i just remember feeling she was perfect.
the most perfect person. and that maybe
just
maybe
i had a chance with this perfect person
i fought for her attention
and received teasings
and i fought her approval
and received perfect love
but
no perfect love is healthy
and i truly gave her
every part of myself.
every part of myself
that i could scrape out of the bottom and throw into her greedy hands
just because i
needed
her praise
and i fed off of making her happy
i stopped caring
if there was anything left for myself
at the end of the day,
because she had all of me
and that's all that mattered.
but what sucked the most
was feeling
like even after all of this
was that i was
never enough
for her.
and i never
want to give all of myself
to someone
who makes me feel like
i'm not enough,
again.