Raphael POV TRIGGER WARNING.
THIS CHAPTER HAS SCENES THAT MIGHT TRIGGER SOME PEOPLE.
READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.
âWhat the fuck were you thinking of leaving Gabe alone?â - I shout at her âI wasnâtâ - she says and I let go of her when she starts crying.
âWhen will I see him?â - she asks and I shake my head âGo have a shower and sober up and then we will talkâ - I say and Alex walks to me and slaps my face.
Big mistake. Really big mistake.
I grab Alex my her arms and smash her against the wall. The head hits the wall and she moans in pain.
Her face goes pale as I can see fear appear in her eyes.
âI am sorryâ - she says while tears rolling down her face.
âYou are insane and thatâs not goodâ - I tell her âI am sorry please donât hurt meâ - she cries while my hand presses her body against the wall while I grab her by her neck.
âHow would you feel if anything had happened to Gabriel? What would you have said?â - I ask her with anger taking over my judgment.
âI am sorryâ - she cries âYou will beâ - I tell her letting go of her while she collapses on her knees.
âPleaseâ - she says and I couldnât give a flying fuck at the moment for how guilty she is feeling. I need her to understand how irresponsible this was. Not just for Gabe but herself as well.
I am letting my anger take over myself and I should explain to her. But I canât right now. Not with how worried I was for Gabe.
Someone couldâve kidnapped her. Made her hostage and demand something from us. They couldâve raped and abused her. They couldâve destroyed the person she is.
She sobs uncontrollably and I help her get up.
âGo sober upâ - I tell her and she starts trembling while she walks to her bedroom.
I take a deep breath while I sit on the sofa. My hands find their way to my hair while I brush it back with my fingers. I sit back and cross my legs thinking of her punishment. One thing is for sure, Gabe will never live with her ever again. He will be living with me under my supervision. She can visit as much as she wants. Thatâs when I hear a loud noise and I stand up grabbing my gun.
What the fuck. Zane walks in with his gun as well and we both walk deeper into the flat. Thatâs when we find Alex on the floor with her wrists bleeding.
What the fuck is with me and unstable woman.
âCall 911â - I say while I grab a towel and put pressure on her wrists.
âCome on Alexâ - I say while I hear Zane giving the instructions to 911.
âLook at meâ - I say and her eyes meet mine. I can see the life leaving her eyes.
âCome on Alex, you have to stay alive for Gabeâ - I say and she smiles âTell him mommy loves himâ - she says with a faint voice.
âYou will be able to tell him yourselfâ - I tell her. She gets on my nerves but I wouldnât kill her. Gabe needs her.
âHey, Hey eyes on meâ - I say as her eyes start to close.
âWhere the fuck is the ambulance?â - I ask Zane.
âThey are in their way bossâ - he says while he crosses his arms over his chest.
Alex closes her eyes.
âAlex look at me, come onâ - I say as I can see the towels covered in blood. She did a ducking good job. She knew what she was doing. A straight line going down her wrists. She is losing way too much blood.
Not long after the paramedics were walking into the bathroom but it was too late. I was holding her tight against my chest.
For the first time with Alex, I felt bad about how I reacted with her.
She killed her self because of me. I shouldâve been more patient with her.
âSir we need to move herâ - the paramedic says while I stand up.
Hi everyone.
Alex was a pain, but she didnât deserve this end.
If you ever struggle with your mental health talk to someone.
With this pandemic, everyone is struggling one way or another. Find help if you think you need.
More Monday.
Stay safe.
Love Peyton