Chapter 90

I grabbed Ethan’s wrist as he hesitated at my words and pulled it straight to my chest.

One of Lilith’s most notable features was her chest, which had been extremely uncomfortable to me ever since I became a woman.

I could never beat Ethan if it came down to strength, so now, when he was caught off guard and flustered, was the only time I could pull his hand.

At the same time, it was the only chance I had to use my body as the most efficient negotiation tool.

Squish.

“……!”

“H-hey….”

As soon as his right hand burrowed into my left breast, Ethan’s face turned red, showing a sign of embarrassment.

Indeed, it was effective.

After all, in the original story, Ethan was the first to sleep with Lilith, so it was only natural for him to feel sexual desire for my body as a man.

I didn’t intend to give up my virginity to preserve the power of the Saint, which I would awaken in the future.

Besides, I still had no intention of imagining a future where I was penetrated by a man.

…But to maintain my position as Ethan’s exclusive maid, offering my chest was a line I was willing to cross.

Anyway, it was a useless body part that couldn’t be used for anything other than seducing men. Therefore, using it efficiently was a better choice. [GalaxyTL/Axiomatic]

Using my chest didn’t mean I was open to losing my virginity or being penetrated by a man.

I couldn’t say it was entirely pleasant, but considering it was Ethan, this much was within my boundaries.

Of course, if Ethan demanded more than this, I would have no choice but to give up being his exclusive maid. But if allowing him to touch my chest could secure my position, it was a reasonable compromise.

…At least, that’s what I’m thinking at the moment.

“W-wait…! Maid….”

Squish.

“……!!”

I pulled Ethan’s hand deeper into my chest as he tried to withdraw it reflexively in panic.

Given the difference in strength, there was no way I could pull him in with both hands. It must be his hesitance and emotions preventing him from forcefully pulling his hand away.

Even if Ethan had only the average sexual desire of a typical young man, the feeling of Lilith’s chest would be a temptation hard to resist.

“…Young Master.”

“M-Maid….”

“Can you feel it? This chest that only I have, which Isabel does not.”

“Ah, I got it…. I understand what you’re saying, Maid….”

“It’s not just about Isabel. No matter which maid you bring from the mansion, it will be the same, young master. This is my most powerful advantage.”

“I-I knew that for a long time…!”

Among Isabel, Catherine, Ariana, or Alicia, none of the other maids’ chests could compare to Lilith’s. In this situation, Lilith’s chest became a more powerful weapon than anything else. It could prevent Ethan from thinking about replacing me with another maid entirely.

Still flustered, Ethan placed his hands on my chest over my maid  uniform, avoiding my gaze as his face turned red. I pulled his other hand as well, placing it on my chest.

Squish.

“M-Maid…!”

When I touched it alone, I didn’t feel anything special, so I thought it wouldn’t feel strange even if Ethan’s hand was on it. But as his hand rested on my chest, I began to feel an unexpected sensation.

It must be because it felt unfamiliar to have someone else’s hand there. It wasn’t because it was a man or Ethan specifically that made me feel this way.

Even so, I couldn’t stop at this point. Since I had already allowed Ethan my chest, I intended to get a definite answer.

“Young Master Ethan.”

“Maid….”

“Try clenching your fist once.”

“Uh…?”

“I’ve just offered you my chest, and you’re just awkwardly spreading your hands like a virgin?”

“…….”

Ethan was flustered, not knowing what to do.

But he couldn’t just withdraw his hands either, as they still rested on my chest.

I buried his hands deeper between the fatty tissue and asked him to squeeze my chest again.

“Young master. Are you going to keep embarrassing me?”

“Ah, no… that’s not it…”

“Or are you trying to say that this much is not enough?”

“What do you mean, Maid….”

“If you intend to continue hiring me as your exclusive maid, please listen to what I have to say without any other thoughts.”

“…Alright.”

In the end, with a serious expression, Ethan nodded, seemingly making up his mind. I moved his hands to both sides of my chest and silently waited for him to move.

As I waited, wondering if my heartbeat was being transmitted through my chest, a peculiar, indescribable sensation arose from the fatty tissue at the front of my body.

His hands moved cautiously as if not wanting to hurt me.

…And for some reason, a girlish moan unexpectedly escaped my lips.

Ethan had only touched my chest two or three times, yet the sound that came out surprised even me. More shocked than I was, Ethan quickly pulled his hand away from my chest, releasing my grasp.

“……”

“……”

We made eye contact, but an awkward silence followed without any conversation.

Was this enough, did I do what I needed to?

Ethan probably thought he had touched enough and decided to pull his hand away. He had to think that way.

…Because I, too, didn’t want to allow his touch on my chest any longer.

For some reason, if I let Ethan continue to touch my chest, an indescribable and unbearable emotion would have arisen.

“Do you understand now?”

“……”

“If you make me your exclusive maid, I might allow this much, occasionally….”

“Maid, stop it.”

“…What?”

“I think you’re still misunderstanding something about the conversation between Isabel and me, so let’s clarify it first.”

“…What?”

…A misunderstanding?

You’re saying I’m misunderstanding something?

“To prevent any further confusion, let me start by saying that I never proposed to Isabel that she should be my exclusive maid.”

“…What? But I clearly heard that Isabel received a proposal to become a dedicated maid….”

“The proposal I made to Isabel was for her to become your dedicated maid, Lilith.”

“…My dedicated maid?”@@novelbin@@

Realizing something was off, I remained seated and listened to Ethan’s explanation. Only after hearing his full explanation did I realize that I had completely misunderstood the situation from the start.

Ethan’s proposal to Isabel was to appoint her as my exclusive maid when I would become a viscount’s daughter. That role was intended to assist me with tasks I couldn’t handle while attending the academy as a student.

“…So, you never intended to replace me with Isabel as your exclusive maid….”

“I told you from the beginning that it was a misunderstanding, Maid. Why would I replace you, Lilith, with another maid as my exclusive maid?”

“But you made a suggestion that hurt my pride….”

“I thought you’d be upset because I asked Isabel to assist you, as it might seem like I hired someone else because you weren’t doing your duties properly.”

“That’s….”

“I would be more than grateful if you continue to be my exclusive maid, Lilith. …In fact, I was quite happy when you offered to remain my exclusive maid even after I said you’d become a lower-ranked noblewoman.”

“……”

“I was worried that your experience as my exclusive maid during your time at the academy might burden you… but it turns out that worry only made you anxious.”

…It was all a misunderstanding?

The fact that Ethan intended to make Isabel his exclusive maid…

…the fact that I hadn’t fulfilled my duties as his maid properly for the past three years…

…and the fact that Ethan was looking for an opportunity to dismiss me from the position of his exclusive maid—all of it was a misunderstanding?

‘…Then why did I let Ethan touch my chest?’ (T/N: I’m asking the same question!!)

I rushed into Ethan’s room, apologizing, and prostrated myself on the floor.

I grabbed Ethan’s wrist and pulled it to my chest to clear up the misunderstanding.

I even told him to touch my chest; what was the reason for all this?

‘Exclusive maid or not, I’m just a crazy pervert….’

“Ah, aaahhh!”

“M-Maid?!”

“Haaa, haaa, haaa, haaa….”

An embarrassing emotion, unlike any I had felt before, surged through my chest, making my heart pound wildly.

I couldn’t even bear to look at Ethan’s face, which I had been staring at moments ago.

I felt overwhelming shame at myself for misunderstanding, rushing ahead, and proposing a weird and perverted solution on my own.

“Ahhh! Ahhhhh!!”

“M-Maid! Calm down! I can understand why you might have had such a misunderstanding!”

“Please forget this….”

“…What?”

“Please forget this, Young Master Ethan… If you can’t forget this shameful incident, I can’t continue to be your exclusive maid….”

“Ah, okay! I’ll forget it! I’ll erase everything Lilith did today from my memory!”

“Haaa, haaa, haaa, haaa….”

…He says he’ll forget, but there’s no way he can. If I were in Ethan’s shoes, this would be an unforgettable scene.

A maid who has served him for over three years suddenly prostrated herself and offered her chest, begging not to be dismissed. [GalaxyTL/Axiomatic]

There’s no way Ethan, being a man, could forget such a sight.

To endure the current shame, I could only pretend that Ethan would forget everything.

“Thank you….”

“It’s best if you take a rest today, Maid! Calm your… heart, I mean, your mind first!”

“Yes….”

“Alright. Go rest, Maid.”

“I will withdraw now.”

In the end, I created the worst kind of dark history with this incident, and with heavy steps, I had to reflect on a valuable lesson:

…When having a conversation, always listen carefully to what the other person is saying until the end.