Chapter 52: Chapter 51 - The lie

Raphael POV I look at both Joseph and Michael and I nod, Olivia helps me sitting back in the chair and as my back meets the chair I flinch “Does it hurt?”

“A little, but I’ve had worse”

“Leave both of you” – I say looking at Joseph and Michael They both leave and Olivia kneels in front of me between my knees and hugs me tight. I look down at her and all I can do is grin. This woman is the most amazing woman I’ve ever met and I am never letting her go.

“Hey. Look at me” – I say and those beautiful green eyes focus on mine - “I’ve heard you’ve been busy”

– I say with a smirk on my face “Yeah, I thought you probably would need help running things, as you were in hospital and all” – she stops talking and looks at her hands – “I thought it was my fault so I didn’t want you losing money”

“It wasn’t your fault, I turned my back to someone with a gun, I was stupid” – I say “To look at me” – she says almost in a whisper.

“Hey, look at me” – I say putting two of my fingers under her chin making her look at me – “This was not your fault, I would dir for you, those months without you I was miserable” – I let out “I was too, I thought you didn’t want me, and when I got kidnapped all I could think was that you would never find me because you didn’t care anymore”

“I would look for you at the end of the world” – I say planting a soft kiss on her nose.

“Can I ask you something?”

“Sure you can”

“Who was the person I was visiting in the hospital?”

“I thought you might ask that” – I say – “He is my double”

“You have a double?” – she asks surprised “Yes, he usually goes to the public places I need to be seen when I am taking care of my other business”

“Oh. Don’t people realize he’s not you?”

“He doesn’t talk to anyone, he basically hooks up with some girl just to have an alibi” – I say “So, most of those women you appear in the magazines with?”

“Some of them was me, some of them was him when the photo is on my side or my back it’s usually him, if it’s me looking at the camera, then it’s me” – I say Olivia smiles “I know what you are thinking”

“No you don’t” – she says “You are thinking that I am not the playboy that the magazines and newspaper paint me to be, that I am not that bad, that I don’t use women” – I say and I look at her smile falling – “But I am”

Olivia stands up and starts pacing in front of me.

“Have you fucked anyone after we broke up?” – she asks with her face full of worry “Olivia, please” – I say “No, No, I need to know” – she says looking at me Shit, I think to myself, I can’t lie to her.

“Yes” – I say – “Have you?” – I ask “No” – she says – “How many?”

“Olivia, this conversation isn’t going to lead anywhere”

“Raphael, please, I need to know”

I take a deep breath and I stand up walking slowly to her. I put both my hands on her hips and pull her to me.

“I’m not going to answer that” – I say now bending myself so I can place a kiss on her neck “Stop that” – she says – “I want a number”

“None of them satisfied me as much as you did” – I say looking down into her eyes “Them so was more than one” – she says “Olivia, this conversation is ridiculous” – I say “No Raphael, this conversation is not ridiculous, I want a number, 5?”

“More” – I say “Okay, ten?”

“Olivia please”

“Answer me Raphael or help me God I will walk out of that door right now”

“You are being unreasonable”

“Oh Am I? – she asks “You are trying to pick a fight with me, something that I don’t want to do, I don’t want to fight with you”

“Give me a number”

“Fine, more than twenty, happy now?”

“You had sex with more than twenty women in a couple of months?”

“It wasn’t a couple, and I was upset, I needed to forget you, and I thought that having sex would help me”

“Okay” – she says walking away from me and starting to pace again. She is thinking and I am getting scared for the first time.

“Olivia, please, talk to me” – I say after a few minutes “Let me think” – she says “What are you thinking about?”

“Do you even care about me?”

“What are you talking about? Of course, I care about you”

“Do you really?”

“Are you insane? I took a bullet for you, I put my life on hold to find you, I couldn’t breathe without you”

– I say starting to get upset Olivia looks up at me with her eyes covered with tears and I feel my heart sinking. This is why I don’t do relationships, this feeling right here, he is breaking my heart.

“I am only going to ask this once Raphael”

“Okay”

“Do you love me?”

“No” – I lie I see the terror on her face, she is shocked about my answer and I walk towards her.

“I can’t say that I love you, but I can say that I can’t be without you, I can say that my life is boring without you”

“I fell for you” – she says with sadness in her voice “Olivia, I need you, but I don’t love you” – I lie again “Am I enough for you?” – she asks “You are more than enough, you are everything, can you stay?” – I ask “I need to think Raphael” – she says walking out of my bedroom. I know I lied to her, but I need her to stay because she wants me, not because I want her.

I am a prick I now, but the last time I told her I was falling for her, she told me to leave, so now I need to know if she is staying because she loves me. This might sound crazy to some people, but this is what I need to feel better about her.

I walk back to my desk in the corner of the bedroom and I start looking at paperwork when Joseph and Michael walk back in.

“How is she?” – I ask looking at Michael “She was crying, but I think she will be okay”

“What do you need?” – I ask looking at them both.

“The attack, it was the English with the Spanish” – Joseph says “You gave to be shitting me right now” – I say leaning back on my chair and flintching with the pain that goes up my back.

“Sorry boss, apparently the English have something that belongs to the Spanish and they are using it against them”

“Find out what is it. And does Julius know about this?”

“He was the one that provided the intel”

“Okay, I want a video conference with him, and I want everyone safe”

“Everyone got evacuated after the attack, we lost four of our men”

“Give their families money, I want them taken care of to the rest of their lives, give them my condolences, and show them we take care of our own”

“Already done boss” – Michael says “Anything else?” – I ask looking at them “No boss” – They both say at the same time.

“Good, now leave” – I say looking back at the papers in front of my eyes.

I pinch the bridge of my nose and then pass my fingers through my hair. I wonder how Olivia is, I honestly hope that she will stay, but if she wants to leave I know that it will be the end forever. For both of us”

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