OLIVIA POV I wake up feeling Raphael still holding me. I smile remembering last night. Raphael was the sweetest. I know he didnât mean what he said and when he got home I saw how much he was sorry. And then he showed me two times how much he was sorry. I canât complain.
He focused only on me, he didnât even let me suck him off. He wanted to please me, make me forget about the world. And well, he did it. I even forgot my name.
I get up to go to the bathroom and I can feel his arms getting tighter around me.
âWhere do you think youâre going?â - he asks me âItâs time to get upâ - I tell him âNot todayâ - he says pulling me back to bed. I let out a low scream and we both giggled as he places kisses on my neck.
âRaph we have to go to workâ
âNo, we donât. Iâm bringing Michael home todayâ - he says and my heart skips a beat. How could I have forgotten about that?
I started to feel nervous and my hands started to sweat.
âHey? You okay?â - Raphael asks as my breathing shifts.
âI... Iâm not ready to be a mother, I donât know anything yet. What if he hates me? What if he doesnât like me to take care of him?â
âHey, first of all, that baby is going to love you as if you were his biological mother. And Maria will be here to helpâ
I take a deep breath and nod my head. I turn around in bed now facing Raphael and his eyes scan my face.
I place a soft kiss on the tip of his nose and he smiles at me.
âWhat time are we going?â
âAround tenâ - he says and I look at the time on my clock that is standing on my bedside table and I see it is 7:30.
I close my eyes allowing my self to drift off into sleep again.
I think I am dreaming. But I canât open my eyes. I canât wake up. This is the worst.
I start walking. I donât know where I am. I donât recognise this street. I see Raphael at the end of the street looking at me. He is smiling at me I start walking towards him but the more I walk the further away he gets.
âRaphael?â - I call for him and he only looks at me. He doesnât reply.
âBabe?â - I call again.
I start looking around to see if there is another way to get to him. I canât seem to find another way and when I look back he is holding a baby.
He is smiling looking at the baby.
I smile looking at him so I place my hands on my stomach and I canât feel my tummy. I am not pregnant. What the fuck?
âBabe?â - I call and Raphael looks at me shaking his head.
âIs that our baby?â - I ask him.
âIt is mineâ - he says and I realise it is Michael.
âCan I hold him?â
âNoâ - he says with a painful look on his face.
âWhy not?â
âYou killed his mother, you are a killerâ - he says and I look at him shaking my head âI didnât do anythingâ - I say and thatâs when I see Tammy. She is standing next to Raphael. She is looking at both of them with so much love in her eyes that I give one step back.
Was it my fault? No. I didnât do anything. She was unbalanced. She was unstable. She was depressed.
I look at them again and I see Raphael kissing Tammy.
âNOâ - I scream at them and they look at me with a smile on their faces.
I try to get closer to them but I canât. And thatâs when I hear a voice that I recognise and panic takes over.
âYou will never be hisâ - I look around and I see Lucas. He is smiling offering me his hand.
âI am hisâ - I say âYou are mineâ - Lucas says taking one step closer. I take one step back and I am tarot against a wall.
âRaphaelâ - I call trying to get away from Lucas.
âYou belong togetherâ - Raphael says to me with a look in his face that Iâve never seen before.
âNo, donât get any closerâ - I say to Lucas.
âWhy are you running away from your future?â - I hear Michael. I look around looking for him and I find him standing next to Raphael and Tammy.
âMichael, help me please?â - I cry out loud âWhy would I do that?â
âYou are my friendâ - I say âYou never cared about me Olivia, stop filling yourselfâ
I let out a scream and my eyes open. I can barely breathe and I am sitting in the bed with Raphael sitting next to me shushing me and saying was just a bad dream.
âWas just a bad dreamâ - he says âYou hated meâ - I tell him.
âThat would never happen, that is impossible â - he tells me and I hug him while I cry.
I straddle him to be able to press my body against him and feel his warmth.
âTell me what happenedâ - Raphael says and I start telling him the horrible dream.
âWas just a bad dreamâ - he says - â I love youâ
I look deep into his eyes âPlease say it againâ
âI love you, Olivia Blackâ
â I love you tooâ - I say â I will never leave youâ - he says âDo you promise?â
âI promiseâ - Raphael says and I smile and take his lips on mine. His soft sweet lips. Sometimes I forget how lucky I am to have him by my side.
Hi everyone.
I am sorry about the short chapters but my baby is unwell and I am having almost no sleep. Still working 9 hours a day. I am sorry.
Tomorrow is my day off so I will try to write two chapters to update.
Stay safe Love Peyton