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"Why did you kiss me," I ask, my voice softening.
Looking down at his shoes like they're the most interesting thing in the world he answers, "I-I don't know. I guess I just really wanted to. I've been having these... these thoughts for a while now. I mean not just about you, but other guys. I mean, well you mostly, but I don't know. Everything is so confusing. I know I like girls, I just... I- I think I like boys also. God that sounds so weird saying out loud!" All I could do was just stare dumbfounded at him. I wasn't really expecting him to actually tell me. He probably has been holding this in for a long time and just needed to get it off his chest. So, is he bisexual?
Hesitantly, I take my hand and grip his chin, forcing him to look up at me. "Listen, everything will be okay."
He visibly clenched his jaw, but then he looked down at my lips again. He's staring directly at them and my stomach is doing that so many summersaults it could join the Olympic gymnastic team.
I pull his chin closer to mine, making our lips meet. I drop my hands on his shoulders. Eli wraps his arms around my back, drawing me closer. Our tongues gliding together, him taking dominance. I hear a slight moan escape from Eli's mouth, which obviously turns me on. He pushes me back onto my bed: him on top. He slips his knee in between my legs, grinding on me. My hands find their way into his hair. I want to continue but Danni's heavy footsteps stop us abruptly.
Eli climbs off of me, fixing his shirt. He clears his throat and picks up the DVD, leaving my room.
I sit there stunned. I can hear Eli and Danni talking from outside the door. Did I just cheat with Eli. Again. God, I groan, falling back on my bed.
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It's about 2:00 am. Eli's sleeping over. We literally just kissed a couple hours ago and now he's probably off kissing my sister, Danni.
I hear a knock on my door.
Eli's body walks into my room. I can see him a little nervous. "Hey," he whispers. He clears his throat hearing how coarse it is. "Can we talk?"
I nod. Eli closes the door. Maybe we can have a nice talk.
I stand up and walk over to him. My hand falls to his wrist.
"Eli," I whisper close to his ear.
He whips away from me. "I can't. I just... I can't." His voice goes to a soft whisper. Eli looks me in the eye. Sorrow fills his brown eyes as he slowly turns away from me and out the door.
So much for having a nice talk.
My phone vibrates beside me. I pick it up.
*Babe I need to talk. I'll be at your house in 10* ~ Jade.
It's 2:00 in the morning, why isn't she sleeping.
No matter what she's coming over for I'm still thinking about Eli. My heart physically hurts just from the thought of him. It's so simple to have him but not easy. My chest is tight with the memory of his lips on mine still at play.
A few minutes go by then I hear my doorbell. I rush down the stairs, skipping a few like I did once I was a child. I open the door to a sad looking Jade and Robbie holding her close. I can tell Jade's deeply upset right now.
"What, did Supernatural get canceled?" I said to try and cheer her up, make her laugh but I just got crickets.
I motion them to come upstairs to the privacy of my room.
We all take seats somewhere in my room.
Jade tries to speak but she's shaken. She starts again, "I don't know how to tell you this. A-And it's not that you won't be my friends or judge me. I know that you won't but. I just. It's hard. I like girls. Specifically one. Rebecca. But that's not even the gist of it. She likes me too, so I thought, tell my parents first and then slowly come out to everyone else but, my parents-" Jade starts to uncontrollably cry. Oh my.
Robbie and I both race over to Jade, trying to soothe her.
Robbie speaks quietly, "They weren't exactly excepting were they?"
Jade just shakes her head, making her tears fall at an even faster rate.
I push her long brown hair out of her face. I try to dry my tears with my thumb but more kept falling.
"Shhh," I speak in a hushed voice pressing my head against hers. "We're here for you."
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Once Jade calmed down last night she told us the story of how her parents flipped out on her. They freaked out yelling how horrible this is and where did they go wrong. She tried explaining to them that it wasn't their fault and she was born that way. They threatened to send her to some sort of straight camp so Jade just stormed out the door and came right to my house. She also picked up Robbie on the way so she could tell us both. I feel so bad for her. I'm so lucky at how accepting my parents are and I never knew how lucky I was until last night.
Jade and Robbie both ended up staying the night. I don't really think it was on purpose but it just kind of happened.
My mom opens my door and sees my friends.
"Oh!" She pauses, "Were they here before or am I just getting old?"
All of us are up even though we didn't go to sleep well past 5.
I smirk at my mom, "Put two more plates for breakfast this morning."
I push her out the door but she still looks confused, "Bu-"
I chuckle, then sigh remembering Eli's down there. With my sister. She's such a bitch, why does he have to love her and not me. He's supposed to be my Prince Charming. Prince Charming's not supposed to go for the wicked witch. I groan.
"What's wrong with you," Robbie asks.
"Eli slept over."
Jade and Robbie both form and 'O' shape with their mouth.
"What happened?" Jade questioned.
I just waved the question away. I didn't feel like being interrogated today.
We walk downstairs and I can see my dad, mom, Danni, and Eli already seated.
My friends and I all sit down. I'm not exactly happy but one thing that can cheer me up is my moms pancakes.
"Mom I know this is going to sound weird but your pancakes are orgasmic," I say with a smile as she puts pancakes on my plate.
She smiles and I hear Eli chuckle. I look up at his smile but once he sees my looking his smile fades. I look over and see Danni glaring at me.
Jesus, if looks could kill.
Jade's phone starts to ring.
"Excuse me," she says getting up to go take the call. It's probably her parents. Fuck, I feel so weak. Like I can't do anything to help her and that's all I want to do. Is help.
My dad is the first to strike up conversation, "So there's a new ride at the amusement park. It's really big and it's called Cupid's Love. You're supposed to go with your girlfriend or boyfriend. You guys gonna go check it out this afternoon?"
"Ugh I don't know, that sounds a little bit too aggressively heterosexual for me. I'll pass," I say.
"You're crazy, all those lonely people there, being sad that they don't have anyone to go with. They'll be in desperate need for a partner and I'll be there," Robbie says with a wide grin.
I'm not gonna lie, that plan does sound good and Robbie no doubt will be getting laid tonight. Robbie is extremely hot so that helps also.
My dad laughs, "Haha alright, what about you guys?" My dad is referring to Danni and Eli.
Danni smiles brightly, "I'd love to go. What about you hon bun?"
Eli looks over to me, longing on his expression.
"Can't." He says hanging his head low, playing with his food.
Danni looks confused for a second. Then anger replaces her confusion and red fills her features. "We're going. And that's final." Eli doesn't look phased at this sudden out burst but everyone else is.
"I've got to go," he says getting up. "Thanks Mr. and Mrs. Eman for the breakfast."
Jade comes back into the room right after Eli's exit. I can see new tears have formed, "My parents just kicked me out."
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(A/N) IM SO SO SO SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING IN FOREVER!!!
I've had the worse case of writers block and I've also been working on other stuff. Also I don't want to work on my books if I'm not 100% committed to it at the time. And I just wasn't feeling the book but then I got my enthusiasm back so get prepared for more updates. Much love for reading. Vote, comment, share.
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-Emily