mockingly. âAnd why exactly would they willingly sit in that dreary chapel of yours, straining their ears for whispers from an absent God?â
âBecause theyâre mages too,â she retorted impulsively, then paused, softening her tone as she noticed Carrackâs widened eyes. âOr at least, they used to be. We all were.â
The revelation left Carrack momentarily breathless, his lungs failing to draw in air as shock overtook him. His eyes remained wide, his mind racing with countless questions, yet he found himself speechless, unable to articulate a single word. In the background, the crackling of the fireplace and Dr. Mortierâs cautious footsteps approaching to check on them filled the silence. Slowly, Carrack motioned toward the pile of books Lady Matilda had vacated, silently inviting her to sit back down.
Once she was seated again, Carrack fixed his gaze on her with a newfound intensity.
âTalk,â he commanded.