" You're gay?"
I look at Zac in disbelief. He did try and get it on last night and now he's confessing that he's gay. I don't have anything against gay people at all. I love them. They are human beings just like the rest of us, only with an interest in the same sex.
" Yes I'm gay." he confirms.
I look around me in search of cameras. This must be a joke. Any time now someone is going to jump out and laugh at my reaction which will lead up to me punching them for scaring the crap out of me.
" This doesn't make sense. Why did you - huh?" I say making no sense what so ever.
For someone who has nothing against gay people you clearly struggle to believe a guy when he's confessing that's he's gay.
It's different this time around okay. Why does my conscience hate me so much? Sheesh.
" Being gay doesn't go well around with the guys. No one knows. In order to keep my secret I have to keep up the act of a college dude with hormonal problems. Last night got a little out of hand when I had one too many drinks and I'm sorry it happened like that. I never intended for it to go down like that at all. I just get so frustrated at times because this secret is eating me up from inside. I know that isn't an excuse for my behavior but Ally I truly am sorry. " he apologizes.
I gulp. I don't know exactly how to respond to his confession. We barley know each other and he just told me his deepest secret that not even his brother knows of. My heart sinks a little for him. He's emotionally unstable from having to keep lying to everyone. The secret is making him question his identity instead of embracing it. It must be hard. Going around and pretending to be someone you aren't just to avoid what the society will say as soon as he comes out. We all have secrets and there is always a reason why it should stay a secret. I'm not saying what he did was reasonable but I get where he is coming from.
I don't say anything as I wrap my arms around him into a bone crushing hug. He tenses up and doesn't immediately hug me back but after a few seconds I feel his arms wrap around me.
" I'm here for you."
I feel him nod as I release my death grip on him and take a step back. I won't treat him different just because he plays for the same team but it does help me understand him more.
" Oh and Ally-"
" Don't worry. Your secret is safe with me. " I wink as I walk over to the passenger side of Tyler's car.
Zac mouths a quick thank you before he is off to his own car.
Once I close the door from Tyler's car I see him tense up from beside me. His grip on the wheel tightens and I see his knuckles turn white.
" Mind explaining why the fuck you just hugged the guy who tried to force himself on you last night?" Tyler spits.
I watch the other cars drive off but Tyler doesn't make a move to follow them. I sigh. I can't exactly tell Tyler that Zac is gay. I promised him I wouldn't spill his secret. I'm not that kind of person. I know Tyler won't take the new found friendship between me and Zac lightly due to what he has done to me.
" He apologized and I accepted his apology. I don't like holding grudges against people. YOLO." I say quickly, begging Tyler to drop the subject and drive off.
Tyler shakes his head in disbelief. Of course he wouldn't drop it.
" Stop being so damn naive and open your eyes Ally. " Tyler spits as he turns his head to look at me.
" What makes you think he's not going to pull a stunt like that again?" he asks.
Because he's gay.
I can't say that. Urg. Why does secrets complicate everything?
" I trust him. " I shrug.
Tyler laughs at my response as he shakes his head.
" You barley fucking know him. " Tyler chuckles.
He's now starting to piss me off.
" Just drop it Tyler. You're not my boyfriend. Stop acting like it." I spit as I fold my arms across my chest.
Tyler stays silent for a minute. I know what I said was rude and uncalled for but it's getting really hard explaining why I'm suddenly budy-budy with the guy who sexualy assaulted me mere hours ago.
" You're right. I'm not your boyfriend." Tyler agrees, his tone icy. Without looking at me he starts the engine and speeds off.
The car fills with an unsettling silence. I look out of the window at the passing objects trying to ignore the tension in the car. Soon enough we pull up into the parking lot of the fair. I see Emily and the rest of the group waiting near their cars probably waiting for us.
" Don't say I didn't warn you." Tyler scoffs as he climbs out of the door and slamming it shut loudly.
I don't know what shocked me the most. The loud slamming of his car door or the fact that he basically just quoted T-Swift.
So he watches Frozen and listens to T-Swift? Interesting.
I quickly climb out of the car and walk over to the group. Emily and Ashton are in a heated argument as the rest of the group try to busy themselves with light conversation. I feel like in this group alone is more drama than in a high school.
We all walk over to the entrance of the fair and buy our tickets for the rides and activities. I'm not a fan of hights so I'm staying clear of the roller-coasters etc.
" Death Trap let's go!" Mason yells as he points over to a roller-coaster near by.
Are you kidding me?
The ride literally has death in it's name. What sane person would risk their life on such a ride?
The people on the ride.
I look over and see that there is a long line forming near the ride. Everyone is looking super excited to experience their death sentance while I'm trying to get the shaking of my knees under control.
" I'm going to the bathroom." I try and say with confidence but it comes out high pitched.
" Oh no you're not." Emily argues as she pulls me by my wrist towards the ride. We all bought the premium pass that allows us to skip the line on any ride. Lucky me eh. Not.
Tyler looks over at me with worry laced in his eyes. He knows I don't like heights. He quickly covers it up with a blank expression as he climbs into his assigned seat. I understand he's upset with me and it's getting on my nerves. Seeing him so cold towards me makes my stomach flip. God only knows why.
" Buckle up." Mason smirks as he takes the seat next to me. The ride only has two seats placed next to each other. There are probably 10 pairs of chairs in the ride and he chose to sit beside me.
" If I vomit I'm aiming it at you."
Mason cringes at the thought and soon enough the ride starts moving forward. I say a quick prayer before closing my eyes.
The ride comes to a halt. Calm before the storm. Just as I open my one eye it leaps forward causing my organs to almost fly out of my mouth. I hear someone scream very loud and I'm about to shut the person up when I realize it's me who is screaming. Damn it.
The ride continues on going through loops and trying to dismember my limbs. I'm frozen on the spot as soon as the ride comes to an end. I try and get out but I have to hold onto Mason before my knees buckle out. I'm holing onto Mason. It's serious.
Mason swings his arm around my waist casually and if I wasn't near the point of passing out I would've kneed him. I'm grateful for the extra support and I really hate admitting it.
"You okay?" Zac asks as he steps towards me. Worry shows on his face as he takes me from Mason. It was a little tug of war going on between them two before Zac managed to rip me away.
" I don't do hights." I say shivering. It's not because it's cold but from the fact that I saw my life flashing before my eyes.
Zac laughs as he shrugs off his denim jacket and pulls it over my shoulders. He keeps his arm wrapped around my shoulders as we walk over to the group. I catch the death glare Tyler is sending my way but I ignore it.
Grow up already.
" Cotton candy!" Emily yells as she sprints over to the cotton candy cart. Ashton short on her tale.
" I don't think she needs more sugar." I laugh and everyone agrees.
We continue on going on a few more rides, luckily none that involved hight, before we all sat down for lunch. Soon after we finished lunch we figured that it'd be a good idea to head back home seeing as we all have early classes tomorrow.
We all bid our goodbyes and everyone heads off to their separate cars. I wanted to catch a lift with Emily and Ashton but Ashton is taking Emily on a date and it is in the opposite direction of campus. Mason offered to drop me but I quickly declined as I made a beeline for Tyler's car. I much rather prefer the tension between me and Tyler over Mason's company.
Tyler starts the engine and without so much as a glance at me he pulls out of the parking lot. I sigh loudly. I hate this tension. It's so unusual.
" Stop biting your lip." Tyler demands.
I'm biting my lip?
I release my bottom lip from my teeth and focus on the road ahead of us. I didn't even realize I was biting my lip. Am I nervous? I blame it on the tension.
Yeah right.
" Look I know what happened to your sister was horrible and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy but Zac-"
Tyler slams his right hand on the steering wheel causing me to jump from the shock.
" Stop making excuses for him." he spits out. His chest is rising and falling fast.
I roll my eyes. Can't get anything through his thick skul. Boys.
" I'm not. I just don't like this tension between us. I want to insult you without thinking about it and you being upset and all makes it a little difficult for me." I whine.
I watch Tyler's lips twitch. He wants to smile but he's trying his damn best to not give in.
" Is that a smile I see Anderson? " I dramatically gasp as I poke his cheek.
He lightly slaps my finger away as he chuckles. At least I got some positive response from him.
" You were really scared from that ride weren't you?" he whispers after a few minutes of silence.
I nod. Thinking back to the ride sends shivers down my spine. I never want to do something like that ever again.
" And you let Zac comfort you." Tyler adds.
Here we go again.
" You weren't exactly the comforting type at the moment." I reply.
Would I have let Tyler comfort me?
Yes you idiot. He's a sex God. My conscience is starting to sound like Emily.
" I'm sorry. I should have been there for you." he says after a short while.
His words caught me off guard. He should've been there for me?
" Why? It's not like I was giving birth. God you make it sound so dramatic. I'm fine." I sigh.
That came out wrong.
Tyler grips the steering wheel tighter and for the second time today his knuckles turn white.
" Just drop it." he mutters.
Back to the tension once again.
Soon enough we reach my building. Without thanking him I quickly jump out of the car and make a beeline for the entrance. I hear his car's wheels screech as he drives off.
Just as I thought things were fine between us.
He's definitely on his period.
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